+See You L8er Space Cowboy+
Disclaimer: I don't own Bebop. * sigh* Must I repeat myself over and over???
See You L8er Space Cowboy
Session 5:
Rain Man
"They say that rain cleanses the soul to see things that others can't. I start to wonder if this is true."
We're out in space once more, and here I am, sitting miserably in my room. All I can do is look out- look out to that empty void known as space. But, in the back of my mind, I'm thinking. I'm wondering why, why is it that Spike never returned home to us? Where are you now, Spike?
"I'm dead, Faye"
No, you're not dead, Spike. Or are you? Am I just too delusional to see that you are, indeed dead. Maybe you're dead within. Julia . . .
Just the name of that bitch is frightening. Yes, love looks beautiful, but then looks can kill. Vicious . . . we all don't need an explanation for him. I can only accept that you went out to save Mao's reputation, but about Julia . . . no I can't. Hold on for a second, is this really true? Am I really jealous of Julia? But, why Spike? I start to remember all the times you'd just stare out to space. Remember when I didn't know my past, Spike?
"At least you have a future."
No way, no, I can't be jealous of her. She's nothing compared to me. But for your attention, she is. But why would I give a damn about you?
"Spike" I call your name, but it almost sounds like a whisper. You've lost your soul. You've lost all life, the day you lost your eye. The day you lost Julia.
"You are dead, Spike," I say tearfully. "And there is no way for me to bring you back to life. No matter how much I love you, I can never bring you back to life."
Wait! Backtrack; did I just admit . . .that I loved him? Tears rolled down my cheeks as I realized that awful truth: I did love him. But then, my feelings, my past, Whitney, so many things kept us apart. I wonder . . .
"Faye! FAYE!!" Jet knocks me out of concentration. "Faye, we're going back to Venus." I fall back down to the lush fluffy pillow on the bed, and sigh.
"Jet, what is it this time? Another bounty?" Apparently not. "No Faye, it's not another bounty. Ed left Ein back on Venus."
"And so? Just leave him there. I'm sure there are other dog lovers who are willing to take better care of him." Jet pounds on my door, and I can tell he's furious at me. "Listen Faye, I know you really don't want to go back to Venus, but you know how much that dog's worth." I still don't see the point of him telling me this: he can just get Ein himself.
"Also Faye, you know how wide Venus is. They have at least 15 dog pounds and animal shelters per square mile. In order to make our little trip back quick and simple, we need you to come with us." Ugh shit. I look back out the window, and sigh again.
"You owe me Jet . . . big time."
[Later on Venus. . .]
Jet had split us all into teams. I was to cover one area filled with almost 30 animal shelters and dog pounds combined. I had gone through each and every one, but with no luck I still can't find him. It's starts to rain here in Venus, which is really rare around here. They say that rain cleanses the soul to see things that others can't. I start to wonder if this is true. Everyone starts to run for cover, but not I. I can't go someplace and hide. This is the first time I had ever felt rain in Venus, and it was beautiful. I go around, still looking for Ein. Around this corner is a Police Station. Now the rain is starting to get to me. All my memories from my past, before my accident, Spike, all of this started to haunt me. Maybe I can stay there till the rain is over. But what I find is not shelter. . .
[Normal POV]
He starts out the stairs, looking down to the ground, thinking of the past that he had left behind. She looks at him with wide eyes, as if she is seeing a ghost. "Spike".
When she had said that, he slowly looked up to see her eyes. For a brief moment, all of time stops for them. They cannot believe what they see: are their eyes playing tricks on them? Is who they see an angel there to take them away, or a ghost who has come to haunt them. All of time stood still in Venus until. . .
[Spike's POV]
I ran. I ran so far away. I can never look back, no, I can't. Why am I running from Faye? Am I running from a past that I could never let die? Why am I running from my past? Is it because, I had died on the day I said goodbye to both of them? No . . . I didn't die then. I died when I never returned to them. I died when I became a coward and ran. Shit . . . I ran away.
[Faye's POV]
Spike, why are you running from me? What did I ever do? Please Spike, stop this now. . .
"Stop running from me Spike! Please Stop!!"
All the emotions that I've held inside since this began started to release as I yelled for him over and over. But he didn't listen.no he didn't. We've been running for almost a half hour around Venus, and I'm getting tired of this game. I could tell that he could too; he's been panting and sweating since we started.
"Please Spike! Stop running! Stop running from me, Spike!!" He then does something out of the norm. He turns around, and with tears in his eyes, faces me. I stop, and I'm taken back with his gesture.
"Spike . . ." His name escaped my lips like a whisper, a little secret that we both shared. The deep, sophisticated pools I call eyes seemed deep into thought and meditation . . . and remorse.
"Hello, Faye. Long time no see," he manages to say.
I see his trademark smile, and I realized that I had missed it. I missed him, I hate him, and yet. . . I started towards him and in one moment, I wrapped my arms around him in an embrace. The rain in Venus fell, like the tears that I've shed every single day he was gone from me. We stood in that embrace for what seemed like an eternity. But then, something shattered the moment. A helicopter hovered above us, and a ladder fell near us. I looked at him, and I couldn't believe it. What the hell?
[Spike's POV]
Only one person could arrange for this in half an hour: Luci. No doubt about it. I looked at Faye, and I felt for her. She had been an emotional wreck since I've gone . . .and it's all because I couldn't face my past. Looking through her eyes, I could almost see her pain. Without thinking, I did the last thing I thought I'd do to Miss Faye Valentine at that moment . . .
[Faye's POV]
He kissed me. Spike Spiegel, the man that I've recently discovered that I'm in love with, kissed me like a prince kissing his love. Then, he pulled away from me, and smiled.
"See you later, space cowgirl."
What a corny ending to this fantasy. But it didn't matter; Spike was never good with words anyway. He slowly drifted from me, but I was speechless. I couldn't call his name anymore. His name started to come out as whispers, as if it was a forbidden name. As he headed up the ladder, I couldn't move my body to hold him back. This was when I realized that I could never keep him with me; he'll always leave me and there's nothing that I can do. I saw him fly away; I couldn't stop him. He was gone; I'll never see him again.
"Woof woof" Ein called. There he was! The rain stopped, and now, what am I going to do? I stare at the direction in which he left, and the tears start to fall.
"Spike . . . Come back to me."
-A.N-
*snuffles* I'm sorry for those who didn't like this chapter, but I was experiencing major writer's block right here. Anyways, thank you to those who have been reviewing while I was out creating more fics (there's a list in my profile of all the stories I'm thinking of writing. . .) and trying to update my RK one (yes, also doing Trigun, don't worry). Well, g2g. Please R/R, and once again THANK YOU READERS! I could never had accomplished this much without you all! L8ER!
Since. Angelik Nikole
Disclaimer: I don't own Bebop. * sigh* Must I repeat myself over and over???
See You L8er Space Cowboy
Session 5:
Rain Man
"They say that rain cleanses the soul to see things that others can't. I start to wonder if this is true."
We're out in space once more, and here I am, sitting miserably in my room. All I can do is look out- look out to that empty void known as space. But, in the back of my mind, I'm thinking. I'm wondering why, why is it that Spike never returned home to us? Where are you now, Spike?
"I'm dead, Faye"
No, you're not dead, Spike. Or are you? Am I just too delusional to see that you are, indeed dead. Maybe you're dead within. Julia . . .
Just the name of that bitch is frightening. Yes, love looks beautiful, but then looks can kill. Vicious . . . we all don't need an explanation for him. I can only accept that you went out to save Mao's reputation, but about Julia . . . no I can't. Hold on for a second, is this really true? Am I really jealous of Julia? But, why Spike? I start to remember all the times you'd just stare out to space. Remember when I didn't know my past, Spike?
"At least you have a future."
No way, no, I can't be jealous of her. She's nothing compared to me. But for your attention, she is. But why would I give a damn about you?
"Spike" I call your name, but it almost sounds like a whisper. You've lost your soul. You've lost all life, the day you lost your eye. The day you lost Julia.
"You are dead, Spike," I say tearfully. "And there is no way for me to bring you back to life. No matter how much I love you, I can never bring you back to life."
Wait! Backtrack; did I just admit . . .that I loved him? Tears rolled down my cheeks as I realized that awful truth: I did love him. But then, my feelings, my past, Whitney, so many things kept us apart. I wonder . . .
"Faye! FAYE!!" Jet knocks me out of concentration. "Faye, we're going back to Venus." I fall back down to the lush fluffy pillow on the bed, and sigh.
"Jet, what is it this time? Another bounty?" Apparently not. "No Faye, it's not another bounty. Ed left Ein back on Venus."
"And so? Just leave him there. I'm sure there are other dog lovers who are willing to take better care of him." Jet pounds on my door, and I can tell he's furious at me. "Listen Faye, I know you really don't want to go back to Venus, but you know how much that dog's worth." I still don't see the point of him telling me this: he can just get Ein himself.
"Also Faye, you know how wide Venus is. They have at least 15 dog pounds and animal shelters per square mile. In order to make our little trip back quick and simple, we need you to come with us." Ugh shit. I look back out the window, and sigh again.
"You owe me Jet . . . big time."
[Later on Venus. . .]
Jet had split us all into teams. I was to cover one area filled with almost 30 animal shelters and dog pounds combined. I had gone through each and every one, but with no luck I still can't find him. It's starts to rain here in Venus, which is really rare around here. They say that rain cleanses the soul to see things that others can't. I start to wonder if this is true. Everyone starts to run for cover, but not I. I can't go someplace and hide. This is the first time I had ever felt rain in Venus, and it was beautiful. I go around, still looking for Ein. Around this corner is a Police Station. Now the rain is starting to get to me. All my memories from my past, before my accident, Spike, all of this started to haunt me. Maybe I can stay there till the rain is over. But what I find is not shelter. . .
[Normal POV]
He starts out the stairs, looking down to the ground, thinking of the past that he had left behind. She looks at him with wide eyes, as if she is seeing a ghost. "Spike".
When she had said that, he slowly looked up to see her eyes. For a brief moment, all of time stops for them. They cannot believe what they see: are their eyes playing tricks on them? Is who they see an angel there to take them away, or a ghost who has come to haunt them. All of time stood still in Venus until. . .
[Spike's POV]
I ran. I ran so far away. I can never look back, no, I can't. Why am I running from Faye? Am I running from a past that I could never let die? Why am I running from my past? Is it because, I had died on the day I said goodbye to both of them? No . . . I didn't die then. I died when I never returned to them. I died when I became a coward and ran. Shit . . . I ran away.
[Faye's POV]
Spike, why are you running from me? What did I ever do? Please Spike, stop this now. . .
"Stop running from me Spike! Please Stop!!"
All the emotions that I've held inside since this began started to release as I yelled for him over and over. But he didn't listen.no he didn't. We've been running for almost a half hour around Venus, and I'm getting tired of this game. I could tell that he could too; he's been panting and sweating since we started.
"Please Spike! Stop running! Stop running from me, Spike!!" He then does something out of the norm. He turns around, and with tears in his eyes, faces me. I stop, and I'm taken back with his gesture.
"Spike . . ." His name escaped my lips like a whisper, a little secret that we both shared. The deep, sophisticated pools I call eyes seemed deep into thought and meditation . . . and remorse.
"Hello, Faye. Long time no see," he manages to say.
I see his trademark smile, and I realized that I had missed it. I missed him, I hate him, and yet. . . I started towards him and in one moment, I wrapped my arms around him in an embrace. The rain in Venus fell, like the tears that I've shed every single day he was gone from me. We stood in that embrace for what seemed like an eternity. But then, something shattered the moment. A helicopter hovered above us, and a ladder fell near us. I looked at him, and I couldn't believe it. What the hell?
[Spike's POV]
Only one person could arrange for this in half an hour: Luci. No doubt about it. I looked at Faye, and I felt for her. She had been an emotional wreck since I've gone . . .and it's all because I couldn't face my past. Looking through her eyes, I could almost see her pain. Without thinking, I did the last thing I thought I'd do to Miss Faye Valentine at that moment . . .
[Faye's POV]
He kissed me. Spike Spiegel, the man that I've recently discovered that I'm in love with, kissed me like a prince kissing his love. Then, he pulled away from me, and smiled.
"See you later, space cowgirl."
What a corny ending to this fantasy. But it didn't matter; Spike was never good with words anyway. He slowly drifted from me, but I was speechless. I couldn't call his name anymore. His name started to come out as whispers, as if it was a forbidden name. As he headed up the ladder, I couldn't move my body to hold him back. This was when I realized that I could never keep him with me; he'll always leave me and there's nothing that I can do. I saw him fly away; I couldn't stop him. He was gone; I'll never see him again.
"Woof woof" Ein called. There he was! The rain stopped, and now, what am I going to do? I stare at the direction in which he left, and the tears start to fall.
"Spike . . . Come back to me."
-A.N-
*snuffles* I'm sorry for those who didn't like this chapter, but I was experiencing major writer's block right here. Anyways, thank you to those who have been reviewing while I was out creating more fics (there's a list in my profile of all the stories I'm thinking of writing. . .) and trying to update my RK one (yes, also doing Trigun, don't worry). Well, g2g. Please R/R, and once again THANK YOU READERS! I could never had accomplished this much without you all! L8ER!
Since. Angelik Nikole