Finding Courtney
Chapter 7: Courtney's Gone
Oceans apart day after day and I slowly go insane, I hear your voice on the line but it doesn't stop the pain if I see you next to never how can we say forever wherever you go whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you I took for granted, all the times that I thought would last somehow I hear the laughter, I taste the tears but I can't get near you now oh, can't you see it baby you've got me goin' crazy but in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance…
Jason felt this strange pain and desperation rising from the pit of his stomach and wrapping around his lungs. He felt like he couldn't breathe, and when he did it hurt so terribly. He threw the note across the room and kicked the leg of his end table, cracking. He had to get out of there. He pulled on the sweatshirt of his that Courtney had worn the day before. He ran. He wasn't sure where he was going but he couldn't be there. Somehow he felt like he was going to find her, like he would just see her standing there on the sidewalk waiting for him with a smile. He picked up speed, tears streaming on his face and flying behind him. And then some how, He ended up at the carnival. It was still there. He stopped right in the middle of the blocked of road, fists clenched and legs slightly spread. He looked around for a minute, completely breathless, and took off again. He knew what he had to do. He ran past all of the rides and stopped in front of the sign. Seeing her struck more pain than ever. He wiped his eyes again and took the poster down and touched the image of her face. Then he folded it and put it in his pocket. He ran all the way back to the dorm, ignoring the dull ache in his thighs and side. When he reached the door and flung it open he was surprised at who he saw sitting on his bed.
"What's wrong with you?" Taylor demanded. He took a jerky breath and mustered up a simple two-word reply.
"Courtney's gone." Is all he said.
"So, finally the tramp flew the coop. She was a real slut you know? It's better for us that's she's gone don't you think." She said in a snotty, bubbly tone He could feel his face turning even more red, he got suddenly hot with his rage. He started shaking even more than he had been and then the words exploded.
"You bitch! She was not a slut, and she was not a tramp! You on the other hand are a slut! I am so sick of your shit! I hate you! Why do you always say stuff like that Taylor? You weren't like that when we met. But you know what you can never compare to her! She was the best thing that ever happened to me and I lost her! I f***ing lost her! And guess what!?!?! Last night I slept with her! And if she were here now then I'd do it again! Oh and by the way, it isn't better for us because there is no us! We're through!" He screamed.
As he was saying all of this, her mouth dropped. He took a step forward.
"Now get the F*** out of my dorm now! Get the hell out!!" he screamed. She went to the closet and grabbed her clothes and left with out saying a word.
When she left he slammed the door and hit his radio. The song Imagine by John Lennon had just ended, and the song that came on made him collapse on his bed with more tears.
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
That's when he took out the poster and decided to call her.