Chapter 5: True Love Hurts
When Lizzie walked into the Digital Bean she saw Gordo sitting at a table in a corner without noticing Miranda sitting next to him. "Hey, Gordo," she said smiling sweetly, their eyes never leaving eachothers gaze. Miranda cleared her throat loudly and Lizzie turned around, "Oh, hey, Miranda, I didn't see you there," she replied sitting down. "Ahuh," she said nodding. Lizzie knew what she was thinking, she was thinking about their conversation on the computer earlier. "So, Lizzie," Gordo stammered, "You look nice." *What is he talking about? I wore the same thing to school,* she thought. "Uhh, thanks, I think." she replied, "you look nice too." *Now what am I talking about?*
"Lizzie, can I talk to you for a minute," Miranda said grabbing Lizzie's arm and dragging her off to another corner. "Did you think about it?" she asked. "About what?" Lizzie replied, trying to play stupid. Miranda rolled her eyes, "You know what I'm talking about. Did something happen between you two earlier? I mean, you two have flirted like this before." Lizzie gapped at her, "Miranda! We are not flirting!" Miranda put her hands on Lizzie's shoulder and getly shook her as she spoke, "Lizzie, it's okay, you're in denial. But you still haven't answered my first question. Did anything happen between you two earlier?" she repeated the last question slowly as if she might not understand it.
"Well, Gordo walked me home, and then, and then-" she took a deep breath, "Ialmostkissedhim."
"Lizzie can you repeat that? THis time more slowly." Miranda said. "I almost kissed him," she replied barly above a whisper. Lizzie was afraid that at that moment Miranda was going to die of shock. She just stood there open mouthed, staring at her. "Ah, Miranda?" she said waving her hand in her shocked freind face. "You almost kissed him!" she said coming out of her strance and shaking Lizzie even more violently, "You almost Kissed him! OUr best freind! What are we going to do? You almost kissed Gordo! Now what? You two are going to get married and have fifty kids and what am I going to be? A footnote in the book of your life! You guys are going to forget about me and I'll be all alone. No one to talk to, no one to hang out with, no one to-"
"Miranda! Calm down! It's no big deal! I didn't even kiss him! So snap out of it!" she said finally fed up with her psychotic freind, "Breath in, breath out, good girl."
Miranda finally got herself under control a decided to ask her one more question, "Do you love him?" she asked seriously. Lizzie sighed, "How can I tell?"
"When he smiles at you, how do you feel?"
"Like I could melt."
"When you touch him how do you feel?"
"Tingling and light headed."
"How often do you think of him?"
"He's in my thoughts and in my dreams all the time."
"When you're with him, how do you feel?"
"Like I could fly."
"You've got it bad, Chica."
Lizzie sighed, "I guess I do, don't I?" Miranda nodded, "How long have you felt this way?"
"You have no idea how long," she could feel the tears forming in her eyes, "Do you know how much it hurt when we saw Gordo at the Digital Bean kissing Brooke, or when he wanted to go to the dance with Parker or when he had that crush on Andie? If it wasn't for that I might not have yelled at Andie the way I did when she was at my house with MY Gordo. I was jealous Miranda!" The tears began to flow silently down her cheeks, "Do you think he feels the same?" Lizzie asked. "Miranda what if he doesn't? It could ruin our freindship forever and I couldn't stand. I have to be near him, and if that means not telling him so it doesn't risk our freindship then that's fine with me," the tears flowed more rapidly, "Miranda, I can't stand to live without him."
Miranda hugged her freind trying to comfort her, "Do you want me to talk to him? I swear I won't tell him anything," she said handing Lizzie a tissue. After a few minutes, Lizzie finally calmed down and ,they went to sit back down. "What took you guys so long?" Gordo asked, then he spotted Lizzie's tear stained face, What's wrong?" he said placing a comforting arm around her. Again the tears began to flow and she buried her face in his chest. He scooted closer to her and held her in his arms. A warmth swept over her and she felt as if nothing else existed as she sat there in his arms. Right at that moment, nothing else mattered, nothing except that she was there with Gordo. Nothing else mattered.
When Lizzie walked into the Digital Bean she saw Gordo sitting at a table in a corner without noticing Miranda sitting next to him. "Hey, Gordo," she said smiling sweetly, their eyes never leaving eachothers gaze. Miranda cleared her throat loudly and Lizzie turned around, "Oh, hey, Miranda, I didn't see you there," she replied sitting down. "Ahuh," she said nodding. Lizzie knew what she was thinking, she was thinking about their conversation on the computer earlier. "So, Lizzie," Gordo stammered, "You look nice." *What is he talking about? I wore the same thing to school,* she thought. "Uhh, thanks, I think." she replied, "you look nice too." *Now what am I talking about?*
"Lizzie, can I talk to you for a minute," Miranda said grabbing Lizzie's arm and dragging her off to another corner. "Did you think about it?" she asked. "About what?" Lizzie replied, trying to play stupid. Miranda rolled her eyes, "You know what I'm talking about. Did something happen between you two earlier? I mean, you two have flirted like this before." Lizzie gapped at her, "Miranda! We are not flirting!" Miranda put her hands on Lizzie's shoulder and getly shook her as she spoke, "Lizzie, it's okay, you're in denial. But you still haven't answered my first question. Did anything happen between you two earlier?" she repeated the last question slowly as if she might not understand it.
"Well, Gordo walked me home, and then, and then-" she took a deep breath, "Ialmostkissedhim."
"Lizzie can you repeat that? THis time more slowly." Miranda said. "I almost kissed him," she replied barly above a whisper. Lizzie was afraid that at that moment Miranda was going to die of shock. She just stood there open mouthed, staring at her. "Ah, Miranda?" she said waving her hand in her shocked freind face. "You almost kissed him!" she said coming out of her strance and shaking Lizzie even more violently, "You almost Kissed him! OUr best freind! What are we going to do? You almost kissed Gordo! Now what? You two are going to get married and have fifty kids and what am I going to be? A footnote in the book of your life! You guys are going to forget about me and I'll be all alone. No one to talk to, no one to hang out with, no one to-"
"Miranda! Calm down! It's no big deal! I didn't even kiss him! So snap out of it!" she said finally fed up with her psychotic freind, "Breath in, breath out, good girl."
Miranda finally got herself under control a decided to ask her one more question, "Do you love him?" she asked seriously. Lizzie sighed, "How can I tell?"
"When he smiles at you, how do you feel?"
"Like I could melt."
"When you touch him how do you feel?"
"Tingling and light headed."
"How often do you think of him?"
"He's in my thoughts and in my dreams all the time."
"When you're with him, how do you feel?"
"Like I could fly."
"You've got it bad, Chica."
Lizzie sighed, "I guess I do, don't I?" Miranda nodded, "How long have you felt this way?"
"You have no idea how long," she could feel the tears forming in her eyes, "Do you know how much it hurt when we saw Gordo at the Digital Bean kissing Brooke, or when he wanted to go to the dance with Parker or when he had that crush on Andie? If it wasn't for that I might not have yelled at Andie the way I did when she was at my house with MY Gordo. I was jealous Miranda!" The tears began to flow silently down her cheeks, "Do you think he feels the same?" Lizzie asked. "Miranda what if he doesn't? It could ruin our freindship forever and I couldn't stand. I have to be near him, and if that means not telling him so it doesn't risk our freindship then that's fine with me," the tears flowed more rapidly, "Miranda, I can't stand to live without him."
Miranda hugged her freind trying to comfort her, "Do you want me to talk to him? I swear I won't tell him anything," she said handing Lizzie a tissue. After a few minutes, Lizzie finally calmed down and ,they went to sit back down. "What took you guys so long?" Gordo asked, then he spotted Lizzie's tear stained face, What's wrong?" he said placing a comforting arm around her. Again the tears began to flow and she buried her face in his chest. He scooted closer to her and held her in his arms. A warmth swept over her and she felt as if nothing else existed as she sat there in his arms. Right at that moment, nothing else mattered, nothing except that she was there with Gordo. Nothing else mattered.