A/N: I just saw the movie 'Chicago', but I don't really think it should
have won Best Picture, though Catherine Zeta-Jones was good. Ah, but back
to the point, which is another angsty chapter. All I wanted it to be light,
cheerful, and whatever, but hey, like a famous person once said, " The
story is already made, I just copy it down." I'm dedicating this chapter to
Power Princess, just because her fic 'Going Home' made me start writing
this, and psychotic chaos, because well, who recommended it? Enjoy, and as
a warning, grab some tissues!
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It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
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" What do you mean you don't love me?" she whispered, as she held back a cry of despair.
" I'm sorry Trini, but it's over..."
" Just like that? Jason Scott, I know there must be more to the story! You can tell me!" I couldn't even if I was allowed to. Besides, what would I say? Sorry Trini, but I'm breaking up with you so that if I die you can move on with your life?
" No! No Trin, there isn't more to the story. We just lost the spark." Maybe it was a moment of desperation, but with a muffled sob, Trini grabbed for me and kissed me roughly on the mouth. How I wanted to reciprocate, but no. That would just ruin what I had to do. She looked up at me with such sorrowful eyes.
" I see... well, then I guess I'll gather my things and go... I hope we can stay good friends though," though her heart was breaking, Trini managed to leave the room with dignity and strength, both of which I knew I never could. I wanted to run after her and re-proclaim my love for her, but duty kept me in place.
I'd told Tommy about my plans earlier, when he'd called me about the Red Ranger mission. Stupid, he'd called my plan, saying that in the end all it would leave were two broken hearts. He was wrong though. He too didn't see what I was doing. What if I was killed or worse? All that would leave is Trini with a broken boyfriend and an even more shattered heart. No. I wouldn't let her feel any more pain than necessary. Though it may not of seemed like it, I loved her with all my heart.
In the back of my head I let myself know the phone was ringing, but I didn't bother to pick it up. Nothing really mattered to me right now.
" Jason, that was Tommy. He said that today was the day of your... mission? What's he talking about?" her tone was light and inquisitive, but he could detect the aloofness in it.
" Nothing that bothers you Trini. And about you moving out, don't bother. I've already made plans to move back with my parents." It hurt like hell to see the tears forming once more, and the struggle she was making with herself not to shed them.
" Well, I see that you put a lot of thought into this decision," before she could help herself, Trini fell to the ground weeping, unable to hold it back any longer. I took a step forward to comfort her, but then walked further away and looked at the clock. I had to get to the hanger, or I'd be late. I looked once more at the shaking figure on the ground, her long black hair covering her delicate features. Why couldn't she see that this killed me too? She'd been my everything for so long, that now to see her like this...
" I know you hate me Trini, and I'm sorry..." I murmured, before dashing out to my motorcycle.
~*~
I could hear Jason rumble away. How could this happen? It wasn't like Jase just to break up because of loss of passion! Slowly I stood up and walked to the phone. Technically we weren't together anymore, so I wouldn't be prying... I picked up the receiver and dialed Tommy's cell.
" Jase? What's taking you?"
" Tommy? It's me, Trini. I want to know what this mission is all about." I knew my voice was shaking, but I had to find out.
'Something about the mission was what made him break up with me, I just know it!' I thought, completely in denial.
" Trini? Are you okay? Where's Jase?"
" Going to wherever you are, I suppose. We broke up."
" WHAT??? He didn't?? I thought I'd talked him out of it."
" I guess not. Now please Tommy, help dull the pain of the breakup by telling me he dumped me because of your mission?" I heard him sigh on the other line, before the entire thing was explained to me.
~*~
" Oh god... Tommy, you can't do this! You'll all be killed! Jason-"
" That's why he broke up with you Trini. Because he didn't want you to feel any pain if he didn't make it back."
" Jason... Tommy, he... he rather me hate him than hate life if he died?"
" That's exactly it."
" Oh lord..." I felt my anger dissipate, only to be replace by fear. Pure fear.
" Tommy, bring him back home! Please keep him safe!"
" I'll do what I can... I have to go Trin."
" Good luck, and tell Jason I love him. Tell him I forgive him for his actions. I understand now he morally had no choice."
" Bye." I heard the quiet click of his phone before I got on my knees and prayed.
" Father who art in Heaven, bless the men who are risking their lives for our world. Let them live and come home to their loved ones. And Lord, let Jason know I don't hate him, and that I want him back."
With a silent 'Amen', I stood up and looked out the window.
" It must have been so hard for you Jason to tell me you don't love me anymore..."
~*~
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
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A/N: Okay, so it wasn't as tear jerking as I would have liked, but oh well. By the way, I'm in no way denoting any other religions, it's just I thought Trini needing a little religious bit. Please review!
Redwolf: I'm glad you liked it so much, and it's nice to see someone who thinks my writing is improving. I'm going to skip the Ryan/Kelsey thing and move on to your next comment. Yes and yes. The Zhane/Karone won't be for a while, but if you like them, you can look at my fic dedicated to them, and Merrick/Shayla is only at draft stage.
Debbie: Yeah, I think it was missing... quality? Yes, I just bashed me- self.
rain: Thank you. Actually, I have seen two episodes (the second-part of 'the Lost Galactabeasts' or whatever, and 'Raise the Titanisaur'.), but I wasn't really enthralled with it. Your compliments are most kind.
Power Princess: Well, to tell you the truth, the ending went fast because I couldn't think of a better ending. Yep, TJ/Cassie is great, but for the chap. about them, it's going to be a Phantom/Cassie/TJ triangle. Who's Cass going to end up with? Even I don't know. Tori/Blake is coming along, but I kind of scrapped the Cole/Alyssa. It turns out I was copying my Taylor/Eric except for the ending. Back to the drawing board I guess! By the way, your Forever Red fic is awesome, and I apologize now for my gushy/ditzy review.
Crimson nova: Thank you for reviewing!
Okay, I'm not going to be updating 'Chanson D'Amour' until I get another chap. out on one of my other stories. I seem to be neglecting them. Bye!
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~*~
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
~*~
" What do you mean you don't love me?" she whispered, as she held back a cry of despair.
" I'm sorry Trini, but it's over..."
" Just like that? Jason Scott, I know there must be more to the story! You can tell me!" I couldn't even if I was allowed to. Besides, what would I say? Sorry Trini, but I'm breaking up with you so that if I die you can move on with your life?
" No! No Trin, there isn't more to the story. We just lost the spark." Maybe it was a moment of desperation, but with a muffled sob, Trini grabbed for me and kissed me roughly on the mouth. How I wanted to reciprocate, but no. That would just ruin what I had to do. She looked up at me with such sorrowful eyes.
" I see... well, then I guess I'll gather my things and go... I hope we can stay good friends though," though her heart was breaking, Trini managed to leave the room with dignity and strength, both of which I knew I never could. I wanted to run after her and re-proclaim my love for her, but duty kept me in place.
I'd told Tommy about my plans earlier, when he'd called me about the Red Ranger mission. Stupid, he'd called my plan, saying that in the end all it would leave were two broken hearts. He was wrong though. He too didn't see what I was doing. What if I was killed or worse? All that would leave is Trini with a broken boyfriend and an even more shattered heart. No. I wouldn't let her feel any more pain than necessary. Though it may not of seemed like it, I loved her with all my heart.
In the back of my head I let myself know the phone was ringing, but I didn't bother to pick it up. Nothing really mattered to me right now.
" Jason, that was Tommy. He said that today was the day of your... mission? What's he talking about?" her tone was light and inquisitive, but he could detect the aloofness in it.
" Nothing that bothers you Trini. And about you moving out, don't bother. I've already made plans to move back with my parents." It hurt like hell to see the tears forming once more, and the struggle she was making with herself not to shed them.
" Well, I see that you put a lot of thought into this decision," before she could help herself, Trini fell to the ground weeping, unable to hold it back any longer. I took a step forward to comfort her, but then walked further away and looked at the clock. I had to get to the hanger, or I'd be late. I looked once more at the shaking figure on the ground, her long black hair covering her delicate features. Why couldn't she see that this killed me too? She'd been my everything for so long, that now to see her like this...
" I know you hate me Trini, and I'm sorry..." I murmured, before dashing out to my motorcycle.
~*~
I could hear Jason rumble away. How could this happen? It wasn't like Jase just to break up because of loss of passion! Slowly I stood up and walked to the phone. Technically we weren't together anymore, so I wouldn't be prying... I picked up the receiver and dialed Tommy's cell.
" Jase? What's taking you?"
" Tommy? It's me, Trini. I want to know what this mission is all about." I knew my voice was shaking, but I had to find out.
'Something about the mission was what made him break up with me, I just know it!' I thought, completely in denial.
" Trini? Are you okay? Where's Jase?"
" Going to wherever you are, I suppose. We broke up."
" WHAT??? He didn't?? I thought I'd talked him out of it."
" I guess not. Now please Tommy, help dull the pain of the breakup by telling me he dumped me because of your mission?" I heard him sigh on the other line, before the entire thing was explained to me.
~*~
" Oh god... Tommy, you can't do this! You'll all be killed! Jason-"
" That's why he broke up with you Trini. Because he didn't want you to feel any pain if he didn't make it back."
" Jason... Tommy, he... he rather me hate him than hate life if he died?"
" That's exactly it."
" Oh lord..." I felt my anger dissipate, only to be replace by fear. Pure fear.
" Tommy, bring him back home! Please keep him safe!"
" I'll do what I can... I have to go Trin."
" Good luck, and tell Jason I love him. Tell him I forgive him for his actions. I understand now he morally had no choice."
" Bye." I heard the quiet click of his phone before I got on my knees and prayed.
" Father who art in Heaven, bless the men who are risking their lives for our world. Let them live and come home to their loved ones. And Lord, let Jason know I don't hate him, and that I want him back."
With a silent 'Amen', I stood up and looked out the window.
" It must have been so hard for you Jason to tell me you don't love me anymore..."
~*~
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
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A/N: Okay, so it wasn't as tear jerking as I would have liked, but oh well. By the way, I'm in no way denoting any other religions, it's just I thought Trini needing a little religious bit. Please review!
Redwolf: I'm glad you liked it so much, and it's nice to see someone who thinks my writing is improving. I'm going to skip the Ryan/Kelsey thing and move on to your next comment. Yes and yes. The Zhane/Karone won't be for a while, but if you like them, you can look at my fic dedicated to them, and Merrick/Shayla is only at draft stage.
Debbie: Yeah, I think it was missing... quality? Yes, I just bashed me- self.
rain: Thank you. Actually, I have seen two episodes (the second-part of 'the Lost Galactabeasts' or whatever, and 'Raise the Titanisaur'.), but I wasn't really enthralled with it. Your compliments are most kind.
Power Princess: Well, to tell you the truth, the ending went fast because I couldn't think of a better ending. Yep, TJ/Cassie is great, but for the chap. about them, it's going to be a Phantom/Cassie/TJ triangle. Who's Cass going to end up with? Even I don't know. Tori/Blake is coming along, but I kind of scrapped the Cole/Alyssa. It turns out I was copying my Taylor/Eric except for the ending. Back to the drawing board I guess! By the way, your Forever Red fic is awesome, and I apologize now for my gushy/ditzy review.
Crimson nova: Thank you for reviewing!
Okay, I'm not going to be updating 'Chanson D'Amour' until I get another chap. out on one of my other stories. I seem to be neglecting them. Bye!