Chapter Seven
Ginny walked down to the kitchens slowly savoring the walk and the empty quietness that surrounded the house which answered by Malfoy Manor. She opened the kitchen door to see Draco Malfoy in all his glory, drinking out of the milk carton and squirting chocolate syrup in his mouth, swishing it around.
"Mmm." Ginny hummed, almost laughing as he jumped, visibly startled. "I love chocolate milk."
"Yeah, well, we're out." Draco spat angrily at her.
Ginny smiled at his defensive mode. She slowly and carefully walked over to him and grabbed the milk carton and chocolate squirt bottle out of his strong hands.
"What are you doing?" Draco asked in a harsh whisper.
Ginny took a big swig of milk, holing it in her mouth carefully. She leaned her head back and squeezed the bottle, trying to get the syrup in her mouth; failing miserably. It slithered down her cheek and she laughed with a hand over her mouth so not to become a human milk fountain.
Draco laughed and smiled widely at her.
"Lean your head back." He told her, grabbing the syrup bottle. Ginny complied as he squirted the chocolate in her mouth. She swished and then swallowed the mass of milk, sighing as it went down into her soft stomach.
"So Mr. Malfoy, what are you doing out of bed?" Ginny leaned back on the island counter and pulled herself up, sitting on its counter.
"Thirsty, yourself?" Draco asked, swallowing down a creeping urge to jump her, ravishing her delicate body on the counter.
"What do you think?" Ginny asked him winking. She stopped smiling and looked down at the floor ashamed.
Draco shot a concerned look at her worried features. She hardly ever looked down.
"I'm sorry about earlier." Ginny told him while squeezing her hands together.
"So am I." Draco sighed and took a step away from her.
As if a sudden change over took him by stepping back, his face took its mask and his mind flashed black. He was back in the cage, in the corner cold and shaking. They were coming for him again.
"Draco?" Ginny stepped forward placing a hand on his cheek.
Draco jumped at her hand and his breathing had increased to a harsh pattern.
"Are you alright?" Ginny asked. He had paled and looked almost lost in that dark mask of his. "Draco ..tell me what happened."
Draco looked at her and around the kitchen. It wasn't right. She shouldn't be in a Malfoy house and much less drinking out of his milk carton. She shouldn't be asking him if he was alright, or if he would tell her what happened. Most of all she shouldn't have that damn book.
He sighed and turned walking out of the room. Ginny's stared at him and understood. They had their issues. Now they had to fight them off, neither of them strong enough to fight them off alone.
"Draco.. Oh Draco." Ginny whispered as a tear slipped down her cheek. She slowly walked over to the fridge and grabbed an apple making her way back up to her room.
Lying on her bed she pulled out his journal. She was beginning to regret ever fighting for the thing. She finally saw his life, his thoughts, and she wasn't sure if she wanted to read any more. She laid it in front of her and sighed, opening it to the page she left off on.
'It's so dark. Oh Merlin so dark.
They barrage me questions about Deatheaters. I do not think Dumbledore knows about this place in the back of Azkaban. They use unforgivables to get information, twenty four hours a day, if I last that long, I hear the screams of men, calling their hopes. I myself remain quiet. They come again, I have to go.'
Ginny felt a pain in her closing throat as she turned the page to read on.
'It's been 10 months. I find myself cursing everything. I look around this damn hell hole and I wish that I had never been born. I am innocent. I should be freed but the damnable people here believe me a guilty man. I did nothing wrong. My entire life I have been beaten for my wrong doings. And again I am so. I do not like it here nor do I like myself. I think I scream out now like the other men. But I do not call to any one for I have no one. I have no hope. I find myself falling in love with a false image of Ginevra, oh but a rose could smell as sweet.'
Ginny's eyes teared and she turned the page dreading what might come next.
'It has been a year and 4 months that I have been here. I think they will never let me leave. I do not call myself Draco Malfoy any more for that is not what I am. A name is given to a man, which I am not. I am but a body living dead. I guess I should stay put, stop trying to free myself of this confinement that is called a cell. Every try of an escape and they deprive me of food for a week. I am becoming thinner by day, as I tried to escape 6 times already in the time of 2 months. I don't miss the food; it was never good to begin with. I am not one for roach infested stale bread and rusty muck water. I do not know who runs this place, but it is certain that he is a ruthless man. I an innocent man am being purged for my 'sinful ways'.
From the day that they found me, to the one I was born I have been purged. So far it has done nothing much. My mother used to beat me late into the summer nights; I was never good enough for her, or my father. My father took part in the purging as well. I was male so therefore I had 'sinful thoughts' and 'hot nights' about his wife; which by the way is my mother. They were sick while I lived there, beating me daily, much like the place here. At least the food was better.
I am taken into a dark room and thrown into a wall. A man in a mask approaches me with his wand held tightly in his hand.
'Tell me, where is he.' He yells at me just like every day. My response doesn't change, for I do not know where the moldy old Potter obsessed man is, but I know where she is.
'She is where the orchids bloom and the grass grows wild. She breathes into the dew of the morning, kissing the sun with her ripe rose lips. She smiles into the wind listening to howl of the moon where the light dances upon her skin. She lives.' They beat me before I can complete it all but I finish while they work to beat me so I bleed internally.
I wish I could just die so to meet my angle waiting day and night; as the sun kisses her and the orchids scent antagonize her senses as she waits until the sun leaves and the moon arises. When the moon arises she bathes in its basking light. I love her though I know she's not real. She is my imagination of someone. I am alone and I have no one.
This girl, this woman, I met just a few moments ago it seems has become my one thought, and my hope. She is the one I scream out to. But not with her name. I would die for my dream. Dream. She is nothing but a hope, a thought of mine that came from this journal.
Yes. I am alone, she would not want me. She doesn't even know of my whereabouts nor does she care. I have failed myself and her. She deserves better, that of which is not me. I am but a guilty deatheater. Unbranded, untouched, unloved and un-guilty. I shall die a virgin in a block cell with horny homosexuals always at me.
Yes this is the life for a Malfoy.'
Ginny slammed the book shut and threw it up against the wall. She couldn't be that girl, where the orchids bloom and the grass grows wild. She had never kissed the dew of the morning and she would be damned if she did. He held her with such expectations that she was a goddess, when she was just trying to get by in life. Yes, she lived but that's all.
Ginny stood from the bed and walked to her door, touching it softly with her hand shaking.
Life is deciphered by the choices that people make, and those choices hold consequences. We not only have to deal with making the choice but living threw the consequence.
She jiggled her bedroom door handle and walked out of it and stopped in front of Draco's door. Ginny balled her fist and made to knock but stopped and paced the hallway, unsure of herself and thinking. So many things could go wrong.
As if that one statement blared into her head, Ginny went to his door knocking on it with all her strength.
"Come in." Draco called out. Ginny stepped into the dark room. It was pitch black as she walked and she stopped halfway in the room.
"What do you need?" his voice asked tiredly.
Ginny walked over to his bed and as her eyes adjusted, she could make out his confused, sleep stricken face. She leaned forward and kissed his lips questioningly and made to pull back but Draco's arms snaked around her waist and pulled her down on top of his warm covers, kissing and exploring her mouth. Ginny pulled back, staying in his arms.
"I want to know you." Ginny whispered. "Let me into your heart Draco."
"You already know so much. I could not bear for you to know the worst of my life, yet you already know much." He replied.
"Draco...I want you to make love to me." Ginny whispered into his ear.
Draco's eyes searched her face threw the darkness. Ginny leaned forward kissing his lips to help make up his mind.
Draco laid her next to him and slowly removed her top...
To be continued.
A/N- Tee hee hee! I know you hate me right now. :) AHAHAH! Next chapter loves.
Riauna- Thanks! Yeah, I always feel kinda bad for him.... :(
Americasweetie- Thank you! Glad you like it... wow... I did a bit more now than a kiss, next chapter will be fun....Sigh
jen-6089- Thanks! YOU ROCK MY SOCKS GIRL! Tee hee hee! THANKS so much for your reviews...I LOVE them!
AnniBug - Thank you! Ugly Brute will be identified in the Christmas Massacre that I have planed. Ha. That says a lot right? ;) ! Yeah, I don't care for Lucius to much...he sucks.
Sailor Catastrophe- Thanks! Are you completely insane that I updated so late? I think you have my Aim but if you don't it's on my profile thingy! :) Gimme a shout out and I'll let you in on my secrets!
GrednForge - Thank you! No, not Harry.... I have to say you aren't even close. HA! Does that help? I'm glad you would be mean to Harry if it was him in my story, but it's not him!
Emmy Hart- Thanks! Don't go in that Coma yet! IM me on AOL AIM and I'll hook you up! :) but if you can wait... Ugly Brute will be identified in the Christmas Massacre that I have planed.
Kyra4 - Thank you! Yeah, my grandmother was abused and she kept going back to him....I'll never understand why she did, but it's all good now. I'm glad that someone likes the journal; it was a spur of the moment! :)
Sammie Tonks- Thanks! I'm really glad that you like what I'm doing! YAY! I'm doing something right! happy dance
mixed - Thank you! I know you little hoe bag! Lol! Just messing love! YOU KNOW YOU ROCK THESE SOCKS! points to socks
Hayley Potter- Thanks! I try to do a lot of dialogue but I don't want to make this story like the others so I have a journal. Just give me time.
Blue Rain1 - Thank you! Yeah, at every review I get all giddy and smiling and promise to update VERY soon in my head and it ends up taking me like 3 weeks. It's depressing. I love to write.
TrulyLovly - Thanks! I love reading your reviews! Always so positive! Thanks love!
Elenya1 - Thank you! I'm trying to kinda get the Draco feel in the entries! :) thanks!
WhiteRosePetaL- Thanks! Here you are love!
lavenderab - Thank you! Glad you like!
SicDreamsInc- Thanks! YOU'RE SO AWESOME! Love all the reviews! :) So much happyness to see all your reviews and want to update! :) Here you go girl! This is what I gots for you so far! I'll update soon!
REVIEW! :) Thanks! –MelissaAdams-
Ginny walked down to the kitchens slowly savoring the walk and the empty quietness that surrounded the house which answered by Malfoy Manor. She opened the kitchen door to see Draco Malfoy in all his glory, drinking out of the milk carton and squirting chocolate syrup in his mouth, swishing it around.
"Mmm." Ginny hummed, almost laughing as he jumped, visibly startled. "I love chocolate milk."
"Yeah, well, we're out." Draco spat angrily at her.
Ginny smiled at his defensive mode. She slowly and carefully walked over to him and grabbed the milk carton and chocolate squirt bottle out of his strong hands.
"What are you doing?" Draco asked in a harsh whisper.
Ginny took a big swig of milk, holing it in her mouth carefully. She leaned her head back and squeezed the bottle, trying to get the syrup in her mouth; failing miserably. It slithered down her cheek and she laughed with a hand over her mouth so not to become a human milk fountain.
Draco laughed and smiled widely at her.
"Lean your head back." He told her, grabbing the syrup bottle. Ginny complied as he squirted the chocolate in her mouth. She swished and then swallowed the mass of milk, sighing as it went down into her soft stomach.
"So Mr. Malfoy, what are you doing out of bed?" Ginny leaned back on the island counter and pulled herself up, sitting on its counter.
"Thirsty, yourself?" Draco asked, swallowing down a creeping urge to jump her, ravishing her delicate body on the counter.
"What do you think?" Ginny asked him winking. She stopped smiling and looked down at the floor ashamed.
Draco shot a concerned look at her worried features. She hardly ever looked down.
"I'm sorry about earlier." Ginny told him while squeezing her hands together.
"So am I." Draco sighed and took a step away from her.
As if a sudden change over took him by stepping back, his face took its mask and his mind flashed black. He was back in the cage, in the corner cold and shaking. They were coming for him again.
"Draco?" Ginny stepped forward placing a hand on his cheek.
Draco jumped at her hand and his breathing had increased to a harsh pattern.
"Are you alright?" Ginny asked. He had paled and looked almost lost in that dark mask of his. "Draco ..tell me what happened."
Draco looked at her and around the kitchen. It wasn't right. She shouldn't be in a Malfoy house and much less drinking out of his milk carton. She shouldn't be asking him if he was alright, or if he would tell her what happened. Most of all she shouldn't have that damn book.
He sighed and turned walking out of the room. Ginny's stared at him and understood. They had their issues. Now they had to fight them off, neither of them strong enough to fight them off alone.
"Draco.. Oh Draco." Ginny whispered as a tear slipped down her cheek. She slowly walked over to the fridge and grabbed an apple making her way back up to her room.
Lying on her bed she pulled out his journal. She was beginning to regret ever fighting for the thing. She finally saw his life, his thoughts, and she wasn't sure if she wanted to read any more. She laid it in front of her and sighed, opening it to the page she left off on.
'It's so dark. Oh Merlin so dark.
They barrage me questions about Deatheaters. I do not think Dumbledore knows about this place in the back of Azkaban. They use unforgivables to get information, twenty four hours a day, if I last that long, I hear the screams of men, calling their hopes. I myself remain quiet. They come again, I have to go.'
Ginny felt a pain in her closing throat as she turned the page to read on.
'It's been 10 months. I find myself cursing everything. I look around this damn hell hole and I wish that I had never been born. I am innocent. I should be freed but the damnable people here believe me a guilty man. I did nothing wrong. My entire life I have been beaten for my wrong doings. And again I am so. I do not like it here nor do I like myself. I think I scream out now like the other men. But I do not call to any one for I have no one. I have no hope. I find myself falling in love with a false image of Ginevra, oh but a rose could smell as sweet.'
Ginny's eyes teared and she turned the page dreading what might come next.
'It has been a year and 4 months that I have been here. I think they will never let me leave. I do not call myself Draco Malfoy any more for that is not what I am. A name is given to a man, which I am not. I am but a body living dead. I guess I should stay put, stop trying to free myself of this confinement that is called a cell. Every try of an escape and they deprive me of food for a week. I am becoming thinner by day, as I tried to escape 6 times already in the time of 2 months. I don't miss the food; it was never good to begin with. I am not one for roach infested stale bread and rusty muck water. I do not know who runs this place, but it is certain that he is a ruthless man. I an innocent man am being purged for my 'sinful ways'.
From the day that they found me, to the one I was born I have been purged. So far it has done nothing much. My mother used to beat me late into the summer nights; I was never good enough for her, or my father. My father took part in the purging as well. I was male so therefore I had 'sinful thoughts' and 'hot nights' about his wife; which by the way is my mother. They were sick while I lived there, beating me daily, much like the place here. At least the food was better.
I am taken into a dark room and thrown into a wall. A man in a mask approaches me with his wand held tightly in his hand.
'Tell me, where is he.' He yells at me just like every day. My response doesn't change, for I do not know where the moldy old Potter obsessed man is, but I know where she is.
'She is where the orchids bloom and the grass grows wild. She breathes into the dew of the morning, kissing the sun with her ripe rose lips. She smiles into the wind listening to howl of the moon where the light dances upon her skin. She lives.' They beat me before I can complete it all but I finish while they work to beat me so I bleed internally.
I wish I could just die so to meet my angle waiting day and night; as the sun kisses her and the orchids scent antagonize her senses as she waits until the sun leaves and the moon arises. When the moon arises she bathes in its basking light. I love her though I know she's not real. She is my imagination of someone. I am alone and I have no one.
This girl, this woman, I met just a few moments ago it seems has become my one thought, and my hope. She is the one I scream out to. But not with her name. I would die for my dream. Dream. She is nothing but a hope, a thought of mine that came from this journal.
Yes. I am alone, she would not want me. She doesn't even know of my whereabouts nor does she care. I have failed myself and her. She deserves better, that of which is not me. I am but a guilty deatheater. Unbranded, untouched, unloved and un-guilty. I shall die a virgin in a block cell with horny homosexuals always at me.
Yes this is the life for a Malfoy.'
Ginny slammed the book shut and threw it up against the wall. She couldn't be that girl, where the orchids bloom and the grass grows wild. She had never kissed the dew of the morning and she would be damned if she did. He held her with such expectations that she was a goddess, when she was just trying to get by in life. Yes, she lived but that's all.
Ginny stood from the bed and walked to her door, touching it softly with her hand shaking.
Life is deciphered by the choices that people make, and those choices hold consequences. We not only have to deal with making the choice but living threw the consequence.
She jiggled her bedroom door handle and walked out of it and stopped in front of Draco's door. Ginny balled her fist and made to knock but stopped and paced the hallway, unsure of herself and thinking. So many things could go wrong.
As if that one statement blared into her head, Ginny went to his door knocking on it with all her strength.
"Come in." Draco called out. Ginny stepped into the dark room. It was pitch black as she walked and she stopped halfway in the room.
"What do you need?" his voice asked tiredly.
Ginny walked over to his bed and as her eyes adjusted, she could make out his confused, sleep stricken face. She leaned forward and kissed his lips questioningly and made to pull back but Draco's arms snaked around her waist and pulled her down on top of his warm covers, kissing and exploring her mouth. Ginny pulled back, staying in his arms.
"I want to know you." Ginny whispered. "Let me into your heart Draco."
"You already know so much. I could not bear for you to know the worst of my life, yet you already know much." He replied.
"Draco...I want you to make love to me." Ginny whispered into his ear.
Draco's eyes searched her face threw the darkness. Ginny leaned forward kissing his lips to help make up his mind.
Draco laid her next to him and slowly removed her top...
To be continued.
A/N- Tee hee hee! I know you hate me right now. :) AHAHAH! Next chapter loves.
Riauna- Thanks! Yeah, I always feel kinda bad for him.... :(
Americasweetie- Thank you! Glad you like it... wow... I did a bit more now than a kiss, next chapter will be fun....Sigh
jen-6089- Thanks! YOU ROCK MY SOCKS GIRL! Tee hee hee! THANKS so much for your reviews...I LOVE them!
AnniBug - Thank you! Ugly Brute will be identified in the Christmas Massacre that I have planed. Ha. That says a lot right? ;) ! Yeah, I don't care for Lucius to much...he sucks.
Sailor Catastrophe- Thanks! Are you completely insane that I updated so late? I think you have my Aim but if you don't it's on my profile thingy! :) Gimme a shout out and I'll let you in on my secrets!
GrednForge - Thank you! No, not Harry.... I have to say you aren't even close. HA! Does that help? I'm glad you would be mean to Harry if it was him in my story, but it's not him!
Emmy Hart- Thanks! Don't go in that Coma yet! IM me on AOL AIM and I'll hook you up! :) but if you can wait... Ugly Brute will be identified in the Christmas Massacre that I have planed.
Kyra4 - Thank you! Yeah, my grandmother was abused and she kept going back to him....I'll never understand why she did, but it's all good now. I'm glad that someone likes the journal; it was a spur of the moment! :)
Sammie Tonks- Thanks! I'm really glad that you like what I'm doing! YAY! I'm doing something right! happy dance
mixed - Thank you! I know you little hoe bag! Lol! Just messing love! YOU KNOW YOU ROCK THESE SOCKS! points to socks
Hayley Potter- Thanks! I try to do a lot of dialogue but I don't want to make this story like the others so I have a journal. Just give me time.
Blue Rain1 - Thank you! Yeah, at every review I get all giddy and smiling and promise to update VERY soon in my head and it ends up taking me like 3 weeks. It's depressing. I love to write.
TrulyLovly - Thanks! I love reading your reviews! Always so positive! Thanks love!
Elenya1 - Thank you! I'm trying to kinda get the Draco feel in the entries! :) thanks!
WhiteRosePetaL- Thanks! Here you are love!
lavenderab - Thank you! Glad you like!
SicDreamsInc- Thanks! YOU'RE SO AWESOME! Love all the reviews! :) So much happyness to see all your reviews and want to update! :) Here you go girl! This is what I gots for you so far! I'll update soon!
REVIEW! :) Thanks! –MelissaAdams-