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I can't really picture Snape having an emotional breakdown, can you? Enjoy!
Dragon Scales
Chapter Eight: Breakdown
"Well?" the un-me asked.
"I... I..." I stuttered, watching him blankly.
Was that what I looked like? I looked... old. I watched my - his arm wrap around Kat's waist as she stared at me. She was herself, with her blonde hair covering her eyes lightly. She clenched her teeth and her eyes filled with a hate I thought she'd never have for me. "Chuck, this is fucking funny," she said, between her teeth.
Chuck? I watched the un-me again. That was Chuck Smith. I closed my eyes for a moment trying to get my thoughts in order. She thought I was the fake. "I'm sorry to have bothered you," I said.
I walked out of the room. Maybe I should have stayed with Carrie. Was I denying my age? I had more in common with her than with Katherine. I walked back to Carrie's room, where the door was wide open. She was no longer in there. I looked around for a moment and then left her room as I did Kat's. I didn't know where else to go, so I headed outside. I glanced out the door for a moment; it felt like things were slowing down. I stepped out into the pouring rain and held out my arms. I walked for as long as I felt I needed. I laid down and closed my eyes, letting the rain run across my face.
I quickly put the remainder of the pieces together. Carrie used me to keep me away from Katherine so Charles could step in. He liked her more than I did. What was I saying? I loved her. I wished that I could just melt away into the grass. Just fade away. Thunder rolled in the distance. If I just disappeared, no one would miss me and no one would think twice. Anyone could replace me.
It felt like hours between each raindrop pressing against my face. I gripped the grass between my fingers. What did I do to deserve this? I heard footsteps coming closer to me.I stood up and tried to run, but slipped on the grass and was back on my back. "Graceful," Max said quietly.
I sat up and looked up at him. "You're the one who came?" I asked.
He sat down beside me. "Who else? Kat's kicking Chuck's ass," he said.
I looked at him for a moment. Why was he so happy with who he was. He smiled slightly and looked up into the crying clouds. "They're crying for you," he said.
"Or they're laughing so hard, tears fell," I muttered.
He turned to look at me with a large grin on his face. I braced myself for a crude comment. "Or they were laughing so hard they wet themselves," he nudged me slightly. Max hadn't changed much. I wasn't sure how he got suspended, but he did. He was a decent student, and a decent kid. He was a little on the chubby side and had long, brown, curly hair. He quickly apologized, "I'm sorry. That was uncalled for."
"It's fine," I said and closed my eyes again. Why couldn't he just leave me alone? I started to talk, "Why was I so blind?"
"If a hot chick was hitting on me, I'd be blind too," he said.
"But I didn't even want her," I said.
He shrugged. "We do stupid things sometimes."
"I do stupid things. The worse thing you've done is come outside," I said.
"I wanted to make sure you were okay," he said.
"You knew I wasn't," I shot at him.
Why was I being rude? He did nothing. "Well, then I wanted to cheer you up."
"Why did you say Katherine didn't come?" I wanted to change the topic.
"As soon as you left, she figured it out. That you were the real one, and Chuck was just playing with her."
"He likes her," I said.
"You like her."
"That doesn't matter," I sighed. "He has more going for him."
"He's an asshole. You're not."
I looked at him. "Why, exactly, did you come with them to the school?"
"They were going to kill you," he said.
I shrugged. "Go figure."
"Well, I just wanted to make sure they didn't. I guess they figured I had more balls," he said.
I laid down in the grass again, feeling tired. "You do for coming out here."
"Actually, I was kind of scared of Kat, and when Carrie stepped in she exploded. So I fled," he said.
"You should have accepted my compliment."
He shrugged and laid down beside me. We watching the rain fall in silence. It seemed like hours passed, as my head grew heavier. "She loves you, you know," he said.
"I don't know why," I said.
"You realize you're lucky, right?"
I felt anger rise up inside of me. "Are you going somewhere with this?"
He sat up and looked down at me. "No... it's just that... I don't know. Like everyone, I had feelings for her too. I couldn't help her, but you could. I never understood her attraction to you and I doubt I ever will. I just want her to be happy. I don't want to scheme or mess with her. I just want her to smile again," he said.
"Max..." I felt my eyes closed. "If I could give her to you, I would."
I can't really picture Snape having an emotional breakdown, can you? Enjoy!
Dragon Scales
Chapter Eight: Breakdown
"Well?" the un-me asked.
"I... I..." I stuttered, watching him blankly.
Was that what I looked like? I looked... old. I watched my - his arm wrap around Kat's waist as she stared at me. She was herself, with her blonde hair covering her eyes lightly. She clenched her teeth and her eyes filled with a hate I thought she'd never have for me. "Chuck, this is fucking funny," she said, between her teeth.
Chuck? I watched the un-me again. That was Chuck Smith. I closed my eyes for a moment trying to get my thoughts in order. She thought I was the fake. "I'm sorry to have bothered you," I said.
I walked out of the room. Maybe I should have stayed with Carrie. Was I denying my age? I had more in common with her than with Katherine. I walked back to Carrie's room, where the door was wide open. She was no longer in there. I looked around for a moment and then left her room as I did Kat's. I didn't know where else to go, so I headed outside. I glanced out the door for a moment; it felt like things were slowing down. I stepped out into the pouring rain and held out my arms. I walked for as long as I felt I needed. I laid down and closed my eyes, letting the rain run across my face.
I quickly put the remainder of the pieces together. Carrie used me to keep me away from Katherine so Charles could step in. He liked her more than I did. What was I saying? I loved her. I wished that I could just melt away into the grass. Just fade away. Thunder rolled in the distance. If I just disappeared, no one would miss me and no one would think twice. Anyone could replace me.
It felt like hours between each raindrop pressing against my face. I gripped the grass between my fingers. What did I do to deserve this? I heard footsteps coming closer to me.I stood up and tried to run, but slipped on the grass and was back on my back. "Graceful," Max said quietly.
I sat up and looked up at him. "You're the one who came?" I asked.
He sat down beside me. "Who else? Kat's kicking Chuck's ass," he said.
I looked at him for a moment. Why was he so happy with who he was. He smiled slightly and looked up into the crying clouds. "They're crying for you," he said.
"Or they're laughing so hard, tears fell," I muttered.
He turned to look at me with a large grin on his face. I braced myself for a crude comment. "Or they were laughing so hard they wet themselves," he nudged me slightly. Max hadn't changed much. I wasn't sure how he got suspended, but he did. He was a decent student, and a decent kid. He was a little on the chubby side and had long, brown, curly hair. He quickly apologized, "I'm sorry. That was uncalled for."
"It's fine," I said and closed my eyes again. Why couldn't he just leave me alone? I started to talk, "Why was I so blind?"
"If a hot chick was hitting on me, I'd be blind too," he said.
"But I didn't even want her," I said.
He shrugged. "We do stupid things sometimes."
"I do stupid things. The worse thing you've done is come outside," I said.
"I wanted to make sure you were okay," he said.
"You knew I wasn't," I shot at him.
Why was I being rude? He did nothing. "Well, then I wanted to cheer you up."
"Why did you say Katherine didn't come?" I wanted to change the topic.
"As soon as you left, she figured it out. That you were the real one, and Chuck was just playing with her."
"He likes her," I said.
"You like her."
"That doesn't matter," I sighed. "He has more going for him."
"He's an asshole. You're not."
I looked at him. "Why, exactly, did you come with them to the school?"
"They were going to kill you," he said.
I shrugged. "Go figure."
"Well, I just wanted to make sure they didn't. I guess they figured I had more balls," he said.
I laid down in the grass again, feeling tired. "You do for coming out here."
"Actually, I was kind of scared of Kat, and when Carrie stepped in she exploded. So I fled," he said.
"You should have accepted my compliment."
He shrugged and laid down beside me. We watching the rain fall in silence. It seemed like hours passed, as my head grew heavier. "She loves you, you know," he said.
"I don't know why," I said.
"You realize you're lucky, right?"
I felt anger rise up inside of me. "Are you going somewhere with this?"
He sat up and looked down at me. "No... it's just that... I don't know. Like everyone, I had feelings for her too. I couldn't help her, but you could. I never understood her attraction to you and I doubt I ever will. I just want her to be happy. I don't want to scheme or mess with her. I just want her to smile again," he said.
"Max..." I felt my eyes closed. "If I could give her to you, I would."