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"Good-Byes"
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After talking with Zack for a few more hours pondering and wondering their love
lives, Rinoa decided to go back to Balamb garden and meet up with Squall to tell him
how her mission is progressing. She arrived at the garden by 1:30 pm. She went to look
for Squall around the garden. She checks his dorm and he was not there. She checked the
training center and the bridge and nobody had any idea as to where he went. It seems no
one knew where Quistis were as well.........
She passed the dorm and when on her way to check in the cafeteria, she
accidentally bumps into Zell because she was too preoccupied to her thoughts.
( Squall....... Where are you. I hope you aren't avoiding from me. I
hope you're still not mad at me for leaving you like that. I was just-I don't know what I
was thinking. I know you wouldn't avoid me....... you said you couldn't live
without-)
" Oooff! Hey man watch were you'r-e going........ Oh, it's you
Rinoa! You really gotta stop daydreaming about Squall like that. It could really get you
into a serious accident!!!" Zell sounded like he was in a hurry.
" Zell!! I was not daydreaming! I was just thinking.," Then she suddenly realized
that she hasn't asked Zell yet, " hey Zell. Speaking of thinking, I was wondering whether
you've seen Squall or not."
" Well, well, well. You see. I told cha that you were thinking of Squall!" Rinoa
gave him a sharp look then stopped teasing, " okay, okay. It's your lucky day! I saw him
inside the cafeteria. He's been there since-like 11:30! I hope he hasn't eaten the whole
cafeteria yet!"
( What's wrong Squall? You're not usually at the cafeteria because you don't like
crowds..........)
" Umm. .......Rinoa? Are you with me? Oh well-oh yeah! I
remember, I saw him with Quistis. I also heard that he is being dispatched on a mission
to-somewhere, I forgot. You wanna come with? I'm on my way there myself, you
know-to get a second helping of those delicious hot-dogs."
At this time, Rinoa was no longer listening to him once she heard his say that
Squall was with Quistis and also the mission. She started walking away without even
realizing it while Zell finally stopped talking to himself and caught up to her.
" Hey Rinoa! Man, you really know how to diss a guy. It's okay. I know the guy
you want to talk to is Squall. I'll leave ya now. I gotta get those hot- dogs!!" Zell happily
skipped away with his hands in his pockets.
( Why?)
Rinoa walked inside only to see a cafeteria filled with people and a long line up
by the hot-dog stand and Zell at the end of it, shouting. She looked around and hopefully
thought that he really wasn't with her. She walked around some more and worked her
way into the crowd. Towards the corner of the cafeteria, when the crowd was cleared, she
was shocked by what she saw.
" So, how's second-in-command been treating you. I gave you that job but I never
really get to ask you how you were doing..........." Rinoa could barely
hear their conversation. She saw the dreamy look Quistis is giving Squall. This angered
her. She slowly walked towards them pretending not to look frustrated. Squall's acute
hearing heard her footsteps and turned his attention to the sound.
Squall quickly dropped his conversation with Quistis, " ......Rinoa
you're back." He quickly stood up to give Rinoa a tight but warm hug and a kiss. Quistis'
disappointment could easily be seen, though no one did. " I've missed
you......" then kissed her again.
She separated herself from his grasp and started talking, " Squall, I wanted to talk
to you." Squall looked at her as if he was signaling her to continue, " ......in
private, if it's not too much trouble........"
He briefly glanced back to Quistis and realized what she meant, " ohh," he turned
again to the woman sitting at the table, " Quistis, could we continue our conversation
later, perhaps. It was really nice talking to you, it's been a while."
( You never really used to talk to her even when we were still
traveling......)
Quistis gathered herself together and slowly stood up. " Okay,
Squall........" She walked away with her eyes in front of her, trying her best
not to break down and cry.
Rinoa sat down to where Quistis was sitting then Squall did as well.
( He's going on a mission. I don't want to be alone........) " Squall,
how was your morning?"
" It's okay, what I want to know is how was yours. How was your very first day
on your own."
" It's okay. We already have a plan figured out. It's the usual lure- then-in-then-
catch-them-plan." Rinoa was unusually afraid to talk to Squall, afraid of the answer.
" D-do you want to tell me something?"
" Umm," Squall also seemed fidgety, " Oh yeah. I was asked by the headmaster to
go to Esthar. I need to go there for about a week or two. I was supposed to go right away
but then Quistis helped me persuade Cid to let me go tomorrow. You know, so I could
say goodbye to you." He held her hand, gently rubbing it.
Rinoa was afraid of this, " Quistis.........?"
" Oh yeah! I forgot to tell you, " it sounded like he intentionally did, " Cid
ordered us to go. We couldn't go with anyone else because everybody else was on a
different one."
Rinoa interrupted, she was no longer being held by him, " I just saw Zell a while
ago."
" Zell, well, he has sort of the same type of mission you do. He's able to easily
come back here. And you know he would not miss hot-dogs for anything!"
" Oh........."
He held her hands once more and his tone of voice became more serious, more
intimate. " Rinoa, don't worry, like you said, I'll be fine. I'll finish this job and come
back to your arms as soon as possible," he stood up and knelt beside Rinoa as if he was
going to propose, " I promise........... I'll come back to you and we will
continue being the way we always were. I promise. ......I love
you......" he simply gave Rinoa a quick kiss on the lips, afraid that anyone may
have seen that.
Rinoa simply whispered back, " I love you too......." ( you don't
know how much.........)
He stood up, " I need to go now. I need to prepare for the trip. It will be tough to
handle this with only the two of us," he then quickly changed the subject, " have you had
lunch. You should eat. You will need all the strength for tomorrow. I want you to take
care of yourself for me, I won't be able to for two weeks." He gave her another hug,
"Don't forget........" Then kissed her.
He walked away, not looking back. Rinoa continued to sit down, not eating.
( Everyone knows Quistis has always loved Squall, even in the orphanage. They
go way back. Everyone knows that she still does........does he know? He
can be absentminded at times.......it's possible.) Rinoa was again deep in
thought. She didn't hear a single sound from the crowded and noisy cafeteria. ( Am I
jealous of her? Why should I be? Squall....... loves me........he
said he did. His kiss said he did.) She didn't stop thinking about him and Quistis. She
didn't even think about Zack and her mission. She didn't care about Squall's mission, she
only cared about what would happen if..........
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Quistis left the cafeteria disappointed. She walked aimlessly around the garden
accidentally bumping into people more that a couple of times. She thought about
preparing like they planned to but she no longer felt like it. Her head too preoccupied
with thoughts of Squall. And Rinoa. And Squall being with Rinoa. All she could do is be
jealous of the remarkable relationship they are having. She thought that their relationship
is perfect, nothing can ever go wrong or come between them. She was about to
completely give up on Squall until that mission they were assigned. She had hopes now,
however, those hopes are slowly disintegrating, and slowly realizing that being with
Squall is too impossible.
After walking around the entire garden, for three whole hours, she ended up
inside the forbidden area inside the training center.
( This was where I told him that I was no longer an instructor. I told him that I had
no leadership skills. I couldn't even get a friend to listen to me........was he
even my friend or he saw me simply as an instructor, a peer. He told me to talk to a wall
if I wanted someone to listen. Heh, I actually tried that but it didn't work. I imagined I
was talking to you, it didn't work. I couldn't feel your presence there. Now my dream is
setting the stage for me and all I have is to follow through.)
She could faintly hear, in the background, couples giggling and snuggling with
each other. She felt slightly embarrassed being alone there by herself. He also felt
jealousy.
( If I am planning on doing it, I'd best do it soon.) then she remembered that this
meant stealing him away Rinoa, if she could. ( Could I do that? Am I that sick and
pathetic. I-I don't know.........)
After a few more hours, she left at 5:30 pm, she decided to walk some more. After
preparing, thinking, talking, preparing, and thinking, at 9:00pm, she decided to get a
goodnight sleep. She walked, some more, toward her dormitory. She lay down on her
bed. She was again staring at her ceiling, not realizing that tears were falling down her
cheeks. She was staring without realizing that she was now asleep.
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After mindlessly walking around the garden, Squall was also thinking about the
present with Rinoa, and the future with Quistis. He wasn't sure what he was thinking. In
some way his mind was drifting away thinking different thought at a time. There was one
the he was able to keep track of.
( Going somewhere for two weeks without Rinoa! How am I going to last that
long. It's been a while, I mean I've never been away from her for that long except when
she was unconscious. I don't think I'll be able to breath, nor live.) That was as far as Squall
could catch up with. Thinking too much does that to you.
Without realizing it, he was in his bedroom, lying down. He glances towards his
digital clock and it read 9:00 pm. His light was off and he was still wide awake. For some
reason his body didn't fell the same. It ached-for something. He closed his eyes for a
while until he heard someone trying to open his door.
His mind was saying, ( Please let it be Rinoa, please........)
Wishes do come true because Rinoa crept inside the dark room and started
talking. " Squall are you awake? I need to talk. I need to apologize to you about this
morning," ( You don't need to apologize), " I just need to think about something."
" Rinoa......... you know it's okay. It's hard not to forgive you."
Squall was softly speaking in a calming voice. He put his chin on top of her head.
Rinoa started to cry, " I-I just, wanted to say goodbye," Squall caught her tears
at the tip of his fingers. He then put his hand on her face, he held her face up, looking
deep into her eyes. " I don't want to be away from you again," Rinoa put her head on
Squall's shoulder.
" Shhhh, it's okay. I'm here, I'm here. I'll be here. I will never leave you, I
promise. Remember, I promised. Don't worry." Squall patted her back, comforting her.
She lifted herself up from his chest and looked at him
"Squall.........," She put her head against his chest. She could hear the
fast beating of his hearth. The rhythm. It was the same as hers. It gave her a weird
sensation, it calmed her.
" Don't worry, I promise........." Squall smiled at her and
slowly placed his lips onto hers as gently as possible. He caressed her back slowly and
gently. She closed her eyes and saw her dreams come true as he led her slowly onto his
bed. Rinoa was finally able to calm down and as she let herself go.
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"Good-Byes"
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After talking with Zack for a few more hours pondering and wondering their love
lives, Rinoa decided to go back to Balamb garden and meet up with Squall to tell him
how her mission is progressing. She arrived at the garden by 1:30 pm. She went to look
for Squall around the garden. She checks his dorm and he was not there. She checked the
training center and the bridge and nobody had any idea as to where he went. It seems no
one knew where Quistis were as well.........
She passed the dorm and when on her way to check in the cafeteria, she
accidentally bumps into Zell because she was too preoccupied to her thoughts.
( Squall....... Where are you. I hope you aren't avoiding from me. I
hope you're still not mad at me for leaving you like that. I was just-I don't know what I
was thinking. I know you wouldn't avoid me....... you said you couldn't live
without-)
" Oooff! Hey man watch were you'r-e going........ Oh, it's you
Rinoa! You really gotta stop daydreaming about Squall like that. It could really get you
into a serious accident!!!" Zell sounded like he was in a hurry.
" Zell!! I was not daydreaming! I was just thinking.," Then she suddenly realized
that she hasn't asked Zell yet, " hey Zell. Speaking of thinking, I was wondering whether
you've seen Squall or not."
" Well, well, well. You see. I told cha that you were thinking of Squall!" Rinoa
gave him a sharp look then stopped teasing, " okay, okay. It's your lucky day! I saw him
inside the cafeteria. He's been there since-like 11:30! I hope he hasn't eaten the whole
cafeteria yet!"
( What's wrong Squall? You're not usually at the cafeteria because you don't like
crowds..........)
" Umm. .......Rinoa? Are you with me? Oh well-oh yeah! I
remember, I saw him with Quistis. I also heard that he is being dispatched on a mission
to-somewhere, I forgot. You wanna come with? I'm on my way there myself, you
know-to get a second helping of those delicious hot-dogs."
At this time, Rinoa was no longer listening to him once she heard his say that
Squall was with Quistis and also the mission. She started walking away without even
realizing it while Zell finally stopped talking to himself and caught up to her.
" Hey Rinoa! Man, you really know how to diss a guy. It's okay. I know the guy
you want to talk to is Squall. I'll leave ya now. I gotta get those hot- dogs!!" Zell happily
skipped away with his hands in his pockets.
( Why?)
Rinoa walked inside only to see a cafeteria filled with people and a long line up
by the hot-dog stand and Zell at the end of it, shouting. She looked around and hopefully
thought that he really wasn't with her. She walked around some more and worked her
way into the crowd. Towards the corner of the cafeteria, when the crowd was cleared, she
was shocked by what she saw.
" So, how's second-in-command been treating you. I gave you that job but I never
really get to ask you how you were doing..........." Rinoa could barely
hear their conversation. She saw the dreamy look Quistis is giving Squall. This angered
her. She slowly walked towards them pretending not to look frustrated. Squall's acute
hearing heard her footsteps and turned his attention to the sound.
Squall quickly dropped his conversation with Quistis, " ......Rinoa
you're back." He quickly stood up to give Rinoa a tight but warm hug and a kiss. Quistis'
disappointment could easily be seen, though no one did. " I've missed
you......" then kissed her again.
She separated herself from his grasp and started talking, " Squall, I wanted to talk
to you." Squall looked at her as if he was signaling her to continue, " ......in
private, if it's not too much trouble........"
He briefly glanced back to Quistis and realized what she meant, " ohh," he turned
again to the woman sitting at the table, " Quistis, could we continue our conversation
later, perhaps. It was really nice talking to you, it's been a while."
( You never really used to talk to her even when we were still
traveling......)
Quistis gathered herself together and slowly stood up. " Okay,
Squall........" She walked away with her eyes in front of her, trying her best
not to break down and cry.
Rinoa sat down to where Quistis was sitting then Squall did as well.
( He's going on a mission. I don't want to be alone........) " Squall,
how was your morning?"
" It's okay, what I want to know is how was yours. How was your very first day
on your own."
" It's okay. We already have a plan figured out. It's the usual lure- then-in-then-
catch-them-plan." Rinoa was unusually afraid to talk to Squall, afraid of the answer.
" D-do you want to tell me something?"
" Umm," Squall also seemed fidgety, " Oh yeah. I was asked by the headmaster to
go to Esthar. I need to go there for about a week or two. I was supposed to go right away
but then Quistis helped me persuade Cid to let me go tomorrow. You know, so I could
say goodbye to you." He held her hand, gently rubbing it.
Rinoa was afraid of this, " Quistis.........?"
" Oh yeah! I forgot to tell you, " it sounded like he intentionally did, " Cid
ordered us to go. We couldn't go with anyone else because everybody else was on a
different one."
Rinoa interrupted, she was no longer being held by him, " I just saw Zell a while
ago."
" Zell, well, he has sort of the same type of mission you do. He's able to easily
come back here. And you know he would not miss hot-dogs for anything!"
" Oh........."
He held her hands once more and his tone of voice became more serious, more
intimate. " Rinoa, don't worry, like you said, I'll be fine. I'll finish this job and come
back to your arms as soon as possible," he stood up and knelt beside Rinoa as if he was
going to propose, " I promise........... I'll come back to you and we will
continue being the way we always were. I promise. ......I love
you......" he simply gave Rinoa a quick kiss on the lips, afraid that anyone may
have seen that.
Rinoa simply whispered back, " I love you too......." ( you don't
know how much.........)
He stood up, " I need to go now. I need to prepare for the trip. It will be tough to
handle this with only the two of us," he then quickly changed the subject, " have you had
lunch. You should eat. You will need all the strength for tomorrow. I want you to take
care of yourself for me, I won't be able to for two weeks." He gave her another hug,
"Don't forget........" Then kissed her.
He walked away, not looking back. Rinoa continued to sit down, not eating.
( Everyone knows Quistis has always loved Squall, even in the orphanage. They
go way back. Everyone knows that she still does........does he know? He
can be absentminded at times.......it's possible.) Rinoa was again deep in
thought. She didn't hear a single sound from the crowded and noisy cafeteria. ( Am I
jealous of her? Why should I be? Squall....... loves me........he
said he did. His kiss said he did.) She didn't stop thinking about him and Quistis. She
didn't even think about Zack and her mission. She didn't care about Squall's mission, she
only cared about what would happen if..........
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Quistis left the cafeteria disappointed. She walked aimlessly around the garden
accidentally bumping into people more that a couple of times. She thought about
preparing like they planned to but she no longer felt like it. Her head too preoccupied
with thoughts of Squall. And Rinoa. And Squall being with Rinoa. All she could do is be
jealous of the remarkable relationship they are having. She thought that their relationship
is perfect, nothing can ever go wrong or come between them. She was about to
completely give up on Squall until that mission they were assigned. She had hopes now,
however, those hopes are slowly disintegrating, and slowly realizing that being with
Squall is too impossible.
After walking around the entire garden, for three whole hours, she ended up
inside the forbidden area inside the training center.
( This was where I told him that I was no longer an instructor. I told him that I had
no leadership skills. I couldn't even get a friend to listen to me........was he
even my friend or he saw me simply as an instructor, a peer. He told me to talk to a wall
if I wanted someone to listen. Heh, I actually tried that but it didn't work. I imagined I
was talking to you, it didn't work. I couldn't feel your presence there. Now my dream is
setting the stage for me and all I have is to follow through.)
She could faintly hear, in the background, couples giggling and snuggling with
each other. She felt slightly embarrassed being alone there by herself. He also felt
jealousy.
( If I am planning on doing it, I'd best do it soon.) then she remembered that this
meant stealing him away Rinoa, if she could. ( Could I do that? Am I that sick and
pathetic. I-I don't know.........)
After a few more hours, she left at 5:30 pm, she decided to walk some more. After
preparing, thinking, talking, preparing, and thinking, at 9:00pm, she decided to get a
goodnight sleep. She walked, some more, toward her dormitory. She lay down on her
bed. She was again staring at her ceiling, not realizing that tears were falling down her
cheeks. She was staring without realizing that she was now asleep.
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After mindlessly walking around the garden, Squall was also thinking about the
present with Rinoa, and the future with Quistis. He wasn't sure what he was thinking. In
some way his mind was drifting away thinking different thought at a time. There was one
the he was able to keep track of.
( Going somewhere for two weeks without Rinoa! How am I going to last that
long. It's been a while, I mean I've never been away from her for that long except when
she was unconscious. I don't think I'll be able to breath, nor live.) That was as far as Squall
could catch up with. Thinking too much does that to you.
Without realizing it, he was in his bedroom, lying down. He glances towards his
digital clock and it read 9:00 pm. His light was off and he was still wide awake. For some
reason his body didn't fell the same. It ached-for something. He closed his eyes for a
while until he heard someone trying to open his door.
His mind was saying, ( Please let it be Rinoa, please........)
Wishes do come true because Rinoa crept inside the dark room and started
talking. " Squall are you awake? I need to talk. I need to apologize to you about this
morning," ( You don't need to apologize), " I just need to think about something."
" Rinoa......... you know it's okay. It's hard not to forgive you."
Squall was softly speaking in a calming voice. He put his chin on top of her head.
Rinoa started to cry, " I-I just, wanted to say goodbye," Squall caught her tears
at the tip of his fingers. He then put his hand on her face, he held her face up, looking
deep into her eyes. " I don't want to be away from you again," Rinoa put her head on
Squall's shoulder.
" Shhhh, it's okay. I'm here, I'm here. I'll be here. I will never leave you, I
promise. Remember, I promised. Don't worry." Squall patted her back, comforting her.
She lifted herself up from his chest and looked at him
"Squall.........," She put her head against his chest. She could hear the
fast beating of his hearth. The rhythm. It was the same as hers. It gave her a weird
sensation, it calmed her.
" Don't worry, I promise........." Squall smiled at her and
slowly placed his lips onto hers as gently as possible. He caressed her back slowly and
gently. She closed her eyes and saw her dreams come true as he led her slowly onto his
bed. Rinoa was finally able to calm down and as she let herself go.
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