Author: Niteowlgal
Disclaimer: I own no one, joan and family are Barbara Hall's.
Date: June 19th 2004
Summary she knew she shouldn't do it but it was her form of control.
A/N: reviews are appreciated. I think this is a one time thing. Hope u like : )
She knew she shouldn't do it, but it was her form of rebellion.Her parents came and asked her to eat. But the more they wanted it the less she wanted to do it.
They didn't know but when they all went to bed, she ate, not a whole lot, but she wasn't starving.
All day she stayed in her room, she had the occasional bathroom breaks. But her bedroom was her safe haven. She felt somewhat protected and safe.
She didn't do much, but it was better then dealing with people. And this is how it stayed the whole summer.
People came to see her and ask her how she was doing. She gave one word answers and after awhile the visits started to become rare. All except one person who came less but always came.
Joan knew she shouldn't do it, but she didn't no how to deal with the grief. They said it was all hallucinations and that it was because of her sickness. But she felt as if something or someone had died.
God.
He wasn't real, and even though sometimes she doubted it, she forced herself to believe that there was no such thing.
She continued to stay in her room, and it soon became a goal to distance herself from everyone else.
It was the only control she felt she had in her life.
But deep down inside she hoped that it would change, and she rarely entertained the thought.
However the fact that she did, was a little symbol of hope.
well did u like it? love it? or totally hate it? please review and let me know. sorry for any errors i made.