Thanks for the sweet reviews, unfortunately I'm not going to be able to update as often as I'd like, as I'm really busy at the moment because exams have started (eek). Please bear with me also, as I'm not quite sure where this story is going. If anyone has any ideas please let me know!!

"Approximately 4 hours ago, we received a transmission from SG2. They have been taken hostage by a local tribe on the planet. They contacted us at 6.05 am, with their demands" He takes a deep breath, and looks at Sam. "They are demanding the return of their goddess, Hera"

Chapter 2

She hasn't said anything yet. Hammond started going through this plan they had formulated to get Sam to be bait while they went in and rescued SG2. When Hammond told her, she went deathly pale, and left the room, not even bothering to ask permission to leave.

I found her a few minutes later at her desk, her head in her hands. She wasn't crying though. Just staring straight ahead, the look of terror on her face worse than any tears.

"Jack, I can't do it" She says, not even looking at me, just staring straight ahead. She turns for the first time, and I can see small tears forming in her eyes. "Jack please don't make me. I can't, I really can't" she starts sobbing now, and I wrap my arms around her as she sobs.

She looks up at me now, wiping the tears away furiously. I've never seen her like this before. I've never seen her so scared by anything, and I know that I can't persuade her to do anything. Because I promised I'd never hurt her, and I know that doing something like this would kill her. So instead, I just hold her, and tell her it will all be OK. That she doesn't have to do anything.

"I'm sorry" She says, eventually.

"For what?" I say, as I really can't think of anything she has to be sorry for.

"For being so pathetic. For putting you through all this crap. You must hate me" I really can't believe what she's saying, so I take her hands gently, and get her to look at me for the first time.

"Sam, listen to me. I love you. I always have, and I always will. And you are definitely not being pathetic; you were host to a Goa'uld for crying out loud. I think that means you can cry a little. And I definitely don't hate you. The only thing I hate is what this is doing to you. Sam, I wish you just tell me how you feel, not keeping it from me all the time". She takes a deep breath, and looks at me.

"Every time I close my eyes, I see her. I see what she did. I see her murdering thousands of innocent people. I see what she did to you. To everyone. I see the pain in people's eyes as she tortured them. And the worst part is, every dream always ends the same. I look in the mirror, and it's me staring back. I did all those things. I did them" And with that she begins sobbing again. "And when I came back, I was so scared that you would hate me. I didn't care about anyone else, but I was terrified you would hate me. I was so scared you would leave".

"Sam, that wasn't you. None of that was you. That was a Goa'uld, who just happened to look like you. It wasn't you. You're not to blame. You didn't do anything" She looks at me, and for the first time, I see the old Sam, the one that I fell in love with.

"Look Sam, no one will force you to do this. It's something that you have to make your own mind up about. But whatever you decide to do. I'll be there. I won't leave. Ever. You really think I'm going to let you get away that easy? No, you're stuck with me for life" She smiles very slightly, only a flicker of a smile, but enough to tell me that what I said has sunk in. She takes a deep breath.

"I'll do it" She says.

"You sure this is what you want?"

"I'm sure" she says, and I know she's telling the truth. She looks scared as hell, but I know she wants to do it.

"We'd better go tell the others then".

TBC

You know the drill, please r n r, just to tell me what you think, if I should carry on or not.