Cinn: Bleh, can't be bothered to talk at the moment, so just R&R. PLEASE!!
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Learning,
You never stop learning. Never, even programs, the older you get the more you know but you will never know everything. How can you know everything? There are somethings no one knows, so how can you know them? Trinity's p.o.v.
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Stupid strange dreams of my childhood haunting my sleep. Haven't slept much, not last night anyway.
I'd been sitting in the mess for quite some time before someone joined me, which annoyed me, at first, I didn't want to talk to anyone.
" Hey. "
" Hi. I though you were asleep..? "
" I was, then I woke and you weren't there.. Are you alright? "
" Yeah, I'm fine. " As if, why not tell him the truth. He's not going to annoy you about it, he'll understand...
" You sure? 'Cause if you ever wanna talk... "
" Yeah, I know. " I want to talk, but yet I don't. Why can't I decide???
We were sitting next to each other in silence, me with a drink, you with food but you weren't eating it, you were messing with it.
" It's not poisonous, just eat it. "
" Yeah, I know it's not poisonous, but I miss Matrix food it's much better. "
" Yep. "
5 hours later,
" Hi Trinity. "
" Hello, Ghost. " I always hate talking to Ghost, he always looks at me weird. I know why though, it's obvious as anything.
" How are you? "
" I'm fine, you? "
" O.K. And what's this I hear about you and Neo? "
" What about us? "
" You're together. Not like the Trinity I know to be with anyone, or even in love. "
" Jealous? "
" No, I'm happy for you. " You're still jealous, you always look at me like you love me so how you can't be jealous I don't know. It always bugs me though, you can't stop yourself looking at me like that and I don't like people staring at me. Normally I'd kill someone looking at me like that, but you're a good friend and I don't want to kill you.
" I gotta go, repairs. "
" Yeah, O.K. I'll talk to you another time before we leave or get to Zion. Whichever comes first. "
5 hours later,
I was walking towards my quarters and was thinking, pretty much random thoughts untill they kept returning to the conversations I'd had today. So by the time I'd opened the door and noiced you were there you'd already seen the single tear trail down my face.
" Trinity? "
" Yes? " I asked wiping my eyes
" What's wrong? "
" Nothing Neo. I'm fine. "
" You don't look fine to me... "
I had walked over to our bunk by this time, you were leaning against the wall with you're legs out in front of you so there wasn't really anywhere for me to sit, so I sat in the same way next to you. Only I had to push you over a bit so I had room, and you put your arm round me.
" What's wrong? "
" I'm not sure. I can't sleep, I want to avoid certain people, I seem to be very confused at times. "
I was almost crying again. My friend's deaths had really gotton to me, I'd never been like this before.
" You wanna talk? "
" Yes, but I don't know what about and how it'll help... "
" You don't need to, just say what you want. Quite often you say what needs to be said sub-consciously, it normally helps. If only for a little while... "
" How'd you know all that? "
" I don't, I'm guessing. "
" Helpful. "
" What do you wanna talk about then?? "
" Everything, and nothing. "
" How'd you mean? "
" I want to tell you everything, down to the last little detail. But yet I don't even want you to know how I feel, even if it's obvious. "
" Well do which you want most, or go inbetween. And tell me what needs to be said for me to understand. "
How the heck can you be so caring!?!?! No one ever treated me like this before.
" Do you want to start on why you can't sleep? "
" Yes. "
" Go on then.. "
" I can sleep, but I don't want to. I don't want to have the dreams I have. "
" What are they about? "
" My childhood. Only yesterday I dreamt about the water fight and the book, I keep having dreams from nursery and school. I don't want to keep dreaming about my matrix life... I hate dreaming about it. And what's worse is it acctually feels - when I'm in the dream - that I'm there, that age, that day, that moment, I don't know it's happened before untill I wake. Well I do know, but you know what I mean. "
" Yes. Why do you hate dreaming about it so much? "
" Because it wasn't real. "
" It was real to you then, it's the only childhood you've got and will have. " You are so lucky I won't kill you. If anyone else said that to me - apart from `very` good friends - I would kill them.
" Yeah, I know. That's the bad thing, the only childhood I have isn't real.. "
" Most of my live isn't real. "
" You've got the rest of your life... "
" Yeah, but I was unplugged a lot later than you... "
" Suppose, but I still hate it. "
" Anything else? " Yes, a lot more.
" O.K. I want to avoid certain people. "
" Why? Who do you want to avoid too? "
" Ghost, because he looks at me strangly - I know why he does - and I don't want to make him mad. "
" How would you make him mad? "
" He fancies me. I don't want to make him upset because I'm with you, I'm not saying it like I want to break up with you or anything.. It's just... "
" I know, tricky. "
" Yeah. "
" So you want to avoid him so he doesn't get upset and jealous? "
" Yes, only he tries to talk to me everytime he can. "
" Lemme guess, you get away as soon as possible? "
" Pretty much. "
" You must care about him a lot. "
" I guess so, he's a very good friend to me. Always has been. So I don't want to upset him a lot, it doesn't seem fair on him. "
" Anyone else you want to avoid? "
" Sometimes everyone. It depends how upset I am. Like when you couldn't find me after Tank died. I didn't want to see anyone then... "
Why the heck was I telling you everything??? This is NOT like me, not in the slightest. But now I've started I can't stop telling you, so I carried on,
" ...And sometimes there's only one or two people I want to see. And sometimes I just don't know who I want to see or who I don't. "
" So you avoid everyone, instead of just telling someone where you are and saying you don't wanna talk. "
" Yes. " I'm starting to think your psychic now, it's getting annoying when you just seem to know what I'm thinking or about to say...
" What do you mean 'you seem to be very confused at times'? "
" I don't think confused was the best word to use. "
" What was then? "
" I dunno. All I know is that their deaths have gotton to me more than anything else that's happened before... " Whoa! Where did that un-Trinity like statment come from? I was NEVER going to tell that to anyone!
" You have a right to be upset, you've just lost 8 friends... "
" 7. " Cypher was NOT my friend, well I guess you weren't entirely sure.
" 7 then, but it's still a lot. "
" I've lost friends before, but I just left it behind me. So how come this times diffrent?? "
" Maybe all that bottled up emotion's finally caught up with you.. "
" Maybe, but why now? Why not before? "
" Because you've lost a lot more friends than any other time before?? "
" Could be. "
I stood up then, after wiping my eyes, and headed for the door.
" Where're you going? "
" I owe someone an apology, won't be long. "
" O.K. "
I headed off, he better not still be really grumpy with me.
5 minutes later,
I'd boarded the logos and was walking into the core.
" Hello? "
" ARGH! What are you doing here? "
" Looking for you. "
" Me? What'd I do?? I haven't done anything I swear whatever it was Ghost did it! "
" Calm down you big idiot! "
" Sor-ry. How was I to know you weren't blaming me for something?? "
" How said I wasn't. "
" No one. "
" Anyways, when you FINALLY shut-up for 5seconds. I came to apologise. "
" Apologise? You already got yourself banned from the matrix! And very nearly got me banned from operating. Wait a minute, no I wasn't going to get banned from operating... What was gonna happen to me??? "
I was standing there for a minute thinking what a DORK Sparks is.
" Oh yeah, they threatened to send me to an acadamy to learn the NEW operating skills. You're lucky you have plugs to have info downloaded into your brains.. "
" And waste the first half of you life, if not more, in a computer game. "
" Yeah, what's wrong with that? "
" You don't wanna know. "
" O.K. "
" Well, do you accept my apology? "
" What's in it for me??? "
" No more purswading you to operate whilst I go in the matrix without permission, that includes the construct. "
" O.K. Deal. I'll accept your apology if you don't ask me to keep watch again. "
" O.K. See ya. "
" Good riddance. "
I glared at him,
" Oops, did I say that out loud. "
" Sparks... "
" Yeah? "
" Shut-up. "
" Yeah, sure, whatever. "
I left then, he has to be the weirdest person I know. Definate.
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Cinn: FINALLY!!!! I finish! Took long enough. There might be a few continuation errors, seeing as though I wrote most of this chappie out but I didn't like it as much so I copied the bits I liked to here, then edited it for it to make more sence. So there might be a few errors there.Also I have a feeling there's some OOCness. I tried to get ridda them. Anyways, REVIEW!!! Please? I like reviews, they cheer me up. Thanks to those who already reviewed: -
Da Buffster: I know what it feels like to be tired, I have an 8 hour day on mon, then a 13 hour day on tues, a 10 1/2 day on wed, and 11 hour days on thurs and fri how tired I will be by sat. So all readers do not expect this to be updated anytime this week, I won't have time. Anyways, I try with discription, but it's hard. And as for the friends thing, I probably would, only I keep forgetting when it's on and I don't have time either so.... Thanks for the review, much aprechiated.
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Learning,
You never stop learning. Never, even programs, the older you get the more you know but you will never know everything. How can you know everything? There are somethings no one knows, so how can you know them? Trinity's p.o.v.
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Stupid strange dreams of my childhood haunting my sleep. Haven't slept much, not last night anyway.
I'd been sitting in the mess for quite some time before someone joined me, which annoyed me, at first, I didn't want to talk to anyone.
" Hey. "
" Hi. I though you were asleep..? "
" I was, then I woke and you weren't there.. Are you alright? "
" Yeah, I'm fine. " As if, why not tell him the truth. He's not going to annoy you about it, he'll understand...
" You sure? 'Cause if you ever wanna talk... "
" Yeah, I know. " I want to talk, but yet I don't. Why can't I decide???
We were sitting next to each other in silence, me with a drink, you with food but you weren't eating it, you were messing with it.
" It's not poisonous, just eat it. "
" Yeah, I know it's not poisonous, but I miss Matrix food it's much better. "
" Yep. "
5 hours later,
" Hi Trinity. "
" Hello, Ghost. " I always hate talking to Ghost, he always looks at me weird. I know why though, it's obvious as anything.
" How are you? "
" I'm fine, you? "
" O.K. And what's this I hear about you and Neo? "
" What about us? "
" You're together. Not like the Trinity I know to be with anyone, or even in love. "
" Jealous? "
" No, I'm happy for you. " You're still jealous, you always look at me like you love me so how you can't be jealous I don't know. It always bugs me though, you can't stop yourself looking at me like that and I don't like people staring at me. Normally I'd kill someone looking at me like that, but you're a good friend and I don't want to kill you.
" I gotta go, repairs. "
" Yeah, O.K. I'll talk to you another time before we leave or get to Zion. Whichever comes first. "
5 hours later,
I was walking towards my quarters and was thinking, pretty much random thoughts untill they kept returning to the conversations I'd had today. So by the time I'd opened the door and noiced you were there you'd already seen the single tear trail down my face.
" Trinity? "
" Yes? " I asked wiping my eyes
" What's wrong? "
" Nothing Neo. I'm fine. "
" You don't look fine to me... "
I had walked over to our bunk by this time, you were leaning against the wall with you're legs out in front of you so there wasn't really anywhere for me to sit, so I sat in the same way next to you. Only I had to push you over a bit so I had room, and you put your arm round me.
" What's wrong? "
" I'm not sure. I can't sleep, I want to avoid certain people, I seem to be very confused at times. "
I was almost crying again. My friend's deaths had really gotton to me, I'd never been like this before.
" You wanna talk? "
" Yes, but I don't know what about and how it'll help... "
" You don't need to, just say what you want. Quite often you say what needs to be said sub-consciously, it normally helps. If only for a little while... "
" How'd you know all that? "
" I don't, I'm guessing. "
" Helpful. "
" What do you wanna talk about then?? "
" Everything, and nothing. "
" How'd you mean? "
" I want to tell you everything, down to the last little detail. But yet I don't even want you to know how I feel, even if it's obvious. "
" Well do which you want most, or go inbetween. And tell me what needs to be said for me to understand. "
How the heck can you be so caring!?!?! No one ever treated me like this before.
" Do you want to start on why you can't sleep? "
" Yes. "
" Go on then.. "
" I can sleep, but I don't want to. I don't want to have the dreams I have. "
" What are they about? "
" My childhood. Only yesterday I dreamt about the water fight and the book, I keep having dreams from nursery and school. I don't want to keep dreaming about my matrix life... I hate dreaming about it. And what's worse is it acctually feels - when I'm in the dream - that I'm there, that age, that day, that moment, I don't know it's happened before untill I wake. Well I do know, but you know what I mean. "
" Yes. Why do you hate dreaming about it so much? "
" Because it wasn't real. "
" It was real to you then, it's the only childhood you've got and will have. " You are so lucky I won't kill you. If anyone else said that to me - apart from `very` good friends - I would kill them.
" Yeah, I know. That's the bad thing, the only childhood I have isn't real.. "
" Most of my live isn't real. "
" You've got the rest of your life... "
" Yeah, but I was unplugged a lot later than you... "
" Suppose, but I still hate it. "
" Anything else? " Yes, a lot more.
" O.K. I want to avoid certain people. "
" Why? Who do you want to avoid too? "
" Ghost, because he looks at me strangly - I know why he does - and I don't want to make him mad. "
" How would you make him mad? "
" He fancies me. I don't want to make him upset because I'm with you, I'm not saying it like I want to break up with you or anything.. It's just... "
" I know, tricky. "
" Yeah. "
" So you want to avoid him so he doesn't get upset and jealous? "
" Yes, only he tries to talk to me everytime he can. "
" Lemme guess, you get away as soon as possible? "
" Pretty much. "
" You must care about him a lot. "
" I guess so, he's a very good friend to me. Always has been. So I don't want to upset him a lot, it doesn't seem fair on him. "
" Anyone else you want to avoid? "
" Sometimes everyone. It depends how upset I am. Like when you couldn't find me after Tank died. I didn't want to see anyone then... "
Why the heck was I telling you everything??? This is NOT like me, not in the slightest. But now I've started I can't stop telling you, so I carried on,
" ...And sometimes there's only one or two people I want to see. And sometimes I just don't know who I want to see or who I don't. "
" So you avoid everyone, instead of just telling someone where you are and saying you don't wanna talk. "
" Yes. " I'm starting to think your psychic now, it's getting annoying when you just seem to know what I'm thinking or about to say...
" What do you mean 'you seem to be very confused at times'? "
" I don't think confused was the best word to use. "
" What was then? "
" I dunno. All I know is that their deaths have gotton to me more than anything else that's happened before... " Whoa! Where did that un-Trinity like statment come from? I was NEVER going to tell that to anyone!
" You have a right to be upset, you've just lost 8 friends... "
" 7. " Cypher was NOT my friend, well I guess you weren't entirely sure.
" 7 then, but it's still a lot. "
" I've lost friends before, but I just left it behind me. So how come this times diffrent?? "
" Maybe all that bottled up emotion's finally caught up with you.. "
" Maybe, but why now? Why not before? "
" Because you've lost a lot more friends than any other time before?? "
" Could be. "
I stood up then, after wiping my eyes, and headed for the door.
" Where're you going? "
" I owe someone an apology, won't be long. "
" O.K. "
I headed off, he better not still be really grumpy with me.
5 minutes later,
I'd boarded the logos and was walking into the core.
" Hello? "
" ARGH! What are you doing here? "
" Looking for you. "
" Me? What'd I do?? I haven't done anything I swear whatever it was Ghost did it! "
" Calm down you big idiot! "
" Sor-ry. How was I to know you weren't blaming me for something?? "
" How said I wasn't. "
" No one. "
" Anyways, when you FINALLY shut-up for 5seconds. I came to apologise. "
" Apologise? You already got yourself banned from the matrix! And very nearly got me banned from operating. Wait a minute, no I wasn't going to get banned from operating... What was gonna happen to me??? "
I was standing there for a minute thinking what a DORK Sparks is.
" Oh yeah, they threatened to send me to an acadamy to learn the NEW operating skills. You're lucky you have plugs to have info downloaded into your brains.. "
" And waste the first half of you life, if not more, in a computer game. "
" Yeah, what's wrong with that? "
" You don't wanna know. "
" O.K. "
" Well, do you accept my apology? "
" What's in it for me??? "
" No more purswading you to operate whilst I go in the matrix without permission, that includes the construct. "
" O.K. Deal. I'll accept your apology if you don't ask me to keep watch again. "
" O.K. See ya. "
" Good riddance. "
I glared at him,
" Oops, did I say that out loud. "
" Sparks... "
" Yeah? "
" Shut-up. "
" Yeah, sure, whatever. "
I left then, he has to be the weirdest person I know. Definate.
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Cinn: FINALLY!!!! I finish! Took long enough. There might be a few continuation errors, seeing as though I wrote most of this chappie out but I didn't like it as much so I copied the bits I liked to here, then edited it for it to make more sence. So there might be a few errors there.Also I have a feeling there's some OOCness. I tried to get ridda them. Anyways, REVIEW!!! Please? I like reviews, they cheer me up. Thanks to those who already reviewed: -
Da Buffster: I know what it feels like to be tired, I have an 8 hour day on mon, then a 13 hour day on tues, a 10 1/2 day on wed, and 11 hour days on thurs and fri how tired I will be by sat. So all readers do not expect this to be updated anytime this week, I won't have time. Anyways, I try with discription, but it's hard. And as for the friends thing, I probably would, only I keep forgetting when it's on and I don't have time either so.... Thanks for the review, much aprechiated.