Chapter 4
Author's Notes: Everyone, thanks for the reviews! It means a lot, thanks. Anyway, I've found a beta for this story. To be honest, more than one... :) But they too have exams, so the beta work can take awhile. But I didn't want to keep this from you, so I hope you guys still like the story and yes indeed, continue to send feedback. :) Oh, I swear, I wrote this a few days before Grace! Although there are similarities, this is my plot, I didn't take 'anything' from the episode. One more thing: I heard the name of the guy in Chimera will be 'Pete', instead of 'Peter'. So from now on, I'll be using 'Pete'.
*****
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do and I blame you!
~ Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit ~
(Originally a song from The WHO, thank you, max, for pointing that out to me. ;) But I find the version of Limp Bizkit better! )
*****
This is the most beautiful day in my life. Although the reflection in the mirror isn't exactly smiling, the white wedding dress looks wonderful. From this day on, I'll be a married woman.
I'm nervous. The white flowers in my hair are perfect and the bouquet of white flowers looks fabulous. Then what's wrong with me?
The door opens. Dad is coming to get me, it's time.
"You ready, kiddo?"
"More than I'll ever be," I smile.
"You look great, everything will be fine." He seems not so happy.
"Dad?" I ask, "Are you all right?"
"Yes, are you?" He looks serious.
"Of course. Why do you ask?"
He holds his hands on my shoulders. "I like Pete, you know that. But does he make you happy?"
I stare at him, not realizing yet what he just asked me. I stay silent and before he can say anything else, Cassandra comes in.
"Sam, it's time. We have to go."
Dad gives me a wink and follows Cassie outside. I wait one moment to have a last look at myself in the mirror. The person in the mirror just looks back. She does look happy. Because she's going to marry Pete.
The music is playing and I know this is it. Cassie and Janet, the bridesmaids, start to walk. On Dad's side I walk through the aisle. People stand up and look at me. They all smile. I notice lots of people of the SGC. Even Siler is here.
When I'm almost at the altar, I see Mark and his family, Teal'c, Daniel, General Hammond and Jonas. I smile. I'm happy with such good family and friends.
At the end of the row, I see Colonel O'Neill, standing in uniform. There's a woman by his side, dressed in black. I know that dress. When I look at her face, I think I'm gonna die. She is ... me.
I..., she wears the same dress I did on my date with Pete. My eyes never leave hers. She's smiling. But it looks more at laughing at me.
Dad stops and I look at him.
"Are you happy, kiddo?"
I don't know what's happening. My heartbeat is increasing, my breathing fast.
Suddenly I stand alone. Dad's gone. The people in the church aren't smiling anymore. Except for... her. She's laughing. Jack's eyes are on me, with a hurt look on his face.
Pete comes to me. No smile on his face, he's angry.
"Why can't you be happy?"
And then, he disappears right for my eyes, into thin air. Everyone is disappearing. The people in the church, Cassie, Janet, Teal'c, Daniel, Jonas and General Hammond. Jack sighs.
"Goodbye, Sam." And he's also gone.
She stands there and point out to something behind me. There's a mirror and I see myself.
"You're not happy." Her voice is hurting my ears.
The image of the mirror changes. I can see a house, in a quiet neighbourhood. Then it shows a boy and a girl crying. They are afraid. My heart breaks at the sight of them, because they look familiar. It's like I'm feeling their pain. Next thing I see, is Pete and me arguing. Fear creeps me as I watch the scene happen. The last image is of a graveyard. I try to read the name on the stone.
'Jack O'Neill, beloved husband and friend'
The same two kids are weeping at his grave. At the time the mirror turns normal, I notice tears rolling over my cheeks. "You'll never be happy." My double says.
And then it's only me in the church. Exhausted from the strong emotions I just had, I sink to my knees. The bouquet lays next to me and the flowers are falling from my hair. I feel lonely. I feel so alone.
"Sam?!" A voice makes me shudder. "Hey Sam! What are you doing here?"
I wake up. My eyes open and reality sets in. I'm sitting my car. No wedding. No tears.
"Are you all right?" Pete stands next to the car, with a concerned face. "Sam?"
"Yeah, I think so." I'm not quite over the shock yet.
"What are you doing in your car? You never came home, I was worried." There's no anger in his voice only disbelief.
"I... I was...," 'Think of something, Sam' "I was drunk. Too drunk, actually. I guess I felt asleep before I could get out." I gave him the lamest excuse I ever made up. God, I feel stupid.
"Well, you need to get inside, don't you think? I'll... Shit! The eggs!" He storms inside. Actually I'm glad he left. He doesn't need to know my secret. The letter of Jack is on the passenger's seat.
It was a dream. Only a bad dream. Yet it wasn't all bad. The hidden truth I kept buried for so long was displayed in my dream. How could I ever been so naïve?
The letter disappears into my pocket as I walk towards my house.
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TBC? Or not? ;)
Author's Notes: Everyone, thanks for the reviews! It means a lot, thanks. Anyway, I've found a beta for this story. To be honest, more than one... :) But they too have exams, so the beta work can take awhile. But I didn't want to keep this from you, so I hope you guys still like the story and yes indeed, continue to send feedback. :) Oh, I swear, I wrote this a few days before Grace! Although there are similarities, this is my plot, I didn't take 'anything' from the episode. One more thing: I heard the name of the guy in Chimera will be 'Pete', instead of 'Peter'. So from now on, I'll be using 'Pete'.
*****
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do and I blame you!
~ Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit ~
(Originally a song from The WHO, thank you, max, for pointing that out to me. ;) But I find the version of Limp Bizkit better! )
*****
This is the most beautiful day in my life. Although the reflection in the mirror isn't exactly smiling, the white wedding dress looks wonderful. From this day on, I'll be a married woman.
I'm nervous. The white flowers in my hair are perfect and the bouquet of white flowers looks fabulous. Then what's wrong with me?
The door opens. Dad is coming to get me, it's time.
"You ready, kiddo?"
"More than I'll ever be," I smile.
"You look great, everything will be fine." He seems not so happy.
"Dad?" I ask, "Are you all right?"
"Yes, are you?" He looks serious.
"Of course. Why do you ask?"
He holds his hands on my shoulders. "I like Pete, you know that. But does he make you happy?"
I stare at him, not realizing yet what he just asked me. I stay silent and before he can say anything else, Cassandra comes in.
"Sam, it's time. We have to go."
Dad gives me a wink and follows Cassie outside. I wait one moment to have a last look at myself in the mirror. The person in the mirror just looks back. She does look happy. Because she's going to marry Pete.
The music is playing and I know this is it. Cassie and Janet, the bridesmaids, start to walk. On Dad's side I walk through the aisle. People stand up and look at me. They all smile. I notice lots of people of the SGC. Even Siler is here.
When I'm almost at the altar, I see Mark and his family, Teal'c, Daniel, General Hammond and Jonas. I smile. I'm happy with such good family and friends.
At the end of the row, I see Colonel O'Neill, standing in uniform. There's a woman by his side, dressed in black. I know that dress. When I look at her face, I think I'm gonna die. She is ... me.
I..., she wears the same dress I did on my date with Pete. My eyes never leave hers. She's smiling. But it looks more at laughing at me.
Dad stops and I look at him.
"Are you happy, kiddo?"
I don't know what's happening. My heartbeat is increasing, my breathing fast.
Suddenly I stand alone. Dad's gone. The people in the church aren't smiling anymore. Except for... her. She's laughing. Jack's eyes are on me, with a hurt look on his face.
Pete comes to me. No smile on his face, he's angry.
"Why can't you be happy?"
And then, he disappears right for my eyes, into thin air. Everyone is disappearing. The people in the church, Cassie, Janet, Teal'c, Daniel, Jonas and General Hammond. Jack sighs.
"Goodbye, Sam." And he's also gone.
She stands there and point out to something behind me. There's a mirror and I see myself.
"You're not happy." Her voice is hurting my ears.
The image of the mirror changes. I can see a house, in a quiet neighbourhood. Then it shows a boy and a girl crying. They are afraid. My heart breaks at the sight of them, because they look familiar. It's like I'm feeling their pain. Next thing I see, is Pete and me arguing. Fear creeps me as I watch the scene happen. The last image is of a graveyard. I try to read the name on the stone.
'Jack O'Neill, beloved husband and friend'
The same two kids are weeping at his grave. At the time the mirror turns normal, I notice tears rolling over my cheeks. "You'll never be happy." My double says.
And then it's only me in the church. Exhausted from the strong emotions I just had, I sink to my knees. The bouquet lays next to me and the flowers are falling from my hair. I feel lonely. I feel so alone.
"Sam?!" A voice makes me shudder. "Hey Sam! What are you doing here?"
I wake up. My eyes open and reality sets in. I'm sitting my car. No wedding. No tears.
"Are you all right?" Pete stands next to the car, with a concerned face. "Sam?"
"Yeah, I think so." I'm not quite over the shock yet.
"What are you doing in your car? You never came home, I was worried." There's no anger in his voice only disbelief.
"I... I was...," 'Think of something, Sam' "I was drunk. Too drunk, actually. I guess I felt asleep before I could get out." I gave him the lamest excuse I ever made up. God, I feel stupid.
"Well, you need to get inside, don't you think? I'll... Shit! The eggs!" He storms inside. Actually I'm glad he left. He doesn't need to know my secret. The letter of Jack is on the passenger's seat.
It was a dream. Only a bad dream. Yet it wasn't all bad. The hidden truth I kept buried for so long was displayed in my dream. How could I ever been so naïve?
The letter disappears into my pocket as I walk towards my house.
*****
TBC? Or not? ;)