AN: Oh my gosh guys, I feel so horrible! I am supposed to get review alerts from fan fic dot net when I get a review and so I got one. Only one, when there were more reveiws than that. I was mad cause I thought no one was reading or reviewing so I neglected to make the chappys I had typed better. Instead I put it off forever…I'm so sorry! On the other hand (you have different fingers..) I have been at war with ff.net for weeks and why did I just trust it? I don't know…stupid site! On to the chappy!

Cayte woke with a sharp breath. Sitting up in bed, she looked around. All she saw was darkness. Black. "This is just like the dream," she thought, pulling her knees up to her chest. Her breathing was sharp and loud. She was terrified and all she could see was the darkness. It took her a few minutes to realize that she had the curtains drawn in her bed, and it took another five minutes for her to work up the courage to open them.

When she finally did, she let out a small cry of joy, there was a candle lit and she knew she was in her bedroom at home. She had had this nightmare before. Total Darkness. It had happened when she was uncomfortable, missed someone, or she was in unfamiliar surroundings. But those were only the times she had thought about it, and she had no idea what it could be about this time.

She got up wondering what to do, knowing she wouldn't sleep again that night. Sitting down at her desk she pulled out a piece of muggle paper and a ball point pen. She put the pen to paper and just let her thoughts go to the page. "Stream of consciousness. Always the best way to write," she thought to herself as she started to write. Once she had almost filled a page front and back, she stopped and read it over.

"I had the dream again. I always forget just how scary it is. It's all so strange too. I mean, I can't get to sleep unless I have total darkness, and yet the one nightmare that I have when I have one, is of total darkness. It's all it is. Black. I can't see, I can't move. I can't do anything. I just sit.

The last time I remember having it was…when I moved here. I missed Jack. I still do really. I just don't let it show anymore. I've learned to hide things. I still suck at it, Sirius can read me like a book. Except for where Jack is concerned. I haven't told him about Jack. How could I? How do you explain something like that? Someone like that. It would be so hard. And I guess I should tell him. It's part of my life, and it's something he should know. If for nothing else so that he understands why I can't just up and…How do I do it…"

The next time Cayte woke up it was to birds chirping and sunshine filtering through her windows. She lifted her head to see where she was and saw the letter. Looking around she noticed the ink pen on the floor, her clock read 11 am. She quickly got dressed and went down stairs, smelling fresh coffee, and seeing her mother reading a book in the living room.

~*~ Flashback ~*~

Cayte, Sirius, James, Lily, Peter, and Remus were sitting at the Gryffindor table for breakfast as the owls arrived. It was about a week before break started and they were all excited to be able to just hang out around the castle with out any classes to go to. Cayte glanced up and noticed her mothers owl heading towards her.

Cayte,

Your father will be out of town while on break. I want you yo come home. I have off that week so we can do some stuff.

Mom

~*~ end flashback ~*~

Cayte's mom looked up and smiled. "I made coffee for you. Glad your finally awake!" Cayte sat down with a cup of coffee and read a letter that had just arrived for her. It was from Sirius. This was the first day of break and the second letter she had gotten from him.

Cayte,

I'm going to see Cassie today. Dumbledore gave me permission, so I'm meeting my parents there. Should have about and hour alone with her. S'pose I'll be writing you then too. James says hello, as do Lily and the rest of the gang. We all miss your constant musical lyrics to go along with what we all say. I miss them most of all, but more than that I miss you. I find myself sitting down and holding pillows wishing the pillow was you. Dumbledore said the train to St. Mungo's was leaving soon, so I gotta run!

Sirius

Cayte smiled. She was glad he was going to see his sister as she could tell he missed her. After taking a shower and getting dressed, she headed back downstairs and sat down French braiding her hair in pigtails.

"I've got a surprise for you!" her mom said, "Come one, we've got to hurry. Get on my broom!"

Cayte looked a bit curious but figured whatever it was, it would be good. She walked outside thinking to herself, 'odd. A minute ago my clothes were not where they were supposed to be, most of them gone, and now were going somewhere on a broom? Oh well…'

A few hours later they landed and Cayte realized where she was. America. Pecan Rose to be exact. It was her old school. She looked up and noticed a mock game of Quidditch going on above her. She turned to her mom excitedly, "THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!" she screamed while running up to the old antebellum house that was the school building. Opening the doors she ran inside and up a set of stairs, ('Thank G-d they aren't moving!') towards her old dorms. She reached a platform and turned to go up another flight of stairs but ran into a tall and solid object. Or tall and solid person rather. Looking up she mumbled words of apology then her eyes got wide. "JACK?!" she screeched at the same time the figure yelled, "CAYTE?!?"

The tall boy had dark curly brown hair, almost black, and a naturally tanned skin with deep brown eyes. He picked her up, swinging her around in the air while ignoring the clicking sound he kept hearing. The two of them were laughing and smiling to no end, happy to see each other. He set her down and looked at her, smiling so big that it hurt. "I missed you so much!" he decided that he hadn't hugged her enough yet and slipped his arms around her again. It was the only way he could find to express what he was feeling, the body language, and he knew that Cayte would understand. She was the same way, communicated through body language. He had observed he enough to know that it was only with him that she did that, and he figured that it was just the way they were. He never saw her pick up other guys' hands and play with them only saw her smile and laugh.

"Don't you think you've hugged her enough Jack?" Mrs. Black said, smiling and walking towards the two of them. Jack smiled, "MOM!- and no, I could never hug Cayte enough." Cayte smiled, remembering the name he chose to call her mother. Jack and her mom were as good as friends as she and Jack were, and seeing as he didn't know his mom, he chose to call her mom. After all, all of Cayte's friends in America wanted her mom as theirs.

Jack nodded his head towards their old dorms, "Come on Cayte, lets go to the dorms. Hang out ya know?" Cayte followed eagerly as her mom told her that she had to meet with the headmaster, and that she had something planned for them to do later. They went up to the dorm and Cayte was reunited with all of her old friends, and a few of her old enemies. After awhile she decided to write Sirius:

Siri Babe,

Mom took me to America! My old school even! And Jack is here!! You don't know about Jack, he's the guy in the picture I'm sending. He's one of my best friends here…I've missed him so much it's crazy! How's Cassie? Hope I can meet her soon…back to Pecan Rose…Wow, I forgot how great it was here. I mean, don't get me wrong, Hogwarts rocks, but there is absolutely nothing like what one person finds here. It's so peaceful most of the time. Sure, there's the occasional disruption, but the staircases stay in place and there's no squid in the lake here. hell, there's no lake here. But oh well

Jack…How do you explain Jack? You don't. That's all I can actually say about it. He's so great, treats me just like any wonderful friend should. People –yet again- seem to think we are going out…what is it with them? And I tell them all about you, the wonderful boyfriend I have at home. Funny, I call Hogwarts home now. Home. What is home? I used to think it was where I had a friend to wake me up every morning and a hug before I went to bed at night. At least that's what Pecan Rose was to me. It was so wonderful here. Well most of it anyway…Ah, so I gotta run, Jack wants to take me somewhere before Mom does. She's planned a surprise!!

Love ya!

Cayte

Cayte slipped the picture of her and Jack her mom had taken into the envelope that she tied onto an owls leg. She watched it fly out of the window as she felt a hand at her waist. Turning around, she smiled big, it was Jack, always there, always perfect. She reached up and gave him a hug, he leaned in and whispered, "I love you". Cayte smiled, "Love you too Jack…Love you too!"

AN: Well freak! I lost all inspiration to write. Let alone time. I have had NO time what so ever to do ANYTHING at all and that doesn't include writing. So here I am, updating again. Thank Forensicfreak14. She started to read my fic and getting me to talk about it. Please review….I need the encouragement…