Dark Love
By: Padfoot-chan
::gasps:: This is the end? What do you mean this is the end? Heh. As much as I love Dark Love I knew that it could not go on forever, especially when I had this story all planned out and ready to end before school started. :3 I am merely glad that I was able to get the final chapter up before the end of the 21st. Since today is my one year anniversary at Yes! I have been here for one year already. It seems like so long ago ::sighs nostalgically:: I pretty much finished everything up in this chapter so there may be no need for a sequel. I am open to ideas and I might think of some while working on my other fanfics, but it is uncertain. Aside from my fanfics, I need to work on my original story to try to get it published! I have high hopes.
Thank you to whoever reviews this :3 and I so glad that you like my story and thank you for keeping with it! Thanks to: Midnyte Wolf, Poster on a Stick, Maniac-Miko, (especially you three for sticking with me from the very beginning and reviewing for each chapter. You are the sweetest reviewers I ever had. I love you guys.) Thyrin, and yuey.
Disclaimer: I do not own the Golden Sun characters, they belong to Camelot. I do not own "Evergreen" It was written and sung by Hyde of L'ArcEnCiel.
Also, about "Evergreen" it is really a sad and sweet song. If you want to MP3 file for it, just ask me and I can e-mail it to you. ::flaps arms:: I just want everyone to love Hyde as much as I love him.
Warning: Still shonen-ai. Don't like, don't read.
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Chapter 10: You shall find.
I lie awake beside the windowsill
Like a flower in a vase
A moment caught in glass…Mm
The rays of sunlight come and beckon me…
To a sleepy dreamy haze
A sense of summer days…Aa
If only I could stop the flow of time
Turn the clock to yesterday
Erasing all the pain…Mm
I've only memories of happiness
Such pleasure we have shared
I'd do it all again
This scenery is evergreen
As buds turn into leaves
The colors live and breathe
This scenery is evergreen
Your tears are falling silently
So full of joy you are a child of spring
With a beauty that is pure
An innocence endures…Aa
You flow right through me like a medicine
Brining quiet to my soul
Without you I'm not whole
This scenery is evergreen
I need you far too much
I long to feel your touch
This scenery is evergreen
You've always been so dear to me
This scenery is evergreen
It sorrows at the sight of seeing you so sad
This scenery is evergreen
I wish that I could dry your tears
The bells have rung the time has come
I cannot find the words to say my last goodbye
This scenery is evergreen
You've always been so dear to me
A tear rolls down my cheek, hitting my hand as the song comes to an end. I pull the headphone from my ears and lean heavily against the window. Maybe I could fall out of the window and…The thought only makes my tears come down faster. It has been three weeks since Robin's…
Even now, I cannot bring myself to admit that it ever happened at all. Everything that night happened so quickly. My head is still spinning from it. I bit down on my bottom lip. Robin, why did you have to be so foolish and try to save me like that? You could have pushed Alex…
"You weren't thinking, dammit." I hiss, slamming my fist into the wall. "You stupid…you left me all alone…you selfish bastard…damn you for saving my life and giving up your own instead…idiot…stupid…" I press my forehead against the window, letting the cold air calm me. There is a knock on the door and then Mary enters, closing the door behind her.
"I know how you must be feeling, Ivan, but it always helps to talk about it." I feel bitter for some reason but I try bite back any comments and take a deep breath.
"He gave his life to save me, so I do not know why I am crying. It is just…there is this immense pain in my heart that I cannot ignore and I feel that…having him back with me, having him hold me in his arms, is the only way that it is ever going to go away. I want him back with em more than anything but…I do not know to make his sacrifice in vain by killing myself.
"He wanted me to live because…even if he only said it once, he loved me as much as I loved him. Even now, after all of this, I still love him. I was scared of that. I tried to run away but he was always a constant thought in my mind. A nagging thought that would always come back to me. I wanted to hold onto that when I found out about my heritage. It was the only real truth I knew…the only truth I had. It may not have been a happy thought but it was the only thing that I had that was really mine.
"For my whole life, I had been lied to by everyone around me and Robin…never once did he lie to me. He may have withheld things from me but he did that out of respect for my feelings and because he was not ready for anyone to know. He never wanted to harm me, never wanted to see me in pain. Even when we first met that night I returned to Japan, out of instinct rather than anything else, he did not wish to hurt me. He said…something inside him was telling him not to." I blush at the thought but shake it off, looking out the window and up at the moon. "I wanted so badly to understand him, understand his past so I could figure out what had made him so sad. I hated to see him sad when he tried so hard to please me, make sure that when I smiled, it was genuine, that when I laughed it was because I was truly having a good time. I know I only knew him for a short time and that I barely know that much about him…but I still cannot help feeling the way I do." Tears well up in my eyes again and Mary reaches for me, pulling me into a tight hug. "I just want him back. I…I…want to see him smile at me again. Mary…is there anything I can do to make this pain go away?"
She lifts my head and looks at me for a long moment before kissing my forehead. "Ivan, I think you need to go down to the basement." I blink up at her confused before pushing out of her arms and heading down to the basement.
I move slowly, the lights a little too bright for me at first. When I finally reach the basement my legs are tired and I feel out of breath. I lean against the wall and try to rest for a moment before continuing. I pause when I hear familiar voices coming from the room next to me.
"Garcia, you have gone too far this time. Do you know what this is doing to Ivan? He is really in shock about what happened to Robin and here you are…keeping him in a comatose state with this damn machine? Garcia, what the hell is wrong with you?" Robin…comatose state…Garcia…My heart is racing and my head is spinning again. What is going on? "Do you expect me to just stand here and watch you destroy one of the best hunters around, one of my best friends? Garcia, answer me, dammit."
"Picard, this is for the best. Something happened back at that castle…Robin has changed. His skin his darker…and so is his hair. His skin is warmer as well. How can you explain this?"
"If you were to take him off this machine and wake him up, you would find out from him, wouldn't you? Garcia, why are you doing this? Why do you insist on allowing Ivan to think that Robin is still dead when he is right here, alive! More so than when he was with Ivan. I think that whatever happened at the castle…reversed the effects somehow…"
"Impossible." I cannot take this anymore. I push the door open and gasp, freezing in place when I spot Robin lying on a small bed with wires connecting him to a strange machine sitting next to the bed. Picard is standing at the foot of the bed and Garcia is leaning over Robin, both of them blinking back at me.
"Ivan…what are you doing here?" I feel my knees buckle under me but I keep standing, glaring at Garcia before taking a step towards him.
"W…what am I doing here? How dare you say something like that to me. What are you doing here with him!? I thought he was dead! You made me think he was dead! Was this just some sick game to you, Garcia? I thought you were my friend! I was wrong, though, wasn't I? We were never friends, I was just a joke to you. My whole life was something for you to laugh at." I shake my head, "I do not see anyone laughing now, Garcia. Dammit, this is not a fucking game! I was willing to forgive you for keeping my hunter blood secret for me but you crossed the line this time, Garcia."
"Ivan, wait…" I spin around and run out the door. Where can I go? Do I want to run away? Why am I running away from the place where Robin is? Robin…
I pause and turn around, tensing up when I see Picard running toward me. "You knew, Picard…?" He nods solemnly. "Picard…you of all people…"
"Do not take it that way, Ivan…Garcia was just worried about you. I admit he went too far this time but…he was confused. He thought he was doing the right thing by keeping Robin away from you but he was not about to kill him, not while he is the way he is now." I furrow my brows and turn my head slightly.
"What are you trying to say, Picard? The way he is now? What happened to Robin?" Picard sighs and takes a step toward me. I take a step back and glare at him, "Tell me what happened to Robin, Picard. I need to know. I have a right to know. So tell me, or are you going to lie to me again as well?"
"Ivan, I think you need to sit down…" I shake my head quickly.
"No, Picard, tell me now." He watches me for a long moment before leaning against the wall and looking down at his feet."The night we went to the castle…Garcia and I were busy fighting some of the vampires in the castle while Robin went off to find you and to fight Alex, I suppose. By the time we got there, it was all over. You were leaning against the wall unconscious and had a huge bump on the side of your head. Robin was lying on the ground with a gaping hole in his chest and his pulse was slowing…" He looks back up at me now, "We took both of you back to the academy and Jasmine healed your wounds while…Mary tried to heal Robin. Normally, a vampires' wound will heal on their own, it only takes a matter of seconds. We can recover from almost anything but for some reason; Robin's body was not healing itself from this wound. It could have been because his maker gave it to him or something else, we still do not understand. In addition, healers are unable to heal vampires, so it is strange that Mary's healing actually worked on Robin.
"He came to before you but the only thing that was on his mind was seeing you, to know if you were all right. Garcia knocked him out and ordered us to take him down to the basement. We did protest but it was no use, if we did not do it, he would have done it himself. From that day, he kept him in a comatose state, but we noticed that he was changing. His hair and skin was darker and I am sure the same can be said for his eyes."
"I still do not understand, what happened to Robin?"
"We think…that he is human now, mortal." I cannot feel my body. What is this? Robin is alive and he…is mortal? How can this be?
"Is that even possible?" He smiles weakly and pushes off the wall, walking towards me and ruffling my hair. I push his hand away and shake my head. "I…we need to get Garcia to stop this. This is not fair. What if someone put you in a coma and everyone told him that you were dead? Does he even care about what this is doing to me?"
"He does, Ivan, he does…" He turns away from me and starts walking back towards the basement, "Look, I am going to talk to him, to try to get him to stop this. Until then, I just want you to look after yourself. You look sick, Ivan." I roll my eyes.
"You don't look so hot yourself." I cover my mouth, blushing. There is a laugh from the common room and I poke my head through the doorway to see Gerald and Jasmine sitting on the couch with Susa across from them.
"Sarcasm? You must be happy that you found out that Robin is alive still. And it is all thanks to…" Susa waved his hand to another doorway and Mary walked in, blinking, "Mary." I turn and bow to her.
"Mary, if it had not been for you, I would not have ever known about any of this and you were even the one who healed Robin. Thank you so much." She smiles weakly.
"If I had really done anything special, I would not have allowed you to suffer for so long, mourning a death that had not even taken place. I will personally make sure that Robin recovers from this. Please do not be mad at Garcia forever, Ivan. He thought he was going the right thing when he did this to Robin. He was worried about you. He thought that Robin was just using you and he thought that this would come to pass."
"I…shall try, but I do not know." I sit down next to Susa, resting my head on his shoulder. He smirks at me and leans forward to whisper into my ear.
"So how do you like being uke?" I redden and kick him off the couch.
"What do you think of me, Susa?" He laughs as he sits on the couch again.
"I dunno, just something you said to me the night you got kidnapped…" I groan and rest my chin in my hand.
"Trust you to remember something little like that while your cousin is kidnapped by a vampire." He grins and me, waving his hand. "What should we do now?"
"Dunno, I guess all we can do for now is just wait."
Wait…for Robin, I would wait forever just to catch a glimpse of him.
Two weeks pass before Mary pulls me out of bed around four in the morning. "Get up, Ivan, get up and put some pants on." I stumble around in the darkness, feeling around for some pants. "Oh forget it, just come on." She drags me out of the room and down the stairs.
"Where are we going? Is there a hunt? Did Tokyo Tower turn into a spaceship and fly away like Gerald said it would?" I mumble, rubbing sleep out of my eye.
"Hey! It could happen!" I hear a muffled yell from Gerald's room.
"Shut up and go to sleep, Gerald!" yelled Susa from his room. Mary suddenly pushes me out into the common room and closes the door behind her; a click tells me she has locked me in as well. I turn around and poke the door before turning around and walking towards the couch, falling forward and trying to go to sleep again.
"Too…tired…"
Moments later, just as I had begun to fall asleep again, another door opens and closes behind someone. Someone stumbles forward and a surprised sound reaches my ears. I lift myself off the couch slowly and turn, almost falling forward when I see Robin standing a few feet from me. "Robin…" He smiles weakly as I jump off the couch and into his arms. He stumbles backwards slightly but manages to hold me. "I thought you were…"
"Shh, I am just fine now." I pull back slightly and look up at him before pulling him down into a kiss. He parts my lips and dips his tongue inside my mouth as he had done so many times before. I begin to suck on his tongue after a moment but he pulls away and leans forward, holding me close to him. "I'm alive, really alive."
"I know…" I whisper. Nothing in the world could make me happier than I am at this very moment with Robin and…you do not always have to smile when you are happy. "I love you, Robin."
"I love you, too, Ivan…more than anything else. I will always love you."
-Owari-
This ended a little too quickly for me. I may go back later and try to lengthen it but I hated seeing Ivan so down and then…he got mad and…heh. I just wanted Robin back and…::throws hands into air:: He's alive and with Robin again! ::bops Ivan for the kiss:: He just woke up, be gentle.
Ivan: ::blushes:: You're the one who made me do it.
3 I know, I can make you do a lot of things. Heh ::evil plots form in mind:: Well, I take my leave of this story! Which is 68 pages in Verdana size 8. 62,957 words. I am so proud of this but now, it is time to work on other stories. XD I really need to take Heavenly War down and just make it an original story like I intended. Oh well, bai bai. Again, I am open to suggestions for a sequel…remember, Alex is not dead…like hitting a brick wall is going to kill him. Peh.
Alex: Would it kill you?
Meep! Ano…until my next story…Take care!