Author's Note: This is not really tragic...just sweet and sad... Major Fluff. I might end up revising it to make it more...tragic. Titled inspired by the song, "Butterfly Kisses" by Bob Carlisle. Review!!!!!!!!!
Main Characters: Sesshomaru and Rin
Butterfly Kisses
"Lord Sesshomaru"
Jakken was still standing there, in the shadows, even after I asked him to leave. Foolish little insect.
I remained quiet. I didn't feel like talking to him...or to anyone...well...perhaps just one person.
"Lord Sesshomaru" he repeated.
I sighed. Without turning around, I decided to finally answer. "What is it Jakken?"
His head tilted slightly down, he stood there, clutching his staff, hesitating before he answered me. "My lord, please...you really should get out...for a few minutes at least...."
I knew that was all he would say. I knew how scared he was for me....I could smell it in the air....the stench of fear...of human emotion...sure it was different coming from him...there isn't one single drop of human blood in him...yet his cowardness and incessant whining was too human-like. Sometimes...I felt like sliding his throat.
"No...I am content to remain here...now...leave me....before I truly lose my patience..."
"My lord..."
"Do not anger me further..." I replied calmly.
Jakken remained quiet for a moment more. He sighed gently and then I heard his tiny foot steps, trailed by the light tapping of his staff. The mild light of the cracked door faded, as he closed it shut behind him. I was alone once again.
I remained in the darkness of my room. Sitting at my throne, made of a cat demon's bones, cushioned with the blood red feathers of a Hellbird, both of which, I sleighed with a single flicker of my finger. This is my favorite place to be in the world. This is where I retreat to think, ponder, plan...and sometimes...cry.
Yes, I cry...but not the way human's do...not in a sniveling, whimpering way. I don't break down, fall to my knees, and pour rivers from my eyes. I don't shed tears. I don't even believe I am capable of doing so. I cry with dignity. I cry silently. I cry where no one else sees it. I cry inside.
A quick knock at the door disrupted my thoughts. It was not Jaken. His knock is weak, and fearful, like knees clanking against each other. This knock was light, yet strong. Quick and eternal. I hate that I will miss that knock.
"Rin" I said slightly below a human's hearing, although she could somehow always hear me.
"Lord Sesshomaru", she replied through the door. "May I come in?"
The silence between her melodious voice and my reply was broken by Jakken's maddening cries. "Rin!!! How dare you bother my master?!?! He wishes to be alone!!! Pathetic little wench!!! Years might have aged your body but your mind remains as ignorant as the day he found you in the woods!!!!"
"I simply wish to speak to him...I will not bother him for long, Jakken..."
I heard his arrogant words, insulting and forbidding her entry and I could not help it. "You may come in, Rin"
Jakken gasped as the door slowly opened. I could imagine him frozen in his spot, staring at Rin, as she triumphantly opened the door and gave him that disgustingly sweet smile of hers.
The door closed once again, and I could smell her scent. She was standing in front of the door, silently, hesitating, and waiting.
"Wow...it's....quite...dark in here, my Lord" she said after a brief moment of deadening silence.
"Yes...I like it so...why are you here? I gave Jakken explicit orders to tell all that I was not to be disturbed."
"I know, my Lord, but...I could not help it...I had to see you"
At the sound of those words, I felt my foolish heart skip a beat. She HAD to see me.
"And...why is that?", I asked, with no apparent change in my stoic tone, although my breathing ceased in anticipation of her words.
I heard her hands brush against the door as she moved to push off it, and walk towards me. She took one single step and stopped. I could hear her arm slowly lifting up from her side, towards me, but she hesitated, and put it back down.
"I...leave tomorrow...and...I have not seen you in days...."
"Yes...that is of no importance." That was of importance...of the greatest importance to me...damn her.
"It is to me, my Lord", she quickly replied, mimicking my thoughts
I could not help but smile slightly. She no longer spoke of herself in the third person. She stopped doing so at the human age of 12, when noting her lack of sophistication; I decided to acquire the services of a tutor. Even then I should have noted what she would make of me, for anything I ever 'needed' from any human, I would simply threatened to claw him apart and my bidding would have been done. But that time, I actually paid the man, handsomely, and then, released him, without a scratch.
Silence overcame the room once again. I know she expected me to say something, although I know not why. She knows me better then even Jakken does. She should not have expected a single word more.
"My lo...." she hesitated "...Seshomaru".
My breathing ceased once again. I clenched my fist momentarily, as I bit my inner upper lip slightly. She never once used my name on it's own. I stood up, despite myself, forgetting for a moment, who I was, my dignity, my being.
I'm sure she could barely see me through the dark, so I moved slowly, avoiding her acknowledgement, until I was right before her.
"Rin..." I spoke, and she jerked slightly, surprised to know where I stood.
Her hands moved up my sides and around my neck, as I felt her tiny body pressing against mine, and her right cheek against the armor on my chest.
"Do not be sad" she whispered. "I will never leave you."
I did something I never thought I would do, something that I would sleigh anyone who would speak of it later on, if there was anyone to witness it. Without thinking, I placed my arm around her, hugging her closer to me. I didn't realize it before, but it was something I had been thirsting to do for years now.
"You lie...you leave me tomorrow". For 10 years she remained within my castle walls, under my protection. Since the day she first found me in the woods, beaten after an encounter with my runt of a brother. Back then her scent was different, a mixture of sugar and wildflowers that I always said I disliked, but always cherished. Damn her.
"No lie...you can send for me...whenever you wish...and I will come."
I knew of the whispers and murmurs in the demon circles. How I had taken a human pet and brought it up as my pup. I felt content to simply allow that to be, for perhaps, that was what I was doing. I allowed her to stay, to this moment I know not why. It was not fitting for a demon lord to have such a young human girl by his side, Jakken exclaimed quite often, but I never disowned her. Why?
She grew too fast, and I knew not how I felt, until the feelings began to change. Around the 16th year of her life, I started feeling strange around her, when she smiled, when she reached for my hand, when she bit her lip. I felt disgusted with myself. Was she not like a pup to me?
Her scent changed one night. She loved to walk up to the top of my castle, and stare at the absent moon, on it's new cycle. Other demons would not dare to breach the borders of my domain, but still, I lurked in the shadows whenever she was up there, watching to make sure, no one hurt her to gain vengence on me.
That night, as she leaned over the balcony, I saw a vision, that stirred the very core of me. Her light white nightgown danced gracefully around her delicate figure, as her long ebony locks flowed gently in the wind, away from her ivory face. Her sun kissed skin glowing lightly in the light of the shinning stars above. She was...beautiful.
She remained quiet for a moment more, as I cheerished every second I held her close to me. I took in all of her scent that I could, the same smell of wildflowers, but no longer intertwined with sugar, now..it was a concoction of a moonless night and winter's first snow. Night and cold...two things of pleasure to me. Damn her.
"Sesshomaru" she repeated my name again, and it was all I could do to not press my lips against her plush reds.
"Yes?" I replied.
Still with her arms around my neck, she voiced the words I longed to hear. "I love you"
I gasped, of course, too lightly for her to hear, but I did. My heart began to beat faster then the drums of the hell keepers, calling forth the recently deceased. She said she loved me, a human, my human, my Rin.
For a moment, I was whole. Not simply made of ice and stone, forever locking in all my troubles and woes. I was free to feel warmth, joy...love.
But why did she have to continue...why did she have to finish her thought. I would have given all if only she would have remained silent for that moment on, simply in my arm.
"You are the only father I can remember. You are the only father I will ever love..."
Father.
I am a father to her.
Someone that kept her safe throughout her life, accepted flowers from the meadows around my domain, which she loved to collect on our quiet strolls.
"I want you at my wedding tomorrow...please say you'll come"
Wedding.
Yes, my Rin was getting married. Leaving me, like I said for a union that these foolish mortals think is as good as mating. For a sniveling pathetic human male, who would never be strong enough to defend her against any foe.
My Rin was to mate, with another...not me...for I ...as she said...am her father...and...to her...it could never be.
That spark of joy, of warmth, I felt since the day she found me in the woods, was leaving...never to return.
I let go of her, and took a step back. I could see through the dark, her arms still stretched out for me, as a tear trickled down her face.
"Father..."
No...not that word again...why 'father'....why not 'lover'?
"I will not attend." I said, fully regaining my cold exterior. "I do not approve of that union. You have enemies. Demons that know you are linked to me, and will now try to harm you, away from my protection."
"What better reason for you to attend?" she begged. "They will know you will forever protect me...they will not dare to come near me...please..."
"I said I will not..." I said, cutting her off before her begging could completely tear me down. "Now go...leave...I wish to be alone." I said as turned my back to her, and returned to my seat.
She stood there, and I could hear, the whimpers she was holding back in her throat. I could smell the bittersweet scent of her tears. She was crying...because I would not go... she was crying, because of me.
I heard a single syllable escape her mouth, as she prepared to say, something more. But she stopped, and remained quiet. Then, I heard the door creak open, and the light shine through, as I gazed out of the corner of my eye at her shadow on the wall. She wiped her tears with one hand, as she closed the door behind her with the other.
Then, she was gone.
She married the next day, and moved away. To a far away land, a body of water away from my domain. I never again, heard of my Rin.
Main Characters: Sesshomaru and Rin
Butterfly Kisses
"Lord Sesshomaru"
Jakken was still standing there, in the shadows, even after I asked him to leave. Foolish little insect.
I remained quiet. I didn't feel like talking to him...or to anyone...well...perhaps just one person.
"Lord Sesshomaru" he repeated.
I sighed. Without turning around, I decided to finally answer. "What is it Jakken?"
His head tilted slightly down, he stood there, clutching his staff, hesitating before he answered me. "My lord, please...you really should get out...for a few minutes at least...."
I knew that was all he would say. I knew how scared he was for me....I could smell it in the air....the stench of fear...of human emotion...sure it was different coming from him...there isn't one single drop of human blood in him...yet his cowardness and incessant whining was too human-like. Sometimes...I felt like sliding his throat.
"No...I am content to remain here...now...leave me....before I truly lose my patience..."
"My lord..."
"Do not anger me further..." I replied calmly.
Jakken remained quiet for a moment more. He sighed gently and then I heard his tiny foot steps, trailed by the light tapping of his staff. The mild light of the cracked door faded, as he closed it shut behind him. I was alone once again.
I remained in the darkness of my room. Sitting at my throne, made of a cat demon's bones, cushioned with the blood red feathers of a Hellbird, both of which, I sleighed with a single flicker of my finger. This is my favorite place to be in the world. This is where I retreat to think, ponder, plan...and sometimes...cry.
Yes, I cry...but not the way human's do...not in a sniveling, whimpering way. I don't break down, fall to my knees, and pour rivers from my eyes. I don't shed tears. I don't even believe I am capable of doing so. I cry with dignity. I cry silently. I cry where no one else sees it. I cry inside.
A quick knock at the door disrupted my thoughts. It was not Jaken. His knock is weak, and fearful, like knees clanking against each other. This knock was light, yet strong. Quick and eternal. I hate that I will miss that knock.
"Rin" I said slightly below a human's hearing, although she could somehow always hear me.
"Lord Sesshomaru", she replied through the door. "May I come in?"
The silence between her melodious voice and my reply was broken by Jakken's maddening cries. "Rin!!! How dare you bother my master?!?! He wishes to be alone!!! Pathetic little wench!!! Years might have aged your body but your mind remains as ignorant as the day he found you in the woods!!!!"
"I simply wish to speak to him...I will not bother him for long, Jakken..."
I heard his arrogant words, insulting and forbidding her entry and I could not help it. "You may come in, Rin"
Jakken gasped as the door slowly opened. I could imagine him frozen in his spot, staring at Rin, as she triumphantly opened the door and gave him that disgustingly sweet smile of hers.
The door closed once again, and I could smell her scent. She was standing in front of the door, silently, hesitating, and waiting.
"Wow...it's....quite...dark in here, my Lord" she said after a brief moment of deadening silence.
"Yes...I like it so...why are you here? I gave Jakken explicit orders to tell all that I was not to be disturbed."
"I know, my Lord, but...I could not help it...I had to see you"
At the sound of those words, I felt my foolish heart skip a beat. She HAD to see me.
"And...why is that?", I asked, with no apparent change in my stoic tone, although my breathing ceased in anticipation of her words.
I heard her hands brush against the door as she moved to push off it, and walk towards me. She took one single step and stopped. I could hear her arm slowly lifting up from her side, towards me, but she hesitated, and put it back down.
"I...leave tomorrow...and...I have not seen you in days...."
"Yes...that is of no importance." That was of importance...of the greatest importance to me...damn her.
"It is to me, my Lord", she quickly replied, mimicking my thoughts
I could not help but smile slightly. She no longer spoke of herself in the third person. She stopped doing so at the human age of 12, when noting her lack of sophistication; I decided to acquire the services of a tutor. Even then I should have noted what she would make of me, for anything I ever 'needed' from any human, I would simply threatened to claw him apart and my bidding would have been done. But that time, I actually paid the man, handsomely, and then, released him, without a scratch.
Silence overcame the room once again. I know she expected me to say something, although I know not why. She knows me better then even Jakken does. She should not have expected a single word more.
"My lo...." she hesitated "...Seshomaru".
My breathing ceased once again. I clenched my fist momentarily, as I bit my inner upper lip slightly. She never once used my name on it's own. I stood up, despite myself, forgetting for a moment, who I was, my dignity, my being.
I'm sure she could barely see me through the dark, so I moved slowly, avoiding her acknowledgement, until I was right before her.
"Rin..." I spoke, and she jerked slightly, surprised to know where I stood.
Her hands moved up my sides and around my neck, as I felt her tiny body pressing against mine, and her right cheek against the armor on my chest.
"Do not be sad" she whispered. "I will never leave you."
I did something I never thought I would do, something that I would sleigh anyone who would speak of it later on, if there was anyone to witness it. Without thinking, I placed my arm around her, hugging her closer to me. I didn't realize it before, but it was something I had been thirsting to do for years now.
"You lie...you leave me tomorrow". For 10 years she remained within my castle walls, under my protection. Since the day she first found me in the woods, beaten after an encounter with my runt of a brother. Back then her scent was different, a mixture of sugar and wildflowers that I always said I disliked, but always cherished. Damn her.
"No lie...you can send for me...whenever you wish...and I will come."
I knew of the whispers and murmurs in the demon circles. How I had taken a human pet and brought it up as my pup. I felt content to simply allow that to be, for perhaps, that was what I was doing. I allowed her to stay, to this moment I know not why. It was not fitting for a demon lord to have such a young human girl by his side, Jakken exclaimed quite often, but I never disowned her. Why?
She grew too fast, and I knew not how I felt, until the feelings began to change. Around the 16th year of her life, I started feeling strange around her, when she smiled, when she reached for my hand, when she bit her lip. I felt disgusted with myself. Was she not like a pup to me?
Her scent changed one night. She loved to walk up to the top of my castle, and stare at the absent moon, on it's new cycle. Other demons would not dare to breach the borders of my domain, but still, I lurked in the shadows whenever she was up there, watching to make sure, no one hurt her to gain vengence on me.
That night, as she leaned over the balcony, I saw a vision, that stirred the very core of me. Her light white nightgown danced gracefully around her delicate figure, as her long ebony locks flowed gently in the wind, away from her ivory face. Her sun kissed skin glowing lightly in the light of the shinning stars above. She was...beautiful.
She remained quiet for a moment more, as I cheerished every second I held her close to me. I took in all of her scent that I could, the same smell of wildflowers, but no longer intertwined with sugar, now..it was a concoction of a moonless night and winter's first snow. Night and cold...two things of pleasure to me. Damn her.
"Sesshomaru" she repeated my name again, and it was all I could do to not press my lips against her plush reds.
"Yes?" I replied.
Still with her arms around my neck, she voiced the words I longed to hear. "I love you"
I gasped, of course, too lightly for her to hear, but I did. My heart began to beat faster then the drums of the hell keepers, calling forth the recently deceased. She said she loved me, a human, my human, my Rin.
For a moment, I was whole. Not simply made of ice and stone, forever locking in all my troubles and woes. I was free to feel warmth, joy...love.
But why did she have to continue...why did she have to finish her thought. I would have given all if only she would have remained silent for that moment on, simply in my arm.
"You are the only father I can remember. You are the only father I will ever love..."
Father.
I am a father to her.
Someone that kept her safe throughout her life, accepted flowers from the meadows around my domain, which she loved to collect on our quiet strolls.
"I want you at my wedding tomorrow...please say you'll come"
Wedding.
Yes, my Rin was getting married. Leaving me, like I said for a union that these foolish mortals think is as good as mating. For a sniveling pathetic human male, who would never be strong enough to defend her against any foe.
My Rin was to mate, with another...not me...for I ...as she said...am her father...and...to her...it could never be.
That spark of joy, of warmth, I felt since the day she found me in the woods, was leaving...never to return.
I let go of her, and took a step back. I could see through the dark, her arms still stretched out for me, as a tear trickled down her face.
"Father..."
No...not that word again...why 'father'....why not 'lover'?
"I will not attend." I said, fully regaining my cold exterior. "I do not approve of that union. You have enemies. Demons that know you are linked to me, and will now try to harm you, away from my protection."
"What better reason for you to attend?" she begged. "They will know you will forever protect me...they will not dare to come near me...please..."
"I said I will not..." I said, cutting her off before her begging could completely tear me down. "Now go...leave...I wish to be alone." I said as turned my back to her, and returned to my seat.
She stood there, and I could hear, the whimpers she was holding back in her throat. I could smell the bittersweet scent of her tears. She was crying...because I would not go... she was crying, because of me.
I heard a single syllable escape her mouth, as she prepared to say, something more. But she stopped, and remained quiet. Then, I heard the door creak open, and the light shine through, as I gazed out of the corner of my eye at her shadow on the wall. She wiped her tears with one hand, as she closed the door behind her with the other.
Then, she was gone.
She married the next day, and moved away. To a far away land, a body of water away from my domain. I never again, heard of my Rin.