I want to forget
"Master, I am worried. She has not come out of her room. Her blood packets are building up. What should we do?"
It had been four weeks snice the incident. Siren would not talk to anyone nor allow them to help her. She would remain in her room or the computer room. Her face held no emotions for anyone.
Seres had tried, time and again, to help her forget and it would work for a time but as soon as she left, Siren would return to her depressed self.
Ever snice that day, she laid with Siren and also stayed and made sure she drank her blood. Siren would not drink unless Seres drank hers and in front of her.
"Sir, Sir?" one of the soldiers spoke up. "Sir Victoria, what are your commands?"
"Huh? Oh, yeah....ummm. I'm sorry, everyone is dismissed."
The soldiers even knew what was wrong. Back at headquarters, everyone knew how close Siren was to Sara. They even knew how she felt about Jeremy. The soldiers, well some, couldn't imagine the pain Siren was going through. They all talkeed amongst themselves as they left.
James stood in front of Seres. "How is she holding up? How are you holding up?"
"She is not doing any better then when she was found." Sighs
"Do you think she would allow me to talk to her?"
"You can try. She's in the computer room." Seres gave James a pat on the shoulder and gave him a assuring smile as she walked past him.
Siren sat in her chair, looking at the blank screen on the computer. The lights had been dimmed. Alice floated in front of her.
"It's not your fault. Those stupid creatures did this to you, made you feel pain, but it is all over. They will no longer hurt you."
Siren said nothing and looked like she was farther away then the room she was in.
"It was that stupid bitch's fault for ruining your life. She turned you into this monster. It's her fault and her pets fault. Alucard wasn't there to stop the fight. He must be punished as well."
Siren woke up from her trance and looked up at the , now looking, innocent looking doll. Her arm's snapped out and grabbed the doll and put her into the top draw of the desk. "James, come in. It's rude to stand at the door."
"I'm sorry. I heard you talking to someone and didn't want to disturb you. How are you doing?"
"You are not disturbing me. I just had alot to think about."
"No one blame's you." James stared at her hoping for something.
"Everyone blames me! I had every right to do what I did, didn't I!?" She was yelling and standing up.
James took a step back. "To a certain extent, I suspose."
Siren seemed almost scared at her own voice after she saw the look on James face. "I...I'm sorry." She fell back in her chair. "I didn't mean to yell." She turned in her chair and looked out the window. "Please leave."
"Siren..I.."
"Please, James."
James stood for a few more minutes looking at Siren then sighed in defeat and left.
Siren didn't hear the door close so she assumed James was still hanging around when she heard the draw to her desk open.
"Why do you hang onto such things, little one?"
Siren turned in her chair and saw Alucard holding the doll. She shrugged.
"You are growing weaker. Your mind is to crowded . Maybe we should hunt tonight? Or ...should I remain and feed you like a mother feeds her newborn?" Alucard examined the doll and replaced it in the draw. He had a cheshire smile across his face when Siren glanced at him.
"I'm too old to be feed like a newborn and I'm not in the mood to hunt." Her eyes looked away from him and to the screen of the computer. "I have alot of work to catch up on anyway."
That cheshire smile never left his face as he continued to burn his eyes into her. "Do you really think all this depression you have brought in here will help? Does talking with your doll keep you sane?"
"Your more insane then I Alucard. You should know...." A pause for a few minutes. "I killed them both, even if it was a dream. I didn't just kill them....I destroyed their bodies. I mutilated Sara's beyond recogniz and yet, I didn't do it." Siren stood up, her hands hit the desk. " HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO HANDLE THIS?"
Alucard stand's to his full height and looks down at her, his grin now erased from his face. A more evil, playful smile adorned his face now.
She circled the table and stood in front of him, still yelling. She began pounding on his chest, letting all her frustrations out on him. Her body became unwilling to hold anymore of the stress, the guilt. She kept yelling, kept beating till he grabbed both her wrists in his hands. She fell into his body. Arms wrapped around her. Warm arms held her close, carrying her somewhere. She didn't care anymore. She just wanted to wake up from this nightmare but she couldn't.
"Kathy Ann, wake up. Your mind is your prison. Break free. Wake up!"
"Alice?"
"Wake up Kathy Ann."
Siren woke up with a start, gasping for air that she really did not need. She looked around and saw that she was in her room.
Alucard was sitting in the chair across from the coffin, feet were propped on the table, hat hung over his eyes.
Siren pulled the sheets against her body, thinking of how tired she was but always thinking of that day.
"I can't forget. I lost part of my humanity that night. I let the vampire side of me take control. I hate it, but I enjoyed it." She said more to herself then Alucard.
She stepped out of the bed and walked over to Alucard who remained motionless. She removed his hat and placed it on the night stand, then reached out for his glasses and took them off and placed them with his hat.
Alucard's eyes were open and watching her. "Feel better little one?" He brought his legs down as she rounded to the front of him.
She kneeled down in front of him and laid her head in his lap. "I want to forget for this one day. Please, help me forget."
Before Alucard could udder a word, with a swiftness that vampires were granted with, her lips were on his, wanting his kiss in return. After a few seconds, it was returned. The kiss was like a whole different world to her and she wanted to venture farther into this world.
She placed her hands on the shoulders of his coat, pulling it down his arms. It fell off with ease. Her fingers found his hair and intertwined her fingers into his locks. He pulled her onto his lap without breaking the kiss. He bit down on her lip softly and droplets of blood came oozing out.
She finally pulled away and grabbed a packet of blood sitting on the table. Without breaking eye contact, she tore the packet open and drank it all. She grabbed a second one and did the same thing but this time she let most of it dribble down her chin and soak her shirt as she started leaning back as if she was downing vodka. Alucards arm was supporting her back as she did this.
He pulled her back up to him and started licking the blood off her chin, following her neck, and finally to the v part of her shirt. He lifted her arms up, sliding his hands up to meet her hands then came back down and grabbed the front of her shirt and ripped it in two.
She almost laughed when her shirt made the ripping noise.
Alucard grabbed a third packet of blood and pored it over her, soaking her hair and body. She stuck out her tongue and caught most of it.
Alucard brought her into another kiss as she fumbled with the buttons on his shirt. As she finished unbuttoning his shirt and opening it, Alucard raked a fingernail across his chest allowing blood to flow.
Siren broke from the kiss and went to the seeping blood, licking up every last drop till the cut closed. A moan escaped both their lips at the same time.
Alucard cupped her butt with both hands and picked her up, bringing her to the bed, laying her on her back. He straddled her and looked down at her. He saw tears begin to stream down her cheeks.
She wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him down to her. He laid his head against her neck.
"I want to forget." she whispered in his ear
Alucard grinned a devilish grin.
"Master, I am worried. She has not come out of her room. Her blood packets are building up. What should we do?"
It had been four weeks snice the incident. Siren would not talk to anyone nor allow them to help her. She would remain in her room or the computer room. Her face held no emotions for anyone.
Seres had tried, time and again, to help her forget and it would work for a time but as soon as she left, Siren would return to her depressed self.
Ever snice that day, she laid with Siren and also stayed and made sure she drank her blood. Siren would not drink unless Seres drank hers and in front of her.
"Sir, Sir?" one of the soldiers spoke up. "Sir Victoria, what are your commands?"
"Huh? Oh, yeah....ummm. I'm sorry, everyone is dismissed."
The soldiers even knew what was wrong. Back at headquarters, everyone knew how close Siren was to Sara. They even knew how she felt about Jeremy. The soldiers, well some, couldn't imagine the pain Siren was going through. They all talkeed amongst themselves as they left.
James stood in front of Seres. "How is she holding up? How are you holding up?"
"She is not doing any better then when she was found." Sighs
"Do you think she would allow me to talk to her?"
"You can try. She's in the computer room." Seres gave James a pat on the shoulder and gave him a assuring smile as she walked past him.
Siren sat in her chair, looking at the blank screen on the computer. The lights had been dimmed. Alice floated in front of her.
"It's not your fault. Those stupid creatures did this to you, made you feel pain, but it is all over. They will no longer hurt you."
Siren said nothing and looked like she was farther away then the room she was in.
"It was that stupid bitch's fault for ruining your life. She turned you into this monster. It's her fault and her pets fault. Alucard wasn't there to stop the fight. He must be punished as well."
Siren woke up from her trance and looked up at the , now looking, innocent looking doll. Her arm's snapped out and grabbed the doll and put her into the top draw of the desk. "James, come in. It's rude to stand at the door."
"I'm sorry. I heard you talking to someone and didn't want to disturb you. How are you doing?"
"You are not disturbing me. I just had alot to think about."
"No one blame's you." James stared at her hoping for something.
"Everyone blames me! I had every right to do what I did, didn't I!?" She was yelling and standing up.
James took a step back. "To a certain extent, I suspose."
Siren seemed almost scared at her own voice after she saw the look on James face. "I...I'm sorry." She fell back in her chair. "I didn't mean to yell." She turned in her chair and looked out the window. "Please leave."
"Siren..I.."
"Please, James."
James stood for a few more minutes looking at Siren then sighed in defeat and left.
Siren didn't hear the door close so she assumed James was still hanging around when she heard the draw to her desk open.
"Why do you hang onto such things, little one?"
Siren turned in her chair and saw Alucard holding the doll. She shrugged.
"You are growing weaker. Your mind is to crowded . Maybe we should hunt tonight? Or ...should I remain and feed you like a mother feeds her newborn?" Alucard examined the doll and replaced it in the draw. He had a cheshire smile across his face when Siren glanced at him.
"I'm too old to be feed like a newborn and I'm not in the mood to hunt." Her eyes looked away from him and to the screen of the computer. "I have alot of work to catch up on anyway."
That cheshire smile never left his face as he continued to burn his eyes into her. "Do you really think all this depression you have brought in here will help? Does talking with your doll keep you sane?"
"Your more insane then I Alucard. You should know...." A pause for a few minutes. "I killed them both, even if it was a dream. I didn't just kill them....I destroyed their bodies. I mutilated Sara's beyond recogniz and yet, I didn't do it." Siren stood up, her hands hit the desk. " HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO HANDLE THIS?"
Alucard stand's to his full height and looks down at her, his grin now erased from his face. A more evil, playful smile adorned his face now.
She circled the table and stood in front of him, still yelling. She began pounding on his chest, letting all her frustrations out on him. Her body became unwilling to hold anymore of the stress, the guilt. She kept yelling, kept beating till he grabbed both her wrists in his hands. She fell into his body. Arms wrapped around her. Warm arms held her close, carrying her somewhere. She didn't care anymore. She just wanted to wake up from this nightmare but she couldn't.
"Kathy Ann, wake up. Your mind is your prison. Break free. Wake up!"
"Alice?"
"Wake up Kathy Ann."
Siren woke up with a start, gasping for air that she really did not need. She looked around and saw that she was in her room.
Alucard was sitting in the chair across from the coffin, feet were propped on the table, hat hung over his eyes.
Siren pulled the sheets against her body, thinking of how tired she was but always thinking of that day.
"I can't forget. I lost part of my humanity that night. I let the vampire side of me take control. I hate it, but I enjoyed it." She said more to herself then Alucard.
She stepped out of the bed and walked over to Alucard who remained motionless. She removed his hat and placed it on the night stand, then reached out for his glasses and took them off and placed them with his hat.
Alucard's eyes were open and watching her. "Feel better little one?" He brought his legs down as she rounded to the front of him.
She kneeled down in front of him and laid her head in his lap. "I want to forget for this one day. Please, help me forget."
Before Alucard could udder a word, with a swiftness that vampires were granted with, her lips were on his, wanting his kiss in return. After a few seconds, it was returned. The kiss was like a whole different world to her and she wanted to venture farther into this world.
She placed her hands on the shoulders of his coat, pulling it down his arms. It fell off with ease. Her fingers found his hair and intertwined her fingers into his locks. He pulled her onto his lap without breaking the kiss. He bit down on her lip softly and droplets of blood came oozing out.
She finally pulled away and grabbed a packet of blood sitting on the table. Without breaking eye contact, she tore the packet open and drank it all. She grabbed a second one and did the same thing but this time she let most of it dribble down her chin and soak her shirt as she started leaning back as if she was downing vodka. Alucards arm was supporting her back as she did this.
He pulled her back up to him and started licking the blood off her chin, following her neck, and finally to the v part of her shirt. He lifted her arms up, sliding his hands up to meet her hands then came back down and grabbed the front of her shirt and ripped it in two.
She almost laughed when her shirt made the ripping noise.
Alucard grabbed a third packet of blood and pored it over her, soaking her hair and body. She stuck out her tongue and caught most of it.
Alucard brought her into another kiss as she fumbled with the buttons on his shirt. As she finished unbuttoning his shirt and opening it, Alucard raked a fingernail across his chest allowing blood to flow.
Siren broke from the kiss and went to the seeping blood, licking up every last drop till the cut closed. A moan escaped both their lips at the same time.
Alucard cupped her butt with both hands and picked her up, bringing her to the bed, laying her on her back. He straddled her and looked down at her. He saw tears begin to stream down her cheeks.
She wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him down to her. He laid his head against her neck.
"I want to forget." she whispered in his ear
Alucard grinned a devilish grin.