CHAPTER EIGHT: I WISH YOU KNEW

The twins' next few days at school went by rather smoothly, considering what all could've happened; It was one day after school that Paige suggested that all the girls go dress shopping. Ashley and Trixie vouched for Ellie to come along; Paige was about to protest, but then agreed, albeit a bit reluctantly.

With that, the two girls went to catch up with their friend and try to talk her into coming with them.

They saw her standing with Sean at the front of the building; Ashley spoke up first.

"Hope we're not interrupting something," Ashley said, causing them to look up.

"Ah, looks like the girls want a little time," Sean said, winking playfully as he said it. He and Ellie kissed, then he headed over to where Jay and his gang were waiting for him. For some reason, Trixie couldn't shake the cold chill running up her spine when Jay looked her way, but disregarded it when Sean went toward them and he looked away from them.

"What's up?" Ellie asked in a friendly, sort-of upbeat tone.

"Wanna come dress shopping with the girls?" Trixie asked.

"You mean Paige and the Mod Squad? Thanks, but no thanks," Ellie replied, adjusting the strap on her backpack.

"Come on, El; besides, your humor in times we can't find the right dress is needed," Ashley replied with a meant-to-charm smile.

Ellie smiled a little bit, "Alright, I'll come for you guys' sakes," she said with a small laugh.

The girls came back to find Paige talking to Spinner and Trent.

"Has anyone seen Terri?" Paige asked.

Trent's face fell a little when her name was mentioned, but Spinner answered Paige.

"Her dad picked her up a few minutes ago."

"Well okay, we'll just swing by her house on the way, cool girls?" Paige asked.

The girls agreed and started for Paige's minivan, Trixie asking Trent to let JT know she was out if he called or came by.

When the girls asll got into the minivan, Paige turned to Trixie, "JT? As in JT Yorke?"

"Yeah... how come?" Trixie wondered a bit nervously.

"Oh yeah, Toby's my stepbrother and he's mentioned..." Ashley stopped herself.

"Mentioned what?" Trixie asked.

"Uh... just that he knows you and thinks a lot of you," Ashley replied, hoping that would end the discussion.

Paige pressed her lips together and got a small smile on her face as she looked over to Hazel, then started the minivan and pulled out of the school parking lot, heading toward Terri's house.

Trent and Spinner got to his house and the first thing Spinner did was raid the cabinets.

"If you're looking for the spray cheese, it's in the pantry," Trent said.

"Oh hey, so you DID think of me when you guys went grocery shopping!" Spinner clapped his hand on his friend's back, but then realized the melancholiness that had been in his voice. "Dude, I know you're bummed about Terri not wanting to go out with you, but..."

"It's not only that, Spin... she's not planning on going to the dance, even... at ALL," Trent replied, propping his chin in his hands.

"So ask someone else," Spinner suggested.

"But it's HER I wanna go with..." Trent said moodily, "I wanna go with Terri...."

"Look, you know what you need?" Spinner asked, spraying some of the spray cheese into his mouth, "some home-boy style R&R."

Trent raised an eyebrow.

"Dude, I'll call Jimmy and Marco and Craig and we'll play videogames or something," Spinner said, "the one thing that'll cure your woman blues for sure!"

He dove for the phone and dialed Jimmy's number while Trent went to check and make sure they had plenty of food and Spinner wouldn't eat them out of house and home.

Jimmy said he would be right over, and Marco said he would come after he and Dylan (his boyfriend) spent some time together, and he couldn't get ahold of Craig, so he tried his cell phone.

Craig was walking around the mall when he heard his cell phone ringing from inside his pocket, "Yeeeellow?"

"Craig! Dude, I tried your house but Joey said you were out - where are you?" Spinner's unmistakenable voice said.

"I'm at the mall, what's up?" Craig asked as he saw something out of the corner of his eye.

"Trent's got the woman blues and Jimmy's here, Marco's... coming, and, well, you're at the mall. You gonna come?"

"Yeah..." Craig replied in a distracted manner, but then snapped back, "oh yeah, I'll be there in a bit."

"Cool, catch ya later, homey," Spinner said.

"You're aware you sound more ghetto all the time, right, Spin?" Craig said, then laughed at the mask of confusion he could practically see on his friend's face, "Bye, Spin."

He laughed and rolled his eyes a little as he pocketed his phone, walking around a little more.

Paige, Hazel, and Terri were at one end of the store they'd decided to look in, Paige and Hazel trying to find a dress and trying to tal Terri into going to the dance.

"But I don't WANT to go," Terri said.

"Come ON, Ter; WHY don't you want to go?" Paige asked.

"Because I... I don't really like the thought of dancing with ANYONE or going WITH anyone..." Terri replied.

Hazel was about to speak up, but Paige knew what Terri was getting at so she kept her silent."Ter... I know Rick hurt you and you never wanna be hurt like that again, but... not ALL guys are like him. Believe me, I've been sort-of in the same position and know how you feel... Give guys a chance again. You need to."

Terri sighed, but knew Paige was right, "I know... but it's..."

"Hard, I know it is, Terri, but if you don't do it now, you never will be able to," Paige replied, hugging her dear friend.

Terri nodded as she let go.

"So, let's look for some dresses, huh?" Paige said in a more upbeat way, smiling and starting to look through racks.

Terri smiled to herself as she watched Paige, then thought of her own situation. She felt really bad for what she had done to Trent, and hoped that he might forgive her... she really liked him and knew she might've screwed up for good, but if her lucky stars were there, she was wishing hard...

Meanwhile, Ashley, Trixie, and Ellie were trying on the dresses they had found so far; but Trixie suddenly looked out the window of the store and saw Craig waving to her. She waved back, then he gestured for her to come out.

"Hey El, I'll be back in a minute, okay?" she said, and before getting an answer was out of the store.

Ellie watched her go and mused that she must've either seen something she wanted to look at or wanted to talk to someone.

"Hey Craig!" Trixie said with a smile.

"Hey Trix, whacha up to?" Craig asked with a smile back.

"Oh not much, just looking at dresses with the girls," Trixie replied.

"Ah, found the one you're gonna wear to the dance yet?" Craig wondered.

"Nope, but I hope I will soon," Trixie answered with a sigh and small smile.

"You will," Craig said as he got up, gently patting her arm and looking down slightly into her eyes, since she wasn't that much shorter than him.

Trixie smiled and blushed a little at the extra attention Craig was paying her, "Well, thank you for having so much faith in me, but I'd better get back in there if I wanna find anything!"

"Yeah, and I gotta make tracks over to your place," Craig said, "your brother's down and Spin's trying to get an all-guys kinda thing going to cheer him up."

"Ah, I see; well, don't be too hard on him. See ya around!" Trixie said.

"OKay, talk to ya later," Craig replied, surprising Trixie a little by the hug he gave her, then he walked away.

Watching him for a moment as he left, she made her way back into the store to find herself a dress.

Back at Trent's Jimmy, Marco, and Spinner were playing PS2 with Trent waiting to play the winner; the phone rang and he answered, thinking it might be Craig.

"Hello?"

"Is Trixie there?"

"No, she's out with the girls, can I take a message?"

"Just let her know JT called."

"Ok, JT, I will, bye."

He hung up and Spinner turned to him.

"JT Yorke? Calling your sister?"

"Yeah, so? He's been calling her a lot lately," Trent replied.

"Well, he was acting like that with Paige a lot a couple of years ago, and it turned out that he had it bad for her," Spinner said.

"Ah, so it looks like she might have a date to the dance after all," Trent said with a slight smile.

"Dude, JT's a grade younger," Spinner pointed out.

"And that makes a difference HOW?..." Trent wondered.

Jimmy seemed sort of surprised by Trent's response, but backed him up, "What's the big deal, Spin?"

"There are guys in our grade you know," Spinner said.

"Yeah, but most of the ones that would be good to her are taken," Marco pointed out.

"There's Craig - " Spinner was about to say, but Trent's bedroom door opening caused him to be quiet as Craig walked in.

"What about me?..." Craig asked with a nervous laugh.

"Uhh...." Spinner felt trapped.

"He was testing his ESP!" Marco offered.

The other guys looked at him funny for a moment, but quickly agreed with him. Craig went along with it, but didn't seem totally convinced...

At this time, Emma, Liberty, and a few other members of the dance committee were working on the dance details outside on the school's front steps since it was such a lovely fall day when JT walked up.

Emma looked surprised to see him there and also noticed the dejected sort of look on his face and excused herself for a moment.

"Hey JT, what's up?" she asked.

"Nothing, Em," JT replied, trying not to let her see his feelings and covering them up with a smile.

Emma arched an eyebrow, "Yeah right; now come on, what's going on? You know you can talk to me."

"Not about this, Em," JT was surprised to find himself saying.

Emma now looked concerned, "JT... what's going on?"

"Nothing, really, I'll be fine... I just... can't talk to you about this."

"Why not?"

"'Cause I don't feel like being teased, okay?"

Emma looked shocked, "Teased?..."

"Yeah, Emma, that's all I've been getting from you guys since day one..." JT sighed.

"Okay, what are we.... oh my gosh, are we talking about Trixie?"

".... Maybe...."

"JT, we were only teasing because we think it's a cute crush!" Emma said with a smile.

"Yeah, but did you ever stop to think that this might be more than a crush?" JT asked seriously.

Seriousness... something Emma hadn't seen much of in JT...

"Wow... JT, I...."

"This is more than what I thought I felt about Manny... or Miss Hatzilakos," he added for a little humor, "I really like Trixie and have been spending a lot of time with her"

Emma couldn't help but gush a little, "That's cute, really it is, JT; you think she likes you, too?"

"I don't know, that's my problem... I want her to like me and go to the dance with me..." JT sounded doubtful.

"But you don't think she does?"

"I don't know what's going on in her head..."

"What's been happening?"

"Well, I've kinda hinted to her there's a girl I like and ask her for pointers on how SHE would like a guy to act with her and all that... I've tried those things, but it's always passed as a joke or something," JT said, his frustration coming through. "I don't really think it's her fault or anything, but... Emma, what do you think?"

"I think she might've been hurt," Emma said wisely, "in one or several past relationships, and she might not think that anyone CAN like her."

JT raised an eyebrow, "Where DID you get that?..."

"I'm a woman, JT," Emma raised her palms and shrugged, "you just know these things. Plus I've kinda talked to her some myself and when we started talking about boyfriends, she just hinted that there had been a couple of bad-ending relationships."

JT got quiet and stared at the ground. Liberty then came over and asked Emma to come back soon because they needed her.

"Emma, what should I do?..." JT asked pleadingly, almost desperately as Emma was about to walk away.

Emma smiled, "Just be yourself - and follow whatever your heart tells you," she replied, then walked away.

JT sighed then smiled to himself a little; he hoped this would turn out alright...

Paige dropped Trixie off and picked Spinner up to take him home; Trixie got inside to find Jimmy, Trent, and Craig sitting in the living room watching TV.

Trent looked up and waved to his sister, "Hey, how'd it go?"

"Oh, FABBY!" Trixie grinned and giggled. "Found THE perfect dress AND shoes!"

Jimmy sighed and smiled, "Oh yeah, Paige's definitely had an influence on her."

Trixie stuck her tongue out at him, "Hey Jimmy, hey Craig; well, I'm gonna go upstairs and put this somewhere, 'kay?"

"Alright," Trent replied, seeming a bit distracted by the TV.

She sighed and shook her head good naturedly, making her way upstairs and to her room where she shut the door and turned her stereo on low volume while she silently admired her dress and daydreamed about how much fun the dance could be...

But her daydreaming was interrupted by a light knocking on her door as she was turning on the Christmas lights she had hung all over her wall/ceiling borders.

"Yeah?" she called, figuring it was Trent, but was surprised when they came in the door.

"Hey... cool room," Craig said, shutting the door a little behind him.

"Oh, hey Craig; thanks... have a seat," Trixie invited.

So Craig came over and sat beside her on her bed; he saw the dress and smiled, "That's what you picked, huh?"

"Yep," Trixie replied simply, "I hope it looks as good on dance night as it did in the dressing room...."

It was black, her favorite color when it came to dresses; it was tank-topped and had two layers in a way. The first one was the dress itself, classic black, the second layer being a sheer black with felt black flower outlines with the slightest hint of silver here and there. The shoes were of course black sandal-like high heels.

"It will look very good on you, I can tell," Craig replied, looking like he was imagining the dress on her as they spoke, making her laugh.

"You think then, huh?" Trixie asked.

Craig couldn't really help how he felt... he hadn't got to be around her near as much as some people had, but... to him she seemed very bright and cheerful. With the way she acted, she reminded him of a bubble, and with the slightest sharp thing could pop it. Or break her...

"I know," Craig said honestly, "Trixie, you're beautiful inside and out... if that kind of personality doesn't make you look good in ANYTHING, I don't know what will."

Was it just her or was he flirting?...

"Well... thanks, I guess..." Trixie replied, seeming baffled.

"Again" by Lenny Kravitz was playing on her stereo at that time. Craig started looking into her eyes, the browns and greens mixing together to share. But after a moment, he closed his eyes and leaned in to kiss her. She closed her eyes as well and allowed him to...

When his tongue slid into her mouth, he leaned her back onto the bed and kept himself raised slightly over her, she wrapping her arms around his neck as they continued.

But when he started planting feather-light kisses on her pale cheeks and slightly freckle-washed nose, her door opened slightly to reveal Trent there.

Craig sat up quickly and Trixie was about to, but Trent stopped her, "Uh, don't stop on my account, personally I don't care... I was just gonna let you know that JT called, but you look kinda busy at the moment..."

Trent walked out, closing the door behind him and Trixie stared up at the ceiling.

Craig had seemed a little freaked before, but then relaxed back beside her, "So, where ...?" he was about to ask, but Trixie cut him off.

"I think Joey's here," she said softly.

He seemed a little let down, but smiled a small smile, "Okay... well, talk to you tomorrow then..." he kissed her cheek, then brushed his lips across hers once more, then walked out of the room, leaving Trixie laying on her bed, staring up at the ceiling as she had been before