'You wanna play another game?' Lindsay asked.
'No thanks' Spike replied coldly.
'We can make it more interesting and play for kittens', Lindsay said trying to convince him. Spike threw him a dirty look. 'Sorry', Lindsay murmured.
Giles speed up as he came to where Spike was supposed to be he ran up to the door and saw Lindsay was in there with him, dealing some cards. Giles hesitated then knocked on the door. Lindsay jumped out of his seat and rushed over to open it.
'Hello you here to visit Spike?' Lindsay asked at once.
'Y-yes I am actually', Giles said. Spike raised his eyebrows, out of all the visitors he would have expected he might get Giles certainly weren't one of them. Lindsay moved out of the way to let Giles in and waited by the door for Giles to go over and speak to Spike but Giles remained where he was.
'I er I would prefer to speak to him alone if that's all right', Giles said to Lindsay. Lindsay smile faltered but he didn't argue and reluctantly left the room. As soon as he'd gone Giles came over and sat next to Spike. Spike waited with baited breath for what Giles was about to say. Giles was having trouble finding the right words.
'Well first of, I want to say I was wrong about you and Buffy', Giles said finally. Spike perched up listening intently.
'You two do need each other and I was stupid to think that she'd be better off if you left just like I was stupid when I er (Giles coughed) let Robin try to kill you.....and I want to say that I'm sorry I dumped that choice on you and made you feel guilty but something good did come out of it I realised that you would do anything for Buffy if you thought it would benefit her in the long run and erm I'm sorry I haven't been the most acceptant person about your relationship', Giles said.
'Ok......is that er all?' Spike asked.
'Yes that's all', Giles replied. He stared at Spike waiting for his reply but Spike was lost for words.
'Er well I guess I say thank you', Spike muttered. Spike and Giles sat in an awkward silence for a minute.
'What made you change your mind', Spike asked quietly after a while.
'Seeing Buffy, when your hurt she's hurt', Giles replied.
'I didn't want to be the cause of breaking her heart again the girl deserves someone who will look after her and be by her side no matter what and I guess you've proved that you'll stay by her side more than any of us', Giles added.
'Is Buffy mad at Angel?' Spike said.
'You have no idea, Giles exclaimed, I remember when I tried to kill you she was furious at me and when I said I was trying to do the right thing she said no I think you've taught me everything I need to know and then she slammed the door in my face, she was cold with me after that for ages.'
'I didn't think she loved me you know', Spike said seriously, Giles stared.
'When she told me I honestly thought she was just saying it but now.....I don't know what to think, I mean everyone keeps telling me she loves me but I haven't heard her say it.'
'Ask her because Buffy doesn't use those words lightly, she has to really mean it and I assure you no matter how much you'd done for her in the past she wouldn't be able to look you in the eye and tell you she loved you if she didn't mean it.' When Spike didn't say anything Giles shifted uncomfortably.
'She er she did look you in the eyes right?' Giles asked.
'Yeah she did, she held my hand and our hands caught fire but she wouldn't let go, then she told me but I told her she didn't but I thanked her saying it anyway, she didn't argue she just looked at me as though she was proud of me but then she had to go....', Spike replied, pain shining in his eyes.
Just then they heard someone approach the door and they looked up. It was Buffy she was staring at Spike in a meaningful way Spike could feel her pity for him. Giles cleared his throat.
'Well I better go and leave you two to talk things through', Giles said and with that turned on his heel and left them alone. Buffy slowly walked over to Spike, wordless.
'So....' Spike said trying to make a conversation. Buffy sat down next to Spike, staring at her feet as though fascinated by them. Buffy bit her lip then forced herself to look up at Spike.
'How are you feeling?' Buffy asked. Spike shrugged.
'So so, he replied, pretty much all my body aches but I'm sure that'll go away in a few days.' Buffy smiled weakly.
'I er....I talked to Angel, he won't touch you again', Buffy promised him. Spike grinned at her.
'Yeah kinda figured that by your shouting', Spike said.
'I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you up', Buffy apologised.
'Oh no I was awake anyway', Spike said quickly. Buffy nodded, the corners of her eyes were burning Spike noticed this and took her hand in his.
'Look I'm alright', Spike told her.
'I...I know it's just I'm......I dunno....I dunno what's wrong with me', Buffy said trembling. Spike frowned.
'There's nothing wrong with you', Spike said. Buffy wiped her eyes.
'I don't think I can cope with this anymore I mean you and Angel being in this big conflict and there I am in the middle of it all, you two bring out the worst in each other and I'm pretty sure most of that is because of me', Buffy said.
'Hey, Spike said lifting her head up so she was facing him, none of this is your fault me and Angel have hated each other for centuries ever since he slept with Drusilla and tried to take her away from me', Spike said spitefully.
'Yeah but you both love me and me being here is gonna cause you two beat the crap out of each other than I'd rather leave', Buffy said.
'Don't blame yourself it's between me and Angel', Spike tried to convince her but Buffy shook her head.
'No Fred said that things had being going on alright until I came back into the picture', Buffy argued.
'But we used to argue over you anyway', Spike said.
'Plus there's something your not telling me', Buffy added. Spike avoided her eyes.
'What?' Spike said pretending he didn't know what she was talking about.
'Oh come on Spike, Buffy said rolling her eyes, you avoiding me, the vampires....'
'We've told you one of us is going to shanshu if the prophecy if real and if vampires wanna help out Angel then that's not really that suspicious', Spike said. Buffy raised her eyebrows.
'Oh really well why were you trying to get away from me the other day and you said that I was the problem or something' Buffy demanded. Spike paused for a minute then decided there was no point lying to her.
'Me and Giles had a little chat he thought it would be best if I left and the things he said kinda got to me because I knew he was right but when he was here just a minute ago he told me he'd made a mistake and he thought I should stay.....for you', Spike explained, Buffy didn't know what to say, she was shocked and had so many questions but didn't know where to start.
'So you're staying?' Buffy asked making sure. Spike nodded.
'But you were going to leave?' Buffy said, hurt.
'I thought about it', Spike admitted.
'But your not now', Buffy said making sure.
'Nope I'm here to stay pet', Spike answered.
'And the vampires?', Buffy asked.
'Now that I'm not sure about that I dunno why any vampires would want to help out someone else no matter if they sired them or not', Spike said truthfully.
'They said they were friends of Drusilla and Angel killed them to torture her', Buffy said looking for a reaction from Spike.
'Drusilla well that doesn't add up why would they be here', Spike said not looking at Buffy.
'Maybe Drusilla is nearby too', Buffy suggested. Spike winced.
'Why would you think that', Spike said a little too quickly.
'I don't know but the vampire guy said that they were helping Drusilla get you back', Buffy muttered. Spike desperately tried to think of something to say but all he could think of was she suspects something, maybe she knows Drusilla is back in town.
'Spike....' Buffy said jolting him back to his senses.
'Er...yeah well....um......that's weird', Spike said lamely.
'Just a little', Buffy said sarcastically.
'So their helping out Angel and Drusilla', Spike checked.
'Yeah', Buffy replied.
'Well I can't see where I come into this', Spike said laughing nervously.
'Spike do you know anything about this....' Buffy said studying him.
'No no of course not, w-why would you say that', Spike said in a high voice that didn't belong to him. But Buffy wasn't buying it.
'I know your not telling me something I can read you like a book', Buffy said.
'Well maybe there's a very good reason I'm not telling you', Spike snapped.
'So there is something.....' Buffy said. Spike didn't answer so Buffy didn't pester him any further.
'Fine whatever don't tell me', Buffy said angrily and she turned to leave.
'Buffy wait', Spike called after her, Buffy stopped in her tracks but didn't turn around.
'Yeah', she said coolly.
'I've told you mostly everything except that I saw Drusilla she's back in town.....and that's it', Spike told her. Spike waited intently t hear whether she believed him or not, he couldn't tell her that she had to choose who was going to shanshu because of what happened to Wesley when he was about to tell Buffy. Then it hit Spike, why hadn't Buffy mentioned anything about that before she'd been there when Lord Vargner had made Wesley fall out of the window.
'Spike are you alright?' Buffy asked noticing something was up. Spike's mouth was half open.
'I....I just remembered something I need to talk to Angel now', Spike said and he ran out of the room leaving Buffy feeling even more confused.
'No thanks' Spike replied coldly.
'We can make it more interesting and play for kittens', Lindsay said trying to convince him. Spike threw him a dirty look. 'Sorry', Lindsay murmured.
Giles speed up as he came to where Spike was supposed to be he ran up to the door and saw Lindsay was in there with him, dealing some cards. Giles hesitated then knocked on the door. Lindsay jumped out of his seat and rushed over to open it.
'Hello you here to visit Spike?' Lindsay asked at once.
'Y-yes I am actually', Giles said. Spike raised his eyebrows, out of all the visitors he would have expected he might get Giles certainly weren't one of them. Lindsay moved out of the way to let Giles in and waited by the door for Giles to go over and speak to Spike but Giles remained where he was.
'I er I would prefer to speak to him alone if that's all right', Giles said to Lindsay. Lindsay smile faltered but he didn't argue and reluctantly left the room. As soon as he'd gone Giles came over and sat next to Spike. Spike waited with baited breath for what Giles was about to say. Giles was having trouble finding the right words.
'Well first of, I want to say I was wrong about you and Buffy', Giles said finally. Spike perched up listening intently.
'You two do need each other and I was stupid to think that she'd be better off if you left just like I was stupid when I er (Giles coughed) let Robin try to kill you.....and I want to say that I'm sorry I dumped that choice on you and made you feel guilty but something good did come out of it I realised that you would do anything for Buffy if you thought it would benefit her in the long run and erm I'm sorry I haven't been the most acceptant person about your relationship', Giles said.
'Ok......is that er all?' Spike asked.
'Yes that's all', Giles replied. He stared at Spike waiting for his reply but Spike was lost for words.
'Er well I guess I say thank you', Spike muttered. Spike and Giles sat in an awkward silence for a minute.
'What made you change your mind', Spike asked quietly after a while.
'Seeing Buffy, when your hurt she's hurt', Giles replied.
'I didn't want to be the cause of breaking her heart again the girl deserves someone who will look after her and be by her side no matter what and I guess you've proved that you'll stay by her side more than any of us', Giles added.
'Is Buffy mad at Angel?' Spike said.
'You have no idea, Giles exclaimed, I remember when I tried to kill you she was furious at me and when I said I was trying to do the right thing she said no I think you've taught me everything I need to know and then she slammed the door in my face, she was cold with me after that for ages.'
'I didn't think she loved me you know', Spike said seriously, Giles stared.
'When she told me I honestly thought she was just saying it but now.....I don't know what to think, I mean everyone keeps telling me she loves me but I haven't heard her say it.'
'Ask her because Buffy doesn't use those words lightly, she has to really mean it and I assure you no matter how much you'd done for her in the past she wouldn't be able to look you in the eye and tell you she loved you if she didn't mean it.' When Spike didn't say anything Giles shifted uncomfortably.
'She er she did look you in the eyes right?' Giles asked.
'Yeah she did, she held my hand and our hands caught fire but she wouldn't let go, then she told me but I told her she didn't but I thanked her saying it anyway, she didn't argue she just looked at me as though she was proud of me but then she had to go....', Spike replied, pain shining in his eyes.
Just then they heard someone approach the door and they looked up. It was Buffy she was staring at Spike in a meaningful way Spike could feel her pity for him. Giles cleared his throat.
'Well I better go and leave you two to talk things through', Giles said and with that turned on his heel and left them alone. Buffy slowly walked over to Spike, wordless.
'So....' Spike said trying to make a conversation. Buffy sat down next to Spike, staring at her feet as though fascinated by them. Buffy bit her lip then forced herself to look up at Spike.
'How are you feeling?' Buffy asked. Spike shrugged.
'So so, he replied, pretty much all my body aches but I'm sure that'll go away in a few days.' Buffy smiled weakly.
'I er....I talked to Angel, he won't touch you again', Buffy promised him. Spike grinned at her.
'Yeah kinda figured that by your shouting', Spike said.
'I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you up', Buffy apologised.
'Oh no I was awake anyway', Spike said quickly. Buffy nodded, the corners of her eyes were burning Spike noticed this and took her hand in his.
'Look I'm alright', Spike told her.
'I...I know it's just I'm......I dunno....I dunno what's wrong with me', Buffy said trembling. Spike frowned.
'There's nothing wrong with you', Spike said. Buffy wiped her eyes.
'I don't think I can cope with this anymore I mean you and Angel being in this big conflict and there I am in the middle of it all, you two bring out the worst in each other and I'm pretty sure most of that is because of me', Buffy said.
'Hey, Spike said lifting her head up so she was facing him, none of this is your fault me and Angel have hated each other for centuries ever since he slept with Drusilla and tried to take her away from me', Spike said spitefully.
'Yeah but you both love me and me being here is gonna cause you two beat the crap out of each other than I'd rather leave', Buffy said.
'Don't blame yourself it's between me and Angel', Spike tried to convince her but Buffy shook her head.
'No Fred said that things had being going on alright until I came back into the picture', Buffy argued.
'But we used to argue over you anyway', Spike said.
'Plus there's something your not telling me', Buffy added. Spike avoided her eyes.
'What?' Spike said pretending he didn't know what she was talking about.
'Oh come on Spike, Buffy said rolling her eyes, you avoiding me, the vampires....'
'We've told you one of us is going to shanshu if the prophecy if real and if vampires wanna help out Angel then that's not really that suspicious', Spike said. Buffy raised her eyebrows.
'Oh really well why were you trying to get away from me the other day and you said that I was the problem or something' Buffy demanded. Spike paused for a minute then decided there was no point lying to her.
'Me and Giles had a little chat he thought it would be best if I left and the things he said kinda got to me because I knew he was right but when he was here just a minute ago he told me he'd made a mistake and he thought I should stay.....for you', Spike explained, Buffy didn't know what to say, she was shocked and had so many questions but didn't know where to start.
'So you're staying?' Buffy asked making sure. Spike nodded.
'But you were going to leave?' Buffy said, hurt.
'I thought about it', Spike admitted.
'But your not now', Buffy said making sure.
'Nope I'm here to stay pet', Spike answered.
'And the vampires?', Buffy asked.
'Now that I'm not sure about that I dunno why any vampires would want to help out someone else no matter if they sired them or not', Spike said truthfully.
'They said they were friends of Drusilla and Angel killed them to torture her', Buffy said looking for a reaction from Spike.
'Drusilla well that doesn't add up why would they be here', Spike said not looking at Buffy.
'Maybe Drusilla is nearby too', Buffy suggested. Spike winced.
'Why would you think that', Spike said a little too quickly.
'I don't know but the vampire guy said that they were helping Drusilla get you back', Buffy muttered. Spike desperately tried to think of something to say but all he could think of was she suspects something, maybe she knows Drusilla is back in town.
'Spike....' Buffy said jolting him back to his senses.
'Er...yeah well....um......that's weird', Spike said lamely.
'Just a little', Buffy said sarcastically.
'So their helping out Angel and Drusilla', Spike checked.
'Yeah', Buffy replied.
'Well I can't see where I come into this', Spike said laughing nervously.
'Spike do you know anything about this....' Buffy said studying him.
'No no of course not, w-why would you say that', Spike said in a high voice that didn't belong to him. But Buffy wasn't buying it.
'I know your not telling me something I can read you like a book', Buffy said.
'Well maybe there's a very good reason I'm not telling you', Spike snapped.
'So there is something.....' Buffy said. Spike didn't answer so Buffy didn't pester him any further.
'Fine whatever don't tell me', Buffy said angrily and she turned to leave.
'Buffy wait', Spike called after her, Buffy stopped in her tracks but didn't turn around.
'Yeah', she said coolly.
'I've told you mostly everything except that I saw Drusilla she's back in town.....and that's it', Spike told her. Spike waited intently t hear whether she believed him or not, he couldn't tell her that she had to choose who was going to shanshu because of what happened to Wesley when he was about to tell Buffy. Then it hit Spike, why hadn't Buffy mentioned anything about that before she'd been there when Lord Vargner had made Wesley fall out of the window.
'Spike are you alright?' Buffy asked noticing something was up. Spike's mouth was half open.
'I....I just remembered something I need to talk to Angel now', Spike said and he ran out of the room leaving Buffy feeling even more confused.