If You Were Here

If You Were Here is a song written by Poe.

This chapter has nothing to do with the last one.

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Kurt's exceptional ears heard the joyful uproar. He didn't care though. How could he? He was standing frozen in the broken doorway.

His mother walked un next to him and stared at what he was starring at. She didn't move from there, just like him, she couldn't.

Logan was backing away slowly. Kurt couldn't see his expression, and even if he could he wouldn't much care. He hurt, Mystique and Logan did too, but he didn't care, he didn't care. This wasn't right.

Not much later the three were standing there next to each other. Kurt didn't care much at the moment that his mother was there, he didn't much care that Logan was. Mystique didn't seem to be caring that Logan was there, and Logan didn't seem much to care that Mystique was.

He shook his head. "No..." He whispered, but it seemd to pound in his ears.

The planes started arriving and still the three hardly moved.

"Kurt! Logan! We won! You guys did it!" Kitty exclaimed, rushing toward them. "We did it! Kurt? Logan?" She asked, deciding to ignore Mystique. Neither moved much. Finally though, Logan pointed. Kitty moved foreward and looked.

"Oh my!" She exclaimed, covering her mouth.

Kurt teleported then, closer. He bent down and touched the figure. It didn't move. He pulled it up off the ground slightly and held it. The others were arriving. They were happy, joyous, and they had every right to be. They didn't know.

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If you were here

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"She's not like-"

"Dead? Ja." Kurt almost sobbed.

Mystique's posture changed then. Her shoulders dropped and she looked away, a pained look on her face.

"NO!" Kitty exclaimed, rushing forward. "No! No no no no!"

Kurt ignored her.

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I know that you would

Truly be amazed

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He closed his eyes and gripped her tighter. Despite all her fascades, she'd love the sound that seemed to be a drumming in his ears. The joyous sound of a hard battle fought and won. The sound of teenaged kids playing, joking, and enjoying life.

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At what's become of what you made

If you were here

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That sound wouldn't be here though if not for her. There hadn't been another way had there? Kurt wanted to believe there had been, yet he didn't. He wasn't in the right state of mind to decide now though.

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You would know how I treasured every day

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Every moment with her had been important to him. She was his family. She had been the only real member of his family it seemed. Even if she wasn't blood. He had loved her, still did, but now... now he'd have no more days.

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How every single word you spoke

Echo's in me like a memory of hope

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Now all those moments seemed to be relived in his head. He could see all of it but could do nothing. It had been done. He would have won if she hadn't done it. Apocolypse, he would have gotten free. She had taken hold of him, she'd absorbed him. The first time they'd touched he'd taken from her to gain life, and the second time she'd taken from him, and brought death. But he'd killed her, killed her from the inside, and she'd known he'd do it.

flashback

Opening his eyes Kurt saw Apocolyapse jump out of whatever it was he had been lying in, the thing they had counted on him being in. Rogue was there, right in front of Apocolyapse.

"Rogue!" Kurt called out weakly, remembering what the man had done to him when he had come in.

Her eyes wide, Rogue backed away. Apocolyapse grabbed her neck and slammed her against the wall. She'd obviously already gotten Dorian's powers for she wasn't absorbing him.

"Turn it back!" Apocolyapse yelled. Rogue gasped and tried to writhe out of the man's hold.

"Logan! Do somezing!" Kurt yelled. He was too weak to move.

With a skint Logan rushed at the ancient man. By now Rogue was grasping Apocolyapse's wrist and trying to move it away.

Apocolyapse, hand still around Rogue's neck, turned to Logan and grabbed his wrist as it went toward him. With his grip he threw Logan away from him.

"Logan!" Rogue gasped. "Tha controls! Nevah mind meh! Destroy tha controls!"

"NO!" The grip tightened and then released her as Logan leapt at the controls. Rogue fell to the ground and gasped, holding her neck. She looked at Kurt and Mysitque became conscious then.

"Even if he does destroy ze controls... Apocolyapse!" Kurt pointed out.

Rogue's eyes flashed from Kurt to Apocolyapse who had just stopped Logan. She had a weird look on her face.

"Rogue? Vhat are you zinking?"

"Kurt." She stood up.

"Vhat?" He asked, trying to sit up.

"Ah love you."

"Rogue?!" Mystique demanded.

Rogue didn't reply though, she turned to Apocolyapse who was fighting with Logan. "Ah'll nevah lihke what ya did ta me..." She sighed. She was speaking to Mystique. "But Ah forgive ya." And with that she jumped toward Apocolyapse.

"ROGUE!" Mystique and Kurt both yelled.

Suddenly he felt his powers come back to him. Both Logan and Apocolyapse staggered away from each other, surprised by the sudden repower.

Apocolyapse turned just in time to see Rogue. She grasped his hand and screamed. Logan jumped toward the controls.

Apocolyapse tried to break free of her grip. He dropped to his knees, still fighting her, but she refused to let go.

Kurt forced himself to his feet. He swayed once there. His eyes were locked on Rogue. She'd been speaking to them as if she wouldn't get a chance to speak to them again. She'd be fine though, wouldn't she? Why had she been talking like that?

Logan broke the controls and moved toward them. "Stripes! I got it, you can let go!" He told her, hurrying to her.

"No." She replied through clenched teeth. "He'll only come up with somethin' new. He can't live." She replied.

Finally, with a growl of rage, Apocolyapse fell, his body dead, and Rogue let go. Breathing hard, she stood up.

There was a moment of silence. Logan shook his head. "Let's get out of here."

Rogue shook her head. "He's angry."

"Well I bet he is. Now let's go."

Rogue gasped suddenly and grasped her head.

"Rogue?!" Logan asked, reaching a hand out to her. She moved away, her eyes clenched and still holding onto her head. "He's not gonna let meh go." Rogue said, breathing even harder.

"Rogue, he can't hurt you anymore." Logan said softly, moving toward her even more and taking her elbows.

"No! Logan," She looked up at him. "Thank ya."

Logan looked startled.

"Rogue! Vhat are you doing?!" Kurt demanded, he was really worried.

She gasped, closed her eyes, then screamed. With that, she went limp. Logan caught her, his eyes wide. "Rogue?" He moved her into one arm and felt her pulse.

With a short gasp he moved away, letting her go, and she fell.

Flashback

She'd known he do it. She knew he vould do zat, kill her from ze inside. And yet she did it! Vhy?!!! Kurt couldn't help scream in his head as his eyes watered.

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When you were here

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Kitty stared. How had this happened? They'd won! No one was suppose to die! And there wasn't a scratch on her except for a red mark around her neck. Kitty hated the idea of her friend being strangled to death and looked away from the mark and touched her shoulder.

Despite how cold she had been, she'd always been a good friend. She'd never expected things of Kitty. When in the privacy of her room, she'd never told her she was stupid for feeling the way she did about things, and although when she spoke it wasn't much, it had mattered the world to Kitty, for they were always true, yet nice in it's own way.

The laughing had stopped. Kitty turned her head to see Logan kneeling beside her and Kurt. His face was expressionless. Mystique was still just standing there. There was a pain on her face like none of which Kitty had seen before. Kurt's face was just now starting to show pain and Logan was still shocked. The others had shown up though. Although they knew as little as Kitty did herself, they could see the expressions, could see Rogue's... form.

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You could not feel the value that I placed

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How could you leave like that?! Kitty demanded of her friend in her head. She started to cry then, just starting to comprehend what was going on. She turned to Logan and buried her face in his shoulder. He put an arm around her.

She shook her head. She still couldn't believe it! Rogue had always been the one to be there for her. Even if it didn't seem like it, she'd become dependant on the Goth. When she had needed someone to talk to there was Rogue, when she had needed someone to be there for her there was Rogue, when she had needed some comfort there had been Rogue, and even when she had felt the need to be needed, there was Rogue. Rogue had needed her too, even though it wasn't as evidant.

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On every look that crossed your face

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Logan held the crying girl, but couldn't pay attention to her. The relationship Rogue and him had had, had been odd yet strong. She had been so much like him that he had been able to read her when no one else could. He didn't notice the expressions and let them slip by. No, he always tried to do something, it had always made an impact. Yet in her last few minutes he had done nothing. He'd known, he had, he'd just tried to block out the information. He hadn't been able to believe that she had seriously meant Apocolyapse could kill her from inside her head. He'd done nothing!

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When you were here

I did not know just how I had embraced

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He wasn't sure when the bond had begun. Perhaps when she had taken his hand in the jet so long ago, but he couldn't tell for sure. His own had been when she had taken off after helping Jean. Yet they had had a bond, one impossible to define, but they had and it felt oddly severed. These things lasted past death though didn't they? He shook his head. Of course they did, but she couldn't be dead!

Yet she was.

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All that you hid behind your face

Could not hide from me

'Cause it hid in me too

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There was nothin ya could do Kurt. Piece things t'gether with Mystique. Everythin'll be fihne Kit, but Ah had ta go, nothin' personal, an' Logan, Ah could read ya too. Our connection wasn't severed. Ah could read all o'ya really. Ya couldn' hide, not when Ah had parts o' ya, and they all became a part o'me. Ah die with all of ya.

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Hello tiger, it's fun, talking with you. like this--in fact I'm going to do it more often

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Now that I'm here I hear you and wonder if maybe you can hear yourself

Ringing in me now that your somewhere else.

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I miss you a lot

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'Cause I hear your strange music gentle and true

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But I'm so proud of everything you do there

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Singing inside me with the best parts of you

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Next time I see you you'll proudly sing it back to me

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Now that I'm here

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I love you...

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"It's okay you can go now."

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Xavier said from beside Jean. Kurt, Kitty, Logan, and Mystique turned to look at him. Logan helped Kitty and Kurt up. . All of them stared at Rogue for a long moment.

"You can go now, so go. There's nothing more you can do."

They had to go, they couldn't stand it anymore. They made their way to the door. They hadn't known, that he hadn't only been talking to them.

[Fin]

A/N: Cheesy huh? Yup, I know. hahaha! But I wanted to write something and post it and since it was Poe I figured I'd put it here. This'll be my collection of Poe songfics. They won't be related to each other probably. Some might, but they won't be in order then. lol. Bleh. Now, lets see if I even write more. lol.