The Loss: For Jason
By: Ashley Marie
I see her come to my door and
I see the see her usually bright
happy face drawn and sad, and I
feel my heart stop, knowing it is not good
I let her in and she walks to the couch
sitting down and then pulling me
next to her and her yes go all misty and
I sigh, wanting her to tell me, wanting to shout
Then she tells me and I wish she had
just kept her mouth shut and I feel my hands
begin to shake, my heart breaking and
I feel something that I haven't felt since Courtney left
I feel tears falling down my cheeks and Emily
looks at me, a little surprised but wraps her
arms around me, and holds my shaking
body, my sobs racking my body
The Iceman was crying and he wasn't
sure if he would ever stop, my God
she was gone, was all that went
through my head, the one family member I loved
Was gone, dead, so many years
I had missed, so many I loves yous
I didn't give, so many afternoon teas
I should have been there for, so many things
Finally I have enough strength to pull away and I
look away from her to caught up in my memories
of her kind words, some many times she
understood me when know one else did
Its not fair I whisper but then, then I see
her, smiling, telling me everything is
all right and I nod, but it didn't cure the weakness
I felt, I couldn't kill what took her away from us
I could wipe it out, all I could do was accept it,
I got up and threw the vase that was on the
table and threw it at the wall before sliding down the bar
crying, she gone I whisper to Emily and watch my sister
She nods and I do too, letting it sink it, she is dead
but she is still with me, she is still with you, I whisper
to my sister and she gets up and joins me on the floor
yeah she is Jase, she whispers, she is with us.
A/N: This is the second of the series, I hope to have Emily's next! :)