Hahaha, I must say, Peter has a group of S/R Shippers coming after him with torches and pitchforks.
Peter: *_*;;
In Other News… Angel Dreamseer's New Project: I'm in a Harry Potter Slash RP on LiveJournal community, I have to say it is one of the coolest things I've ever done! I'm rping Remy. ::giggles:: He hasn't gotten with anybody yet, but some kids in the community want him to get with Lockhart. ^^;; ((Sirius isn't back yet, he's going to be resurrected on Halloween.)) Anyway, if anyone wants to check it on LiveJournal, the community name is called rp_slash and my personal Remy journal is werewolf_tears.
But anyway, thanks to:
Spirit3 – Ahh thankies. ^_^ I think my ego took a nice little boost there, lol.
Lone-Wolf-87 – Well I am an odd little girl. ^_^
Almost-Perfect - Ahh, thankies sweetie.
Drama-queen8- S/R Shippers rock my world!~ Welcome to the story, btw. ^_^
LadyLilyPotterRena Lupin
Monica-Chan – Take a deep breath sweetie. ^_^
o0o- Sirius –o0o - ::hugglez her Siri:: He's veruu confused right now…
alana chantelune – Rar, so angry.
Arathin – Oooh, Slytherin scarf… ::wraps purring Remy and Siri plushies in it::
WingsoftheDragon aka Minossi – Oooh, another angry-Peter-Hater!~
Gohan Hugger – Of course slash is wonderful… :: purrs happily::
Moony-Black – No!~ Definitely, not going to break up again. @_@;; Too much trauma in their relationship honestly… I should just be nice and give them a happy ending… But what fun would that be?
Stigmatized
Chloe-Wagner – I think I'm gonna put a weird little twist in their "marriage" thing that everyone is going to kill me for, rofl rofl.
Princess-Anime
Loupetchien
Shannon
"Sirius, are you okay?" Peter asked, his brows knitted in worry.
"I just need some...some... time to think..." Sirius replied in a daze.
Sirius stumbled back to the dorm room, gripping his head, disbelief overcoming his body. His heart hurt. It hurt so bad. Remus...betray?
'No, No, No. Remus didn't. Wouldn't. Couldn't."
Sirius didn't make it all the way to the dorm, he fell outside it, gripping his head in between in his knees, his eyes burning with tears.
"He couldn't. The spell." Sirius said out loud, as though as though trying to convince.
'Ahh, but it was a spell Remus found...' a nasty little voice in the back of his head spoke. 'But why would he mate with me this year if he was a traitor...? To gain my trust...? NO! REMUS IS NOT THE TRAITOR.'
Sirius choked back a sob.
'But what about the kiss with Severus Snape...? If it's true that Snape is a spy now... He was a Death Eater then...'
Sirius banged his head hard across the wall, sobs embracing his body.
Why would Peter lie to him?
Why would Remus lie to him?
Why were James's parents dead?
"Sirius..." a gentle voice suddenly questioned.
Sirius looked up, and saw Remus standing over him, his eyes looking sad.
"Oh Sirius..." Remus whispered, dropped to his knees as he saw the tears glistening in his lover's eyes.
Remus pulled Sirius to him.
"I don't understand..." Sirius cried. "I don't understand why one of them...w-would betray..."
Remus felt his heart pang in his chest. This was when Sirius's innocent side shone brightly through. His inability to understand why a friend would turn traitor to his other friends.
Suddenly there were footsteps from behind, and James and Lily were by them.
James was still crying, he fell next to the ground by Sirius and Remus and they embraced him like the brother he was. Lily stood awkardly for a moment, the tears still streaming down her face also. Remus opened one of his arms to her in an offer, and she fell into his and James's arms.
"I love you Jamie, I love you..." Sirius was crying harder then ever now.
James was lying against Sirius's chest, holding Lily and Remus close to him, as though afraid they would disappear from him.
"Why does it hurt... Why does it hurt so much?" Lily whimpered, and James brought her closer to him.
"I wanna go home..." Remus whispered, as Sirius squeezed his hands. "I wanna go home now Sirius..."
"I wanna go home too Remy..." Sirius murmered. "Let's get packed and we'll ask Dumbledore if we can leave early..."
Remus stood, and helped Lily to her feet. She dried her eyes, and hugged Remus.
"Thank you..."
James and Sirius stood up together, brothers since they were children, and united once more by loss.
Lily followed the three boys into the dorm, despite that fact that it was the male dorm. And they packed, readying themselves to leave their safest and most dangerous sanctuary.
*~~~~~~~~~~*
The group reached the flat late in the morning, blinking with exhaustion. Remus and Sirius guided Lily and James quickly and silently around, showing them where everything was.
None of them seemed to want to do anything after that. Lily and James lay together on one couch, and Sirius on the other, while Remus made tea.
Remus served it to the others silently, and then crawled up in Sirius's lap. Sirius stroked his head gently, as the werewolf began to drift into sleep.
Lily was curled up against James, who had his arms wrapped around her waist. Her eyes were also beginning to droop heavily, until she was breathing softly fast asleep.
Sirius looked over at where James was staring at the ceiling.
"Who do you think it is?" James whispered softly, his voice full of pain.
Sirius shut his eyes, and breathed hard.
"Peter thinks it's Remus."
James looked over at Sirius sharply, his eyes wide with surprise.
"What? B-b-b... Why?"
"Dunno." Sirius replied dully. "He pulled me aside after the meeting to warn me... But Jamie, I don't know what to think now. I love Remy. But I can't see Peter lying to me. But then again... I can't imagine Frank or Alice being the spy either."
James rubbed his neck, sighing.
"I don't want to believe it."
"Me neither."
"What will you do if..." James hesitated for a moment.
"If Remy is the spy?" Sirius finished.
James waited patiently for Sirius's answer.
"I don't know. I'd rather die then have Remus be the spy."
*~~~~~~~~*
When Lily woke, she was tucked into a bed. She sat up, running a hand through her hair, and looked around.
"Sorry, I didn't want to wake you."a voice spoke from nearby.
Lily looked towards the voice and saw James sitting at the desk, his head resting in his hands.
Lily silently got out of bed, and wrapped her arms around him.
"I love you..." she murmered softly.
"I love you too..." James whispered, looking up at her.
Lily kissed him gently on the forehead.
"I've been thinking..." James said quietly.
Lily smiled, as though about to make a joke, but didn't seeing the serious expression on James's face.
"This is going to change everything you know..." James sighed.
Lily looked at him, studying him with sad eyes.
"With Voldemort after us... Our entire seventh year will be different. And after that. We'll always be on the run... I won't be able to play Quidditch." James spoke bitterly.
"James..." Lily whispered sadly.
"And if you do have your children, they'll be in danger too." James hissed.
"James..."
"And we'll always be looking over our shoulders, making sure that there isn't a Death Eater... And never be able to completly trust anybody. Even now, there are fingers pointing in every direction..."
"James..." Lily repeated, taking his face into her hands. "I want you to be the father of my children. And I want Remy and Siri to be their godparents. And I want to watch you be the best damn seeker that ever flew. And I want Voldemort to stop taking away the ones I love. I don't want you to lose you to hate and bitterness, James. If I had to choose between having you one day of love and beauty or an entire lifetime of bitterness and hate, I would chose that one day, with the happy and playful James Potter I have come to love with all my heart."
James smiled up at her, and kissed her gently.
"You must be the most amazing woman to ever exist..." James grinned. "Did you mean what you said about me being the father of your children?"
"I want to get to married before that, but yes." Lily smiled happily at him. "Or do you not want to have children and get married to me?"
"No, no! I'd love to." James said quickly "How many kids do you want to have?"
Lily looked thoughtful.
"Three. Two girls and a boy."
James squeezed her hand.
"That sounds lovely... I want one of our daughters to be called Lily... After her gorgeous mother."
Lily laughed, and sat herself in James's lap.
"Hey, that's the part where you're supposed to go 'And I want our son's name to be James, after his drop-dead handsome father.'" James teased, ticking Lily.
"Hmm... Nah, maybe if you're lucky, his middle name will be James. Maybe." Lily stuck out her tongue at him.
"Sounds like a perfect life... Except, you want Remus and Sirius to be the godparents? That could get a little dangerous..." James spoke, laughing.
*~~~~~~~~*
Remus and Sirius were still cuddled up together on the couch.
Remus suddenly rolled over, and kissed Sirius gently on the nose, and began to kiss at his mouth then, licking his lover's lower lip for entrance.
"Not now Remy..." Sirius whispered, pushing Remus away.
Remus blinked for a moment, as he found himself alone on the couch.
Sirius was standing in front of the mirror in their living room, looking frustrated.
"Siri...?" Remus whispered, confused.
Remus stood, and wrapped his arms around Sirius's waist, and kissing his neck.
"Now now Remus!" Sirius snapped, twisting out of Remus's arms.
Remus winced, trying to push away the feeling that he was going to cry.
"What's wrong Sirius? You can't just swim in your pain and misery forever." Remus pointed out angrily.
"That's not it." Sirius growled back at Remus.
Remus looked down at his hands, biting on his lip, as Sirius left the room.
He couldn't help it. A tear fell onto his hand. Sirius wouldn't even talk to him... What had he done wrong?
"Remy?" a gentle voice asked.
He hoped at first that it might have been Sirius, but this voice was distincitly female. It was Lily.
Remus looked up and faked a smile.
"Hey Lily, you need anything?"
"Are you okay sweetie?" she asked with a worried expression.
"Oh...Umm, yeah. I'm great." Remus lied. Afterall, Lily really didn't need to be burdened with more problems.
Lily stared at him for a few seconds.
"Where's Sirius?" she questioned finally.
"Ah, not sure. You just missed him." Remus replied, trying to keep his smile steady.
Lily looked at Remus for a moment.
"Remus, I know I'm not a Marauder or anything, but please don't be afraid to talk to me, okay? I promise I won't rip your head off or anything."
Remus smiled at her.
"Thank you Lily."
*~~~~~~~~~~~*
Remus made dinner worry flooding his brain. He hadn't seen Sirius since he had left the living room in such a hurry.
The werewolf was feeling nervous to say the least. He didn't see why Sirius would storm out of the room. If he had a problem he would talk to Remus. And then they would snog.
Remus suddenly winced as the knife he was using missed its target and came down on his finger.
He studied the cut for a moment, and then was about wash it in the sink, when a hand suddenly stopped him and brought the finger into their mouth.
Remus looked up surprised. But then smiled. Sirius.
Sirius looked at him with serious eyes that were full of love.
Gently he stepped behind Remus and wrapped his arms around him.
"I'm sorry I was cross earlier." Sirius whispered. "You didn't deserve it."
"I love you Siri..." Remus answered quietly as he got back to work.
*~~~~~~~~~~*
Sirius had paced his room for hours not sure what to do. Believe that Remus was the spy and act like he didn't know anything about it? Completely deny the fact that Remus was the spy and act like he didn't know anything about it? Or believe that Remy was the spy and break up with him and never see him again?
By the time he was done thinking about all the things he could do, he should do and what he he would have to do, all he accomplished was getting a bad headache.
Sirius flopped down onto hi- no, their bed.
And all he could think was that he loved Remus.
Then he realized something all too clear. Even if Remus was the spy, Sirius wouldn't be able to leave Remus. He loved him. The end.
Remus could feed his heart to Lord Voldemort... but that wouldn't change the fact that Sirius loved him.
Sirius rolled over and put his hand across his head.
He would love Remus forever. And that was all he could do.
*~~~~~~~~~~*
Dinner was oddly nice. Everyone was acting all lovey-dovey with everyone else, and it seemed too perfect.
Of course that night was awesome beyond all belief too.