Finding Courtney
Chapter 12: Jason and Sonny
I took for granted all the times that I thought would last some how I hear the laughter I taste the tears but I can't get near you now…
It had been five years since Courtney left. Jason still loved her like not one second had passed since the last time he'd seen her. Every single night, he walked down onto the docks and would stare the icy cold waters, and he'd remember everything about her. He'd even let his eyes fill with tears from time to time. He wanted so badly to get over her but he just didn't know how. Maybe there was no getting over Courtney. Sure he dated a couple other people, his closest relationship (other than Courtney of course) was a woman named Carly. But every time he kissed them, he instantly thought of Courtney. When they'd touch him, he'd imagine that they were Courtney. He just wrapped himself in his job, and would hide all emotion… except for those few vulnerable moments on the docks. Sometimes while standing there, he'd sing gently to himself
Oceans apart day after day, and I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line, but it doesn't stop the pain If I see you next to never then how can we say forever Wherever you go whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you…
Sonny was secretly after Carly, Jason's ex-girlfriend. He wasn't sure how Jason would react though, so he couldn't bring himself to actually dating her. It was so hard to see her all the time and not be able to have her. Jason had also been especially distant lately. Well, he'd always been distant from everything but lately it was worse. He wouldn't tell Sonny why. Sonny had no idea about Courtney or any of it. This was creating a void in their business. It's like the secrets were prying Sonny and Jason apart. Sonny wasn't sure if they could hold up against the pressure. Finding Courtney Chapter 13: Courtney I heard a cry within my soul I've never had a yearning quite like this before, I wonder if I'll ever see you again… Courtney too wrapped herself up in her work. She was a journalist for the New York Times, under the penname "Me2" a play on her favorite band's name U2. She knew that really it was just so that Jason wouldn't find her. She didn't realize that it would still hurt all this time. After five years she still loved him from the depths of her soul. And much like him she gave herself a moment of truth every single night. She walked down to the Brooklyn Bridge and stared at the icy waters and thought him. Sometimes she'd let a tear fall. And every so often, she would sing so softly All of my life where have you been I wonder if I'll ever see you again and if that day comes I know we could win I wonder if I'll ever see you again… Courtney lived in a very nice apartment, no close friends, and no boyfriend. Every time a man got near her she remembered A.J. and Jason. She just couldn't help it. A.J.s memory made her sick and scared. Jason's memory sent chills up her spine making her feel cold and it struck up a hunger for him within her. She hadn't been close to anyone since him. She hadn't talked to her family for over three years. She couldn't handle talking to anyone hardly. She felt that being lonely with a crowd of people felt so much worse than feeling lonely because you are honestly all alone. That is exactly what she was on the inside and on the out side. All alone and by herself. And she decided that unless Jason found her, than she would remain the way forever.