Disclaimer: The characters, settings, etc. of the Harry Potter series are not
mine. I just play with them.
A Summer at 12 Grimmauld Place
Part Nine
Hermione had hoped that the next three days
would pass as slowly as possible. She wanted them to go on for years and years
so that the third day might never come. Instead, of course, they were the
swiftest three days of her life. Meetings, Order members, and hours came and
went quickly. Before she knew it, it was the evening before the third day, and
she was standing in the living room hugging Harry and Ron for what she feared
might be the very last time.
Dumbledore was there, standing apart from where she stood clinging to Harry, and
was discussing things with Severus. "Oh Harry," she sniffled, wrapping her arms
tighter around his waist.
"'S'all right, Hermione," Harry said softly. "It will all work out in the end."
"Yeah!" Ron exclaimed, though less cheerfully than he usually did. "Everything
will be fine. We promise."
Hermione extracted herself from Harry, and wiped her cheeks with the back of her
hands before turning and enveloping herself in Ron's arms. "You two take care of
yourselves," she mumbled against Ron's chest. "Please. I'm begging you."
"Of course, we will, Hermione," Ron said, kissing the top of her head lightly.
"And you take care of yourself. Don't let Snape get you down."
Hermione stepped out of his embrace and nodded. "Severus and I will be fine."
Ron reached out to brush a tear away from her cheek with his thumb. "I love you,
Hermione."
"I love you too, Ron," she said, giving him a small smile. "And you, too,
Harry," she said, turning so that she could look at them both. "I love you
both."
They grinned back at her, their eyes glittering with tears. "I believe," said
Dumbledore from where he stood with Snape, "that it is time for us to be
leaving."
Hermione gave Harry and Ron once last hug and watched as they disapparated with
the Headmaster. As soon as they had disappeared, her bravery failed her, and
Hermione began sobbing, burying her face in her hands. She did not care that she
was crying in front of Snape; she did not care that she was not being brave when
the situation called upon her to be so. She felt miserable and useless,
and no one was going to stop her from displaying her emotions.
She felt a large, warm hand come to rest on her shoulder a few seconds later.
"Miss Granger," Severus whispered softly on her right. She turned towards the
sound and moved until she came in contact with his warm, solid chest. She slid
her arms around his waist and sobbed against the front of his robes.
She was surprised that he did not push her away immediately, and
even more surprised at how comforting his touch was to her. Simply being
near him seemed to make her feel so much better about the situation. She
heard him murmuring above her, and though she had no idea what he was saying,
the soft sounds of his deep voice soothed her. She felt his fingers thread
their way through her hair, stroking lightly. His attentions assisted her, and
she finally calmed down. Taking deep ragged breaths, she was able to completely
end her sobbing.
"Better?" he asked softly.
"Much," she said against his chest, and pulled away from him a few seconds
later. "I'm sorry," she said, pushing some of the hair that had fallen forward
into her face away from her eyes. Snape was staring down at her with a look that
she couldn't quite identify; his eyes seemed to be studying her lips intently.
She imagined she must look awful, her eyes, nose, and mouth all red and puffy.
Hermione watched as he gulped and then opened his mouth to speak. "Miss
Granger," he said gruffly.
She silenced him with a wave of her hand. "I'm sorry," she said, looking down at
the floor. "You don't need to berate me for behavior less than suitable to a
Gryffindor. I know. I behaved like a child. But you said it yourself, Severus. I
practically am a child." She sniffled. "And I suppose that gives me the right to
cry like one every now and then."
"Of course," he said softly.
Hermione glanced back up at him; he was still watching her. "I'm going to bed,"
she said. "I'll see you in the morning."
He said nothing as she turned and left the living room. She hurried up the
staircase, and scurried down the hall to her bedroom. Once there, she collapsed
on her bed and lay there, staring at the ceiling where she remained until the
next morning.
The third day arrived sunny and warm. Hermione and Severus
ate their breakfast, sitting before the fire, waiting for someone to floo with
news. They sat there for hours, barely saying a word. Eventually, Hermione
supposed she'd drifted off to sleep in her chair, for one moment she was
watching the flames dance merrily in the grate before her and the next she
opened her eyes to see Snape pacing before the fire.
"It's odd, isn't it," said Hermione, as she watched him; she realized now that
the sun had long since set and that there was nothing beyond the windows but
darkness, "waiting for what could be the end of the world."
Severus froze. He turned to stare at her, his eyes bright and glowing with an
emotion she couldn't recognize. "Aren't you afraid?" he asked softly.
"Afraid of what?" she replied. "Afraid that my friends are out there dying while
I'm unable to do anything about it? Afraid that after today nothing in my
life will ever be the same? Afraid that the world might be coming to a
complete end?" she paused to take a deep breath. "Yes, rather."
Snape took two steps towards her, closing the gap between them. "Hermione," he
sighed as he sank to his knees and sat back on his ankles before her chair. "I'm
so frightened."
She smiled down at him. "Well, of course you are. We're venturing off into the
unknown, Severus. That's always scary."
Hermione was stunned by the intensity of his gaze as he peered
up at her. "Hermione," he said softly. "You really don't hate me, do you?"
She felt her eyes widen. "No. No, Severus, I don't hate you." She blushed,
feeling like she had confessed her undying love for him.
"No," he whispered as he rose to his knees. "It's something entirely different,
isn't it?"
"Yes," Hermione sighed as she watched him lean forward. She was aware of her
eyes sliding shut on their own accord and of the warm and soft presence of his
lips on hers. He kissed her slowly and gently for what seemed like hours, but
what she knew was just a few short minutes. She felt a surge of feeling overtake
her. All at once there was joy, comfort, and an overwhelming sense of
completion.
"Hermione," he breathed as he pulled away from her, "I want you to know, no
matter what happens, that I don't hate you either."
She smiled, though she could feel tears gathering in her eyes again. He smiled
back before pulling her into another kiss. It was sweeter this time, but just as
gentle. She couldn't help but feel that he was unsure about this as she was, but
it felt too right for there to be any reason why they shouldn't be doing this.
This was just too right; he was so right.
"I'm not a child," she whispered against his mouth after a few moments.
"I know," he said softly, tangling his hand in her hair. "Though, you are very
young."
She sighed and busied herself by kissing him again. She kissed him slowly,
taking her time to relish in the feeling of his mouth on hers. Who knew what the
future held for them? Who knew if they would ever be able to do this again? If
things went wrong, if the war was lost…
She moved her lips to kiss the corner of his mouth, before kissing a trail
across his cheek, the bridge of his noise, and finally ending with a light kiss
on his forehead.
She leaned back and looked at him. He was grinning up at her, a small, crooked
smile that looked both gleeful and uncertain. "You're lovely," she said softly.
"Me?" he said, as a light flush colored his cheeks. "You must be joking. Or
delirious? Have you gone mad from the stress?"
Hermione smiled and shrugged. "Maybe, but I wouldn't complain, if I were you. My
madness seems to be very beneficial to you."
"Oh really?" he said, raising his eyebrow.
"Really," said Hermione, lifting her arms and wrapping them around her neck. She
let her fingers weave themselves through the small ponytail that he'd gathered
his hair into at the base of his neck. "You've received all sorts of displays of
affection as a result of my insanity."
"True," he said. "Your madness has certainly motivated you to make it quite
clear that you don't hate me. And I suppose I've enjoyed the results."
Hermione smiled. "How long have you been here?"
"On my knees like this? About twenty minutes, I suppose," he said, grinning at
her.
"Oh, shut up. How long have you been in this house?"
She watched as he thought about it before responding. "Almost a month and a
half, now."
"And how long," she began, feeling the blush rise on her cheeks, "do you suppose
it takes for two people to fall in love?"
He shrugged, as he leaned forward to kiss her again. "It took me less than five
minutes," he said softly as he kissed her. "Do you remember?" he said as he
paused his actions to speak, "In the library. You were worried about me."
Hermione smiled and began kissing him with renewed vigor. He loved her. He
actually loved her. It was less amazing that this man was capable of an emotion
other than anger and hatred than it was that his love could be directed towards
her. What had she ever done that she could deserve such a wonderful gift?
What had she done that was so good that this attractive, interesting,
mysterious, and challenging man could care for her?
Hermione sighed against his mouth as his arms slid around her waist and pulled
her flush against him. It was karma, she supposed. All of those times she'd
defended him to Harry and Ron. All of those times as both a prefect and head
girl that she'd stopped her peers from playing tricks on him. All of the times
she had held her tongue in his class and had been respectful despite the way
he'd acted towards her and her friends.
She'd shown the man kindness, and now she was being rewarded for it.
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Author's Note: Thanks very much for reading and reviewing. I hope you're enjoying the story. One more chapter! And the epilogue. I doubt they will be posted together as I fear the epilogue needs a massive overhaul. So, next chapter should be up sometime this week with the epilogue to follow sometime after that. Thanks again for reading!
