Chapter 15: Stealing Kisses
Buffy entered the Bronze, looking around until she saw here friends and hurried to join them. She slid in beside Willow, muttering a hello. She was feeling so great, Spike had been gone when she woke up that afternoon, and although she understood why that was, she didn't like it, didn't like the feelings it caused. She didn't know what was going to happen, they had agreed they didn't want to hurt the people they were with but what did that mean for them? The way she saw it, it meant that they either kept sneaking about or they stopped seeing each other in any capacity and she honestly didn't think she could do that.
Willow noticed something wrong in her friend straight away. She was different from the excited girl she had been speaking too just hours before. And she didn't know why. But she had a feeling that it might involve Spike in some way. She decided that as Buffy's best friend it was her job to find out what was wrong and do what she could to help her. So after whispering to Xander to go and get drinks and snacks, she started trying to get her friend to open up.
"Buffy what's wrong?" her question was curt and to the point, sometimes that was the best way.
"Nothing." she replied, Willow however could see clearly in her eyes that she was lying. So she put the look on her face that meant Buffy had to tell her the truth and looked Buffy straight in the eye.
"Buffy, this is my resolve face. Now I want to know what is wrong with you and do not lie to me." it was an order. Willow, although normally timid, wasn't always so when something was wrong with her friends.
Buffy sighed looking away, not able to bear the look in her eyes when she told her "It's Spike."
"Well I guessed that much already," Willow told her "But what's it about."
"I slept with him." she said softly.
"You did?" Willow exclaimed, this had not been what she had expected.
"Twice." Buffy's voice was now barely a whisper. She dared to look at her friend and the look she saw was not the one she thought she would see. It was confusion but understanding at the same time.
"Buffy, tell me," Willow prompted "let me help you."
Buffy nodded "The first time was last week, after our final tutoring session, I had an argument with Angel about drugs and Spike and I spent the whole session talking, he promised he would help me through it that day in the hospital and he stuck to that promise. So we left and I don't know, I just I kissed him. It just felt so right, we ended up in the alley behind the coffee house." Buffy stopped as soon as she heard the gasp escape Willow's lips, she saw her friend's wide eyes and regretted saying anything. Willow instantly saw Buffy about to retreat back into herself and reached out putting a hand on her arm.
"No Buffy, don't s.top there. I'm sorry I was just surprised but I'm okay with it. Tell me. I'll be ok with it."
Buffy breathed a sigh of relief and continued "So after that we didn't see each other until today, he drove me home and I invited him in to find out how I did in my finals with me and mom. Well mom wasn't there, she left a note saying she had gone to run errands and I couldn't wait to find out so I opened them. I was so excited that without thinking I hugged him, and then that led to us kissing which led to us sleeping together this afternoon." she finished confiding what had happened to Willow. She went quiet again hoping Willow would just let it go but she didn't.
"Buffy, do you still love Spike?" she asked.
"Yes." Buffy choked out, trying to hold back the tears that were forming behind her eyes.
"Does he love you?"
"He says he does, but neither of us want to hurt the people we're seeing because we do care about them." Her reply was honest but her uncertainty showed through it.
"Buffy, I think you and Spike have to decide what you want." she made this her last comment on the subject as she saw Xander coming back, with two new people in tow.
"Hey, look who I found." he announced as he placed the drinks on the table, motioning with his head to Spike and Drusilla.
Buffy' heart skipped a beat when she saw him, but she was also hurt to see him hold on to Drusilla's hand.
"Hi Spike," she greeted "Drusilla."
"Hi." he replied. Drusilla didn't acknowledge her. She let go of Spike's hand so that he could pull up a chair, sliding in beside Buffy so that he couldn't. Spike noticed this and it annoyed him slightly, but then thought it was probably for the best.
As he took his seat he asked "So did Buffy tell you guys her good news?"
Xander shook his head in the negative "What news Buff?"
Buffy blushed slightly "My finals." she looked over at Spike who smiled proudly back at her "I passed them all. I got 4 A's a B and a C."
A cheer went round the table from her friends, Drusilla stayed quiet, watching the display and loathing the look on Spike's face. Spike was hers.
"That is so great Buffy." Willow was excited and glad for her friend she knew how hard she had been working "What did your mom say?"
"She was ecstatic to say the least," Buffy grinned "she was more excited than Spike and I were if that was possible." she cringed at the slip of the tongue. She once again looked at Spike and saw the surprised look he wore. She mouthed a sorry to him.
"Well, of course you were both excited, you two worked together to get you those grades and it paid off. You both put a lot of effort in." Buffy could have hugged Willow for saving her like that.
"Yeah red," Spike spoke up "but really it was all down to Buffy, she just had to believe in herself."
"Thank you." she said to him "So, who's going to dance with me, by way of congratulations?" she questioned.
"I will." Spike said perhaps a little too eagerly, ignoring the look Drusilla gave her Buffy stood up and allowed Spike to lead her to the dance floor. As they got there the song "My Immortal." started to play. It made them look at each other as it was the song that they had first danced to together when they were going out before she moved. She wrapped her arms around his neck, he placed his hands on the small of her back and the swayed to the beautiful song.
She could feel the connection between them, it was always present, not just when they were having sex, it was a connection they always shared.
"Spike." she whispered .
"Yeah." he said just as quietly.
"The words of this song are true you know, you still have all of me. I still love you." her voice was still as soft as when she first began to speak, only now a tear trickled down her face.
"I feel the same. And we'll figure something out." he promised, pulling her closer allowing her to rest her head on his shoulder. They stayed like that, gently swaying until the final notes had played. They walked silently back to the table, but Buffy didn't sit down.
"Excuse me, I'm just going to go to the ladies room." she said.
"I'll join you." Drusilla said. She stood and stood, walking with Buffy. Once they were inside they saw no one else around. Drusilla looked at Buffy and began to talk, her words dripping with venom.
"Stay away from Spike." she warned.
"What are you talking about?" Buffy tried to sound nonchalant, acting like she had no idea why Drusilla said this.
"You know perfectly well what I mean little girl." her voice was dangerous almost deadly "Spike is mine but I see the way you look at him and him at you, the stars have told me that you love him. But you will never have him, he's mine." She repeated.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." Buffy was terrified, Dru didn't seem very sane, but she refused to show her fear. "Now excuse me." Buffy walked straight by her and into one of the stalls.
Drusilla, satisfied that Buffy had gotten the message walked out of the ladies room, not noticing Spike standing in the shadows. He waited for Buffy to come out. When she did he grabbed her by the hand and pulled her to the stairs which led to the balcony. As soon as he was sure they were completely out of sight his lips were on hers in an urgent kiss. Buffy granted him immediate entrance. She wrapped her hands tightly around him as he pulled hr closer. By the time they pulled apart they were gasping for breath.
When he had composed himself he kissed her again softly. "That was to say sorry for leaving this afternoon, but I thought it was a good idea unless we wanted a repeat of last time we slept together in your room. Didn't think you wanted your mom to walk in again." he smirked a little and she couldn't avoid the giggle she allowed to escape. She felt better now that he had actually explained why he left.
"I guess I can forgive you then, but we better get back before we're missed. And I don't want to get into this with Wills again."
"You told Willow?" this worried him a little.
"Yeah. I was a bit upset earlier because you had left and I didn't know why and she knew that I was lying to begin with. But she won't say anything." she assured him.
Spike nodded he trusted Willow. So he pulled Buffy into one last kiss before letting her go and rejoin the group and going outside for a cigarette. He didn't smoke often, but he was feeling a little stressed.
Buffy smiled as she went back to the table. Nobody questioned where she had been, Willow because she had a fair idea, and Xander because he was basically clueless. Drusilla was still satisfied that she had scared Buffy which is why she didn't say anything.
"Buffy, we were wondering the fair is in town down on the pier this week. Want to go tomorrow?" Willow looked excited. Buffy opened her mouth but a deep voice answered for her.
"Of course she does." the voice said from behind her .
Buffy spun in her seat and saw that Angel had been the one to speak.
"Angel what a surprise." she forced herself to sound cheerful but she didn't really feel it.
"Yeah, I was thinking all week about our argument and you're right and I'm sorry." he kissed her on the cheek.
"Ok." was all the response she gave him, not wanting to get into what had happened.
Spike came back inside and went towards the table, seeing Angel standing behind Buffy, hand on her shoulder. He clenched his jaw when he saw her smile at him. Jealousy coursing through him.
"Hello all, what's going on?" he then pretended to only just notice Angel standing there "Oh, peaches, what are you doing here?"
"I came to see MY girl" stressing the 'my' "and agreeing to take her to the carnival on the pier tomorrow." his tone was smug and Spike didn't like it. He tried to ignore it.
Drusilla however noticed the look and decided to use it to her advantage.
"Oh Spike, that sounds so wonderful," she turned to Willow "do you think we might join you?"
Willow looked at Buffy and saw her pleading her to say no, but being Willow she was incapable of doing so.
"Sure." she agreed.
Drusilla smiled in false delight, clapping her hands.
"Goody," she exclaimed "We'll have such fun." Spike and Buffy both groaned inwardly, both knowing how awkward the next day would day would be.
Buffy entered the Bronze, looking around until she saw here friends and hurried to join them. She slid in beside Willow, muttering a hello. She was feeling so great, Spike had been gone when she woke up that afternoon, and although she understood why that was, she didn't like it, didn't like the feelings it caused. She didn't know what was going to happen, they had agreed they didn't want to hurt the people they were with but what did that mean for them? The way she saw it, it meant that they either kept sneaking about or they stopped seeing each other in any capacity and she honestly didn't think she could do that.
Willow noticed something wrong in her friend straight away. She was different from the excited girl she had been speaking too just hours before. And she didn't know why. But she had a feeling that it might involve Spike in some way. She decided that as Buffy's best friend it was her job to find out what was wrong and do what she could to help her. So after whispering to Xander to go and get drinks and snacks, she started trying to get her friend to open up.
"Buffy what's wrong?" her question was curt and to the point, sometimes that was the best way.
"Nothing." she replied, Willow however could see clearly in her eyes that she was lying. So she put the look on her face that meant Buffy had to tell her the truth and looked Buffy straight in the eye.
"Buffy, this is my resolve face. Now I want to know what is wrong with you and do not lie to me." it was an order. Willow, although normally timid, wasn't always so when something was wrong with her friends.
Buffy sighed looking away, not able to bear the look in her eyes when she told her "It's Spike."
"Well I guessed that much already," Willow told her "But what's it about."
"I slept with him." she said softly.
"You did?" Willow exclaimed, this had not been what she had expected.
"Twice." Buffy's voice was now barely a whisper. She dared to look at her friend and the look she saw was not the one she thought she would see. It was confusion but understanding at the same time.
"Buffy, tell me," Willow prompted "let me help you."
Buffy nodded "The first time was last week, after our final tutoring session, I had an argument with Angel about drugs and Spike and I spent the whole session talking, he promised he would help me through it that day in the hospital and he stuck to that promise. So we left and I don't know, I just I kissed him. It just felt so right, we ended up in the alley behind the coffee house." Buffy stopped as soon as she heard the gasp escape Willow's lips, she saw her friend's wide eyes and regretted saying anything. Willow instantly saw Buffy about to retreat back into herself and reached out putting a hand on her arm.
"No Buffy, don't s.top there. I'm sorry I was just surprised but I'm okay with it. Tell me. I'll be ok with it."
Buffy breathed a sigh of relief and continued "So after that we didn't see each other until today, he drove me home and I invited him in to find out how I did in my finals with me and mom. Well mom wasn't there, she left a note saying she had gone to run errands and I couldn't wait to find out so I opened them. I was so excited that without thinking I hugged him, and then that led to us kissing which led to us sleeping together this afternoon." she finished confiding what had happened to Willow. She went quiet again hoping Willow would just let it go but she didn't.
"Buffy, do you still love Spike?" she asked.
"Yes." Buffy choked out, trying to hold back the tears that were forming behind her eyes.
"Does he love you?"
"He says he does, but neither of us want to hurt the people we're seeing because we do care about them." Her reply was honest but her uncertainty showed through it.
"Buffy, I think you and Spike have to decide what you want." she made this her last comment on the subject as she saw Xander coming back, with two new people in tow.
"Hey, look who I found." he announced as he placed the drinks on the table, motioning with his head to Spike and Drusilla.
Buffy' heart skipped a beat when she saw him, but she was also hurt to see him hold on to Drusilla's hand.
"Hi Spike," she greeted "Drusilla."
"Hi." he replied. Drusilla didn't acknowledge her. She let go of Spike's hand so that he could pull up a chair, sliding in beside Buffy so that he couldn't. Spike noticed this and it annoyed him slightly, but then thought it was probably for the best.
As he took his seat he asked "So did Buffy tell you guys her good news?"
Xander shook his head in the negative "What news Buff?"
Buffy blushed slightly "My finals." she looked over at Spike who smiled proudly back at her "I passed them all. I got 4 A's a B and a C."
A cheer went round the table from her friends, Drusilla stayed quiet, watching the display and loathing the look on Spike's face. Spike was hers.
"That is so great Buffy." Willow was excited and glad for her friend she knew how hard she had been working "What did your mom say?"
"She was ecstatic to say the least," Buffy grinned "she was more excited than Spike and I were if that was possible." she cringed at the slip of the tongue. She once again looked at Spike and saw the surprised look he wore. She mouthed a sorry to him.
"Well, of course you were both excited, you two worked together to get you those grades and it paid off. You both put a lot of effort in." Buffy could have hugged Willow for saving her like that.
"Yeah red," Spike spoke up "but really it was all down to Buffy, she just had to believe in herself."
"Thank you." she said to him "So, who's going to dance with me, by way of congratulations?" she questioned.
"I will." Spike said perhaps a little too eagerly, ignoring the look Drusilla gave her Buffy stood up and allowed Spike to lead her to the dance floor. As they got there the song "My Immortal." started to play. It made them look at each other as it was the song that they had first danced to together when they were going out before she moved. She wrapped her arms around his neck, he placed his hands on the small of her back and the swayed to the beautiful song.
She could feel the connection between them, it was always present, not just when they were having sex, it was a connection they always shared.
"Spike." she whispered .
"Yeah." he said just as quietly.
"The words of this song are true you know, you still have all of me. I still love you." her voice was still as soft as when she first began to speak, only now a tear trickled down her face.
"I feel the same. And we'll figure something out." he promised, pulling her closer allowing her to rest her head on his shoulder. They stayed like that, gently swaying until the final notes had played. They walked silently back to the table, but Buffy didn't sit down.
"Excuse me, I'm just going to go to the ladies room." she said.
"I'll join you." Drusilla said. She stood and stood, walking with Buffy. Once they were inside they saw no one else around. Drusilla looked at Buffy and began to talk, her words dripping with venom.
"Stay away from Spike." she warned.
"What are you talking about?" Buffy tried to sound nonchalant, acting like she had no idea why Drusilla said this.
"You know perfectly well what I mean little girl." her voice was dangerous almost deadly "Spike is mine but I see the way you look at him and him at you, the stars have told me that you love him. But you will never have him, he's mine." She repeated.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." Buffy was terrified, Dru didn't seem very sane, but she refused to show her fear. "Now excuse me." Buffy walked straight by her and into one of the stalls.
Drusilla, satisfied that Buffy had gotten the message walked out of the ladies room, not noticing Spike standing in the shadows. He waited for Buffy to come out. When she did he grabbed her by the hand and pulled her to the stairs which led to the balcony. As soon as he was sure they were completely out of sight his lips were on hers in an urgent kiss. Buffy granted him immediate entrance. She wrapped her hands tightly around him as he pulled hr closer. By the time they pulled apart they were gasping for breath.
When he had composed himself he kissed her again softly. "That was to say sorry for leaving this afternoon, but I thought it was a good idea unless we wanted a repeat of last time we slept together in your room. Didn't think you wanted your mom to walk in again." he smirked a little and she couldn't avoid the giggle she allowed to escape. She felt better now that he had actually explained why he left.
"I guess I can forgive you then, but we better get back before we're missed. And I don't want to get into this with Wills again."
"You told Willow?" this worried him a little.
"Yeah. I was a bit upset earlier because you had left and I didn't know why and she knew that I was lying to begin with. But she won't say anything." she assured him.
Spike nodded he trusted Willow. So he pulled Buffy into one last kiss before letting her go and rejoin the group and going outside for a cigarette. He didn't smoke often, but he was feeling a little stressed.
Buffy smiled as she went back to the table. Nobody questioned where she had been, Willow because she had a fair idea, and Xander because he was basically clueless. Drusilla was still satisfied that she had scared Buffy which is why she didn't say anything.
"Buffy, we were wondering the fair is in town down on the pier this week. Want to go tomorrow?" Willow looked excited. Buffy opened her mouth but a deep voice answered for her.
"Of course she does." the voice said from behind her .
Buffy spun in her seat and saw that Angel had been the one to speak.
"Angel what a surprise." she forced herself to sound cheerful but she didn't really feel it.
"Yeah, I was thinking all week about our argument and you're right and I'm sorry." he kissed her on the cheek.
"Ok." was all the response she gave him, not wanting to get into what had happened.
Spike came back inside and went towards the table, seeing Angel standing behind Buffy, hand on her shoulder. He clenched his jaw when he saw her smile at him. Jealousy coursing through him.
"Hello all, what's going on?" he then pretended to only just notice Angel standing there "Oh, peaches, what are you doing here?"
"I came to see MY girl" stressing the 'my' "and agreeing to take her to the carnival on the pier tomorrow." his tone was smug and Spike didn't like it. He tried to ignore it.
Drusilla however noticed the look and decided to use it to her advantage.
"Oh Spike, that sounds so wonderful," she turned to Willow "do you think we might join you?"
Willow looked at Buffy and saw her pleading her to say no, but being Willow she was incapable of doing so.
"Sure." she agreed.
Drusilla smiled in false delight, clapping her hands.
"Goody," she exclaimed "We'll have such fun." Spike and Buffy both groaned inwardly, both knowing how awkward the next day would day would be.