Chapter 21: Wisdom of the Heart
Author: Moony Lover
Author's Notes: Aaaand this goes to my wonderful beta-reader Katie (where are you love? I'm really worried!) and for my lovely friend Fiona, who has beta-read this chapter so that I could post it quickly. Aaaah, this goes for the two of you girls!
Now, this goes to the previous reviews that I haven't been able to answer:
l[LiSa PiCe'A PePeRoNi PiZzA]l: Hey ya there! So you like long stories?? Well, I'm actually writing another story (not the one from Sirius, still don't have it though, I'll let you know when I have posted it, so that you can read it!) You know? What do you think? Will they become a family again or…? Let me know what you think! Perhaps you can make me change my idea of the end of this story **evil grin** nooo, why would I do that?? **smirk** Seriously, I hope you like this chapter and if I ever joke about it, it's just because I like getting you nervous! Heheh. But you know? I like long stories as well, but writing one is… stressfull! Besides, one thing is to have it all written and then start posting, and the other thing is write and post, write and post, and there just comes a moment when you have to write, but you HAVE TO, you don't want to.. you feel the obligation to, and that's not right, that's why I'm writing my other story, and as soon as it's complete, then I'll post it! Have you written anything?? Tell me more about you!! Hope you liked this chapter!!
Sanomeh: Hey!! So you like anime?? I love it! I mean, when I was younger (and funny, most girls don't like it) I LOVED the Zodiac Rangers… don't know how you call them in english, in spanish it's 'Caballeros del Zodiaco' and it was about this guys (12) that belonged to the Zodiac Calendar, and… it was strange, but I love it! I think they are really, really well done, I love them. I sooo admire people that draw like that!
I think that, after what everyone has told me, Ron had a very Ron reaction, you know? And I liked the end, that for once he would like to be the one that's been heard, and I wrote that mainly because I think that that's how he really feels about everything, even Hermione says it on book 4, Ron is jealous, he always gets the attention… so… I figured out this was something important as well, and it HAD to come up someday..! Anyway, I hope you liked the chapter!
kat6528 (2lazy2signin): Thaank you for your review!
gatoriris: ¡Hola! ¿Como estas? Espero que bien. Hey!! Did you understood what I wrote you?? I hope you did! ^_^ I'm really glad you like Spanish.. .what can I tell you? It's my mother tongue, and I really love it! Although it's a bit difficult, it has many changes and things that english doesn't have… but I guess that if you like something, then you are willing to do it, no matter how hard it is! ;) So you are learning from Spain? Well, that's interesting! Even though I'm not from Spain, I'm living here now, so you can ask me anything you want, I'll try to answer it (can't promise much, though!)
Little House Girl : So you speak Chineese, English AND spanish??? Woa! Well, that's nice you know chineese! I know it's a hard language to study, besides there are many differences with the different countries from Asia right? I mean, can you understand how Japaneese people talk??? Oooooh, it's soo interesting! And how are you doing in spanish?? So you have black hair (sorry for the sudden topic change) I think I'm gonna dye my hair black! I have it dark brown… a little darker than Cindy Crawford! :D Well, hope you enjoyed the chapter!
Hermionehasharry: You know that I can not really see Harry and Hermione as a couple? I mean, it's like if I ever went out with one of my best friends! We're like brothers, and I think they are so as well… dunno, this is my way of thinking. Perhaps Hermione not with Ron (although I think that they are really meant to be) but deffinitly not Harry/Hermione! Why do you think they are so mean to be?? Hope you liked the chapter!!
D.Torres: Hi ya there! Well, you know? I think they all made the right choices, it's just that perhaps it's not the best choice for Ron, or Hermione, but in their own minds they wanted to protect what is given to you, your family and friends. It always is the same, just because someone doesn't share our opinion, it's not like they are wrong, they are just… different. I also think Ally has to have a good family with both of her parents, but the world is not like that anymore. And I would rather be a single mother than have a bad relationship with my ex-husband, because in the end it's the child that suffers. I have some friends that have even came crying to the school because of her parents… and I tell you, that's not good. Better not to have known your father at all or so. Well, did you like the chapter??
scholcomp25: Thank you:))
Alaskantiger: did you get my last email?? It's just that so little people reviewed… and I don't remember you being one of them…:(
RipcurlGirl89: thanks for your best wished, this winter has gotten me badly sick, but fortunatly now my throat is wrong, nothing else ;)
HarryPotterFan17: thanks! I feel better already ;)
Silver Dragon Princess: thanks!;)
Dracozchick: You like Orlando Bloom? Woa! I like Johnny Depp or Ewan McGregor better! MAN they are sexy! Oh, and don't forget Alan Rickman… have you seen Orlando Bloom in Pirates of the Caribbean, right? He was just soooo funny! :D
JeRu: jeru jeru jeruu! Hermosa amiga chilena! Como va todo por este verano hermoso? Te envidio, ahora a mi se me dio que yo quiero que se verano.. soy muy rara, especialmente cuando siempre me gusto el invierno... *_* Ey! Antes que me olvide, yo se que sos de Santiago (a menos que me haya acordado mal) pero me imagino que conocerás la serie Machos, no? Bueno, si la conoces me podrias decir que es lo que le pasa a Adan (dios, esta tremendo!) que no puede.. hacerlo con Fernanda? Para mie s un trauma juvenil, o que es impotente o algo... pero es uqe estoy re enganchada con esa serie! Se filma en Viña o Valparaiso... siempre me los confundo, creo que es de Viña (es uqe una amiga de aca la vieja es chilena, y me cuenta de ahí... siempre quize irrrrrr) En fin conoces la serie?? Tambien me gusta 'Ariel' esta increibleee!
El colegio va bien, estresante como siempre, pero bueno, nada que no se
pueda sobrevivir. Mañana tengo curso de primeros auxilios y me voy temprano
porque me voy al aeropuerto de Bilbao a buscar a unas amigas uqe me vienen a
visitar, se quedan 1 semana pq dps se vuelven a Alemania, pero estoy re
contenta! Osea que por una semana no van a saber nada mas de mi, dps tengo que
seguir escribiendo (me quedan 2 capitulos y medio) y ya termino con la
historia! Cual pensas que va a ser el final?? Bueno, espero que te haya gustado
este capitulo! Beeechos!
Nanda Weasley: My brasilean
girl!!! Hi ya there!! Well, what can I tell you??? I still want to go to
Brazil, I think it's such an amazing place…! Besides, here there's a program
(The forest of the famous, la selva de los famosos) in wich they send some
famous people to the forest to survive… and they are doing it in the
Amazonas!!! Ooooooh, it's so nice and everything! I think it's fantastic,
although I hate the way they are making it dissapear. Do you talk much of this
topic there in Brazil?
I would like to go to Rio for the carnivals… they must be so great, the place must be, itself, wonderful! I love the Christ as well ;) Brazil is soo big… I would love to go there as many times as I could… and Copacavana! Woooa! I'm dying to go there! :D
To me it happens the same, David isn't my Remus (definitly not!) and Gary isn't my Sirius. To me the best Sirius is Johnny Depp and the best David is Christian Bale… who are yours? Bejitinhos!!!
Annison Crane: I don't know what I would do if I were in Hermione's shoes… I would probably give Ron another chance, as you said before, he was drunk it's not like he did it intensionally! But you know? You can not really know until it happens to you, don't you think?
Wytil: What would you do being in Hermione's shoes? I know she has been cruel, but you don't really know how you are going to react until it happens to you, it's like I said to Annison Crane up this review.. but I think that all of you at some point are right. Although there's one thing that I really, really think you are right: Ron has always been pictured as a dysfunctional personality, and here he shows to be no different
PinkTribeChick: you know, I think that all of the Weasleys were in a difficult position, and that they didn't even have the chance to think of whose side they were going to be on. They were trying to be as neutral as they could, because either choice they made, it was going to let someone out. And if Ron was going to Australia…they better stick to Hermione, who needs them now.
sweet775: AYYY! You said it SOOO good! Yo soy de Canada! It's soooo well said!! Better… impossible! ;) What part of Canada are you (sorry if you already told me this…!) ahh, I sooo want to go there! So you like Bryan Adams (you went to his concert… ooh, you are soo lucky! The day I go to one of his concerts.. man! He's gonna be in danger :D) besides, you speak french?? Oooh, that's nice! I want to learn french! I know german, spanish, basque and english, I want to learn french as well! Is it hard?
Kariiamaasanome: Haven't seen you in a while, Sermione, have I?? It's good to have old reviers back!
water-lily-113: hey! I'm really glad for your flames AND good reviews! It's perfectly normal you get angry, or at least sick, because of the mistakes here, but you have to understand that english is my thind language (and I know 4!) and sometimes my mind just gets confussed. You told me something because of the word 'Ran' well, what can I tell you? I really, really have trouble with this word. I always have. You know this silly mistakes that you just can not get rid off? Well, Ran is one of them! I'll try to remember it for the next time :D I'm glad you like my story and that you haven't found many mistakes in the chapters (after the first ones of course!) kisses and keep reading! ;)
Sanomeh: hahaha, my friends would do the same Harry/Ginny to me as well… they have already done it O_O! TODAY!! Man… and I screwed it all up (obviously… I'm really accident prone, you know? The words accident prone have been invented for me! Heheh)
PinkTribeChick: thank you!! :)
Kelly, acciotomriddle , Ayama Nyoko, Amanda… thank all of you for your wonderful reviews! I hope you like this chapter as much as I do…!
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"So… uh… thanks for… letting me come here with Ally.. and you"
Hermione looked up at Ron and smiled. "I'm going to take her to the swings… she loves them" Ron nodded and then watched as Hermione took Ally out of the pram and took her to one of the empty baby swings. She sat baby Ally on it and then strapped the chain across her. Ron smiled when Hermione started moving slowly the swing back and forth. She looked so natural and happy; just to be there with her daughter… that made Ron smile. He came slowly closer to Hermione. It took her a while to realize that Ron was there. "Hi" she said smiling. He smiled back. "We come here at least once a week" Hermione said, looking at her baby having fun. "This swing is Ally's favorite"
"It is?"
Hermione nodded. "She cries everytime I try to put her in another one, but als-" Hermione's voice was cut off, when Allyson started to laugh soundly. She smiled at her daughter, as Ron froze from the surprise. He had never, ever, imagined that the laugh of a child, his child, could make him feel so strange. It was a mixture of happiness, something he had never experienced before. The little child kept on laughing of everything, Hermione made her laugh even more with her incoherent-child-talk, but Ally, she was just.. enjoying herself so much. Ahh, ignorance was a gift, a precious one. And this little girl had no idea that both of her parents loved her very much, but had problems with each other, she didn't know that this was the first time they went out as if they were a family, or the pain Ron felt inside of him whenever he saw Hermione and Ally together. No, she was further that. She had no idea, she just enjoyed herself being the way she was, with two people who loved her, and a nice place to play in. Although, Ron thought to himself, this would not last forever. Soon Ally will grow up, start talking and walking and would know the truth about his parents, the reason of why they are not a family, as they should be, and the reason of many other things. She would know that her grandparents had been killed by Voldemort, and that her parents helped defeat him. She would know that not all the people are nice, and especially to muggle-born witches and wizards, she would soon learn so many things that Ron felt the need to protect her. From all of the crap in the world. He just wanted to grab her in his arms, cover her with a blanket or put her in an invisible bubble and let her there forever, so she wouldn't suffer what her parents suffered in Hogwarts. That warm feeling in his stomach was coming back. He hadn't felt this good in months.
Hermione, who had not even realized that Ron was deep in his thoughts, called for him. "So… wanna give it a try?"
"Sorry, what?"
"If you wanna give it a try" she said, motioning the swing where Ally was still having fun. Hermione's eyes were sparkling.
"S-sure… although, won't I do any damage? I mean… she's clearly small and those things are dangerous and then there's the gravity an-"
"Ron, It's just a swing" she said, raising an eyebrow. "Don't worry, they don't eat"
He smiled shyly and then went a step forward, where Hermione was standing. She went backwards and then watched how Ron pushed the swing, as Ally clapped her hands happily. They were there for a couple of minutes.
Well, Hermione had to admit he actually looked cute. He was of the paternal type. He always had been. Always protecting the people he loved… yeah, fatherhood was made for him. It was the first time she actually saw him play with a baby. He seemed to like it. He had a big smile on his face, and his eyes were sparkling as he saw his baby enjoy that simple thing and act, of pushing the swing that would raise her to the sky.
As she stared at them, Hermione wondered if she was doing a good thing. After all, she still could not forgive Ron, but what she was doing now, she wasn't doing them for her, she was doing it for Ginny and Ally… was she?
C'mon Hermione, you can not fool yourself! Of course you are doing this for you as well! After all, she could not forget those words she had told Ron as soon as he had walked off of the house the other day. Her feelings were still present in her life, she could never deny that she had loved Ron and that now, after almost two years, she still had feelings. Whether it was because he had reappeared in her life after so long and the perspective of forming the family she always wanted were bigger now, or if it was because she had never stopped loving him was beyond her, but she was certain of something. And that something was her feelings.
What had he just said? He was afraid of pushing the swing? He always managed to make her smile, even when she didn't feel like smiling. Right now, she had an enormous grin on her face, only remembering Ron with his scared face at the moment she had told him to push the swing… ahh, it had been priceless.
"Why are you grinning?"
Shaking her head quickly, Hermione snapped back to reality. "What?"
"Is there a reason for your grin?" he asked, also grinning. It must be contagious, he thought.
"You should have seen your face when I told you to push the swing… it was priceless"
"What? Why??" he asked, faking the innocence.
"Ron, you even used the word gravity… where have you heard that before?"
"Wha-hey! So you don't think that I can actually know a smart word?"
She raised her eyebrow, giving Ron her best incredulous look.
"Ron..."
"Ah, how am I kidding? You told it to me about... four years or so,
wait... no... uh... when we were 17 I think, you told me all about gravity and
so... I think I remember some, actually. Well, most of it. I barely
forget-" but he blushed and didn't finish the sentence. Hermione, who had
been smiling the whole time, gave him a worried look. She wanted to know the
end of the sentence, after all!
"Forget what?"
"No, it's nothing"
"C'mon! Say it!"
"Why? It's nothing really. Hey, don't you think Allyson may have already
gotten tired of these?"
"Yes, I think so"
She then came closer to the swing, as Ron stopped it and took Ally out of it.
She was preparing the baby-trolley to put Ally inside, but when she stretched
her arms so that Ron would give her the baby, he hesitated for a moment.
"Mind if I carry her for a while?"
That surprised Hermione a little, but she couldn't say no. "Why don't we
go and have a walk? I feel like walking a little"
Ron nodded, and then they set off. At first, they didn't talk much. Hermione
only looked at the parks and the people, as Ron only played with Ally, as he
held her in his arms, nervously. They walked silently for ten minutes or
so, when Ron realized that Hermione was looking at them more than usual, he
decided to ask what the problem was.
"Are you ok?"
"What? Sure... it's just, you two look cute togheter"
Ron blushed a little. "Thanks" he said, smiling. "She's really
cute, her eyes specially. She's got amazing eyes"
"Yeah... that's true..." Hermione said, not even realizing that
Ally's eyes were the same as Ron's, and that he was laughing loudly now. She
gave him a dirty look. "Yeah, I know that Ally has your same eyes, very
funny, ha ha. Well, you know? I always said you had nice eyes, it's not a
secret. So I don't see anything funny there"
Ron shook his head, still laughing. Soon, Hermione started laughing as well.
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"So, what do you think they are doing now?" Harry
asked, as he walked hand-in-hand with Ginny, through the streets of Hogsmade.
They had apparated there, so they could go and have some butterbeers. Besides,
they had thought it was further enough for both Hermione and Ron not look for
them to kill them. Yeah, it was safe. Ginny, who had just finished her
butterbeer and was carrying an empty bottle (she was looking for a Trash Can),
sighed before answering. "I don't know, as long as they don't kill each
other, it's fine by me" and then she laid her head in his shoulder, as
they kept on walking. That simple gesture, made Harry smile. "I don't
think they are killing each other...although you never know with those
two" he added at last, after some seconds of thinking. Ginny chuckled.
"They are so meant for each other that sometimes I find it hard to believe
they are so blind they don't want to see what's going on between them"
"Well, you know... it's Ron and Hermione, they are always blind"....
And it was true. Ever since their first year at Hogwarts... well, perhaps not that
much, but ever since their forth year at Hogwarts or so, they had been blind to
see their feelings. They would always deny them. When Hermione started going
out with Victor Krum, Ron would just deny that he had feelings for her... and
the same with Hermione, when he started going out with a cute dark girl from
Ginny's class. Whenever one of the two of them had a romantic thing with
another person, the other one would just treat them badly, saying that they
were betraying the trio (even though Harry had had a few girlfriends by then
and they hadn't told him anything) or silly things, only to try to hide their
feelings. God, they were meant for each other!
"What do you think they are doing now?"
Ginny shrugged. "As long as I have my guests for the wedding, I don't
really care, they are old enough to know that they should not kill each
other"
They were both silent for some seconds. Then Harry realized... in four days was
the wedding. He still couldn't believe it! He was incredibly lucky, to be
marring such a beautiful woman. Ginny... everytime he woke up in the mornings,
he was worried that he would wake up and find no-one there beside him in that
huge bed, but he was mistaken. Once, Sirius had told him that the first thing
he did when he woke up was to take a deep breath and then smile, only smile at
the life because it was giving you another day of life, and that was already
too much. But Harry had another reason to smile in the mornings. The sight of
Ginny's naked body, her perfect shape, sleeping peacefully, her red hair all
messy from moving too much in her sleep, her milky skin, perfectly healthy, her
chest moving up and down from her slow breath... sometimes she even murmured
things in her sleep, but even if she didn't, Harry could stay there watching her
for hours. To his eyes, she was perfect. And even though the thought now scared
him a little, they had already talked about kids. She wanted two... but he
wanted four. Two boys and two girls (of course, that could go all wrong) but he
wanted to have a big family. Many Potters that would go running around the
house, that would wake him up in the middle of the night because of
nightmares... he could even imagine, a little girl with long red hair and his
green eyes, just like his mother, and a little kid with his black hair and her
chocolate eyes.. just like his father. Man, they would be beautiful.
Perhaps he was trying to fill the gap that he had always had, referring to
family of course. He was pretty sure he could do much better than the Dursleys,
well, even an elephant could, but he wanted to take care of so many kids, and
raise them, and teach them to play quidditch and sometimes go to a park, or
just sit in front of the fireplace and tell them about the things he used to do
at Hogwarts, and the things that their grandpas used to do (he was determined
to teach the kids to say 'grandpa Sirius and grandpa Remus') and to teach them
to many things... even though it was a thought for the upcoming years, he
couldn't wait to have them. It was a challenge he was willing to make. And a
challenge he was sure he would pass. And with honors.
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"Well, Ron... thanks for coming home with me and
Ally... I really don't like walking alone with Ally at night"
"Why?"
"You know all of the things I see in the Ministry... you know? People are
crazier everyday, and the muggle world is worse. But... let's not talk about
that. The important thing is that we are safe now"
"I never thought you could be so afraid of walking in the middle of the
night alone... you never were"
Hermione frowned as she kept on looking for her keys in her purse. "You
know?" she said, still looking for them, as Ron knelt to play with Ally,
who was sitting in the baby-trolley, half asleep. "I wasn't afraid of the
streets when I was alone. But now that I have Ally... things are different,
Ron. Times are changing, and so am I. Sometimes the changes are good, and
sometimes they are bad. You just have to learn to live with them. Nothing will
ever be the same again. We are not fifteen anymore, and the circumstances are
very different as well..."
"I know, it's strange"
"Sure, it's really strange, you know? But you couldn't wait for us to live
our life as teenagers for the rest of our lives."
Ron got up and faced Hermione. "I'm not saying that. I'm just saying that
I find it strange to see you so mature, well, not really, but so...
responsible, no, not that... well, you know when you see a person changed, but
a change for the better, and.. you know, it's strange to see you in charge of
someone so little like Ally. I'm sure it's only because I haven't lived with
you or so, but I find it strange. I guess it would take me some time to get
used to the idea of you having a baby... and me being the father"
Hermione raised her head quickly and looked at Ron for some seconds. Well,
there was nothing wrong in that sentence. After all, he WAS the father of the
child. To tell the truth, Hermione had preferred to delete that thought of her
mind, and she sometimes even thought that if someday Ally asked her, she had
been conceived by Jesus, or that her father had passed away in some sort of
war... well, but she didn't want to tell Ally the truth about her father. Why?
Because she was embarrassed. And not only for what had happened, but also
because she still thought of the man she had loved so much, and couldn't deny
that he had been the only true love she had had in her entire life. Now, after
so lonely nights, they were there, just like many other nights, the two of
them, looking at each other's eyes, not even caring of the rest of the world.
It was just, the two of them. Alone.
Embarrassed, Hermione realized that she had been staring at Ron for more time
that she was supposed to, so she looked down once again and continued the
search for the keys. Once she found them, she gave Ron something that was
similar to a sad smile. "Well... Ron, thanks again for the walk, and...
the day in general. It was really nice"
"No, thank you. I.. I really enjoyed it. And I enjoyed being with Ally
very much...and of course with you"
Hermione made a small smile, then turned around and opened the door of the
building. "Well... see you later, then"
"Yes. Bye... Bye bye, Allyson" Ron said waving Ally goodbye. But it
was useless. The little girl was asleep. He smiled and turned around, but
even before he could make the first step, Hermione called him. "You know,
Ron? Uh... I've taken these days off, you know, to have a rest before the
wedding and everything. Tomorrow I don't have to help Ginny with anything and I
was planning to take Ally to somewhere, perhaps the zoo or somewhere... do you
want to come?"
Ron was surprised to hear Hermione ask him that, but he realized that it had
taken her a lot of courage, she was nervous when she asked that, and somewhere
in her mind, she was praying for Ron to say yes, without hesitating. He seemed
to have read her thoughts, because he just smiled surprised and nodded his
head. "Sure! Why don't I pass tomorrow at 11 o'clock?"
"I think it would be better at 12 o'clock, don't you think?"
"Sure, whenever you want to" Ron said. Hermione nodded and then
turned around. She entered carefully the baby-trolley and before she closed the
door, she turned around once again and called for Ron. "So, you barely
forgot about what?"
Ron sighed. She wasn't going to give up so easily. "You really want to
know, right?" Hermione nodded. "Ok, I barely forget the things you
say... as a matter of fact, I remember all of the things you told me"
And then, leaving a Hermione with a wide-open-mouth, he turned around and left.
"Goodnight, Hermione"
"Good-goodnight Ron"
That night, they both slept with a big smile on their faces.
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