Raven's diary II
Tonight I went all the way with Beast Boy. I decided I might try something with him after his silly display of self pity yesterday. It was silly, but I got the message. To be honest, I have been suppressing some feelings I have towards him for several months now. Of course, I need to suppress my emotions. Especially when I like someone.
If I was actually going to do-THAT-with him, I needed to be prepared. I meditated all day. I knew I would have difficulty controlling my emotions when I was with him. Meditating was difficult. For some reason, thinking of being with Beast Boy made me nervous and excited. My stomach was flip flopping, and I accidentally blew up several mugs of herbal tea during lunch time. So I meditated some more, trying to reach my inner calm. Finally, after dinner, I felt I was ready. But then I could not find Beast Boy. He finally turned up in Cyborg's room, playing some stupid computer game or something. I asked to speak with him privately, and led him to my room.
"You asked a question last night. I want to answer it for you" I said. Beast Boy didn't remember asking a question. He looked kind of tired, and somehow like he expected something. There was an odd expression on his face, and I could sense that he was feeling lots of conflicting emotions. I told him to think. "You mean the question about making out with me?" he asked. I moved closer to him. "The answer is me" I said. "I want to make out with a green guy". Then I kissed him. A glass of water on my dresser shattered. Damn!
"Kiss me", I said. Beast Boy kissed me. Kissed me pretty well, in fact. I may have been wrong about him not kissing before. Either that, or he's been practicing on his stuffed animals! I don't even want to think about that.
He kept kissing me more and more, then he stuck his tongue in my mouth. My heart beat faster; a large chunk of plaster fell from the ceiling. I needed to stop, I did not have the control of my emotions I thought I did. But I couldn't stop, not now. I thought the best thing to do was get it over with quick, to minimize the damage. I pushed Beast Boy away, pulled off my cloak, and took off my uniform. Quickly removing my bra and panties, I stepped over to Beast Boy and pulled him onto the bed. The bulge in his uniform told me he was aroused. I helped him pull off his clothes. He was much more handsome than I imagined. He has a very nice body. My stomach quivered. All the light bulbs in my room exploded. "We have to make this quick, I can't control myself for long", I said. Beast Boy jumped on top of me. He WAS quick. And obviously new at this. He might have kissed before, but sex was a new experience for him. It was good, though. Very good. Suddenly, I felt myself reaching orgasm. No! I must control it, I thought, but I could not. A tingling warmth spread through me, and we reached climax together.
Afterwards, I was frightened. I held BB tightly and braced for disaster. Surprisingly, nothing broke. I somehow managed to hold my emotions in check during our lovemaking. I must have been holding Beast Boy very tightly, however. I heard him gasp for air. I released my grip, and he looked at me gently and said "Rae, are you ok?" I nodded. "Nothing exploded," I said. BB grinned at me. "Speak for yourself!" he answered. Right then, I grasped for a minute why Beast Boy always has a dumb joke at the ready.
Before he left, I asked BB if we could do this again soon. Of course he agreed. So I guess that Beast Boy is my boyfriend! It appears that I can be with him and not destroy Titans Tower. I must use caution, however. Just writing this has made several books fall from my bookcase onto the floor.
Tonight I went all the way with Beast Boy. I decided I might try something with him after his silly display of self pity yesterday. It was silly, but I got the message. To be honest, I have been suppressing some feelings I have towards him for several months now. Of course, I need to suppress my emotions. Especially when I like someone.
If I was actually going to do-THAT-with him, I needed to be prepared. I meditated all day. I knew I would have difficulty controlling my emotions when I was with him. Meditating was difficult. For some reason, thinking of being with Beast Boy made me nervous and excited. My stomach was flip flopping, and I accidentally blew up several mugs of herbal tea during lunch time. So I meditated some more, trying to reach my inner calm. Finally, after dinner, I felt I was ready. But then I could not find Beast Boy. He finally turned up in Cyborg's room, playing some stupid computer game or something. I asked to speak with him privately, and led him to my room.
"You asked a question last night. I want to answer it for you" I said. Beast Boy didn't remember asking a question. He looked kind of tired, and somehow like he expected something. There was an odd expression on his face, and I could sense that he was feeling lots of conflicting emotions. I told him to think. "You mean the question about making out with me?" he asked. I moved closer to him. "The answer is me" I said. "I want to make out with a green guy". Then I kissed him. A glass of water on my dresser shattered. Damn!
"Kiss me", I said. Beast Boy kissed me. Kissed me pretty well, in fact. I may have been wrong about him not kissing before. Either that, or he's been practicing on his stuffed animals! I don't even want to think about that.
He kept kissing me more and more, then he stuck his tongue in my mouth. My heart beat faster; a large chunk of plaster fell from the ceiling. I needed to stop, I did not have the control of my emotions I thought I did. But I couldn't stop, not now. I thought the best thing to do was get it over with quick, to minimize the damage. I pushed Beast Boy away, pulled off my cloak, and took off my uniform. Quickly removing my bra and panties, I stepped over to Beast Boy and pulled him onto the bed. The bulge in his uniform told me he was aroused. I helped him pull off his clothes. He was much more handsome than I imagined. He has a very nice body. My stomach quivered. All the light bulbs in my room exploded. "We have to make this quick, I can't control myself for long", I said. Beast Boy jumped on top of me. He WAS quick. And obviously new at this. He might have kissed before, but sex was a new experience for him. It was good, though. Very good. Suddenly, I felt myself reaching orgasm. No! I must control it, I thought, but I could not. A tingling warmth spread through me, and we reached climax together.
Afterwards, I was frightened. I held BB tightly and braced for disaster. Surprisingly, nothing broke. I somehow managed to hold my emotions in check during our lovemaking. I must have been holding Beast Boy very tightly, however. I heard him gasp for air. I released my grip, and he looked at me gently and said "Rae, are you ok?" I nodded. "Nothing exploded," I said. BB grinned at me. "Speak for yourself!" he answered. Right then, I grasped for a minute why Beast Boy always has a dumb joke at the ready.
Before he left, I asked BB if we could do this again soon. Of course he agreed. So I guess that Beast Boy is my boyfriend! It appears that I can be with him and not destroy Titans Tower. I must use caution, however. Just writing this has made several books fall from my bookcase onto the floor.