This is one of my favourite chapters, if not my favourite because I
explain how I and a lot of spuffy fans feel about Buffy/Spike so I dedicate
this to every true spuffy shipper out there because our ship rules (
Angel and Gunn closed their eyes in despair, it was all over.
They waited for the bang of death....waiting.........waiting........but nothing. Very slowly Angel opened his eyes, hardly daring to but curiosity got the better of him....he had to know. Gunn still had his tightly shut, and his face was screwed up in anxiety but after a minute it began to lessen and he too opened his eyes.
'We're alive', was all he could say. Angel didn't reply, instead he looked around for Chris....he had vanished.
'He was lying...it wouldn't blow up Wolfram and Hart....I thought it looked a bit weird...', Angel ranted.
'Angel.....Chris is gone', Gunn said. Angel's eyes scanned the corridors for any sign of him but there was none.
'He's split, he probably ran when he dropped whatever that thing was', Angel realised.
'I'm gonna see if I can find him, he won't have got far', Gunn said and he walked off.
Buffy and Spike sat together playing on Spike's x-box.
'Ha I'm gonna beat you now', Buffy laughed as her fighter kicked Spike across the ring. But Spike's fighter was back up on his feet quite quickly.
'Ha-ha, Spike laughed, what was that you were saying?' Buffy scowled and Spike laughed again as he fighter hit Buffy's again. Buffy looked over at Spike and stared at him dreamily, smiling. This was what she wanted, to have a normal life free from worry and fear....and to spend it with Spike.
Spike stopped hitting at his joystick when he noticed Buffy wasn't even playing anymore. He looked over at her.
'What have you given up or something?' Spike asked. She didn't answer just merely smiled still in her dream state.
'What....what are you staring at?' Spike said getting paranoid. Buffy snapped out of her dream.
'Nothing...I was just.....I was just thinking that this is how it should be, you, me in front of the tele battling it out on the x-box (Buffy laughed) and just having a good time without all the fights and people dying....it makes a nice change', Buffy replied. Spike smiled in agreement and shuffled up next to her.
'Did I ever tell you just how much I love you', Spike said softly.
'Now let's see, Buffy said pretending to think, yeah I think you may have mentioned it once or twice.' Spike grinned and for a fleeting moment Buffy was sure he was about to kiss her. But he just resorted to putting his arm around her, gazing down at her, Buffy gazed back at him totally lost in his shining blue eyes. This was their moment, just like when Buffy and Spike slept in each other's arms the first time and the second time and their last goodbyes. It was like the world around them dropped away and there was just them left. Buffy didn't need her friends to understand or for it to be a perfect relationship like on films, this was something real, deep, dark and confusing but real.
Meanwhile Giles, Willow and Kennedy were having a deep conversation about what was going on.
'Maybe a spell would work, you could get into their minds and find out what's going on', Kennedy suggested.
'Mind reading....that might work', Giles said thoughtfully.
'But these are powerful demons or whatever they are and we don't know much about them so I don't think that's such a good idea, they could totally use it against me and then what?' Willow said not convinced.
'Good point', Giles said.
'Well what else are we going to do I mean how many people have we got against us we have these so called God's called Vargners then theirs this place and Dru and her bodyguard vampires', Kennedy said frustrated.
'Vampires...I think their probably our weakest link', Giles said slowly.
'You think we should take them out first?' Willow asked.
'Whoa did I miss something I thought we were dealing with the God's first I mean we have no idea what their capable of so isn't it best if we.....'
'I could go get Buffy and explain then I could do a locater spell to find them and then we can take them out', Willow went on ignoring Kennedy.
'Yes that sounds good, but why don't I tell Buffy and you can do the locator spell while I go get the old army started', Giles replied.
'Hey is anyone listening to me', Kennedy cried.
'Are you going to tell Buffy and the gang now?' Willow asked. Kennedy's arms dropped to her side and she shook her head.
'Take that as no', she muttered.
'I'm not sure where Xander is though', Giles said.
'What do mean you don't know where he is I thought......' Kennedy started.
'I'll call him on his cell phone', Willow said.
'Guys...' Kennedy said desperately, trying to get their attention.
'He did say he was thinking of travelling around the world'
'Hello can anyone explain what's.....'
'I doubt he's started that yet last I heard he was still saving up', Willow replied.
'HELLO CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!?' Kennedy yelled. Giles and Willow stared at her.
'I'm sorry did you want something?' Giles said. Kennedy gaped at him.
Buffy rested against Spike, her head against his heart. His arm was still round her and the x-box was frozen on the pause menu. Spike gently stroked her. They breathed each other's breath, totally in union and their hearts warmed each other's.
'We're going to have to get up some time', Spike said breaking the silence. Buffy stirred.
'Can't we just stay like this forever', she said sleepily. Spike looked down at her and kissed her head.
'What never moving from this spot', Spike whispered.
'mmm', Buffy replied.
'I think we'd get a bit hungry after a while', Spike laughed. Buffy smiled at him, and they sunk into each other's eyes.
'I'd forgotten how much I'd missed having you around', Buffy said softly.
'I wasn't gone that long was I....only 19 days and then I came back', Spike said.
'Yeah but I didn't see you until like 3 months afterwards', Buffy said.
'Yeah sorry about that, a lot was going on around here', Spike apologised.
'Ah forget it, all is forgiven', Buffy replied.
'You always forgive me, I don't get it', Spike said confused.
'What do you mean always, there's not much I've had to forgive you for except the rape thing but that was when you didn't have a soul so that was different', Buffy said quickly.
'But when I tried to explain to you how bad I could be you still wouldn't kill me', Spike said.
'I knew with the soul you were a good man', Buffy replied.
'I just realised I never said thank you.'
'For what knowing you were a good man?' Buffy asked frowning.
'For believing in me', Spike said. The moment got more intimate, Spike held Buffy closer to him. Buffy moved her hand up his chest until it reached his shoulder, and she turned her head so she could face him. She leaned closer, closer and closer until their noses touched and he could feel the warmth of her breath on him. Their lips brushed against each other's and Buffy put her other hand on the back of Spike's head. They got more involved in the kiss and the kiss turned into a snog. Buffy turned her body so it was more comfortable and her hand slid up his face.
They hadn't kissed since Buffy went down the stairs the second time and they could both feel the passion and the pain of not touching each other for so long. It was beautiful not one of those hello kisses that Buffy and Angel did, not one of those kisses that Buffy and soulless Spike used to do. A kiss of love, no reason for it, just a mere kiss but after all they'd been though it meant a lot that they could trust each other again and forget all the bad things that had happened and still want to be together. Buffy remembered feeling all this when they were together in the basement and they slept together in the not so literal way.
Very slowly they pulled away, both of their eyes still closed.
'Well that was nice', Buffy whispered.
'Buffy?' Buffy and Spike's eyes snapped open. It was Giles. For a minute it looked as though Giles hadn't noticed Buffy was sitting on Spike's lap but then he blinked and stared at them, completely forgetting what he was about to say. Buffy caught Spike's eye and they both shifted uncomfortably.
'Hi Giles', Buffy said not looking at him.
'Wha...' Giles mouthed, no sound came out. He cleared his throat.
'Erm is this a bad time?' Giles said.
'No...er what was it you wanted?' Buffy asked keen to keep the subject away from her and Spike.
'Oh I er I-I needed to speak to you, me and Willow had a talk and we think it's best if we take out Dru and the other two vampires first', Giles replied more awake.
'Well me and Spike already tried to take Dru out but she got away', Buffy said sliding off Spike and back onto the sofa.
'Right, but Willow's trying out a locater spell to see if we can find out where their hiding and then we can all go.'
'Ok', Buffy replied. An awkward silence fell over them as each of them pondered on what to say.
'Well I better go, I need to see if Willow's done and then try and contact Xander', Giles said finally.
'Isn't Xander staying at that hotel thingy?' Buffy asked.
'He said he wanted to travel around the world', Giles replied.
'Oh yeah he mentioned something like that on the phone to me a couple of days ago but he said he didn't have enough money yet so he was postponing for a couple of months when he was earning more', Buffy said.
'Oh so he found a job?' Giles asked.
'Um yeah he's working in that small restaurant I can't remember the name of, I think its Italian but he's not earning much, he said that if he didn't get a promotion he might go back to the Ladies Night club (Buffy laughed) and fill in for any sick male strippers again', Buffy said smiling and shaking her head.
'Male strippers?' Giles asked.
'That was years ago and still he won't tell me the story', Buffy said. Giles nodded then looked quite sick. Buffy and Spike smiled at each other.
'Ok and on that disturbing note I think I'll be off', Giles said.
Giles left the room leaving Buffy and Spike alone again.
'He's probably going to ask him about it now', Spike said shaking his head and smiling.
'Xander won't tell him he's too embarrassed.'
'Who wouldn't be? Though it's pretty obvious what happened.'
'Yeah but he wouldn't fill me in on all the juicy details', Buffy said disappointed. Spike tilted his head, smiling at her.
'What?' Buffy said, paranoid.
'Nothing....it's just your so cute', Spike said.
'Oh ok', Buffy said a little embarrassed.
Angel watched from the window. He had gone there to ask them if they had seen Chris about but had found them talking to each other and found he couldn't go in. They seemed so relaxed and happy around each other, they were smiling and laughing and making moon eyes at each other. It made Angel feel sick. He felt so isolated from them even though they were just a few metres away from him. It started to dawn on him, Buffy loved Spike. He had competition. He'd always thought that him and Buffy would always be each other's true love, the one that lasted forever but seeing them together.....maybe she really had found someone else.
Angel and Gunn closed their eyes in despair, it was all over.
They waited for the bang of death....waiting.........waiting........but nothing. Very slowly Angel opened his eyes, hardly daring to but curiosity got the better of him....he had to know. Gunn still had his tightly shut, and his face was screwed up in anxiety but after a minute it began to lessen and he too opened his eyes.
'We're alive', was all he could say. Angel didn't reply, instead he looked around for Chris....he had vanished.
'He was lying...it wouldn't blow up Wolfram and Hart....I thought it looked a bit weird...', Angel ranted.
'Angel.....Chris is gone', Gunn said. Angel's eyes scanned the corridors for any sign of him but there was none.
'He's split, he probably ran when he dropped whatever that thing was', Angel realised.
'I'm gonna see if I can find him, he won't have got far', Gunn said and he walked off.
Buffy and Spike sat together playing on Spike's x-box.
'Ha I'm gonna beat you now', Buffy laughed as her fighter kicked Spike across the ring. But Spike's fighter was back up on his feet quite quickly.
'Ha-ha, Spike laughed, what was that you were saying?' Buffy scowled and Spike laughed again as he fighter hit Buffy's again. Buffy looked over at Spike and stared at him dreamily, smiling. This was what she wanted, to have a normal life free from worry and fear....and to spend it with Spike.
Spike stopped hitting at his joystick when he noticed Buffy wasn't even playing anymore. He looked over at her.
'What have you given up or something?' Spike asked. She didn't answer just merely smiled still in her dream state.
'What....what are you staring at?' Spike said getting paranoid. Buffy snapped out of her dream.
'Nothing...I was just.....I was just thinking that this is how it should be, you, me in front of the tele battling it out on the x-box (Buffy laughed) and just having a good time without all the fights and people dying....it makes a nice change', Buffy replied. Spike smiled in agreement and shuffled up next to her.
'Did I ever tell you just how much I love you', Spike said softly.
'Now let's see, Buffy said pretending to think, yeah I think you may have mentioned it once or twice.' Spike grinned and for a fleeting moment Buffy was sure he was about to kiss her. But he just resorted to putting his arm around her, gazing down at her, Buffy gazed back at him totally lost in his shining blue eyes. This was their moment, just like when Buffy and Spike slept in each other's arms the first time and the second time and their last goodbyes. It was like the world around them dropped away and there was just them left. Buffy didn't need her friends to understand or for it to be a perfect relationship like on films, this was something real, deep, dark and confusing but real.
Meanwhile Giles, Willow and Kennedy were having a deep conversation about what was going on.
'Maybe a spell would work, you could get into their minds and find out what's going on', Kennedy suggested.
'Mind reading....that might work', Giles said thoughtfully.
'But these are powerful demons or whatever they are and we don't know much about them so I don't think that's such a good idea, they could totally use it against me and then what?' Willow said not convinced.
'Good point', Giles said.
'Well what else are we going to do I mean how many people have we got against us we have these so called God's called Vargners then theirs this place and Dru and her bodyguard vampires', Kennedy said frustrated.
'Vampires...I think their probably our weakest link', Giles said slowly.
'You think we should take them out first?' Willow asked.
'Whoa did I miss something I thought we were dealing with the God's first I mean we have no idea what their capable of so isn't it best if we.....'
'I could go get Buffy and explain then I could do a locater spell to find them and then we can take them out', Willow went on ignoring Kennedy.
'Yes that sounds good, but why don't I tell Buffy and you can do the locator spell while I go get the old army started', Giles replied.
'Hey is anyone listening to me', Kennedy cried.
'Are you going to tell Buffy and the gang now?' Willow asked. Kennedy's arms dropped to her side and she shook her head.
'Take that as no', she muttered.
'I'm not sure where Xander is though', Giles said.
'What do mean you don't know where he is I thought......' Kennedy started.
'I'll call him on his cell phone', Willow said.
'Guys...' Kennedy said desperately, trying to get their attention.
'He did say he was thinking of travelling around the world'
'Hello can anyone explain what's.....'
'I doubt he's started that yet last I heard he was still saving up', Willow replied.
'HELLO CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!?' Kennedy yelled. Giles and Willow stared at her.
'I'm sorry did you want something?' Giles said. Kennedy gaped at him.
Buffy rested against Spike, her head against his heart. His arm was still round her and the x-box was frozen on the pause menu. Spike gently stroked her. They breathed each other's breath, totally in union and their hearts warmed each other's.
'We're going to have to get up some time', Spike said breaking the silence. Buffy stirred.
'Can't we just stay like this forever', she said sleepily. Spike looked down at her and kissed her head.
'What never moving from this spot', Spike whispered.
'mmm', Buffy replied.
'I think we'd get a bit hungry after a while', Spike laughed. Buffy smiled at him, and they sunk into each other's eyes.
'I'd forgotten how much I'd missed having you around', Buffy said softly.
'I wasn't gone that long was I....only 19 days and then I came back', Spike said.
'Yeah but I didn't see you until like 3 months afterwards', Buffy said.
'Yeah sorry about that, a lot was going on around here', Spike apologised.
'Ah forget it, all is forgiven', Buffy replied.
'You always forgive me, I don't get it', Spike said confused.
'What do you mean always, there's not much I've had to forgive you for except the rape thing but that was when you didn't have a soul so that was different', Buffy said quickly.
'But when I tried to explain to you how bad I could be you still wouldn't kill me', Spike said.
'I knew with the soul you were a good man', Buffy replied.
'I just realised I never said thank you.'
'For what knowing you were a good man?' Buffy asked frowning.
'For believing in me', Spike said. The moment got more intimate, Spike held Buffy closer to him. Buffy moved her hand up his chest until it reached his shoulder, and she turned her head so she could face him. She leaned closer, closer and closer until their noses touched and he could feel the warmth of her breath on him. Their lips brushed against each other's and Buffy put her other hand on the back of Spike's head. They got more involved in the kiss and the kiss turned into a snog. Buffy turned her body so it was more comfortable and her hand slid up his face.
They hadn't kissed since Buffy went down the stairs the second time and they could both feel the passion and the pain of not touching each other for so long. It was beautiful not one of those hello kisses that Buffy and Angel did, not one of those kisses that Buffy and soulless Spike used to do. A kiss of love, no reason for it, just a mere kiss but after all they'd been though it meant a lot that they could trust each other again and forget all the bad things that had happened and still want to be together. Buffy remembered feeling all this when they were together in the basement and they slept together in the not so literal way.
Very slowly they pulled away, both of their eyes still closed.
'Well that was nice', Buffy whispered.
'Buffy?' Buffy and Spike's eyes snapped open. It was Giles. For a minute it looked as though Giles hadn't noticed Buffy was sitting on Spike's lap but then he blinked and stared at them, completely forgetting what he was about to say. Buffy caught Spike's eye and they both shifted uncomfortably.
'Hi Giles', Buffy said not looking at him.
'Wha...' Giles mouthed, no sound came out. He cleared his throat.
'Erm is this a bad time?' Giles said.
'No...er what was it you wanted?' Buffy asked keen to keep the subject away from her and Spike.
'Oh I er I-I needed to speak to you, me and Willow had a talk and we think it's best if we take out Dru and the other two vampires first', Giles replied more awake.
'Well me and Spike already tried to take Dru out but she got away', Buffy said sliding off Spike and back onto the sofa.
'Right, but Willow's trying out a locater spell to see if we can find out where their hiding and then we can all go.'
'Ok', Buffy replied. An awkward silence fell over them as each of them pondered on what to say.
'Well I better go, I need to see if Willow's done and then try and contact Xander', Giles said finally.
'Isn't Xander staying at that hotel thingy?' Buffy asked.
'He said he wanted to travel around the world', Giles replied.
'Oh yeah he mentioned something like that on the phone to me a couple of days ago but he said he didn't have enough money yet so he was postponing for a couple of months when he was earning more', Buffy said.
'Oh so he found a job?' Giles asked.
'Um yeah he's working in that small restaurant I can't remember the name of, I think its Italian but he's not earning much, he said that if he didn't get a promotion he might go back to the Ladies Night club (Buffy laughed) and fill in for any sick male strippers again', Buffy said smiling and shaking her head.
'Male strippers?' Giles asked.
'That was years ago and still he won't tell me the story', Buffy said. Giles nodded then looked quite sick. Buffy and Spike smiled at each other.
'Ok and on that disturbing note I think I'll be off', Giles said.
Giles left the room leaving Buffy and Spike alone again.
'He's probably going to ask him about it now', Spike said shaking his head and smiling.
'Xander won't tell him he's too embarrassed.'
'Who wouldn't be? Though it's pretty obvious what happened.'
'Yeah but he wouldn't fill me in on all the juicy details', Buffy said disappointed. Spike tilted his head, smiling at her.
'What?' Buffy said, paranoid.
'Nothing....it's just your so cute', Spike said.
'Oh ok', Buffy said a little embarrassed.
Angel watched from the window. He had gone there to ask them if they had seen Chris about but had found them talking to each other and found he couldn't go in. They seemed so relaxed and happy around each other, they were smiling and laughing and making moon eyes at each other. It made Angel feel sick. He felt so isolated from them even though they were just a few metres away from him. It started to dawn on him, Buffy loved Spike. He had competition. He'd always thought that him and Buffy would always be each other's true love, the one that lasted forever but seeing them together.....maybe she really had found someone else.