Cinn: Hopefully, I can make the atmosphere `slightly` more happier than last time. R&R.
***********************************************************************
Grief,
not eating, always depressed, avoiding everyone, not caring, all effects of grief. But not all hit you at once. Trinity's p.o.v.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Next day,
" Trinity, you getting up or not!?!?!?! " Sparks yelled through the door.
" Go away! "
" No, Morpheus wants to see you... "
B*gg*r off! I don't wanna come out. Why do they need me? I rolled out of bed, and started searching for my boots, and changed my sweater. Before opening the door and, almost, bumping into Sparks
" What do you want Sparks? " I sounded tired, and I was. I hadn't been able to sleep all night.
" Morpheus wants to see you. "
" Why? "
" Do I look like I know? Why don't you try asking that pole over there! That's what everyone else does.... "
" Very funny. " I interrupted him sarcastically.
" ....Or you could try asking `Morpheus the loony` himself, and he was heading to the mess last time I saw him.. "
" Thanks. " I headed off. I found Morpheus pretty quickly, didn't take much. " What do you want Morpheus? "
" I want to know how you're coping.. "
" Fine. "
I turned back around to leave,
" Trinity, the last thing any of us need is a crew member who won't perform their duties... You'll have time to grieve in Zion, but please try to focus on getting there so you can... "
" Yes, sir. "
I left. I wanted to scream at him that it wouldn't be the same putting my grieve on hold and that it's very hard. It's like asking me to forget Tank was ever here then suddenly remember him when
we got back to Zion....
1 hour later,
Boring old repairs, stupid engine. I don't see why the heck it won't just be so much simpler!!!
Stupid Sentinels...
I heard someone start to open the door, so I shot quickly up one of the access vents. I didn't want to talk to anyone. No one.
" Trinity? Are you in here? "
I peered down, there was a vent grate in front of me, I could see out, but he wouldn't be able to see me..
I heard a frustrated groan, before he left slamming the door behind him.. Then I heard a faint conversation, I crept more towards the door so I could hear, I was still in the vent though.
" Where is she? We've searched the entire ship!?! "
" She won't have left... "
I was Neo and Morpheus, why the heck are they talking about me? I was doin my work....
" You don't think.... "
" No, not Trinity. "
Thank-you Neo, good to know you have faith in my ability to cope and to not kill myself... NOT! I would never kill myself, and never even suggest the idea, you'll be in trouble next time I see you...
" Well where is she then? You said yourself that she wouldn't have chucked herself off..... "
" She'll be somewhere... I don't know where though... "
" Neither do I. That's the problem, no one knows... "
" Neo, she'll be fine. You know as well as I that she can look after herself, in the real world as well as the matrix.... "
" I don't care, I want to know where she is... "
" Calm down, she'll turn up. Best thing for you is to go and get on with some repairs... "
With that both of them turned and left in opposite directions. I never knew Neo cared THAT much as to where I was....
Meanwhile, (now we go into Neo's p.o.v.),
" Trinity? Are you in here? "
I heard no reply, god where the heck is she?? I gave a frustrated groan as I left looking for her further.. That was `before` Morpheus turned up, evidently not looking for her anymore.
" Where is she? We've searched the entire ship!?! "
" She won't have left... "
" You don't think.... ~ please to god say she's not upset enough to kill herself!! ~ "
" No, not Trinity. "
" Well where is she then? You said yourself that she wouldn't have chucked herself off..... ~ we think and hope ~ "
" She'll be somewhere... I don't know where though... "
" Neither do I. That's the problem, no one knows... "
" Neo, she'll be fine. You know as well as I that she can look after herself, in the real world as well as the matrix.... "
" I don't care, I want to know where she is... "
" Calm down, she'll turn up. Best thing for you is to go and get on with some repairs... "
Repairs, you want me to do repairs when Trinity could be anywhere. Even dead, hopefully not! She's upset anyone can tell, I don't want her to be so I want to find her and talk to her! She has just lost yet another friend! That's like 5, possibly 6 friends of her's dead in a matter of weeks, I don't know anyone else who's been through anything like that and have two old school friends they'd sooner forget turn up too.... I know the crew were your friends to Morpheus, but two old school friends you were trying to forget about didn't turn up did they?
1 hour later, (back to Trinity's p.o.v.)
I had hidden myself somewhere in the Neb, and I was now curled up crying to myself... I feel so awful. Oh no, who's heard me..? I turned round to hide from whoever it was... I don't want to see anyone...
" Trinity... "
I stopped, turned round. I couldn't hide now he'd seen me.
" What do you want Sparks? "
" Have you been crying? "
" No. "
" Are you sure? "
I'm not in the mood to talk Sparks, can't you just go away??
" Trinity, just tell me. You've got everyone worried about you especially Neo.. "
" I know. "
" Then why won't you go back and talk to him..?? "
" Because I don't want to! "
" But I thought... "
" You thought what?? "
" ...that you guys were together. "
" We are. "
" Then why won't you talk to him? He cares more than any of us. "
" I don't want to talk to anyone! "
" Then why are you talking to me? "
" Because you found me. And if I ran you'd follow me, or tell Neo that you thought you'd found me.. "
" So what if I did. You can't hide forever. "
" Don't you get it? "
" Probably not how you want me too. But you can either talk to me, Neo or one of the other's or that pole over there... "
" I think I'd sooner talk to the pole if that's the attitude you're gonna take.. "
" well sor-ry for trying to cheer you up. "
He turned around to leave, I also turned my back to him. I heard him talk again.
" I'll go tell Neo that I found you and that he needed worry again. Though he'll probably come to find you. "
" You wouldn't dare. I'd have already found a better hiding place... "
" Trinity, what's wrong? Why don't you want to talk to anyone? Morpheus is coping.. Just. "
" You wouldn't understand. No one ever does. "
" Try me. Or the pole, whichever you prefer... "
" Mez and Kro, they're people I know. I know them from high school.. "
" From the matrix? Why's that a bad thing? "
" Because I don't want to remember my matrix life. It wasn't real. Why should I want to remember something that wasn't real? "
" Because you enjoyed it and it was real to you then.. "
" There was very little I enjoyed about my childhood, but all my real friends, the friends I had here, are dead. Only Morpheus is still alive. "
" What about Neo? "
" He's fairly new.. Not part of the original crew. "
" Why don't you talk to him? "
" I don't want to. "
" Shouldn't he know? "
" Probably, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. "
" It's O.K. Everyone gets confused once in a while.. "
He'd sat down next to me, and noticed I was trying not to cry. He'd put an arm round me, that was enough for me to start crying buckets.
" It's O.K. Trinity. You just cry. Though I'll admit it's not an everyday sight. "
I swatted him across the stomach.
" Hey hey hey. I thought you were upset? "
" I am. Not many people can be sane around you though. "
" Just 'cause I'm slightly insane... "
" Too right. "
I stood up, and smiled at him, " Thanks. "
" S'ok. "
I climbed down from where I had been. Then back up another access vent. Might as well annoy everyone for a little while more...
Meanwhile, (Sparks p.o.v.)
I was walking past a vacant part of the Neb, when I heard a small sobbing sound. I followed it and found Trinity, with her knees pulled up to her face, crying. NOT an everyday sight.
" Trinity... "
She looked at me, almost as if she was about to run away again.
" What do you want Sparks? "
" Have you been crying? "
" No. "
" Are you sure? "
I paused,
" Trinity, just tell me. You've got everyone worried about you especially Neo.. " Damn right he's worried. He's been breaking every piece of equipment he's been working on. Quite funny actually. Well, he wasn't doing it intentionally, he's just not able to concentrate..
" I know. "
" Then why won't you go back and talk to him..?? "
" Because I don't want to! "
" But I thought... "
" You thought what?? "
" ...that you guys were together. " Or are my resources wrong?
" We are. "
" Then why won't you talk to him? He cares more than any of us. "
" I don't want to talk to anyone! "
" Then why are you talking to me? "
" Because you found me. And if I ran you'd follow me, or tell Neo that you thought you'd found me.. "
" So what if I did. You can't hide forever. "
" Don't you get it? "
" Probably not how you want me too. But you can either talk to me, Neo or one of the other's or that pole over there... " Might as well `try` to get you to laugh. But if I don't understand, why not try to help me understand? Why run? It's not like you, according to Ghost anyway.
" I think I'd sooner talk to the pole if that's the attitude you're gonna take.. "
" well sor-ry for trying to cheer you up. " Got you joking. Stupid pole, always stealing the lime-light.
I turned round to leave, and said,
" I'll go tell Neo that I found you and that he needn't worry again. Though he'll probably come to find you. "
" You wouldn't dare. I'd have already found a better hiding place... "
" Trinity, what's wrong? Why don't you want to talk to anyone? Morpheus is coping.. Just. "
" You wouldn't understand. No one ever does. "
" Try me. Or the pole, whichever you prefer... "
" Mez and Kro, they're people I know. I know them from high school.. "
" From the matrix? Why's that a bad thing? "
" Because I don't want to remember my matrix life. It wasn't real. Why should I want to remember something that wasn't real? "
" Because you enjoyed it and it was real to you then.. "
" There was very little I enjoyed about my childhood, but all my real friends, the friends I had here are dead. Only Morpheus is still alive. "
You don't appear to be trying to find a bright side to any of this, you've found two people from the matrix you used to know, or were they people you hated?
" What about Neo? "
" He's fairly new.. Not part of the original crew. "
" Why don't you talk to him? "
" I don't want to. "
" Shouldn't he know? "
" Probably, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. "
" It's O.K. Everyone gets confused once in a while.. " Well, you get used to being confused with Niobe as your captain.
I sat down next to her an put an arm round her. Then she really started on the water-works.
" It's O.K. Trinity. You just cry. Though I'll admit it's not an everyday sight. "
She swatted me across the stomach as I said that.
" Hey hey hey. I thought you were upset? "
" I am. But not many people can be sane around you. "
" Just 'cause I'm slightly insane... "
" Too right. "
She stood up, and I'm sure she smiled at me before saying,
" Thanks. "
" S'ok. " I replied, before standing to leave after her.
2 hours later, (Trinity's p.o.v.)
I was lying on our bunk when Neo walked into our quarters.
" Trinity, where've you been? "
" Doing repairs, where'd you think? "
" Well you're normally visible somewhere. I was really worried about you... "
" Well get used to it. There's lot's more repairs to go yet. "
" Where were you though? "
" I told you doing repairs. " God, just forget it, my most probable best friend just died yesterday, am I not allowed some privacy?
" I meant `where` were you doing repairs? "
" I dunno, I did lot's in different places.. "
" Where were you at lunch? "
" Repairs. "
" It's not good for you to work 24/7. "
" I'm not working now.. "
" It's not good to go without food either. "
" I wasn't hungry. And can't you just quit it with the questions? " I said that rather too harshly, but it was annoying. He didn't say anything else, he just sat down next to me.
" What's wrong? "
" ~ I knew that was coming ~ Nothing. "
" There is, please just tell me. "
" I don't wanna talk about it. "
" When you're ready, please tell me. I'm worried about you. "
" I'm fine, it's you we need to worry about. "
" Why me? You're upset about something... VERY upset. "
" We need to worry about you because the agents and sentinels'll want you dead. "
" We need to worry about you because you're upset. "
" I'm not as important as you. "
" You are to me. "
I rolled over so I was facing him. I was lying on my back and he was sat on the edge of our bunk next to me.. No one had ever cared this much. `No one`.
" I'm fine, I'll tell you another time. " I mean it's kinda obvious that I'm upset about Tank,
" why not now? "
" Fine, it's Tank. I'm upset because he died. You happy now? "
I rolled back over so I wasn't facing him. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I shook it off.
" Why don't you want to talk about it with me? "
" I just don't O.K. "
I was crying again now, I shouldn't be cross with you. I should be cross with myself for not talking to you about it.
" Trinity? "
" I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get cross.. "
" It's O.K. You're going through a hard time.. "
" I know, but I don't run from things, I just leave it behind me and forget... "
" You've lost a lot of friends, you have every right to be upset. "
" But I need to do my job.. "
" Everyone has their bad moments. "
" I know, but it's hard.. "
" I know.. I know.. "
He lied down next to me in a comforting manner... I was happy he was so understanding and caring, but it was weird. No one ever understood or cared as much as him...
Meanwhile, (Neo's p.o.v.)
I entered our quarters, it surprised me that Trinity was lying there,
" Trinity, where've you been? " God I'm glad your O.K.
" Doing repairs, where'd you think? "
" Well you're normally visible somewhere. I was really worried about you... "
" Well get used to it. There's lot's more repairs to go yet. "
" Where were you though? "
" I told you doing repairs. "
" I meant `where` were you doing repairs? "
" I dunno, I did lot's in different places.. "
" Where were you at lunch? "
" Repairs. "
" It's not good for you to work 24/7. " Well your not, but hopefully know what I mean.
" I'm not working now.. "
" It's not good to go without food either. "
" I wasn't hungry. And can't you just quit it with the questions? " She sounded harsh and annoyed, but upset.
" What's wrong? "
" Nothing. "
" There is, please just tell me. "
" I don't wanna talk about it. "
" When you're ready, please tell me. I'm worried about you. "
" I'm fine, it's you we need to worry about. "
" Why me? You're upset about something... VERY upset. "
" We need to worry about you because the agents and sentinels'll want you dead. "
" We need to worry about you because you're upset. "
" I'm not as important as you. " I'm not more important just because I'm the one...
" You are to me. "
I was sat next to her, and she rolled back over so she was on her back so we were facing each other. I think I surprised her slightly with that last statement.
" I'm fine, I'll tell you another time. "
" why not now? "
" Fine, it's Tank. I'm upset because he died. You happy now? "
She rolled back over, I tried to place a hand on her shoulder in a comforting way, but she shook it off.
" Why don't you want to talk about it with me? "
" I just don't O.K. "
She was crying again, I felt awful at that moment. I shouldn't have kept pushing with questions.
" Trinity? "
" I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get cross.. "
" It's O.K. You're going through a hard time.. "
" I know, but I don't run from things, I just leave it behind me and forget... "
" You've lost a lot of friends, you have every right to be upset. "
" But I need to do my job.. "
" Everyone has their bad moments. "
" I know, but it's hard.. "
" I know.. I know.. "
I lied down next to her then, to try to comfort her. I couldn't let her feel less than me just because I was the one. I needed her to know that I cared.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Cinn: ARGH! I have a "slight" feeling that was very OOC. But don't most people change slightly when they're depressed? I think the main OOC was Sparks, that was bad. Oh well, R&R. Oops, sorry you've already read, in that case REVIEW. Thanks to: -
Shanaqua: I know, I was told 2 days ago, I haven't had a chance to correct it yet... Thanks anyways, much apreciated.
richard the pedantic: I'm very confused about that last review, but that's probably because I've only had 1 hours sleep since 7:30 yesturday morning. Thanks anyways, glad you like the fic.
***********************************************************************
Grief,
not eating, always depressed, avoiding everyone, not caring, all effects of grief. But not all hit you at once. Trinity's p.o.v.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Next day,
" Trinity, you getting up or not!?!?!?! " Sparks yelled through the door.
" Go away! "
" No, Morpheus wants to see you... "
B*gg*r off! I don't wanna come out. Why do they need me? I rolled out of bed, and started searching for my boots, and changed my sweater. Before opening the door and, almost, bumping into Sparks
" What do you want Sparks? " I sounded tired, and I was. I hadn't been able to sleep all night.
" Morpheus wants to see you. "
" Why? "
" Do I look like I know? Why don't you try asking that pole over there! That's what everyone else does.... "
" Very funny. " I interrupted him sarcastically.
" ....Or you could try asking `Morpheus the loony` himself, and he was heading to the mess last time I saw him.. "
" Thanks. " I headed off. I found Morpheus pretty quickly, didn't take much. " What do you want Morpheus? "
" I want to know how you're coping.. "
" Fine. "
I turned back around to leave,
" Trinity, the last thing any of us need is a crew member who won't perform their duties... You'll have time to grieve in Zion, but please try to focus on getting there so you can... "
" Yes, sir. "
I left. I wanted to scream at him that it wouldn't be the same putting my grieve on hold and that it's very hard. It's like asking me to forget Tank was ever here then suddenly remember him when
we got back to Zion....
1 hour later,
Boring old repairs, stupid engine. I don't see why the heck it won't just be so much simpler!!!
Stupid Sentinels...
I heard someone start to open the door, so I shot quickly up one of the access vents. I didn't want to talk to anyone. No one.
" Trinity? Are you in here? "
I peered down, there was a vent grate in front of me, I could see out, but he wouldn't be able to see me..
I heard a frustrated groan, before he left slamming the door behind him.. Then I heard a faint conversation, I crept more towards the door so I could hear, I was still in the vent though.
" Where is she? We've searched the entire ship!?! "
" She won't have left... "
I was Neo and Morpheus, why the heck are they talking about me? I was doin my work....
" You don't think.... "
" No, not Trinity. "
Thank-you Neo, good to know you have faith in my ability to cope and to not kill myself... NOT! I would never kill myself, and never even suggest the idea, you'll be in trouble next time I see you...
" Well where is she then? You said yourself that she wouldn't have chucked herself off..... "
" She'll be somewhere... I don't know where though... "
" Neither do I. That's the problem, no one knows... "
" Neo, she'll be fine. You know as well as I that she can look after herself, in the real world as well as the matrix.... "
" I don't care, I want to know where she is... "
" Calm down, she'll turn up. Best thing for you is to go and get on with some repairs... "
With that both of them turned and left in opposite directions. I never knew Neo cared THAT much as to where I was....
Meanwhile, (now we go into Neo's p.o.v.),
" Trinity? Are you in here? "
I heard no reply, god where the heck is she?? I gave a frustrated groan as I left looking for her further.. That was `before` Morpheus turned up, evidently not looking for her anymore.
" Where is she? We've searched the entire ship!?! "
" She won't have left... "
" You don't think.... ~ please to god say she's not upset enough to kill herself!! ~ "
" No, not Trinity. "
" Well where is she then? You said yourself that she wouldn't have chucked herself off..... ~ we think and hope ~ "
" She'll be somewhere... I don't know where though... "
" Neither do I. That's the problem, no one knows... "
" Neo, she'll be fine. You know as well as I that she can look after herself, in the real world as well as the matrix.... "
" I don't care, I want to know where she is... "
" Calm down, she'll turn up. Best thing for you is to go and get on with some repairs... "
Repairs, you want me to do repairs when Trinity could be anywhere. Even dead, hopefully not! She's upset anyone can tell, I don't want her to be so I want to find her and talk to her! She has just lost yet another friend! That's like 5, possibly 6 friends of her's dead in a matter of weeks, I don't know anyone else who's been through anything like that and have two old school friends they'd sooner forget turn up too.... I know the crew were your friends to Morpheus, but two old school friends you were trying to forget about didn't turn up did they?
1 hour later, (back to Trinity's p.o.v.)
I had hidden myself somewhere in the Neb, and I was now curled up crying to myself... I feel so awful. Oh no, who's heard me..? I turned round to hide from whoever it was... I don't want to see anyone...
" Trinity... "
I stopped, turned round. I couldn't hide now he'd seen me.
" What do you want Sparks? "
" Have you been crying? "
" No. "
" Are you sure? "
I'm not in the mood to talk Sparks, can't you just go away??
" Trinity, just tell me. You've got everyone worried about you especially Neo.. "
" I know. "
" Then why won't you go back and talk to him..?? "
" Because I don't want to! "
" But I thought... "
" You thought what?? "
" ...that you guys were together. "
" We are. "
" Then why won't you talk to him? He cares more than any of us. "
" I don't want to talk to anyone! "
" Then why are you talking to me? "
" Because you found me. And if I ran you'd follow me, or tell Neo that you thought you'd found me.. "
" So what if I did. You can't hide forever. "
" Don't you get it? "
" Probably not how you want me too. But you can either talk to me, Neo or one of the other's or that pole over there... "
" I think I'd sooner talk to the pole if that's the attitude you're gonna take.. "
" well sor-ry for trying to cheer you up. "
He turned around to leave, I also turned my back to him. I heard him talk again.
" I'll go tell Neo that I found you and that he needed worry again. Though he'll probably come to find you. "
" You wouldn't dare. I'd have already found a better hiding place... "
" Trinity, what's wrong? Why don't you want to talk to anyone? Morpheus is coping.. Just. "
" You wouldn't understand. No one ever does. "
" Try me. Or the pole, whichever you prefer... "
" Mez and Kro, they're people I know. I know them from high school.. "
" From the matrix? Why's that a bad thing? "
" Because I don't want to remember my matrix life. It wasn't real. Why should I want to remember something that wasn't real? "
" Because you enjoyed it and it was real to you then.. "
" There was very little I enjoyed about my childhood, but all my real friends, the friends I had here, are dead. Only Morpheus is still alive. "
" What about Neo? "
" He's fairly new.. Not part of the original crew. "
" Why don't you talk to him? "
" I don't want to. "
" Shouldn't he know? "
" Probably, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. "
" It's O.K. Everyone gets confused once in a while.. "
He'd sat down next to me, and noticed I was trying not to cry. He'd put an arm round me, that was enough for me to start crying buckets.
" It's O.K. Trinity. You just cry. Though I'll admit it's not an everyday sight. "
I swatted him across the stomach.
" Hey hey hey. I thought you were upset? "
" I am. Not many people can be sane around you though. "
" Just 'cause I'm slightly insane... "
" Too right. "
I stood up, and smiled at him, " Thanks. "
" S'ok. "
I climbed down from where I had been. Then back up another access vent. Might as well annoy everyone for a little while more...
Meanwhile, (Sparks p.o.v.)
I was walking past a vacant part of the Neb, when I heard a small sobbing sound. I followed it and found Trinity, with her knees pulled up to her face, crying. NOT an everyday sight.
" Trinity... "
She looked at me, almost as if she was about to run away again.
" What do you want Sparks? "
" Have you been crying? "
" No. "
" Are you sure? "
I paused,
" Trinity, just tell me. You've got everyone worried about you especially Neo.. " Damn right he's worried. He's been breaking every piece of equipment he's been working on. Quite funny actually. Well, he wasn't doing it intentionally, he's just not able to concentrate..
" I know. "
" Then why won't you go back and talk to him..?? "
" Because I don't want to! "
" But I thought... "
" You thought what?? "
" ...that you guys were together. " Or are my resources wrong?
" We are. "
" Then why won't you talk to him? He cares more than any of us. "
" I don't want to talk to anyone! "
" Then why are you talking to me? "
" Because you found me. And if I ran you'd follow me, or tell Neo that you thought you'd found me.. "
" So what if I did. You can't hide forever. "
" Don't you get it? "
" Probably not how you want me too. But you can either talk to me, Neo or one of the other's or that pole over there... " Might as well `try` to get you to laugh. But if I don't understand, why not try to help me understand? Why run? It's not like you, according to Ghost anyway.
" I think I'd sooner talk to the pole if that's the attitude you're gonna take.. "
" well sor-ry for trying to cheer you up. " Got you joking. Stupid pole, always stealing the lime-light.
I turned round to leave, and said,
" I'll go tell Neo that I found you and that he needn't worry again. Though he'll probably come to find you. "
" You wouldn't dare. I'd have already found a better hiding place... "
" Trinity, what's wrong? Why don't you want to talk to anyone? Morpheus is coping.. Just. "
" You wouldn't understand. No one ever does. "
" Try me. Or the pole, whichever you prefer... "
" Mez and Kro, they're people I know. I know them from high school.. "
" From the matrix? Why's that a bad thing? "
" Because I don't want to remember my matrix life. It wasn't real. Why should I want to remember something that wasn't real? "
" Because you enjoyed it and it was real to you then.. "
" There was very little I enjoyed about my childhood, but all my real friends, the friends I had here are dead. Only Morpheus is still alive. "
You don't appear to be trying to find a bright side to any of this, you've found two people from the matrix you used to know, or were they people you hated?
" What about Neo? "
" He's fairly new.. Not part of the original crew. "
" Why don't you talk to him? "
" I don't want to. "
" Shouldn't he know? "
" Probably, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. "
" It's O.K. Everyone gets confused once in a while.. " Well, you get used to being confused with Niobe as your captain.
I sat down next to her an put an arm round her. Then she really started on the water-works.
" It's O.K. Trinity. You just cry. Though I'll admit it's not an everyday sight. "
She swatted me across the stomach as I said that.
" Hey hey hey. I thought you were upset? "
" I am. But not many people can be sane around you. "
" Just 'cause I'm slightly insane... "
" Too right. "
She stood up, and I'm sure she smiled at me before saying,
" Thanks. "
" S'ok. " I replied, before standing to leave after her.
2 hours later, (Trinity's p.o.v.)
I was lying on our bunk when Neo walked into our quarters.
" Trinity, where've you been? "
" Doing repairs, where'd you think? "
" Well you're normally visible somewhere. I was really worried about you... "
" Well get used to it. There's lot's more repairs to go yet. "
" Where were you though? "
" I told you doing repairs. " God, just forget it, my most probable best friend just died yesterday, am I not allowed some privacy?
" I meant `where` were you doing repairs? "
" I dunno, I did lot's in different places.. "
" Where were you at lunch? "
" Repairs. "
" It's not good for you to work 24/7. "
" I'm not working now.. "
" It's not good to go without food either. "
" I wasn't hungry. And can't you just quit it with the questions? " I said that rather too harshly, but it was annoying. He didn't say anything else, he just sat down next to me.
" What's wrong? "
" ~ I knew that was coming ~ Nothing. "
" There is, please just tell me. "
" I don't wanna talk about it. "
" When you're ready, please tell me. I'm worried about you. "
" I'm fine, it's you we need to worry about. "
" Why me? You're upset about something... VERY upset. "
" We need to worry about you because the agents and sentinels'll want you dead. "
" We need to worry about you because you're upset. "
" I'm not as important as you. "
" You are to me. "
I rolled over so I was facing him. I was lying on my back and he was sat on the edge of our bunk next to me.. No one had ever cared this much. `No one`.
" I'm fine, I'll tell you another time. " I mean it's kinda obvious that I'm upset about Tank,
" why not now? "
" Fine, it's Tank. I'm upset because he died. You happy now? "
I rolled back over so I wasn't facing him. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I shook it off.
" Why don't you want to talk about it with me? "
" I just don't O.K. "
I was crying again now, I shouldn't be cross with you. I should be cross with myself for not talking to you about it.
" Trinity? "
" I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get cross.. "
" It's O.K. You're going through a hard time.. "
" I know, but I don't run from things, I just leave it behind me and forget... "
" You've lost a lot of friends, you have every right to be upset. "
" But I need to do my job.. "
" Everyone has their bad moments. "
" I know, but it's hard.. "
" I know.. I know.. "
He lied down next to me in a comforting manner... I was happy he was so understanding and caring, but it was weird. No one ever understood or cared as much as him...
Meanwhile, (Neo's p.o.v.)
I entered our quarters, it surprised me that Trinity was lying there,
" Trinity, where've you been? " God I'm glad your O.K.
" Doing repairs, where'd you think? "
" Well you're normally visible somewhere. I was really worried about you... "
" Well get used to it. There's lot's more repairs to go yet. "
" Where were you though? "
" I told you doing repairs. "
" I meant `where` were you doing repairs? "
" I dunno, I did lot's in different places.. "
" Where were you at lunch? "
" Repairs. "
" It's not good for you to work 24/7. " Well your not, but hopefully know what I mean.
" I'm not working now.. "
" It's not good to go without food either. "
" I wasn't hungry. And can't you just quit it with the questions? " She sounded harsh and annoyed, but upset.
" What's wrong? "
" Nothing. "
" There is, please just tell me. "
" I don't wanna talk about it. "
" When you're ready, please tell me. I'm worried about you. "
" I'm fine, it's you we need to worry about. "
" Why me? You're upset about something... VERY upset. "
" We need to worry about you because the agents and sentinels'll want you dead. "
" We need to worry about you because you're upset. "
" I'm not as important as you. " I'm not more important just because I'm the one...
" You are to me. "
I was sat next to her, and she rolled back over so she was on her back so we were facing each other. I think I surprised her slightly with that last statement.
" I'm fine, I'll tell you another time. "
" why not now? "
" Fine, it's Tank. I'm upset because he died. You happy now? "
She rolled back over, I tried to place a hand on her shoulder in a comforting way, but she shook it off.
" Why don't you want to talk about it with me? "
" I just don't O.K. "
She was crying again, I felt awful at that moment. I shouldn't have kept pushing with questions.
" Trinity? "
" I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get cross.. "
" It's O.K. You're going through a hard time.. "
" I know, but I don't run from things, I just leave it behind me and forget... "
" You've lost a lot of friends, you have every right to be upset. "
" But I need to do my job.. "
" Everyone has their bad moments. "
" I know, but it's hard.. "
" I know.. I know.. "
I lied down next to her then, to try to comfort her. I couldn't let her feel less than me just because I was the one. I needed her to know that I cared.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Cinn: ARGH! I have a "slight" feeling that was very OOC. But don't most people change slightly when they're depressed? I think the main OOC was Sparks, that was bad. Oh well, R&R. Oops, sorry you've already read, in that case REVIEW. Thanks to: -
Shanaqua: I know, I was told 2 days ago, I haven't had a chance to correct it yet... Thanks anyways, much apreciated.
richard the pedantic: I'm very confused about that last review, but that's probably because I've only had 1 hours sleep since 7:30 yesturday morning. Thanks anyways, glad you like the fic.