Mm-hmm… Mm-hmm… I believe so… I already know that!!! Gawd… Stupid Bugger…
By: Uhhh… Drool Monkey
Hate me, Love me, Accuse me and die!
Chapter 4: Conflicts
Namaiou left me to go get her food and I was left with five guys SHE brought over… I mean I know Sage, Ryo, and Rowen, but only their names… But now here were two more… One, he looked really nice and really calm, but the other reminded me of that Tundra guy, but cuter… In a little boy kind of way though…
"Hello… As you already know… I am Kushrenada, Hoshinawa," I smiled to them.
"Hello," the calm one smiled happily... "My name is Mouri, Cye," he said as he bowed.
"I am pleased to meet you Cye… I believe you are Sage, Ryo, and Rowen…" I said as I turned to them.
"And I am Kento," the last one beamed.
"Hello Kento… It's nice to meet friends of Namaiou… You know she doesn't really like people… That was the soul purpose of being a bully for her… I'm practically her only friend…" I said as they sat.
"When she was thirteen or fourteen, she disappeared for a year or so… When she returned, she was really depressed. Soon she got snappy and angry all the time… She first smoked when she was eleven… Can you imagine that… An eleven year old sitting on a roof with a cigarette in her mouth!!! She was calm with the smoking though… She probably smoked one cigarette a week because everyone, along with me and our other friend, constantly monitored her. No one knew of this smoking habit, not even me… Our friend and I were monitoring her all the time, because her brother told us too… And now she monitors me… But I finally found out about her smoking, when she was smoking half or a whole thing of cigarettes… After she returned. She pretty soon began to drink…" I said.
Wow… They're good listeners… But… Why am I opening up to them and telling them her problems… It's not right, but it feels like I can tell them stuff and they'd never say… It's just the feel they have… Their auras…
"Namaiou… She always has a fierce look on her face and glaring hate beaming from her eyes… But she has that… I can feel that she's not really like that on the inside," I explained.
"How was her childhood," Sage asked.
"I don't know… She refuses to talk to anyone about it," I explained. "Sometimes I just wish she would open up to people more… Particularly me, my father, or her stepbrother at least… He doesn't show it, but he worries a lot about her…" I sighed.
I don't know… I respect her enough to not to pry, but at the same time, I feel I'm not respecting her and that I'm hurting her by letting her bottle things up… We all know it's not good to bottle things up inside… It usually doesn't hurt you physically, but mentally it can tear you to pieces.
I watch her a lot and when she thinks no one is looking she'll stare down at her hand… It's heartbreaking to see her with such a pain filled gaze… When I know something is wrong… She won't talk about it, or she'll deny the idea of a problem completely… I just want to help her with her problems and understand her better.
"I can almost say I understand how you feel…" Sage said, "but at the same time I understand how she feels…"
They all nodded.
"Sometimes… You think that no would understand exactly where you're coming from and most of the time… They don't understand," Sage explained, "when you think about it, we only want to believe that we understand fully, but most the time we're way off," he sighed.
I thought about what he just said, and it was true and all, but Namaiou and I understand each other… I guess there are times when I don't understand her, like when she fights… It's like she finds pleasure in the sound of breaking bones and twisted metal flying passed her view… The smell of gunpowder and blood, some of the things she smiles upon… But what I really don't understand is her extreme ability to totally loathe the idea of loving another… In that way and when she hurts herself with cigarettes, alcohol, and she did drugs too… She quit when I found out.
I just can't figure out what sent her down this horrid path… I know it wasn't the band that we were in and I don't want to think it was our friend Viro who got her into drugs… I still wonder where he went. Well Viro was our friend's, uh split personality… I guess he went back into our friend's mind… But I wonder where he is… I can't even remember his name… Why can't I remember his name… His face is foggy too… Why can't I remember!!!
I'll remember when Namaiou returns. I looked over… My eyes rested upon Rowen… I remembered something… Blue… Our friend… He has something to do with the color blue… Was it his favorite color? No it was something else… I looked at Rowen closer… His name did start with an "R"… What the…? My eyes widened… R-rowen…
His name was Rowen and he had blue hair… ROWEN… OH MY GOD… I found Rowen… He was sitting next to me this whole time… Oh my… That's really freaky…
"R-rowen," I said under my breathe, for only him to hear. He looked over to me… "What is your last name," I asked.
He looked to me… "Hashiba," he said… He looked at me, as if he were trying to remember himself…
"I-was your father a scientist," I asked. He looked at me…
"Y-yes," he said.
"Did… Did he work for a Trieze," I asked him… He looked at me… He nodded in surprise…
"Hoshi…" he said as he continued to stared at me…
We both stared in horror… "It's you," we both yelled as we pointed. The rest all looked at us in surprise… We were staring at each other… The rest all seemed to disappear…
"I'm sorry… I had forgotten," he said, not moving his lips…
"Yes… I did so too," I said answering his telepathy.
"Uh… Rowen… Hoshinawa, is there something on your minds," Ryo asked.
"Uh… Well," Rowen started. We looked to each other and decided to tell them… So we explained.
"Wow… Cool," Kento said.
"Nami will flip when she hears," I smiled happily.
"Can we not tell her… I'm sorry, but I still… I just can't… I'm sorry, but I still dislike her… All we'll ever do is argue and I'm not up for it… She hates me…" he said as he looked away, "and frankly… I… I guess I feel the same towards her."
"Okay," I said slowly… He was telling the truth, a year after we all met… They really started to go at it… Ever since she started to baby-sit him… Yes, Namaiou babysat us… He'll be so embarrassed if they find out… I'm sure of it…
His split personality went around with us in a band… There were six of us, Me, Namaiou, Trinity, Maiya, Selena, and Viro… I'm not gonna say anymore about the band… Viro and Namaiou were close… Actually, they are/were going out… They both partied a lot, they smoked, and maybe they did drugs together… I just hope they didn't go any further… I don't think so… Though Namaiou is wild, she still doesn't like the idea of that… She thinks it's gross…
Rowen awoke after the band broke up… Viro had pierced his tongue, his ears, and… Um… His chest… Rowen took them out, but Namaiou still has her ears pierced… Four or five on each ear… She has her tongue pierced, or should I say had… She removed it when Rowen returned.
Rowen was really angry when he found out about Namaiou and Viro's relationship… He was mostly angry with her for not stopping Viro from doing all this to his body… He was hospitalized for almost a month… When he got out… He hated Namaiou… He was so angry… It was frightening… I hope he never becomes Viro again.
"So… How have you been… What have you been doing," I asked.
"Oh… I'm fine… and I'm just trying to learn more in regular school… Hanging out with my friends… Just different stuff," he explained.
"Which friends… Them or your textbooks," I smiled.
"Ha ha ha," he looked away… I smiled…
I want to tell Namaiou… I want to tell her that I've found Rowen… I just don't know how she'd react… I don't think she hates him… She constantly talks about how she would like to see Rowen again… Though he was a bookworm… All she wanted was to be friends…
He tried to get to know her… But his timing wasn't always the best… I still get frightened of her when she gets angry… I guess one reason Rowen dislikes her is the fact that Namaiou can take lives… And still have time to joke around… She seems like the kind of person who can sit back and talk or brag about what she did… But she's not like that, how she looks… Well, she looks like the cool assassin who has no regrets and has never been afraid… I've seen Namaiou scream… I've seen her afraid before… I've held her when she awoke from a nightmare… I've seen he cry out in pain… Physically and mentally… She's not this person that everyone has thought her to be… Everyone believes she's like this… And she doesn't like to make big decisions… When her stepbrother found her… I guess he just told her this and that and soon she was this different person… She acts on what everyone wants her to act…
She's a bully, cold-hearted, and a cold-blooded murderer… And that's how everyone is going to perceive her to be…
Wow… Namaiou's life is really fucked up… She's gonna kill herself one day with all the things she goes through… Why is Hoshinawa telling them these things and wait!!! Rowen is their long lost friend and they didn't know from the beginning… Some friendship!!!