Chapter 2
Here I am lying next to my wife. The one I chose to be with, but something just don't feel right. I know that she loves me but do I love her. The one I knew deep down that I loved walked out and I did nothing to stop her. What she said that night hurt me worse than anything Courtney has done. She is the safe one. The one that I don't have to worry about getting hurt by. She can't hurt me. I love her but not in the way that I should love her. I married her for safety. I didn't want to be alone. I was tired of being alone. After she moved in I liked having someone to come home too. Then she left. It hurt the day that she walked out. I sat in the penthouse all alone and couldn't understand what I did wrong. She knew I couldn't tell her stuff. That's when Zander came downstairs. He asked Where Liz went and I informed him that she left. He said that it was about time that she left. I started thinking back and realized what went down and how scared she must have been when I didn't even call to let her know that I was all right. I messed up. Now I have to make it right. I know what I have to do and it will hurt Courtney but I have to do it for me. I can't sleep in this room next to her. I guess I will go down and grab a beer, maybe fall asleep on the couch. I climb out of bed and walk down the stairs. I can't believe she did this to my apartment. I walk into my weight room and sit down on the couch I managed to hide in there. It's our couch. The black leather couch that she likes so much. I think of her as I drift off to sleep.