My feelings were going crazy. I knew I was in Love with Draco, but other than that one silent kiss, nothing else had happened. I knew that I had to tell Ron about it. He was my best friend, and best friends tell each other things. I knew he liked me, but I really didn't want to hurt him. He was like my soul mate I guess. The last few weeks of third year went by in a flash. Inevitably I found myself face to face with Ron. I had to tell him.

"Ron?" I asked, to get his attention. We were at the platform, and I was watching students boarding the train. Dreading the next moment.

"Hmm?" he answered, turning to look at me.

"I – well I'm in love."

"You are?!" He looked so shocked. So full of hope.

"Yes…with erm…D-"

"Who? Who?"

"Ron will you please let me finish? This is really hard."

"Oh right sorry. Go on then"

"I'm in love with Draco Malfoy." I paused. I looked him right in the eyes, and I saw the agony he was going through. I had hurt him deeply and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it now. He turned away from me, and for a brief moment I saw the tears brimming in his eyes.

He left the next moment for home. Everyone else did as well. I had chosen to stay at Hogwarts for summer since 'Dad' was going to be here. I had been his daughter for a few weeks, and already I noticed people treating me differently. My roommates, who had occasionally talked to me, had abruptly stopped doing so. Harry and Hermione had certainly drifted from me. They wouldn't even look at me. It was like I had done some unforgivable thing and I would never get back into their circle. And Ron, my only friend left…well I certainly screwed that one up. He'd probably never speak to me again either. I was completely and utterly alone, with the exception of my three brothers and my father. So I slowly walked through the empty corridors to talk to my brother. Kyle was only a year older than me, and so I helped him with his girl problems and he helped me with boys, and anything else. My other two brothers Jack and Josh were twins and were always with each other. And they had just graduated, so all that year they were so busy. Too busy to sit and talk with me, their baby sister.

I reached the Ravenclaw portrait hole and muttered the password. It swung open to let me pass. I found Kyle in one of the soft blue armchairs reading. He always seemed to be doing that. I went over and sat on his lap.

"Hey! Get off me! Can't you see I'm reading here?" He screamed. Obviously he did not want to do anything brotherly. I slid off his lap. In spite of that I stayed in the room, determined to talk to him.

"Kyle please, I need to talk to you. Everyone's left for the summer you'll have plenty of time for uninterrupted reading later." I said.

"Alright. I do owe you one don't I?"

"Yeah. Okay so I was talking to Ron. You know saying goodbye for the summer, and I decided that I had to tell him something before the train left. So right before the last call, I told him I was in love."

"You are? With who?"

"I'm getting there. I love… Draco Malfoy." I winced, waiting for a slap, an angry outburst, something to put me off Malfoy, and make me pay for what I did to Ron. Anything.

"He didn't take it well did he?" He said it calmly, soothingly.

"No…" I managed to whisper, my eyes filling up with the unshed tears I had waited until now to unleash. Kyle sat down on the floor with me and offered me his shoulder to cry on. Like a good brother should.

"You should send him an owl. I'm sure it would smooth things over a bit. Don't you think? Hmm?" He asked me, lifting my chin up so that my damp eyes met his. "It will turn out alright Lily. It always does."

I believed him, and snuggled closer to him, wishing I could find the words for that owl. Nothing came to me, until a few hours later. I was sitting at the empty Ravenclaw table eating supper, when it suddenly came to me. I summoned a quill and parchment and wrote:

Dear Ron,

I am so terribly sorry about the pain I caused you. I never meant for anyone to get hurt, especially you. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. You're all I've got left. Everyone else in my life has deserted me, just because my father is Prof. Snape. I don't think I could bear it if I lost you. I can't stand it right now. I want to run to the burrow just to see you. I love you Ron. You're my best friend in the entire world. Please forgive me.

Love,

Lily

I left it at that. I nodded goodnight to my father and one remaining brother, and left my half eaten supper, then ran to the owlery to send my letter.