A/N: This is Harry' POV, then next one is going to be Draco's POV. I'm
experimenting with my writing styles, so I don't know if it will be any
good. It's also kinda short... I hope you like it!
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Chapter Six ~ If I Hate Him Why Can't I Leave
I wandered round the school for a bit. I didn't know where to go, or what to do. I wanted to go and find Malfoy, but he obviously didn't want to see me right now. I thought it better to let him come and find me when he was ready. But what if he was never ready to come and find me? What if he really was serious about doing it by himself?
No. Draco Malfoy may be proud, but he's not that strong, not on the inside. He would come and find me eventually, and I would be right there for him. But could I wait that long? I needed him too. I'm outside his door. I don't know why or how, but I am. I'm here and I don't know what to do. Do I knock? Or just walk away?
I'll knock. Then he can tell me to go away, or he can invite me in. That's if he's in there at all. I won't know unless I knock. I've knocked. He's defiantly in there. I can hear him moving around. The portrait is opening. There he is. The father of my child, and the mother of my child at the same time. What do I say?
"What do you want?" he says. I don't know. What do I want?
"Can I come in?" I ask. If nothing else then if he wants to talk it should not be in front of the passers by. This must stay between us for as long as possible. He has motioned for me to step inside. It is a nice room. A green and silver clad prefect's room.
He motions toward a chair and I sit. But he doesn't. He stands and faces away from me. "What do you want?" he asks. "I told you I'd be fine." But he's lying. I can hear it in his voice. He sounds strangled, like he has been crying. I haven't cried. I'm barely past the shock that there is something inside me.
"I don't believe you." I say, daring to confront him. He's turning round now, looking at me through those cold silver eyes. He looks angry.
"I can do this on my own, I don't need anyone's help, least of all yours. I'll be fine." He snaps. Tears are creeping into my eyes. I don't like it when he shouts directly at me. For years I have put up with his taunts but somehow now it is more personal.
"But I need you." I say as a tear escapes and rolls down my face. I want him to hold me. I don't know why I want him to. I hate him. But I want this horrible empty feeling to stop. And what I say was true. I do need him. He may claim that he can do it on his own but I can't.
He is staring at me. His face is bland, I can't tell what he is thinking. I sometimes wonder what is going on in his head. Why he is the way he is. He's walking toward me. He sits beside me. He doesn't know what to say. Neither do I, but the silence is killing me. "You said you would be there for me." I say.
"I know." He says softly, but still he does nothing. I'm crying now. I want him to say something more. But I don't know what I want him to say. I'm confused. I guess he is too. He puts his hand on my shoulder. It's vaguely comforting. But I still hate him. So why am I here at all?
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Replies to Reviews:
[Sei the purple Ryu] Glad you liked it! Why are you killing Gaia?!
[Sweetytweety] Thank you. I always generally prefer Draco, but I wasn't sure this time so I let people choose for themselves. In the end it was a draw so, yeah, there you go!
[Reese Craven] Yep! Lucius is indeed pregnant, you will hear more about that in further chapters. God bless uncle Sev!!
[Sheree] Okay, they will be injured. You'll have to wait and see what happens between them. I can tell you for certain that Draco won't be alone. Yep, Lucius is preggers and again you'll have to wait and see...
[Sirius-gal-4-eva] Tee Hee, glad that you liked it!
[Lyonessheart] Yep! There will be more on Lucius soon...
[Miss Lesley] Thank you much! You'll have to see about Lucius in later chapters.
[JAML] You poor thing *pats hand* You'll get better eventually! I hope the story is keeping you vaguely sane!
[fishnetfairy] Yep, Lucius is pregnant! I haven't worked with Lucius before so he is going to be my side story.
[ana-pj] Yeah Lucius is pregnant but he is a side story. I'm glad you liked it so much!
[mistik-elf13] Wait and see...
[Shania Maxwell] Yep Lucius too!
[driven to insanity] I hope you didn't wake up your dad! I'm glad you liked it, usually when I try to be funny it's just crap.
[Tensai] It's okay, Harry will have moment where he is VERY over protective of Draco. And vice-versa so that everyone is happy (I hope...)
[slasherbabe] Thank you much!
[amy] Thank you!! Yeah, Lucius is pregnant as well, it's just one big baby- fest in the wizarding world.
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Chapter Six ~ If I Hate Him Why Can't I Leave
I wandered round the school for a bit. I didn't know where to go, or what to do. I wanted to go and find Malfoy, but he obviously didn't want to see me right now. I thought it better to let him come and find me when he was ready. But what if he was never ready to come and find me? What if he really was serious about doing it by himself?
No. Draco Malfoy may be proud, but he's not that strong, not on the inside. He would come and find me eventually, and I would be right there for him. But could I wait that long? I needed him too. I'm outside his door. I don't know why or how, but I am. I'm here and I don't know what to do. Do I knock? Or just walk away?
I'll knock. Then he can tell me to go away, or he can invite me in. That's if he's in there at all. I won't know unless I knock. I've knocked. He's defiantly in there. I can hear him moving around. The portrait is opening. There he is. The father of my child, and the mother of my child at the same time. What do I say?
"What do you want?" he says. I don't know. What do I want?
"Can I come in?" I ask. If nothing else then if he wants to talk it should not be in front of the passers by. This must stay between us for as long as possible. He has motioned for me to step inside. It is a nice room. A green and silver clad prefect's room.
He motions toward a chair and I sit. But he doesn't. He stands and faces away from me. "What do you want?" he asks. "I told you I'd be fine." But he's lying. I can hear it in his voice. He sounds strangled, like he has been crying. I haven't cried. I'm barely past the shock that there is something inside me.
"I don't believe you." I say, daring to confront him. He's turning round now, looking at me through those cold silver eyes. He looks angry.
"I can do this on my own, I don't need anyone's help, least of all yours. I'll be fine." He snaps. Tears are creeping into my eyes. I don't like it when he shouts directly at me. For years I have put up with his taunts but somehow now it is more personal.
"But I need you." I say as a tear escapes and rolls down my face. I want him to hold me. I don't know why I want him to. I hate him. But I want this horrible empty feeling to stop. And what I say was true. I do need him. He may claim that he can do it on his own but I can't.
He is staring at me. His face is bland, I can't tell what he is thinking. I sometimes wonder what is going on in his head. Why he is the way he is. He's walking toward me. He sits beside me. He doesn't know what to say. Neither do I, but the silence is killing me. "You said you would be there for me." I say.
"I know." He says softly, but still he does nothing. I'm crying now. I want him to say something more. But I don't know what I want him to say. I'm confused. I guess he is too. He puts his hand on my shoulder. It's vaguely comforting. But I still hate him. So why am I here at all?
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Replies to Reviews:
[Sei the purple Ryu] Glad you liked it! Why are you killing Gaia?!
[Sweetytweety] Thank you. I always generally prefer Draco, but I wasn't sure this time so I let people choose for themselves. In the end it was a draw so, yeah, there you go!
[Reese Craven] Yep! Lucius is indeed pregnant, you will hear more about that in further chapters. God bless uncle Sev!!
[Sheree] Okay, they will be injured. You'll have to wait and see what happens between them. I can tell you for certain that Draco won't be alone. Yep, Lucius is preggers and again you'll have to wait and see...
[Sirius-gal-4-eva] Tee Hee, glad that you liked it!
[Lyonessheart] Yep! There will be more on Lucius soon...
[Miss Lesley] Thank you much! You'll have to see about Lucius in later chapters.
[JAML] You poor thing *pats hand* You'll get better eventually! I hope the story is keeping you vaguely sane!
[fishnetfairy] Yep, Lucius is pregnant! I haven't worked with Lucius before so he is going to be my side story.
[ana-pj] Yeah Lucius is pregnant but he is a side story. I'm glad you liked it so much!
[mistik-elf13] Wait and see...
[Shania Maxwell] Yep Lucius too!
[driven to insanity] I hope you didn't wake up your dad! I'm glad you liked it, usually when I try to be funny it's just crap.
[Tensai] It's okay, Harry will have moment where he is VERY over protective of Draco. And vice-versa so that everyone is happy (I hope...)
[slasherbabe] Thank you much!
[amy] Thank you!! Yeah, Lucius is pregnant as well, it's just one big baby- fest in the wizarding world.