Back by popular demand! Lol, okay, so by twosies demands, say sos.
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The last time you cared about anything
The last time you allowed yourself to be seen
I put on my best suit that next morning. I pulled the green tie around my neck. Star had picked it out especially for me, especially for this occasion. I pulled on black shoes over my green feet and started tying them. I sat on the edge of my bed and rested my head in my hands. I tried to hold back tears that wanted to come so strongly. I shook my head over and over again still not believing what had happened.
Raven was dead.
It was my fault. If I had been faster, maybe I could have saved her. If I could have reached out to her, maybe this wouldn't have happened. Or with Terra either. I just had bad luck with girls period. They… die… or close enough.
I heard a knock of my door. A quiet know, but an urgent one. I got up off of my bed and went to open the door. I was greeted by… no one. I was about to go back inside when I noticed a black book on the ground. I picked it up, and shut my door, making sure it was locked behind me. I sat down on my bed and examined the book.
Black leather. Small. The first page was written in a weird language, one that I could not read. The next page seemed to be an entry in a diary:
January 22
I can feel myself starting to lose control of what I strive so hard to hide. Each time I use my power, more and more is unleashed. If I don't do something soon… I don't want to think about what might happen. Whatever I do… it must be… soon. But… I can only think of one option. Is it worth it?
"No," I said flatly, while turning the page.
January 23
I was born a half demon, so I have the powers. If I control my emotions, then I won't be evil. But how can I control an emotion that I have never felt before? For someone that I do not want to feel? Is love even an emotion? Or just a feeling? If I was to let this go, what would happen? If I were to tell him, how I feel?
I can't risk it. I can't possibly tell Beast Boy I might be in love with him. What if it got out? Damn, my favorite lamp just exploded because I let some tears out. I really liked that one too.
"Loved me?"
Somewhere in the middle you are now caught
You've never seen who you really are
I turned another page.
January 25
I exploded today. I was able to cover it up somehow, although Robin is a little suspicious. I won't give him time to figure it out however. Tonight, I will end this once and for all. Good-bye all.
I turned to the next page, and was surprised to see a Polaroid of myself and Raven, on the beach. That had been a fun day. She didn't want to go of course, but I got her to go. Starfire buried Robin in the sand of course, perhaps too much though. I turned it over, and it said, "Happy times long forgotten."
"Beast Boy, are you coming? The party of death has started and you are expected to speak of our dear friend Raven."
You really had to admire Starfire for remaining in what seemed as good spirits even after Raven…
I got to my feet and smoothed my suit out. If only I had been quicker. I took out a crumpled piece of paper from my pocket and started to read it. If only I had grabbed her hand. It was the speech I had written about her. What was I to say? She meant so much to me, and now all I was expressing it to was… her body. I walked out of my dark room but not before crumpling the paper and tossing it back on my bed.
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Before I got up onto the stage, I took a look at Raven in her coffin. Engraved on the sides were elaborate details of ravens and other figures of symbolism.
All the time you laugh you wait you cry
No part of your life is true
All the time your life passes you by
She wore a long white gown that seemed to spread out into the entire coffin dipping into every crevice and every corner. Her hands were holding a single white rose.
The room grew quiet as I came to the front of out living room in front of the microphone. I supposed they expected me to crack jokes, and talk about the good times. But every time I laughed since Terra… I wanted to cry. And now… with Raven… life was passing me by, people were leaving me.
If only I was like Raven, I could have been emotionless, hollow. But I started to speak anyways.
"The only thing that I want to do right now, is to join Raven wherever she is. I did not want her to do this. She will be missed more than she will ever know. I would like to join her. I missed my chance with her, but now I am going to find it again."
Everyone's faces fell further then they already were. I pushed my way through the crowd back to my room, the tears starting to stream down my face. I cried myself to sleep, knowing that tomorrow…
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I awoke to someone stroking my head gently. They emited pale white glow, and were wearing a white dress. Her voice was a whisper when she spoke.
"I loved you so much Beast Boy. I miss you."
My thoughts became blank as embraced the surprisingly solid girl. I cried onto her shoulder, and she cried onto mine. And nothing exploded.
Hollow Man you can't live like this
Your voice is just a whisper
You call upon you blank thoughts as you try
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THE END
You can make up your own ending on whether Beast Boy dies or not. Well, what do you think? How was it? I think they were OOC, but then again, who am I to judge how they would react in this situation? Oh, right, I don't own the teen titans, or the song Hollow Man which is by Trapt.