Chapter 6- Making up
Narcissa felt the tension at dinner. When Lucius reached out to touch Alexia's hand, she pulled it away and sighed.
'He told her.'
Narcissa was confused about the whole 'love thing' between them. She knew that things wouldn't be the same, and she found herself wishing she didn't care. Over the next 2 weeks, she knew, Alexia didn't speak to Lucius. She didn't let him touch her or kiss her. Narcissa noticed Lucius' mood was changing again. He was becoming darker, his eyes lustful and his voice deeper. He didn't speak and he spent less time around the house. Anytime he left, she heard Alexia crying in her room. One day it was all too much for the poor girl, she ran out of the house, out into the waiting storm.
"Where is she?"
Narcissa didn't turn around. She had been staring out the window for the past 2 hours, the rain hadn't quit, and Alexia hadn't returned.
"She's in the rain. Washing you away."
She felt his breath on her neck and tensed, then he turned and walked out.
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Dark clouds were rolling in. Alexia waited in anticipation for the rain to fall. It was the only thing that could make her feel alive. Thunder rolled and she didn't move an inch. She waited for the first raindrop. The rain came down all at once. Cool, calming, rain. She tilted her head back and closed her eyes as the drops beat against her sore eyes. Her heart felt light, she smiled and tasted the sweet water seeping in through her lips. There was nothing else now. She took off her shoes and then she danced. She danced in her flowing navy blue dress under the rain and clouds. She spun and kicked and flipped, her hair whipped around her face and she laughed. Then she fell onto the ground and laughed again. It didn't make sense, nothing did, but she was happy.
'God's gift....the rain...'
She wrapped her arms around her stomach and felt warm. The rain covered her and washed everything away. She felt safe again.
'And you're the greatest gift of all...'
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Lucius watched her from behind a tree. He wanted to go over to her, to kiss her, hold her and beg her to forgive him. For what? He didn't know. He just hoped to make things good for them again. He was hidden in shadows and covered against the rain by his Death Eater cloak. He saw her smile and he smiled himself. He hadn't see her smile for two weeks. Alexia took off her shoes and began to move. Her hands first, then her feet and then all together into a senseless, but strangely graceful, dance. Then she seemed to transform before him, into a child. She kicked and spun around. She flipped and then she fell. He heard her laugher rise above the storm as she lay on the wet grass. Her hands were wrapped around her stomach and she lay on the ground still. He moved out of the shadows and walked towards her. He looked down at her, she sensed him and opened her eyes, but she had already known it was him. He leaned down and kneeled before her. She pulled herself up on her elbows and looked at him.
"What do you want?"
"To talk to you."
He pulled his hood back and leaned closer to her. Her cheeks were flushed, he touched her face and she didn't pull back.
"About what? I don't need to know anything else about you do I?"
She rose an eyebrow sarcastically at him. He loved that look on her and smiled.
"What's so funny?"
Lucius bit his lip and shook his head wryly.
"You're not mad at me....you may have been...but you're not anymore."
Alexia looked up at him through narrowed eyes.
"What makes you think that?"
"This."
He stole a kiss and pulled back. She opened her eyes after the kiss and blinked. The sweet rain drops were on her lips. He leaned down again. She kissed him back this time and ran a hand through his wet hair. He pulled back and lay down next to her on the grass. She turned to him and looked into his eyes.
"Why?"
"I don't know...its not...its not about killing...as much as it is about purifying our world."
"Its their world too. And what about muggle-born wizards? They're still like us."
He pulled a strand of hair from her face and put it in his mouth. She smiled and took it back.
"Don't eat my hair."
Lucius smiled back. He stared into her eyes for a moment.
"I never told you how happy I was we're having a baby."
Alexia lowered her eyes and smiled.
"Really?"
He nodded.
"So you'll leave them?"
"I can't."
"Why?"
"They'll kill me, before they let me go."
Alexia lowered her eyes.
"Oh. Well...that doesn't seem fair."
Lucius sighed.
"It doesn't have to be."
The storm drew closer and the rain poured down harder on them. Alexia looked up at the sky and he looked up with her. Then he looked at her, he caressed her arm until she turned to him with a questioning look.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Just trying to memorize you."
Alexia smiled shyly.
"Well, why would you do something like that?"
"I don't know...maybe so that even when I'm not near you...I can think of you."
He pulled her close and kissed her softly.
"I love you Lexy."
"I love you too."
She whispered back to him. He made love to her in the rain. They combined their bodies with nature and their voices echoed the thunder. It was senseless but they felt everything in nature was on their side. The rain didn't stop beating down on them, it hit his back full force as he stared down at her. Her hair was covered in mud, his wand might have rolled away somewhere but everything was perfect and he never wanted it to end.
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The next day Alexia opened her eyes at the glaring sunlight. She looked beside her and there was Lucius. They were covered by his cloak. She gasped when she realized they were undressed in the grass. It took her a while to remember what had happened. She smiled and bit her lip then snapped out of it. She shook him a little and he awoke.
"Lucius...we're in the backyard...we're wet and dirty...wake up."
Lucius grinned groggily.
"Yeah...and it was awesome..."
Alexia laughed and pushed him playfully. He took her hand in his and kissed it like he had the first time they had met.
"I really think we should go back."
Lucius pulled her back under the coolness of his cloak.
"Not yet."
He smiled and kissed her again.
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The morning dew seemed to be attaching itself to her hair. He looked down at her and pulled a hand out from under her to caress her face.
"I love you."
He kissed her nose down to her lips.
"I love you so much."
"I love you too."
She ran her hands through his hair and, as always, he melted in her hands.
"And it kills me."
Lucius opened his eyes and looked at her.
"What?"
"I just....I wonder when you're gonna come through with that marriage thing."
"Oh."
'What now? I can't tell her I can't marry her.'
"But if you can't, I understand completely...I mean, you have a very high profile marriage...and I...I'm just I'm your..."
"Best friend. And lover. And the most important person in my life."
She smiled.
"I'd love to think that."
"Then do."
Lucius sighed.
"Okay...lets get back now."
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Alexia and Narcissa became close enough to talk about Lucius. Narcissa was able to identify with her in her issues about Lucius being a Death Eater.
"I'm sure he's safe."
"I hope so."
"So why don't you sit down and we'll talk. You shouldn't stress so much, especially in your condition."
Alexia looked at her in surprise.
"You know?"
Narcissa smiled.
"You think I wouldn't notice?"
Alexia bit her lip. She lowered her eyes.
"I guess I did. I'm sorry."
"About what?"
Alexia sat down across from her.
"That this baby isn't yours and his."
Narcissa shook her head.
"That's something you want to share with someone you love...and I don't love him. You do."
Narcissa sighed.
"So how far along are you?"
"Three months."
"Sex dreams?"
Alexia blushed.
"Like you wouldn't believe."
Narcissa laughed.
"Who?"
"Um...I'd rather not say."
"Oh don't worry. It happens a lot to women when they're pregnant. It doesn't mean anything."
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Alexia smiled when he walked towards her. His eyes burned into hers and she felt it coming. His kiss was slow, deep and powerful. He picked her up and threw her on the bed.
"Say my name..."
He whispered as he lay his bare body over hers.
"James..."
James Potter kissed like the world would end. He kissed with all the passion he held and all the power he possessed and always left her breathless in the end. The only thing she could do was give into his ways. She couldn't kiss him back. She let him kiss her, she let his tongue move in, and she let him play with her hair roughly. She gasped when he bit into her neck and knew he wanted to leave his mark on her. It was male instinct that urged him on. He covered her mouth with his again. Despite herself she returned it and he kissed her back slowly and sensually sending shivers down her spine. He put an arm around her waist and caressed her face softly. Alexia wrapped one arm around his neck while the other ran through his hair. She looked up at him, his hazel eyes raptured her. Then his eyes began to glow a deep blood red and he laughed a cold high laugh. She tried to push him off but he held her tight and she turned her face to the side only to have him swoop down on her neck and bite hard.
"Oh my God!"
She screamed and jetted up from the bed.
'It was a dream...a nightmare...'
She looked beside her at Lucius who sat up with her.
"Are you okay?"
She nodded and rested her face in her hands. She was sweating.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just...I had a bad dream."
"What did you dream?"
Alexia looked at Lucius then at her hands.
"Nothing. Nothing important."
"Lex, you woke up screaming. What is it?"
"Lucius don't worry...it was a silly dream okay?"
Lucius frowned at her but she lay back down and he joined her. He stared at her for a few seconds before he tried to speak again. She stopped him.
"Just hold me."
He sighed and complied.
Narcissa felt the tension at dinner. When Lucius reached out to touch Alexia's hand, she pulled it away and sighed.
'He told her.'
Narcissa was confused about the whole 'love thing' between them. She knew that things wouldn't be the same, and she found herself wishing she didn't care. Over the next 2 weeks, she knew, Alexia didn't speak to Lucius. She didn't let him touch her or kiss her. Narcissa noticed Lucius' mood was changing again. He was becoming darker, his eyes lustful and his voice deeper. He didn't speak and he spent less time around the house. Anytime he left, she heard Alexia crying in her room. One day it was all too much for the poor girl, she ran out of the house, out into the waiting storm.
"Where is she?"
Narcissa didn't turn around. She had been staring out the window for the past 2 hours, the rain hadn't quit, and Alexia hadn't returned.
"She's in the rain. Washing you away."
She felt his breath on her neck and tensed, then he turned and walked out.
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Dark clouds were rolling in. Alexia waited in anticipation for the rain to fall. It was the only thing that could make her feel alive. Thunder rolled and she didn't move an inch. She waited for the first raindrop. The rain came down all at once. Cool, calming, rain. She tilted her head back and closed her eyes as the drops beat against her sore eyes. Her heart felt light, she smiled and tasted the sweet water seeping in through her lips. There was nothing else now. She took off her shoes and then she danced. She danced in her flowing navy blue dress under the rain and clouds. She spun and kicked and flipped, her hair whipped around her face and she laughed. Then she fell onto the ground and laughed again. It didn't make sense, nothing did, but she was happy.
'God's gift....the rain...'
She wrapped her arms around her stomach and felt warm. The rain covered her and washed everything away. She felt safe again.
'And you're the greatest gift of all...'
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Lucius watched her from behind a tree. He wanted to go over to her, to kiss her, hold her and beg her to forgive him. For what? He didn't know. He just hoped to make things good for them again. He was hidden in shadows and covered against the rain by his Death Eater cloak. He saw her smile and he smiled himself. He hadn't see her smile for two weeks. Alexia took off her shoes and began to move. Her hands first, then her feet and then all together into a senseless, but strangely graceful, dance. Then she seemed to transform before him, into a child. She kicked and spun around. She flipped and then she fell. He heard her laugher rise above the storm as she lay on the wet grass. Her hands were wrapped around her stomach and she lay on the ground still. He moved out of the shadows and walked towards her. He looked down at her, she sensed him and opened her eyes, but she had already known it was him. He leaned down and kneeled before her. She pulled herself up on her elbows and looked at him.
"What do you want?"
"To talk to you."
He pulled his hood back and leaned closer to her. Her cheeks were flushed, he touched her face and she didn't pull back.
"About what? I don't need to know anything else about you do I?"
She rose an eyebrow sarcastically at him. He loved that look on her and smiled.
"What's so funny?"
Lucius bit his lip and shook his head wryly.
"You're not mad at me....you may have been...but you're not anymore."
Alexia looked up at him through narrowed eyes.
"What makes you think that?"
"This."
He stole a kiss and pulled back. She opened her eyes after the kiss and blinked. The sweet rain drops were on her lips. He leaned down again. She kissed him back this time and ran a hand through his wet hair. He pulled back and lay down next to her on the grass. She turned to him and looked into his eyes.
"Why?"
"I don't know...its not...its not about killing...as much as it is about purifying our world."
"Its their world too. And what about muggle-born wizards? They're still like us."
He pulled a strand of hair from her face and put it in his mouth. She smiled and took it back.
"Don't eat my hair."
Lucius smiled back. He stared into her eyes for a moment.
"I never told you how happy I was we're having a baby."
Alexia lowered her eyes and smiled.
"Really?"
He nodded.
"So you'll leave them?"
"I can't."
"Why?"
"They'll kill me, before they let me go."
Alexia lowered her eyes.
"Oh. Well...that doesn't seem fair."
Lucius sighed.
"It doesn't have to be."
The storm drew closer and the rain poured down harder on them. Alexia looked up at the sky and he looked up with her. Then he looked at her, he caressed her arm until she turned to him with a questioning look.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that?"
"Just trying to memorize you."
Alexia smiled shyly.
"Well, why would you do something like that?"
"I don't know...maybe so that even when I'm not near you...I can think of you."
He pulled her close and kissed her softly.
"I love you Lexy."
"I love you too."
She whispered back to him. He made love to her in the rain. They combined their bodies with nature and their voices echoed the thunder. It was senseless but they felt everything in nature was on their side. The rain didn't stop beating down on them, it hit his back full force as he stared down at her. Her hair was covered in mud, his wand might have rolled away somewhere but everything was perfect and he never wanted it to end.
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The next day Alexia opened her eyes at the glaring sunlight. She looked beside her and there was Lucius. They were covered by his cloak. She gasped when she realized they were undressed in the grass. It took her a while to remember what had happened. She smiled and bit her lip then snapped out of it. She shook him a little and he awoke.
"Lucius...we're in the backyard...we're wet and dirty...wake up."
Lucius grinned groggily.
"Yeah...and it was awesome..."
Alexia laughed and pushed him playfully. He took her hand in his and kissed it like he had the first time they had met.
"I really think we should go back."
Lucius pulled her back under the coolness of his cloak.
"Not yet."
He smiled and kissed her again.
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The morning dew seemed to be attaching itself to her hair. He looked down at her and pulled a hand out from under her to caress her face.
"I love you."
He kissed her nose down to her lips.
"I love you so much."
"I love you too."
She ran her hands through his hair and, as always, he melted in her hands.
"And it kills me."
Lucius opened his eyes and looked at her.
"What?"
"I just....I wonder when you're gonna come through with that marriage thing."
"Oh."
'What now? I can't tell her I can't marry her.'
"But if you can't, I understand completely...I mean, you have a very high profile marriage...and I...I'm just I'm your..."
"Best friend. And lover. And the most important person in my life."
She smiled.
"I'd love to think that."
"Then do."
Lucius sighed.
"Okay...lets get back now."
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Alexia and Narcissa became close enough to talk about Lucius. Narcissa was able to identify with her in her issues about Lucius being a Death Eater.
"I'm sure he's safe."
"I hope so."
"So why don't you sit down and we'll talk. You shouldn't stress so much, especially in your condition."
Alexia looked at her in surprise.
"You know?"
Narcissa smiled.
"You think I wouldn't notice?"
Alexia bit her lip. She lowered her eyes.
"I guess I did. I'm sorry."
"About what?"
Alexia sat down across from her.
"That this baby isn't yours and his."
Narcissa shook her head.
"That's something you want to share with someone you love...and I don't love him. You do."
Narcissa sighed.
"So how far along are you?"
"Three months."
"Sex dreams?"
Alexia blushed.
"Like you wouldn't believe."
Narcissa laughed.
"Who?"
"Um...I'd rather not say."
"Oh don't worry. It happens a lot to women when they're pregnant. It doesn't mean anything."
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Alexia smiled when he walked towards her. His eyes burned into hers and she felt it coming. His kiss was slow, deep and powerful. He picked her up and threw her on the bed.
"Say my name..."
He whispered as he lay his bare body over hers.
"James..."
James Potter kissed like the world would end. He kissed with all the passion he held and all the power he possessed and always left her breathless in the end. The only thing she could do was give into his ways. She couldn't kiss him back. She let him kiss her, she let his tongue move in, and she let him play with her hair roughly. She gasped when he bit into her neck and knew he wanted to leave his mark on her. It was male instinct that urged him on. He covered her mouth with his again. Despite herself she returned it and he kissed her back slowly and sensually sending shivers down her spine. He put an arm around her waist and caressed her face softly. Alexia wrapped one arm around his neck while the other ran through his hair. She looked up at him, his hazel eyes raptured her. Then his eyes began to glow a deep blood red and he laughed a cold high laugh. She tried to push him off but he held her tight and she turned her face to the side only to have him swoop down on her neck and bite hard.
"Oh my God!"
She screamed and jetted up from the bed.
'It was a dream...a nightmare...'
She looked beside her at Lucius who sat up with her.
"Are you okay?"
She nodded and rested her face in her hands. She was sweating.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just...I had a bad dream."
"What did you dream?"
Alexia looked at Lucius then at her hands.
"Nothing. Nothing important."
"Lex, you woke up screaming. What is it?"
"Lucius don't worry...it was a silly dream okay?"
Lucius frowned at her but she lay back down and he joined her. He stared at her for a few seconds before he tried to speak again. She stopped him.
"Just hold me."
He sighed and complied.