Finding Courtney

Chapter 9: Please Don't Call Me Anymore

I don't want to run away but I can't take it I don't understand if I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am is there anyway that I can stay in you life…

Jason, with a shaky hand, dialed her number and put the receiver to his ear. He was holding his breath and with the second ring, he suddenly lost his nerve and hung up. He closed his eyes tightly, a clenched fist raised just above his leg. Finally he brought it down with as much force possible. He wouldn't feel the pain until much later. He got up with fury and started pacing. He had too talk to her. He had to hear her voice again. He went into the bathroom and threw some water on his Face and rubbed his eye. He could see veiny looking bruises above his eyes starting to form from crying so hard. He dried off his face and walked to his bed and sat down. He picked up the phone and slowly dialed the number. This time, he waited until someone picked up.

"Hello?" Courtney's mom's voice came over the phone.

"Is Courtney there?" he asked quietly.

"Uh, yeah just a minute." She said.

She put the receiver on her shoulder and called for Courtney, who had long been in her room trying to remember stuff from her childhood and such, but all she could think about was Jason.

"Courtney honey, the phone's for you, it's a boy" her mother said. She just knew it was him. She ran out of the bedroom and grabbed the phone from her hand and ran back to her room.

"Hello?" She said. Jason's knees went weak and he had to take a huge breath before he could speak.

"Courtney." He said weakly, getting choked up again. Jason was not much of a sensitive guy, but Courtney did something to him, she had reached a place that no one could.

"Jason" she said kind of mocking him, trying to hold up.

"Why'd you leave. Why didn't you say goodbye?" he said. It hurt to talk because of the lump in his throat.

"Didn't you read my note?" she asked

"Yeah, but I still don't get how you could leave if you felt like that. And after last night…" he trailed off.

"Last night was amazing, but I had to leave you have to understand that I really need to and if you don't understand it, than please just accept it." She said on the verge of tears, hoping that he couldn't tell it in her voice.

"If you needed to leave then why are you crying now?" he said. She wiped a tear from her eye.

"Sometimes the things you need to do are hard." She said.

"I don't see why, if you knew that you were just going to leave in the morning, that you would sleep with me." He said, getting somewhat angry.

"Well, I got carried away I guess, I guess I just needed you last night." She said

"Well I still do!" he yelled. This conversation was getting to real and to intense.

"Jason, I have to go thank you for everything really." She said.

"No, Courtney don't go I need you!" he said. Hoping she would stay.

"Goodbye, Jason. Please don't call me anymore" She said.

"NO, I!" he got out before she hung up.

"Love you" he finished as he tossed the phone on the bed beside him.

He flopped down and closed his eyes and had drifted off to sleep before he'd even realized. He dreamt of her. What they would have done together. What they did do together. And then, he felt someone gently shaking his arm, trying to wake him.

"Courtney?" he mumbled sleepily before he got his eyes open.