Finding Courtney

Chapter 6: With Love, Courtney… P.S.

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room There's so much tenderness in your loving God give me strength when I am leaving So raise your hands to heaven and pray That we'll be back together someday Tonight, I need your sweet caress Hold me in the darkness Tonight, you calm my restlessness You relieve my sadness…

Courtney sat in the chair next to his bed. He lay there barely covered by the sheet, and she wasn't sure if she'd be able to leave at this point. "Come on Courtney, You have to do this." She whispered. She paced a moment, and walked over to wake him. She stopped though, she knew that she couldn't handle saying goodbye to him so she let him sleep. Instead she wrote a note and left it on top of the folded clothes that she had worn. But something held her back. She turned and looked around the room, and finally grabbed the star T-shirt that he had worn the day before so carelessly thrown to the floor. She held it to her face and could smell his cologne. She decided to take it with her and in return, she left the jacket she had worn on his dresser. One tear grazed her cheek, which she quickly wiped away and walked, out of the room, carefully closing the door. She walked outside, waiting 5 minutes, when her mom pulled up. After the tear-filled reunion and some explaining, they got in the car and left. About three minutes later Jason woke up and reached across the bed hoping to touch her silky blonde hair, but all he could feel was bed sheets. He opened his tired eyes and looked around, Courtney was no where to be found. He stood up and pulled some boxers and jeans on. "Courtney?" he called. He opened the bathroom door and didn't see her there either. He turned then and saw the note.

Dear Jason,

I'm sorry that I left without a goodbye, but I wasn't sure if I could handle one.

You meant so much to me this week, well actually you were everything to me this week.

I really think that under other circumstances we could have lasted as a couple you know?

But it's not under other circumstances.

Maybe even someday down the road if we were to see each other, we could start again, but not like this.

It just can't be like this.

I'm leaving, please don't search for me.

If it's supposed to happen it will happen by fate.

With Love,

Courtney

P.S. I'll tell you what, if we ever meet again, let's go dancing in the rain.