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"I know he didn't mean what he said." She was mumbling to herself as she

quietly hid herself. "I know he's just stressed. He wants to get home as quickly as

possible-he's not thinking straight. I'll give him his space." She was peeking out of her

hiding space to check on a group of men discussing something. Her eyes were focused on

her target and on her mission, but her mind and heart was on a whole different place: with

Squall.
"So is the 'clone' almost finished? Are you sure that it will function the same was

'she' does?" It was cloaked man who spoke.
(I wonder where he is right now? I swore to protect him, but if he wants me to

leave, I will leave. I know I cannot force him to love me, or just even notice me, but I can

still do what I can without getting in his way.) She was keenly listening to the

conversation, but her mind was thinking about something else.
"Physically, she's perfect. There's something slightly wrong with her brain waves

though. When 'she' was originally tested, her brain, on the outside, is just like any other

brain. But this clone's is different. It doesn't seem to understand the signals we are

sending 'it'. She 'understands' is, but she doesn't know how to apply herself. We're still

working on that."
(Ironic isn't it? Here I am, alone with the guy I love, but all he thinks about is the

girl waiting for him to come home. But the girl waiting for him isn't waiting at all. She's

there, hitting on another guy; of course, I don't know that, but what else would she do?

Why else did Zell's letter look so urgent. And here I am, protecting her; making sure that

he doesn't find out!!! Life is just funny sometimes, it throws you in different directions

and intersections giving you a million choices it's up to us to make choice whether to

make the right or wrong one.)
"Dr. Ozine, so far your theory is excellent, however, how good will it be when it

is actually put to use? You had better not disappoint me. 'She' is counting on me to bring

her back." Daemon was staring to get impatient.

(How do I even know I made the right one) Dr. Ozine started walking closer to

where Quistis had stationed herself. Her eyes noticed it and it quickly registered on to her

brain and pushed away all of her initial thoughts. (Oh shit! I'd better stay put!)
He started chuckling as he stopped right in front of the metallic crate the she was

hiding behind of. "Do not worry Master Daemon. So far, everything is going according to

schedule. We actually finished the clone a bit earlier than expected so we have some time

to make the proper preparations. As far as we've examined, there is one ingredient that is

missing; something or someone that will activate her brain and make her 'feel', make her

function........"
(Who is this 'her' they are referring to? What are they talking about!!! Shit-I

should have listened!! What use am I if I just day dream all day about some guy that will

never feel the same way!! I need to find out more. I need to know just what will make her

'work')

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Rinoa had left the cafeteria and headed to the parking lot. She wanted to confront

Zack about what had happened the night before and tell him that it meant absolutely

nothing. She thought about going to the bakery first knowing that he should be at work

right about now, but she also thought that he may have decided to take another day off,

and may have stayed home. So instead of going to his bakery, Rinoa set her course to

Balamb town, where Zack lives. She forgot the fact about his mother being there. By the

time she got to his house, she became unavoidable. She then had to deal with his mother

Helena.
"Ohhh!!! Rinoa, right? How nice of you to visit!!!" She quickly pulled Rinoa into

a tight and suffocating hug as soon as she saw Rinoa outside her door. After a few

seconds without air to breath, she finally let Rinoa go.
"H-Hi, I jus-"
"Ohh!! You're looking for my son Zack, aren't you!" She gave Rinoa a sly wink

while leading her towards their living room. "I remember him being with you yesterday!!
So, what did the two of you do together. He didn't come home last

night.......I hope It's not what I think it is." She winked at her again.
Rinoa quickly caught on to what she was trying to say and she just as quickly

tried to defend herself. "N-no!! nothing happened!! W-we didn't do anything!!"
Helena was still smiling. No one seemed to believe Rinoa today; not Zell and not

Helena. "Suuurrrre! Of course not! I know that you're not the kind of girl who would

make love to another guy especially when she is going out with someone else. I don't

strike you as the kind of girl who would cheat......"
(What does she know?) Rinoa started to panic. (Even she thinks that I wouldn't

do something like that. How many people have I betrayed so far. How many have I lied

to?) "........." She couldn't say anything to make it all better. She couldn't

say anything to erase all the things she'd done for the past few days. She wanted to forget

so much, but she knew that it's not possible.

"So, Rinoa? Do you want to wait for him to come back? I could give you some

lunch. Whadda ya say? He usually comes home at 6 pm, but we have all the time to talk.

I want to know more about you. I heard that you're quite a girl, back there at Balamb

Garden! I heard that you were about the only person to get through the thick

commander's skull! You must've been pretty nice!" She walked towards Rinoa to lead

her to her living room. But Rinoa refused to move.
(Is that what she really thinks? Or is she laying it on me some more? Everyone

knows me as the girl who finally got inside his head and made him love again. I'll

probably be soon known as the one who made him hate again. I wouldn't be able to bear

that. I never want him to hate me!) ".........." She shrugged off her grip

from her shoulders and took a step backwards to the street. "Sorry. I really don't have the

time to talk right now. I was just looking for your son because I wanted to ask him

something. I'm really sorry, I'd love to get to know you. But we'll have to do it some

other time." She left without giving Helena the time to say goodbye.
Now knowing that her son is probably at work, Rinoa headed straight to the

bakery. On her way there, she became more and more afraid and hesitant. She was afraid

to face him. She doesn't even know what to say. she wasn't given the time to think

because before she knew it, she was already stepping out the SeeD car. Time goes by so

quickly whenever you don't want it to.
Her entrance was greeted by a surprised voice. "M-miss Rinoa! What are you

doing here?" He got out of the counter and held the door open for Rinoa.
"Hi Erik. I was just looki-"
"Zack? You're looking for Zack?" He didn't know what to say. He thought that

Zack was on his way looking for Rinoa, but here she is!
"Yeah......," She was a bit embarrassed. She didn't know whether he

knew what had happened the night before between him and her.
"Y-you just missed him!" He closed the door. "You know what? The funny

thing is, he just left a moment ago to look for you. He wanted to tell you something."

She was about to reach out her hand to the door knob. "Oh, okay, I guess I'll see

you later then."
"WAIT!" Rinoa stopped and looked back, "Why don't you stay here and wait?

Don't you think it's better to stay in one place that you both go around looking for each

other? You'll just miss him again!"
"I guess so....."
"Yeah and, knowing him, if he doesn't find you at the garden, he'll probably go

straight back here. So it'd be best if you stayed."
Rinoa got inside the building once again and shut the door in defeat.
"You want something to eat? There isn't going to be anymore customers for a

while, so if you want, I can keep you company."
She sat down at the nearest chair that she could fine. She sat down on the seat by

the window. (I just really want to be alone right now, but I guess it'd be better if I talked

to Erik about him. He's probably the only person who knows him best, beside his

mother.) "Okay......." He grabbed the chair from across the circular table.

"So, what did you want to tell him? Or is it a personal?" He slumped and put his

chin to the table.
(Should I tell him?.....The way he's acting, it seems as if he already

knows.....I guess it doesn't hurt to ask.) "D-do you know?"
He didn't want for her to undergo pain or anxiousness any longer, so decided to

get right to the point. "Yeah, he told me."
(He did?) "So.......are you going to tell me as well that I shouldn't

have done what I did and make me guilty? I've been getting that a lot lately, even from

my friend. I think I already got the point that I have made a mistake and that I shouldn't

even be aloud to mention's Squall's name anymore, after what I'd done to him." She was

upset.
"He probably doesn't even know....." He said that as quietly as possible,

he didn't intend for her to hear it.
She didn't remember what Zell told her, "Yeah, I guess that's Hyne, giving me a

second chance."
"You know, I don't really care if you cheated on your boyfriend. It's Zack I care

about. He's been through a lot you know?"
Her curiosity amplified. She didn't want to sound eager so she remained quiet.
"I've been with him since his father died. I guess, you can call me his friend. I can

tell you now ,that he doesn't have much. He's a lonely guy. I just hope that by staying by

him, I can help. He's done a lot for me too. He said that he needed to do something to

repay me for all the kindness that I showed him." He sighed and looked at Rinoa's eyes.

"He loves you, did you know?"
(He loves me?)
"He's not good at showing emotions that well. It's been a while since he needed

them. When he first met you, I started seeing a sparkle in his eyes and his actions seemed

more-lively. You may not think so, or maybe you think that he just wants to see Squall

and you broken up, but he really does love you."
(He sounds like Squall. I guess they do have a lot in common. Maybe that's why

it wasn't hard for me to get along with him since he reminded me of him so much)
"His heart was broken many times. It's been a while since his last relationship.

She broke up with him when she said that it wasn't going to work out and that she has to

leave town. He acted as if he didn't care or faze him, but I know."
(Who was she?)
"She left him to go to Winhill. Haven't heard from her ever since. Too bad too,

they were a good couple. Maybe she thought that he wasn't good enough for her. After

that, he just gave up caring. It's been a while since I've seen him so happy and so eager

to go somewhere."
(Is that his life story? It's pretty sad.....I'd love to help him, but after

what he did......)
"Her name was Emily. Emily Robertson....."
(Emily....a pretty name.) She was listening intently to Erik. Even thought

he said nothing, not even a single comment, he knew that she cared. He knew that she

was starting to feel sympathy towards him. He wanted her to know more about his past,

and the reason for his actions. He knew that helping his friend cheat on another person is

bad, but he thought that he deserved something, even if that 'something' is not rightfully

his.
"So, are you just going to stare at me like that?" He finally decided to get a word

out of her. He wanted to know if she was 'understanding' or 'feeling'.
"Zack is.....," she paused when she turned her head to face the window,

"It wasn't really his fault. He's......kinda like me......and Squall."

(His misery brought him to the brink of madness. All he wanted was compassion, and

love. His life has been hard for him, maybe even harder than what 'we' have faced. He

encountered life.....life without love, friends, family, and a broken business.

He's a strong person to have lived this long.) "He loves me......?"
Erik just stared at Rinoa as she was thinking. He saw her confusion and

bewilderment. He wanted to help her find the answer, but he knew that she had to do it

herself. He has helped Zack enough, the rest will be her decision.

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"Where is she? I've looked every where!" Zack was running frantically down the

circular hallways of Balamb Garden. He was attracting a lot of attention but that was the

last thing in his mind. the first being getting back to Rinoa.
He had checked almost everywhere: from the parking lot, to the dormitories. He

had one last place to check. At first, he never thought that she'd be inside the Training

Center because she hated fighting, but he had no other choice, this was the last place she

could be. If he didn't find her here, he would decide to go back and try again some other

time even though he want to see her so much. He stepped in the training center,

regardless of how prepared he was or whether he knew how to fight or not.
When he stepped inside, the aura of the whole room was different from the rest of

the garden. It felt humid. The stenches of the monsters were deadly. It looked just like a

regular dungeon.
(I hope this place isn't too big. I don't want to get lost, especially when my

fighting skills a mediocre. I knew I should have exercised more.)
He trudged slowly into the dangerous Training Center. After walking for a couple

of minuets, he slightly heard battle cries. He soon figured out that, perhaps, there was

another person inside with him and the person was currently fighting, what sounded like,

a very big creature. He was afraid, but he knew he had to check who it was.
(I hope it's Rinoa, so I can get out of here)
When he got to a clearing, he saw a guy. It wasn't Rinoa, but it was somebody he

hoped to avoid. He hid behind a bush, being careful not to interrupt as he pounded 2

Grats and a T-Rexaur. He was amazed by his fighting skills.
(I guess those are the kinds of techniques you learn after having to fight the

sorceress......imagine.......)
He was watching very closely forgetting that he was trying to be discreet. He

moved a bit which caused the bush to rattle. The man in the blue shots and red vest

turned to the direction from which the noise came from. His instincts and sense of

hearing was amazing due to intense training. He cautiously walked over to the bush from

which Zack was hiding. Zack now realized that he couldn't hide any longer.
(Guess I wasn't able to prolong the inevitable after all)
"Were you watching me?" At first the man didn't recognize who Zack was.
"N-no, not at all! I just-I was just walking by, 'cause I was looking for

somebody." He knew he shouldn't mention that, but it slipped out of his lips because he

was tense.
"Looking for somebody?" The blonde, spiky haired man studied the person in

front of him. "I've seen you before....." After realizing who it was, he brought

up his fighting stance. "It's you!!"
Zack started getting worried. He just wanted to avoid this man because he knew

that he was getting suspicious, he didn't think that he'd actually try to attack him.

"W-what are you trying to do? Do I know you?" He took a step backwards.
"Don't play dumb with me!" He took a swig of his fist, missing him by a

centimeter. "Who do you think you are, coming in here?" He started walking paces

around him. "you're looking for her, aren't you? For Rinoa?"
"Look! That's none of your business." He dodged another of his swings. "I don't

even know who you are!"
"My name is Zell! Remember that! And I make it my business, making sure that

nothing happens between you two!" He lowered his guard because he sensed no threat

from Zack.
"So what if I'm looking for her? What are you going to do about it?" (Shit! I

shouldn't have asked that!)
"I'm going to do something that Squall would've done if he was here," He

grinned, "Make you wish that you were not alive, make you wish that you never touched

Rinoa."
(Shit!) He took another step backwards. He was going o attempt to run away, but

he knew that he would never be able to out the martial artist. He was just about ready to

compromise for his life. "Look, I just need to see her okay. I need to tell her something,"
Zell sat down on a boulder, "Then, will you leave her alone?"
"........" He didn't know whether he should lie or not. He really

needed to see her.
Zell just simply crossed his legs.
(I have no time for this!)
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Sorry if this is a little cut of. At first I cut a whole part off to make it shorter, but now I have to cut Zack's pov into two parts, just so that this chapter doesn't reach up to 4000 words. Besides, I don't think I'll be able to finish it, and I promised to upload every week, not a day later. I'll try to get the next one in sooner.