Buffy woke up the next morning feeling so comfy and warm that she kept her
eyes shut hoping to drop of again. She just wanted to lie like this
forever, with Spike lying next to her.
She opened her eyes in spite of herself; she had to make sure it wasn't a dream. She shifted and felt Spike's arm slide of her, then turned around and came face to face with Spike. His eyes were still shut and a smile was spread across his face. Buffy returned his smile and stroked his face.
Suddenly there was a loud knock, and a creek as the door opened. Buffy looked around to see who it was.
'Sorry, Willow whispered, I didn't mean to wake you up its just breakfast is ready.'
'I was already half awake', Buffy said. Willow came over and sat on the edge of the bed.
'You two have a good night?'
'We spent the night in each other's arms......again.'
'Again?'
'Yeah we did it twice before, on the night of the final fight and the night before that.'
'Wow you lovebirds you', Willow said smiling and punching Buffy's arm lightly. Buffy smiled weakly.
'Well... er...I'll leave you to get changed, you don't want your waffles to get cold now', Willow said standing up.
Willow left the room and Buffy nudged Spike trying to wake him up, then all of a sudden she had a quick flashback of when she came down the stairs the second time after she had given the amulet to Spike.
She stood at the bottom of the stairs, there was a moment's pause in which neither of them moved but then they slowly walked to each other.
'I forgot something last time', Buffy explained. She was nervous about doing this again but she felt she had to. She moved closer to Spike and they kissed gently and warmly. When they pulled away Buffy eyes were still shut, and her lips still puckered.
'Are you sure you want to do this', Spike asked. Buffy eyes flickered open.
'Don't you want me to?'
'I dunno, I mean don't you think it takes the meaning away a bit.'
Well I just wanted things to wrap up, you know, and I couldn't just leave....you were all I could think about', Buffy said giving Spike a meaningful look. Spike looked away.
'And there was really too much going on before to start things over again and we're about to go into the hellmouth and we might not make it out, so who else would I want to spend my last moments with', Buffy added.
'And if we make it.....what then?' Spike said. Buffy thought about it for a second.
'Then we can start things over, I said before maybe when...and then you interrupted me, but Spike you need to know something.'
'Look Buffy, I really can't think about this now.....it's just too much with everything that's going on, can't we just keep things simple', Spike said, he looked as though this was costing him every ounce of effort that he had.
'I know Spike, but if we don't make it through this I'll never forgive myself, so please just let me say it before I lose my nerve.'
'Don't', Spike said through gritted teeth.
'Don't what?'
'Whatever your gonna say will make things harder...harder on us, it's......it's too late Buffy', Spike said softly, Buffy could see the pain in his eyes. She felt a horrible sinking feeling in her stomach. 'But everything is so clear now....now that I know we stand a chance.'
Spike stared at Buffy studying her, waiting for her to laugh and tell him she was just freaking out. She didn't. Now Spike didn't understand, why couldn't things be simple between them, their connection went deeper then anything he'd ever felt before, but after all they'd been through could they really make things right? Spike wanted to so badly, but he had to put Buffy first. He swallowed.
'No...Buffy you don't know how hard this is for me, but I have to be strong about this, I need to think about you and respect what you are and what you need...and...and I can't give you that, you need someone who can make you happy...and when your with them things fall into place, and (Spike took a deep breath fighting back the tears) when you look at them no one needs to say anything...because you just, you just understand each other.'
'I do.....with you, things fall into place when I'm with you, and we understand each other better than anyone else, and you've always got my back no matter what......and we really care about each other, Buffy said her voice cracking, doesn't......doesn't that mean anything to you?'
'It means everything to me, you mean everything to me, you're my world.'
'Then why throw away what we have.'
'I'm not throwing it away, I'm postponing it.....until afterwards, like you said.'
'Ok so we wait, we don't do anything until after the fight', Buffy said defiantly.
'Right', Spike agreed.
They looked at each other, and then moved forward and kissed passionately. They fell onto the bed next them.
Buffy pulled her hand away like she had been given an electric shock and Spike stirred. 'Wha.....what', Spike rubbed his eyes.
'Did I over sleep, are we going in yet?' Spike said sitting up. Spike blinked and everything came into focus.
'Oh it's you, I had a weird dream like I was seeing our last few moments together before.......before we went into the hellmouth', Spike said.
'Me too', Buffy said.
'It was probably just a coincidence', Spike said trying to sound casual. Buffy didn't say anything, she had never had a vision before and it not mean anything, and this time both her and Spike had the same vision at the same time. She didn't confess her fears to Spike, and they didn't mention a word about to it to the other guys as they had breakfast.
'So are you gonna tell me the whole story', Buffy asked Angel and Spike. They gave each other looks of great loathing.
'We still don't know much about the box that was sent to Spike, or who it was from, it's still a complete mystery....but...there was a prophecy made years and years ago....it said the vampire with a soul will shansue, which means to become human.' Buffy stared.
'So what does this mean', she said, but she already knew the answer.
'One of us will become human...a few weeks ago we thought we'd found the real thing and me and Spike fought for it.'
'And I won, so I drank from it and nothing happened', Spike finished for Angel.
'It didn't mean anything though because it wasn't the real thing so I'm still in with a chance', Angel muttered bitterly.
'We'll see about that', Spike snarled.
'Is that everything?' Buffy said over Angel and Spike's bickering. Angel shrugged.
'I guess only time will tell.'
'Yeah cos who knows, maybe tomorrow one of us will be human and cleaned from our past sins', Spike said.
'Will you give it a rest', Angel hissed. Buffy shook her head and left them to squabble.
'No need to get all up tight about it, I thought it didn't mean anything', Spike said to Angel. Angel started to walk away but couldn't contain his anger.
'Your pathetic you know that, you think you're the big man cos you beat me once, well how many times have I beat you...Drusilla, Buffy...'
'Shut up.'
'And how many more times have I helped people then you', Angel continued.
'How many times have you died to save the world....and how many times have you helped people when you didn't have a soul', Spike snapped. Angel fell silent, Spike had struck a nerve.
'At least I'm Buffy's true love.'
'Yeah that's why you're still together, you were once her true love not any more, she's moved on now.'
'Yeah but she still loves me.'
'Maybe......but love isn't always enough is it Angel, you two will never work things out cos your not meant to be, all you do is cause pain to each other and every one around you ....you will never ,NEVER be lovers.' Angel was shaking with rage now.
'And I suppose you and her will.'
'I guess only time will tell', Spike said through gritted teeth. Angel and Spike were now so close their noses were almost touching. They held each other's glare, each refusing to look away in case of showing a sign of weakness.
'Bring it on blondie bear, Angel said smirking, fight for it and then we'll see who the real champion is.' Angel turned and strode out.
She opened her eyes in spite of herself; she had to make sure it wasn't a dream. She shifted and felt Spike's arm slide of her, then turned around and came face to face with Spike. His eyes were still shut and a smile was spread across his face. Buffy returned his smile and stroked his face.
Suddenly there was a loud knock, and a creek as the door opened. Buffy looked around to see who it was.
'Sorry, Willow whispered, I didn't mean to wake you up its just breakfast is ready.'
'I was already half awake', Buffy said. Willow came over and sat on the edge of the bed.
'You two have a good night?'
'We spent the night in each other's arms......again.'
'Again?'
'Yeah we did it twice before, on the night of the final fight and the night before that.'
'Wow you lovebirds you', Willow said smiling and punching Buffy's arm lightly. Buffy smiled weakly.
'Well... er...I'll leave you to get changed, you don't want your waffles to get cold now', Willow said standing up.
Willow left the room and Buffy nudged Spike trying to wake him up, then all of a sudden she had a quick flashback of when she came down the stairs the second time after she had given the amulet to Spike.
She stood at the bottom of the stairs, there was a moment's pause in which neither of them moved but then they slowly walked to each other.
'I forgot something last time', Buffy explained. She was nervous about doing this again but she felt she had to. She moved closer to Spike and they kissed gently and warmly. When they pulled away Buffy eyes were still shut, and her lips still puckered.
'Are you sure you want to do this', Spike asked. Buffy eyes flickered open.
'Don't you want me to?'
'I dunno, I mean don't you think it takes the meaning away a bit.'
Well I just wanted things to wrap up, you know, and I couldn't just leave....you were all I could think about', Buffy said giving Spike a meaningful look. Spike looked away.
'And there was really too much going on before to start things over again and we're about to go into the hellmouth and we might not make it out, so who else would I want to spend my last moments with', Buffy added.
'And if we make it.....what then?' Spike said. Buffy thought about it for a second.
'Then we can start things over, I said before maybe when...and then you interrupted me, but Spike you need to know something.'
'Look Buffy, I really can't think about this now.....it's just too much with everything that's going on, can't we just keep things simple', Spike said, he looked as though this was costing him every ounce of effort that he had.
'I know Spike, but if we don't make it through this I'll never forgive myself, so please just let me say it before I lose my nerve.'
'Don't', Spike said through gritted teeth.
'Don't what?'
'Whatever your gonna say will make things harder...harder on us, it's......it's too late Buffy', Spike said softly, Buffy could see the pain in his eyes. She felt a horrible sinking feeling in her stomach. 'But everything is so clear now....now that I know we stand a chance.'
Spike stared at Buffy studying her, waiting for her to laugh and tell him she was just freaking out. She didn't. Now Spike didn't understand, why couldn't things be simple between them, their connection went deeper then anything he'd ever felt before, but after all they'd been through could they really make things right? Spike wanted to so badly, but he had to put Buffy first. He swallowed.
'No...Buffy you don't know how hard this is for me, but I have to be strong about this, I need to think about you and respect what you are and what you need...and...and I can't give you that, you need someone who can make you happy...and when your with them things fall into place, and (Spike took a deep breath fighting back the tears) when you look at them no one needs to say anything...because you just, you just understand each other.'
'I do.....with you, things fall into place when I'm with you, and we understand each other better than anyone else, and you've always got my back no matter what......and we really care about each other, Buffy said her voice cracking, doesn't......doesn't that mean anything to you?'
'It means everything to me, you mean everything to me, you're my world.'
'Then why throw away what we have.'
'I'm not throwing it away, I'm postponing it.....until afterwards, like you said.'
'Ok so we wait, we don't do anything until after the fight', Buffy said defiantly.
'Right', Spike agreed.
They looked at each other, and then moved forward and kissed passionately. They fell onto the bed next them.
Buffy pulled her hand away like she had been given an electric shock and Spike stirred. 'Wha.....what', Spike rubbed his eyes.
'Did I over sleep, are we going in yet?' Spike said sitting up. Spike blinked and everything came into focus.
'Oh it's you, I had a weird dream like I was seeing our last few moments together before.......before we went into the hellmouth', Spike said.
'Me too', Buffy said.
'It was probably just a coincidence', Spike said trying to sound casual. Buffy didn't say anything, she had never had a vision before and it not mean anything, and this time both her and Spike had the same vision at the same time. She didn't confess her fears to Spike, and they didn't mention a word about to it to the other guys as they had breakfast.
'So are you gonna tell me the whole story', Buffy asked Angel and Spike. They gave each other looks of great loathing.
'We still don't know much about the box that was sent to Spike, or who it was from, it's still a complete mystery....but...there was a prophecy made years and years ago....it said the vampire with a soul will shansue, which means to become human.' Buffy stared.
'So what does this mean', she said, but she already knew the answer.
'One of us will become human...a few weeks ago we thought we'd found the real thing and me and Spike fought for it.'
'And I won, so I drank from it and nothing happened', Spike finished for Angel.
'It didn't mean anything though because it wasn't the real thing so I'm still in with a chance', Angel muttered bitterly.
'We'll see about that', Spike snarled.
'Is that everything?' Buffy said over Angel and Spike's bickering. Angel shrugged.
'I guess only time will tell.'
'Yeah cos who knows, maybe tomorrow one of us will be human and cleaned from our past sins', Spike said.
'Will you give it a rest', Angel hissed. Buffy shook her head and left them to squabble.
'No need to get all up tight about it, I thought it didn't mean anything', Spike said to Angel. Angel started to walk away but couldn't contain his anger.
'Your pathetic you know that, you think you're the big man cos you beat me once, well how many times have I beat you...Drusilla, Buffy...'
'Shut up.'
'And how many more times have I helped people then you', Angel continued.
'How many times have you died to save the world....and how many times have you helped people when you didn't have a soul', Spike snapped. Angel fell silent, Spike had struck a nerve.
'At least I'm Buffy's true love.'
'Yeah that's why you're still together, you were once her true love not any more, she's moved on now.'
'Yeah but she still loves me.'
'Maybe......but love isn't always enough is it Angel, you two will never work things out cos your not meant to be, all you do is cause pain to each other and every one around you ....you will never ,NEVER be lovers.' Angel was shaking with rage now.
'And I suppose you and her will.'
'I guess only time will tell', Spike said through gritted teeth. Angel and Spike were now so close their noses were almost touching. They held each other's glare, each refusing to look away in case of showing a sign of weakness.
'Bring it on blondie bear, Angel said smirking, fight for it and then we'll see who the real champion is.' Angel turned and strode out.