Charm: hello! Well I have a four day weekend today so I can update a lot! WOO!
Squid: Oh no...... --;
CHarm: Anyway, this is gonna be a kinda lovey dovey chapter.
Squid: *groans*
Charm: Oh shut up.
Twitch: I'm bored...
Charm: goodie for you... Anyway onto the update...
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Chapter Twenty-Two: Wake Me Up And Let Go
Alone in a pitch black room, Brianna looked around herself. She saw nothing except the endless darkness that surrounded her. Walking slowly, Brianna saw something in the distance. Interested by the object, Brianna started to stride over to the object she had seen. It seemed like amost an eternity before she reached the object. As she came closer, she saw Squid laying on his hospital bed. She placed her hand on the object and realized it was like glass. Her fingers gently stroked the glass but then the image suddenly changed. It was no longer Squid in the glass.
Brianna strained her eyes to see who it was laying on the strecher in the glass. It was a girl with pale blonde hair. Her eyes were shut, her face chalky as if it had lost all the color from her face. It took Brianna a moment to realize who she was gazing upon through the glass... It was Marla, her old friend and gang member who had been murdered by Mad Dog many years ago. Brianna saw her other friends around Marla's body, all frantic in tears, except Kayla. Marla was dying right in front of Brianna and anger infuriated her, knowing she couldn't do a thing to change what had already been. Brianna brought her hand to the glass and felt tears flow out of her eyes.
The image changed again, now laid a skinny brunette girl with a pale face. Her eyes closed, her breathing stopped. The girl look about the age of an older teenager. Beside her stood an IV with a blood donation bag. The girl was being given blood and an IV through her right arm. The teenaged girl laid motionless as a blonde girl with ocean blue eyes came into the room along with a blonde haired, blue eyed boy, and a dark brunette with chocolate colored eyes boy. Brianna covered her mouth in a sudden gasp of air. The girl laying on the bed was herself, when she was seventeen. From what Brianna could see, this was the time she had tried to kill herself.
The blonde girl was undoubtly Shaily, becuase her eyes were a dead give away. No one of whom Brianna knew, had the same blue eyes as Shaily, except Rosie. The blonde boy was no doubt Zigzag, because Shaily hardly ever left his side during the day and his hair... The hair was a dead give away too. Brianna brought her attention to the brunette boy. He had sat quietly next to the bed stroking seventeen-year-old Brianna's hair. Brianna sighed, "Alan..."
Suddenly the image changed again and went to a dark ally. Brianna knew it right away as she watched herself take a switchblade, through the glass, and place it to her skin. Brianna winced at the mere sight of what she had done in the past. Blood trickled down to the pavement. Brianna's younger self started to laugh and pulled the blade across again and harder. Brianna winced again, but this time in pain. She looked at her wrist. A slender, red cut had been formed on her wrist. Blood slowly drippled down from it. More cuts started to form on her arm from her past attempt of suicide. More blood drippled down...
Brianna watched her wrist get more cuts. She was confused. Suddenly everything went dark again. Staring around herself, blankly, and still bleeding, Brianna started to hear a multitude of voices echoing around her. Only one stood out over the others.
"Brianna," hissed a voice which sent a shiver down her spine. Brianna turned to face someone who had haunted her since she was fourteen. Marcus "Mad Dog" Sheldon stood there smirking. "Let it go." He told her.
"What are you talking about?" asked Brianna, confused.
"Y'know exactly what I'm talking about..." he whispered, gently. Brianna was shocked by Mad Dog's gentilness toward her. Brianna shrugged, still confused. Mad Dog smiled. "The past..."
"What're ya talkin' about?!" she shouted, angrily.
"Yer lettin' yer past over power the most important people in yer life. What's done is done. Ya can't change what has happened, no matter how much we want to. Trust me. I'd give ANYTHING to change the face I raped ya. And I mean anything. I'd die to change it. I mean just thinking about the pain I caused ya, STILL eats me up inside. I mean it drives me crazy... But... I couldn't let the fact I raped ya haunt me forever. And you can't let every little detail of yer past over power yer life now." Mad Dog explained. He looked truthful about ever word he had just said.
Brianna sighed, "But what d'you mean by that?"
Mad Dog smiled. "Marla's death... Yer suicide attempt... Mel's death... When ya were raped... Yer father hittin' ya... All those memories are in the past now. You've got a husband in the ICU and a close friend who has luekemia. Ya also have two sons and a daughter who still have a future to be different than yers. Bri, learn from the past, but don't hold onto it so it comes between you and the ones ya love."
Brianna looked at her wrist. The cuts were still there but not bleeding. "The cuts stand how yer past is cutting into yer life now... If you want the pain to stop... You've gotta have time to heal... After ya heal... You've gotta move on." Brianna stared into Mad Dog's navy blue eyes. Tears glistened in his eyes. It was the first time Brianna saw Mad Dog cry... Actually cry.
"Marcus..." whispered Brianna, feeling sympathetic to him. He smiled, tearfully at her.
"So... Ya hafta let me go...along with the past..." Mad Dog told her, blinking back tears. He leaned into her and gently pecked her cheek with a good bye kiss. "G'bye," he whispered, quietly.
***
Brianna awoke from her sleep. She looked around the hospital room. She saw Squid laying on his hospital bed. She had fallen asleep in the chair beside his bed. She looked at her wrist, there were no cuts. It was just a dream... But it felt so real... She felt her cheek. That kiss... It felt so real... She wiped the sweat from her forehead. Was it a message? She looked at Squid still unconisious. Pain stung at her heart.
She got up from the chair and kneeled beside his bed again. She ruffled his hair with her fingers. She had lived through abuse, rape, a suicide attempt, drugs, and a murder attempt... If she had survived all that, she knew Squid was going to be ok and she was too. Everything was going to be ok. She kissed Squid's cheek.
"I love you..." she whispered into his ear.
"I love you too," his voice whispered, hoarsly back to her. Brianna smiled, tears stinging her emerald colored eyes. Squid finally awoke after three days.
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Charm: how was that? I hope it was good lol!
Squid: It was too sappy...
Charm: Oh shut up
Twitch: *rolls eyes*
Charm: Oh god. ANYWAY! I hope it was good and well REVIEW! ^^ BYEEEE! I'll update soon! CIAO!
Squid: Oh no...... --;
CHarm: Anyway, this is gonna be a kinda lovey dovey chapter.
Squid: *groans*
Charm: Oh shut up.
Twitch: I'm bored...
Charm: goodie for you... Anyway onto the update...
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Chapter Twenty-Two: Wake Me Up And Let Go
Alone in a pitch black room, Brianna looked around herself. She saw nothing except the endless darkness that surrounded her. Walking slowly, Brianna saw something in the distance. Interested by the object, Brianna started to stride over to the object she had seen. It seemed like amost an eternity before she reached the object. As she came closer, she saw Squid laying on his hospital bed. She placed her hand on the object and realized it was like glass. Her fingers gently stroked the glass but then the image suddenly changed. It was no longer Squid in the glass.
Brianna strained her eyes to see who it was laying on the strecher in the glass. It was a girl with pale blonde hair. Her eyes were shut, her face chalky as if it had lost all the color from her face. It took Brianna a moment to realize who she was gazing upon through the glass... It was Marla, her old friend and gang member who had been murdered by Mad Dog many years ago. Brianna saw her other friends around Marla's body, all frantic in tears, except Kayla. Marla was dying right in front of Brianna and anger infuriated her, knowing she couldn't do a thing to change what had already been. Brianna brought her hand to the glass and felt tears flow out of her eyes.
The image changed again, now laid a skinny brunette girl with a pale face. Her eyes closed, her breathing stopped. The girl look about the age of an older teenager. Beside her stood an IV with a blood donation bag. The girl was being given blood and an IV through her right arm. The teenaged girl laid motionless as a blonde girl with ocean blue eyes came into the room along with a blonde haired, blue eyed boy, and a dark brunette with chocolate colored eyes boy. Brianna covered her mouth in a sudden gasp of air. The girl laying on the bed was herself, when she was seventeen. From what Brianna could see, this was the time she had tried to kill herself.
The blonde girl was undoubtly Shaily, becuase her eyes were a dead give away. No one of whom Brianna knew, had the same blue eyes as Shaily, except Rosie. The blonde boy was no doubt Zigzag, because Shaily hardly ever left his side during the day and his hair... The hair was a dead give away too. Brianna brought her attention to the brunette boy. He had sat quietly next to the bed stroking seventeen-year-old Brianna's hair. Brianna sighed, "Alan..."
Suddenly the image changed again and went to a dark ally. Brianna knew it right away as she watched herself take a switchblade, through the glass, and place it to her skin. Brianna winced at the mere sight of what she had done in the past. Blood trickled down to the pavement. Brianna's younger self started to laugh and pulled the blade across again and harder. Brianna winced again, but this time in pain. She looked at her wrist. A slender, red cut had been formed on her wrist. Blood slowly drippled down from it. More cuts started to form on her arm from her past attempt of suicide. More blood drippled down...
Brianna watched her wrist get more cuts. She was confused. Suddenly everything went dark again. Staring around herself, blankly, and still bleeding, Brianna started to hear a multitude of voices echoing around her. Only one stood out over the others.
"Brianna," hissed a voice which sent a shiver down her spine. Brianna turned to face someone who had haunted her since she was fourteen. Marcus "Mad Dog" Sheldon stood there smirking. "Let it go." He told her.
"What are you talking about?" asked Brianna, confused.
"Y'know exactly what I'm talking about..." he whispered, gently. Brianna was shocked by Mad Dog's gentilness toward her. Brianna shrugged, still confused. Mad Dog smiled. "The past..."
"What're ya talkin' about?!" she shouted, angrily.
"Yer lettin' yer past over power the most important people in yer life. What's done is done. Ya can't change what has happened, no matter how much we want to. Trust me. I'd give ANYTHING to change the face I raped ya. And I mean anything. I'd die to change it. I mean just thinking about the pain I caused ya, STILL eats me up inside. I mean it drives me crazy... But... I couldn't let the fact I raped ya haunt me forever. And you can't let every little detail of yer past over power yer life now." Mad Dog explained. He looked truthful about ever word he had just said.
Brianna sighed, "But what d'you mean by that?"
Mad Dog smiled. "Marla's death... Yer suicide attempt... Mel's death... When ya were raped... Yer father hittin' ya... All those memories are in the past now. You've got a husband in the ICU and a close friend who has luekemia. Ya also have two sons and a daughter who still have a future to be different than yers. Bri, learn from the past, but don't hold onto it so it comes between you and the ones ya love."
Brianna looked at her wrist. The cuts were still there but not bleeding. "The cuts stand how yer past is cutting into yer life now... If you want the pain to stop... You've gotta have time to heal... After ya heal... You've gotta move on." Brianna stared into Mad Dog's navy blue eyes. Tears glistened in his eyes. It was the first time Brianna saw Mad Dog cry... Actually cry.
"Marcus..." whispered Brianna, feeling sympathetic to him. He smiled, tearfully at her.
"So... Ya hafta let me go...along with the past..." Mad Dog told her, blinking back tears. He leaned into her and gently pecked her cheek with a good bye kiss. "G'bye," he whispered, quietly.
***
Brianna awoke from her sleep. She looked around the hospital room. She saw Squid laying on his hospital bed. She had fallen asleep in the chair beside his bed. She looked at her wrist, there were no cuts. It was just a dream... But it felt so real... She felt her cheek. That kiss... It felt so real... She wiped the sweat from her forehead. Was it a message? She looked at Squid still unconisious. Pain stung at her heart.
She got up from the chair and kneeled beside his bed again. She ruffled his hair with her fingers. She had lived through abuse, rape, a suicide attempt, drugs, and a murder attempt... If she had survived all that, she knew Squid was going to be ok and she was too. Everything was going to be ok. She kissed Squid's cheek.
"I love you..." she whispered into his ear.
"I love you too," his voice whispered, hoarsly back to her. Brianna smiled, tears stinging her emerald colored eyes. Squid finally awoke after three days.
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Charm: how was that? I hope it was good lol!
Squid: It was too sappy...
Charm: Oh shut up
Twitch: *rolls eyes*
Charm: Oh god. ANYWAY! I hope it was good and well REVIEW! ^^ BYEEEE! I'll update soon! CIAO!