~~~~ Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh. ~_~ I don't own any of these cuties. ~_~ Suing me would be a pointless waste of time since I'm broke and have nothing anyways (unemployment sucks). Credit for the title goes to Taryn (anime AndrAIa), because I'm lame and couldn't come up with one myself. ^_^ ~~~~
Chris: Tigerlily, read the warning…
Tigerlily: Warning!!! This fic has:
~ yaoi goodness - no lemon, just a bunch of fantasies
~ lots of bad words
~ major angst and darkness
~ horny and lustful yami's (although now, Bakura's pretty much more freaked out than horny and lustful)
~ a very horny and lustful hikari (poor Yuugi)
Chris: If you don't know what yaoi is, then this probably isn't for you. Yaoi and shounen ai deals with male x male relationships.
Tigerlily: So if ya don't like that sort of thing do us all a favor and hit the bricks. If you do flame us for it, you will be torched. *pulls out her trusty flamethrower*
Chris: So, if you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all.
Tigerlily: So keep your damned mouth shut! You have been warned!!
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Chapter 5
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~~~Ryou's POV~~~
He's saying something to me, but I can't hear him. All I hear is the beating of my heart and the pulsing of my blood. Why is he doing this? How could he do it? Dear God, is he going to do this to Yuugi too? He has gone mad!
/ Bakura! Help me! … so much blood … feel cold… /
// Ryou? //
/ … /
// Ryou! Answer me! //
/ Y…ya…mi… it… hurts so… much. /
// Koi, what happened?? //
/ Yami… gone mad… /
// What did he do to you? //
/ Stabbed me… Kura… it h… hurts… so much… /
// Ryou! //
/ … /
// Ryou!! //
I find that I no longer have the strength to concentrate to maintain our link. I think I may be dying. It's strange the random and idle thoughts that run through your mind. Is this what they mean when people say, "I saw my life flash before my eyes?"
I wonder how so much blood can come from such a small hole? It's so dark, it reminds me of Yami's eyes. The one who I thought was my friend has become my murderer. Maybe I should have let Bakura have his way. My sweetly evil koi… I'll miss him so much. No matter what happens to me now, I know he'll kill Yami. Looks like Yami will be getting his wish after all. Being Pharaoh, he probably thinks he's a god. That playing with human lives and passing judgment is his right. The fucking bastard… It's funny, I always thought Bakura would be the one to kill me. Who knew?
I remember when I first got the ring. I thought it was the best present I had ever gotten. Of course that opinion soon changed. Up until a week ago, I've thought of it as a curse; a plague on all of humanity. The first time I saw him, I was in awe. I thought we could be friends, he thought I was a handy punching bag. It's strange how this path has traveled. I'm in love with a 5,000 year old Egyptian spirit of a tomb robber. He brings cradle robbing to a whole new level. He's always said he was the greatest thief… I wonder what will happen to him if I die?
The only way Yami can die is if Yuugi dies. Does this mean Bakura is dying with me? So what will he do? Will he come to my side, to be with me in our last moments? Or will he try to kill Yami before he dies? One final act of revenge and defiance before he dies. I had asked him to choose between me and vengeance. It warmed me to my core when he chose me. Now that his revenge is about me, what will he do? Part of me wants him by my side. To be the last face I see before I die. The face and eyes of the one I love above everyone else. But another part of me wants Kura to find Yami and smite him for his heinous act…. Yes, Bakura is definitely starting to rub off on me. If I had the energy, I'd laugh out loud. I can just hear his rebuff now, "You say it like it's a bad thing."
I want him here with me, but inside I know he'll go after Yami for my honor. As archaic as it sounds and the idea is, it makes me feel special. But he has always made me feel that way, even when he hurt me. It's strange that I should realize it now. Oh Kura, where are you? I wish I could feel you. Even that would give me some comfort. A deeper sadness fills me as I realize Kura and I will not be picking up where we left off before we were so rudely interrupted. Yet another reason to curse Pharaoh no Baka. I so wanted to give it to him. To have him take it and be my first. Stupid Yami, because of him I get to die a virgin. Oh joy. In case you were wondering, that was sarcasm.
~~~Bakura's POV~~~
Dear Ra! This cannot be happening! The fates are truly against me! I guess someone up there doesn't like me after all… yes, the gods are most definitely mocking me. Why must Ryou suffer like this? It's not fair!! I keep calling out to him, but he can't hear me. I on the other hand can hear him clearly. Every random and idle thought, every fear, every regret and every desire. He wants me by his side. He's afraid I won't be there. He thinks I'll go after Yami instead for revenge. He knows me well… but this time he's wrong. I want to be by his side… I will be by his side. Yami will have to wait until later and there will be a later. Ryou has to survive. He deserves to survive. His place is in this world. Even if he wasn't at my side, I'd want him to live. I need him to love the world around him and me, to make it a better place. His memory of our first meeting makes me cringe. I can't believe I did that!
I finally make my way to the park gates and begin to run faster to the bridge I saw flash in my beloved's mind. Yami's foul deed keeps replaying itself in my mind in an endlessly evil loop. The bridge finally comes into view and I see a small crowd around my Ryou, trying to help. I hear sirens wailing from far away but they're quickly coming closer. If he can hold on a little longer, Ryou has a real chance to survive.
I shove my way through the crowd and fall to Ryou's side. He looks so pale… more so than usual. Oh Ra! There's so much blood! A sense of despair washes over me before I can manage to push it down. I can't risk him feeling my fear. I calmly take his hand in mine and calmly say, " Ryou… love, open your eyes. Please, for me?"
I caress his cheek with my free hand and suppress a new surge of despair.
"Ryou, can you hear me? Open your eyes, love."
I hear the sirens come to a stop and am suddenly pushed aside by the medics. I have no idea what they're really talking about, but I watch them closely as they work. They place him on one of those stretcher things and load him up into one of those noisy vans. I think Ryou called them ambulances. I move to get inside with him but they stop me. They obviously don't know who they're dealing with. Oh well… I guess I'll just have to show them.
"I'm sorry sir, but I can't allow you to come on the ambulance. You can meet him at Domino General…"
I grab the foolish mortal by the collar, pull his face right in front of mine and growl at him.
"Now you listen to me, mortal. We can do this one of two ways. One, I gut you like a fish with a box cutter, hang you with your own intestines and take your place on the ambulance. Or two, you make room for me and let me on. The choice is yours, but I'm going either way."
"Well, when you put it that way… who am I to refuse?"
"So glad you were able to see it my way."
I shoot a final glare as he scurries away and return to my lover's side to take his hand again.
"Ryou, open your eyes. Please tenshi, you have to."
Dear merciful heaven, his eyes are opening!
"Kura?"
The tears just well in my eyes and cascade down my face uncontrollably. He looks dazed and confused but he's still with me.
"Kura, you came."
"Of course I did. I could never leave you."
"I'm glad. I thought I might not see you again."
"Don't say such things. Just rest now and save your strength. I won't leave your side, I swear."
As his eyes close, a new sense of calm fills me. He'll be alright. He has to be…
~~~Yuugi's POV~~~
I take Ryou's advice and rush home. With every step a new hope fills me as I get closer and closer. Ryou's right it can't hurt to try again. But what do I say to him? I walk through the back door and yell that I'm home to whoever might hear. Only silence answers my call. Apparently Yami isn't home yet and Grandpa is still out with his friend. I think he said her name was Melba. She was very nice & pretty. Grandpa hasn't seen her in over 10 years! Then without any warning, she walked into the shop and asked if he'd care to join her for lunch. Grandpa seemed to instantly become 20 years younger. I think he likes her… a lot. It's nice to know he can still feel that way towards another person, even at his age. But I guess age doesn't make you love any less. Yami's an excellent example of that. Although in his case, it has made him incredibly stupid. Again I wonder what will I say to him or what he will say to me. Once again my hormonal teenage imagination gets the better of me as I imagine him running through the door.
"Yuugi, I'm sorry! I love you! I know I've been an ass, but could you ever forgive me?"
"Of course I can. I love you too much, not to. I'm sorry I said I hated you. I didn't mean it. I love you so much it hurts!"
He leans down and takes my waiting lips with his. I feel his tongue beg for entry and allow it to enter. The lack of air is like heaven itself. It makes my head swim as I feel his hands roam and caress my body. His hand finally settles on my groin and begins to rub it roughly through my leather pants. I quickly become hard and moan as my erection swells in my suddenly constrictive pants. I break away from the kiss panting.
"Yami, please… take me. I want you… please… give it to me. Make me yours!"
He smiles down at me and begins to open up my pants.
"Anything and everything you desire, I will do."
He resumes our kiss as he reaches into my pants to stroke my throbbing member and takes it…
The phone rings, waking me from my wonderful fantasy. Ack! God damned, fucking imagination! I really have to stop that. The pain in my groin is almost unbearable! I'm not sure what to hate more, my vivid imagination or that phone for interrupting my fantasy. I let the answering machine handle the damned phone. Right now, my hand has another hot date with my erection.
I start to head into the bathroom but decide to just do it here in my room. I'm the only one home right now, so why hide? Besides, if Yami walks in while I'm doing it then maybe he can catch a clue. Ahhh… I can see it now…
"Yuugi! What are you doing?!"
"What does it look like? Flower arranging perhaps?"
"I know what it looks like, but I doubt very much you'd do that sort of thing. Why don't you tell me what you're doing?"
"I'm masturbating, you idiot!"
"Masturbating?"
You know, spanking my monkey? Beating my meat? Chocking the chicken?"
"But…but…"
"But what?! This is all your fault, you know! The considerate thing to do would be to help alleviate it!
"Alleviate it? And what do you mean it's my fault!?"
"Who do you think I'm fantasizing about, Anzu? NO! It's you, you immortal idiot! Now get on your knees and service me!"
"Okay."
Yeah, like that would ever happen. Right after the monkeys fly out of my ass. I plop down on my bed with a heavy sigh to begin my little 'date'. Maybe I'll get lucky and Yami will walk in and ravish me. Dear Ra, I'm so pathetic. How could Yami ever want me? How could anyone want me?
I sigh yet again as I continue my date and slip into Yami fantasy #69¹. After a couple of minutes, I'm interrupted yet again! Damn it!! I was at my favorite part too!
"Yuugi!"
My eyes shoot open and stare at the beautiful man before me. Oh shit. He's staring at me, shock etched into his normally stoic face. For some reason I'm a little scared and a little ashamed to have him find me like this. Damn, reality sucks ass. Why can't this play out like one of my fantasies? I swallow hard as I desperately try to think of something to say.
"Yami…"
Yeah, I'm so smooth I even amaze myself. I'm such an idiot! This went a hellava lot better in my head. An eerie silence fills the air. Someone has to say something, but what? I need him to say something, anything will do. He stares at my erection, throbbing with its need for release. His eyes are unreadable. God, this is scary. Finally after what seems like two eternities, he finds his voice.
"Y-Yuugi… I'm sorry… I'll let you finish."
He steps back out of the room and closes the door behind him. I stare at it stunned and slack jawed. Disappointed, I return to my date. I finish quickly with a few tears in my eyes. I'm not sure exactly why I'm crying again. There's this emptiness that seems to fill me. How could he do that to me? But then what else could he say or do? Well, time to dance with the devil. I wonder what he'll say to me.
~~~Pharaoh no Baka POV~~~
I can't believe what I just saw! Could it be he's already been tainted? No. I'd know if he had been… It's just a bodily function. Boys his age usually do that sort of thing. It has nothing to do with purity or intelligence. I remember doing the same thing when I was his age. Of course I was far from pure…
He's at the edge of the path. Soon, he will be tainted by the world. I have no choice now, I must not deviate. My angel must die before he truly becomes tainted.
~~~Yuugi's POV~~~
I open the door and ask Yami to come in. He looks unsure but complies anyway. I walk over and sit on my bed. I'm disappointed when he takes the chair at my desk, on the other side of the room I might add.
"Yami… about what you saw…"
"You don't have to explain yourself. I know boys your age do that… sort of thing. Even I did it when I was your age."
Relief fills my body. He doesn't hate me or thinks I did something wrong.
"Oh… I saw Ryou in the park… We had a little chat… he told me everything."
~~~Pharaoh no Baka POV~~~
I can't help but gasp. Could Ryou have told him how I feel?
"What do you mean everything?"
"He told me why you've been trying to kill yourself and… how you feel about me."
"Really…"
"Yes, really… Can I ask you something?"
"Of course, aibou."
"Were you dropped on your head often as a child?" ²
"Excuse me?!"
"This absurd notion that you're going to taint me is ridiculous!"
"What?!"
"Damn it, look at me! Just because I look eight, doesn't make it so! How many eight year olds dress like me? Hell, how many people dress like me period? I dress like a boy whore, yet you seem to think I'm as pure as the driven snow! My only conclusion for the source of your stupidity is either brain damage or inbreeding!"
His words shock me to my very core. This isn't my sweet, innocent little Yuugi… I still want him though. Actually, it's kind of a turn on. More than ever I want to take him and make him mine. Should I take him and taint him? But then my angel won't ascend to heaven and Ryou will be alone. No, I must be strong. Angels belong in heaven and I will not defile him. Yuugi will join Ryou in heaven.
I pull out the knife, still stained with Ryou's blood. Yuugi stares at me with tears in his eyes, but he doesn't notice the bloody blade at my side. He just stares at me with those amethyst orbs. Staring straight into my soulless heart.
"Damn it, Yami! I love you! Can't you see that? I love you the same way you love me… I want you by my side, not on the other side of the room."
I find my resolve weakening. Why in the hell am I doing this? Have I gone mad? He is my hikari! I should be protecting him, not planning and debating his demise! What has gotten into me? What am I doing? A voice whispers from a corner of my mind. It reminds me that I am doing this for Yuugi's sake. Angels belong in heaven not on earth…
~~~Unknown POV~~~
Well now, this is an interesting turn of events. I never expected the pharaoh would do this. Oh well, to make an omelet you have to break a few eggs. This isn't exactly what we had planned but ultimately we'll still get what we want. And it would seem now with a bonus. I'll be more than happy to take the Sennen Puzzle and the Sennen Ring. Poor Bakura. I rather liked him and his hikari. Shame that Ryou is probably going to die and take his yami with him. It's a shame, good and talented help is so hard to find. It's surprising that they had gotten so close even after all that Bakura had subjected him to. But then, this whole month has been full of surprises.
I can't say I really expected all this to happen though. I knew Yami was attracted to his hikari, even though he had never realized it. I knew Yuugi was attracted to Yami, and he had realized it long before. And I knew they would never be able to resist trying the spell in the book.
"Do you think he will do it?"
"He has to. If Bakura is in fact correct, then this is the only way to get Yami out of our way. We can't take the puzzle while the pharaoh lives."
"Still, I never thought he would go this far. I think we've really messed up his head."
"Is that regret I hear?"
"No, not regret. I'm just annoyed that this isn't going exactly as planned. You realize this is pretty much out of our control now, don't you? I don't like losing control."
"I know, love. But soon we'll have what we want, one way or another."
His words provide little consolation, but I know he's trying. Everything was pretty much fine until Bakura entered the picture. But I suppose we would have lost control eventually. As the days have gone on, Yami has become more desperate and unstable. In the beginning he would have never considered it, but now it has warped him. His feelings have been corrupted and twisted. He's suffering greatly now. If I cared, I might actually feel sorry for him.
His resolve is breaking. He's questioning his actions. My hold is breaking!! No, I can't allow this. I whisper into his mind and remind him of why he's doing this. "You're doing this for his sake. Angels belong in heaven. Ryou will be lonely." I've regained control again, but for how long?
¹ Yes, Yuugi fantasizes about Yami so much he has each one of them numbered. ^_~
² Reference to Bakura's theory in chapter 3. I think it's funny as hell. ^__^
Chris: Okay, I know a lot of you out there are upset about what happened to Ryou in the last chapter and think I'm evil...
Bakura: You are evil. You give evil a bad name! *glares*
Chris: I'm not evil. I'm maliciously creative. There's a difference. Learn it! Anyway, I'm sorry. I never expected ya'll to react so strongly! I'm stunned and amazed that I got so many reviews for that chapter. Even though a lot of them were a little annoyed at me.
Tigerlily: A little?
Chris: *glares* Anyway, Ryou's fate is still more or less up in the air and should be revealed next chapter. Also, please don't kill me and try not to hate me until the fic is finished. Onegai?
Tigerlily: Yeah, she's really hormonal right now and will either cry or destroy something. She gets really scary and weird. O_O
Chris: And just so some of you know, I don't hate Yami. I don't look down on him or anything like that. I just enjoy tormenting him. ^_^
Yami: Psychotic bitch! *glares*
Chris: *pinches his cheeks* Awww, you're so cute when you're angry! ^__^
Tigerlily: O_o See what I mean? Lets move on to the reviewers and thank you's…
Chris: Alrighty! ^_^ Wanna thank as always Taryn (anime AndrAIa) for being my beta. And I wanna thank lupusdragon for providing some new inspiration! You can thank her for that last part. ^_^
Tigerlily: To our reviewers you get Chris's pleas for forgiveness and another singing Bakura plushie with a sexy, evil glare and a bloody knife in his hand.
Chris: This one sings to the tune of "Joy to the World" and you can thank my little brother for all the lyrics (but I switched Barney for Yami), except the last three. C'mon, he's only eight!
Tigerlily: So? He curses almost as bad as you do. After all, you are the one who taught him.
Chris: *glares* Shut up. *pushes the tummy*
Bakura plushie: *singing*
Joy to the world,
'cause Yami's dead.
I cut off his head!
Don't worry 'bout the body!
I flushed it down the potty!
And I kicked him in the nuts,
'cause Yami fucking sucks!
So, let heaven and nature sing.
Yami: Why? Why do you hate me?? *whimpers*
Tigerlily: We don't hate you. You're like family to us, except we actually like you! ^_^
Chris: Yup! ^_^
Ryou: I shudder to think how she treats the rest of her family.
Tigerlily: Trust me, you don't want to know. But then again, they started it. *shrugs*
Chris: Okay, it's going to be a little while before I update again. This chapter is actually chapter 5 and the first part of chapter 6 that I had managed to write. Chapter 5 looked too short and I wasn't too sure how long it would take me to finish chapter 6. So be happy, this chapter is longer than planned. Hopefully, it won't be too long of a wait. And tera, you can have a plushie too. ^__^
Tigerlily: So click the little button and review, pretty please. Reviews make Chris happy, which reduces the intensity of her evil mode.
Yuugi: Please make her happy. I don't want to die!
Tigerlily: Hey, Yuugi… *spooky voice* Walk towards the light… All are welcome…come to the light... all are welcome...
Yuugi: EVIL! EVIL!! EVIL!!!
Tigerlily: Heh, you know it! ^_^ Remember to review and that flamers will suffer and get no plushies!