Chapter 2
Author's Notes: Thanks for the reviews! It inspired me enough to write to next chapter. But keep in mind, it's written at very late hour and it didn't had a beta. It isn't finished yet. But with school, this time, it 'will' take some time for the next chapter (if you guys want one?)
I don't put the lyrics all at once in the story. Just a little reminder.. :p
*****
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be faded, to telling only lies
~ Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit ~
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Dear Sam,
I hope you've listened to me and that you're reading this at home. Unfortunately I couldn't make it an order, cause I'm not your commanding officer anymore. But you were never good at following my orders, so I spare myself the trouble.
In my thoughts there's now a smile playing at your lips. I always found it amazing how my silly jokes could made you smile. Every time I saw that beautiful smile, it lightened up my day. It was the reason I kept making them, only for your smile.
Some confession, isn't it? Well, I've got an other one for you:
I love you
I love you, Samantha Carter. How unbelievable this may sound, I love you. Never thought it would take some guy from Denver, and yes I'm jealous, to say it. Actually, it's your leaving that's making me do this.
But it was me who said to you to 'get a life'. So who's complaining? I am, cause now I realise what a lucky son of a bitch I was, when you walked beside me, every time we stepped through that Gate.
Your party is still going on and I'm sitting here, alone in my office, writing a letter I promised myself I would never write. This picture I have in my mind of me confessing my feelings to you, on the day we defeated the snakeheads, is fading. In fact, I know now, that this will never happen.
I'm not mad at you, besides I never could. I want to believe that what you're doing is for the best. For all of us. If you had stayed, no one, not even me, could have predicted how I would've reacted. I would be a pain in the ass. Seeing you each day, on my side, but knowing, that at the end, you would be going home, to him. I couldn't have stand that.
But at the same time, I'd feel lost if you weren't by my side, fighting the fight for Earth. So therefor, I'm resigning.
If you would go back to the SGC, don't bother looking me there. I'd probably already have left.
We never made any promise to each other. But I believed in that silent vow we made. When the Goa'ulds were dead and defeated, there would be time for us. But I think we both knew that wasn't going to happen.
So I'm happy for you, my sweet Sam. I wish you all the luck in the world. Have a great life, you deserve it.
Goodbye,
Jack
My hands are shaking. Tears are falling. My head rests on the wheel. Nothing can describe how and what I'm feeling. My world just tumbled down. Everything I thought was right, is now crushed and it leaves me with nothing but tears.
*****
TBC?
Again, you choose.
Author's Notes: Thanks for the reviews! It inspired me enough to write to next chapter. But keep in mind, it's written at very late hour and it didn't had a beta. It isn't finished yet. But with school, this time, it 'will' take some time for the next chapter (if you guys want one?)
I don't put the lyrics all at once in the story. Just a little reminder.. :p
*****
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be faded, to telling only lies
~ Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit ~
*****
Dear Sam,
I hope you've listened to me and that you're reading this at home. Unfortunately I couldn't make it an order, cause I'm not your commanding officer anymore. But you were never good at following my orders, so I spare myself the trouble.
In my thoughts there's now a smile playing at your lips. I always found it amazing how my silly jokes could made you smile. Every time I saw that beautiful smile, it lightened up my day. It was the reason I kept making them, only for your smile.
Some confession, isn't it? Well, I've got an other one for you:
I love you
I love you, Samantha Carter. How unbelievable this may sound, I love you. Never thought it would take some guy from Denver, and yes I'm jealous, to say it. Actually, it's your leaving that's making me do this.
But it was me who said to you to 'get a life'. So who's complaining? I am, cause now I realise what a lucky son of a bitch I was, when you walked beside me, every time we stepped through that Gate.
Your party is still going on and I'm sitting here, alone in my office, writing a letter I promised myself I would never write. This picture I have in my mind of me confessing my feelings to you, on the day we defeated the snakeheads, is fading. In fact, I know now, that this will never happen.
I'm not mad at you, besides I never could. I want to believe that what you're doing is for the best. For all of us. If you had stayed, no one, not even me, could have predicted how I would've reacted. I would be a pain in the ass. Seeing you each day, on my side, but knowing, that at the end, you would be going home, to him. I couldn't have stand that.
But at the same time, I'd feel lost if you weren't by my side, fighting the fight for Earth. So therefor, I'm resigning.
If you would go back to the SGC, don't bother looking me there. I'd probably already have left.
We never made any promise to each other. But I believed in that silent vow we made. When the Goa'ulds were dead and defeated, there would be time for us. But I think we both knew that wasn't going to happen.
So I'm happy for you, my sweet Sam. I wish you all the luck in the world. Have a great life, you deserve it.
Goodbye,
Jack
My hands are shaking. Tears are falling. My head rests on the wheel. Nothing can describe how and what I'm feeling. My world just tumbled down. Everything I thought was right, is now crushed and it leaves me with nothing but tears.
*****
TBC?
Again, you choose.