Title: Please
Author: socgrl
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Everything, especially "Hail and Farewell"
Disclaimer: You know who owns them, and it certainly isn't me
Last time on Alright:
"Well I'm going to run into your bathroom, put this stuff away, and wash up. You get dressed," he said kneeling down on the floor next to her. He tucked a piece of long hair behind her ear and ran a hand once more, slowly, down her back. She watched his eyes follow the contours of her back and heard him murmur, "God, you are so beautiful." She smiled at this and pulled his head down to kiss his forehead. She looked into his eyes and once more said, "Thank you."
By the time Harm had returned from the bathroom Mac had moved to her arm chair and was drinking her tea.
"The couch not comfortable?" Harm asked.
"Nah, its fine. The chair just provides better support," she said shrugging and took another sip.
Harm took up a seat on the couch and began to take sips from the other mug.
He took a deep breath, "Sarah," the use of her first name caught her attention. "I need to tell you something, but I don't want you to take it the wrong way."
Mac took a deep breath of her own and nodded for him to continue.
"I meant what I said about not leaving you. I will be here with you every stop of the way," he looked up to gauge her reaction. He noted a small smile and a nod for him to continue.
"I also know that you have a million emotions running through your brain right now, and the last thing you need is even more added to that. But I can't look into your beautiful eyes one more moment without you knowing the truth. Sarah, I love you. I've loved you since, well I knew for sure that afternoon in the Admiral's office, the day after your father's funeral. When I looked at you I saw you for the beautiful woman you are and not just the friend that would never leave my side. I looked into your eyes and knew you held me captive. I knew from that moment on that I wanted to spend the rest of my life swimming in those eyes," he said, his voice cracking.
"Oh Harm," Mac replied. "Why now, why after all this time," she pleaded with him.
"Sarah, all I've ever wanted was for you to be happy. What you say goes. If you say you're happy, then I'm happy for you. If you say never," he stopped, looking down at the floor, "then never it is. But I can't let there be a never Mac. I need to fight now, because I will die alone if I don't spend eternity with you. There is no one else; there can be no one else."
"Harm I love you too," she said with a smile gracing her face. She took a deep breath, "but we have to take this slow. I'm in no condition physically or mentally to jump into a new relationship. And this whole Clay thing needs to settle down a bit first," she said looking to him for understanding.
"I told you I'm not going anywhere. So when you're ready, I'll be right by your side," he said reassuring her once again.
"Harm," Mac asked, uncertainty ringing in her voice. "How do you feel about all of this, how would you feel if I was never able to have a baby of 'our' own?" she asked emphasizing 'our'.
Getting up from his seat on the couch, Harm knelt down in front of Mac, grasping her hands in his.
"Mac, Sarah, to be honest with you I'm scared to death. When have you ever known me to admit that I was scared about anything? The thought of not being able to see you everyday, to hear your laugh, to see your smile everyday makes me feel sick to my stomach. I do not want to do anything that will endanger your health, even if that means not conceiving 'our' own child. There are other methods available, thousands of kids looking for loving parents."
Unconsciously, Harm released one of his hands from Mac's grasp and traced her stomach where a baby would reside. "Mac, you will make a great mother. You have the biggest and warmest heart of anybody I know. You would make any child very happy and proud," he said looking into her eyes. Her hand was now covering his circling her stomach. "But remember, nothing is for certain yet. We can always try and if not we will resort to other measures. We will just take it one step at a time."
Mac nodded in agreement. She tried to hide the yawn that was building, but Harm caught her.
"Ok beautiful, lets get you tucked into bed, and then I'm going to head home, k?" he said.
He rose up off the floor and pulled her along with him. "You, bed, me, kitchen," he said like a Neanderthal.
Mac just laughed at him, "ug, ug, don't forget to grab your club caveman."
He smiled that famous Rabb smile and ushered her down the hallway.
By the time Mac was crawling into bed, Harm had cleaned up the living room and started the dishwasher.
"Alright Marine, you all set? Need anything?" he asked pulling the comforter up from the foot of the bed.
"I think I'm good. But would you mind staying until I fall asleep?" she asked timidly.
"Sure thing."
Without another word Mac turned off the light, climbed into bed and lie on her back and Harm crawled in beside her. She grabbed his hand and rested it on her abdomen. Sitting up slightly he bent over and placed a kiss on her bare stomach. Laying back down he kissed her forehead and closed his eyes.
Intertwining their fingers together Harm said a silent prayer.
'Please God, lets us be strong enough to get through this in one piece.'
A/N: Let me know what you think. Please R&R. For the moment this is the end...I'm swamped with work...but I have a feeling that it will continue once I get more inspiration. Thank you for all the wonderful reviews. You guys rock!!!!!!!
