Finding Courtney
Chapter 11: Changes
Touching you I feel it all again didn't we almost have it all the ride with you was worth the fall my friend the night we held on til' the morning…
Taylor got her one moment in time where she felt like she really meant something to Jason. She woke up and saw Jason lying there with a strange look on his face. She couldn't quite decipher it.
"Jason?" she said gently.
He didn't respond and she understood. She got up and put her clothes on. As she looked at him and his bare chest, all she could think in her head was *Didn't we almost have it all? * He got up then and put some boxers and jeans on. He wasn't sure what to say to Taylor.
"Jason, I feel like I took advantage of you last night. Did I?" she said
"No. I needed it just as much as you did. Taylor, gosh I don't even know what to say so if this comes out wrong I'm sorry. I think that I took advantage of you more than you took advantage of me. You wanted one last night of Taylor and Jason, but it was actually one more night of Jason and Courtney. I thought of her all night last night. I'm sorry." He said. She shook her head knowingly.
"I know. I could feel it in the way you kissed me. But all I needed was you Jason. I really love you; I'll never love someone the way I love you. I think it would be better if I left and didn't come back now." She said tears stinging her throat.
"I guess so. I'll miss you," he said honestly.
She walked across the room and wrapped her arms around him, gently rubbing his bare back. He wrapped his arms around her in return. They just held each other and he tightened his grip. Finally she pulled away resting her wrists on his shoulders, just looking into his face. They let go then and she simply walked out. He stood there motionless for awhile. He grabbed a soft faded gray t-shirt and pulled it over his shoulders. Throughout the next couple of days, Courtney had remembered almost everything but all she could think about was Jason. She tried not to handle the t-shirt she took of his much, for fear that it would lose its scent. Jason repeatedly tried to call her but she wouldn't accept the calls. She dropped out of school fearing that she run into him. Everything was going down hill. Jason started to ignore all of his other friends. One day he tried to call Courtney again and was startled at what he heard.
"We're sorry but the number you dialed is not in service," the mechanic voice said.
He threw the phone across the room. He needed her so much. She was his one true love and he needed her back. With all that he did for her and all the passion they shared he felt that he at least deserved the decency and respect for her to talk to him. That's when he went to the bottle. He would drink huge bottles of vodka or tequila in one night. He just had to stop thinking about her. His grades started to slip. He wanted to rebel against everything now. He soon got kicked out of school for beating up about 5 guys on campus while drunk. He just happened to run into a man by the name of Sonny Corinthos at this point. They went into business together. Courtney moved to Brooklyn. She wanted to escape the memories. Of course they followed her, but she just didn't want to be reminded of them every time that she turned around. Jason sobered up so that he could advance in his partnership with Sonny. He starting wearing leather jackets everywhere he went. He wanted to cover up his good heart, which was growing more and more bitter with the fact that he knew he'd never see Courtney again.