Telling Angel
"Oh God Xander, drive faster, you, you big turtle!" Willow stuttered, anxiously watching the road map in her shaking lap.
"God job Will calling me a turtle will really enhance my confidence! Keep the bashes coming!" Xander rolled his eyes sarcastically. He had never driven out of Sunnydale and L.A was a bug city compared to Sunnydale. Before Angel had left he had given them the address of a hotel he was staying at just in case Buffy needed him or changed her mind. It wasn't really if she changed her mind because Angel was hurt and didn't know if he could take her back, but if anything serious ever happened to her he wanted to know.
"So what's this place called the Hyperion?" Xander asked checking the streets.
"Uh yeah, something like that, all I know is that if we don't get there soon Angel won't be able to say goodbye and neither will we." Willow had tears in her eyes, Buffy was the closet thing she had to a girlfriend, (i.e. best friend that's a girl lol) who would help her shop and rate boys with. Xander wasn't really good with nail polish either.
"Well get there in time Will, Buffy is strong she will fight if not for us than for Angel." There was a silence than Xander twitched a bit, "Ah here it is! Let's go and stat!"
"Wait Xander, before we go in, Buffy wants to tell him, she doesn't want him to know until she gets the chance to say it, resort to the "she's got cancer" as a last resort sorta thing. Ok?" Xander shrugged and walked inside thinking he would have to find his room number but when they stepped into the lobby Angel was at a desk doing paperwork.
"Angel what are you doing, do you work here?" Willow asked, Angel suddenly caught her eye and looked somewhat confused, he got out from behind the desk and shook their hands.
"No, actually my family owns this" Angel smiled.
"Whoa! No wonder Buffy likes you!" Xander stared at Angel's riches.
"Well not anymore.." he looked down, " So what brings you here.
"A lot actually. We were just wondering if you might want to come back to Sunnydale, try and rekindle with Buffy, she really misses you."
"I don't think so Will, I am not just going to forgive her for what she did. She just can't say, "Oh well I think I like you now so you can come back. Why would she miss me I mean she was the one that called it off. She ruined what she had and because of what because of nothing. No I won't go back with you. IF she really misses me have her come here." Angel crossed his arms hoping he would look more firm on this because hopefully his physical appearance made up for what he was truly feeling.
" She can't not now, you have to come and quick." Will stated.
"And I thought I was cryptic. Why would she want me there anyways?" Angel looked at Xander.
"Because, Because Angel, she has..." Xander paused but Willow realized it was the only way Angel would come back.
"Because Angel she has cancer and she might not make it through the night." Willow blurted it out not stopping to look at Angel's now stricken face. "She pushed you away so you didn't see her dying she could only think it would hurt you to see her how she is now."
"Oh God, you are lying you are lying to me I know you are. Is this some sick plan Buffy told you to tell me so that I would be rushing back to her?" Angel was definitly in.
"Denial, one of the many stages of death Buffy has already been through that one, right now she is at accepting it the last stage, her last week here on earth. Please Angel there is no time to waste." Angel's face was olive, he started to cry, Xander had never seen him cry before, it wigged him out.
"Let me get my coat, I am driving." Angel rushed towards the cabinet pulling out a leather duster hopping in the front seat of Xander little toyota. Putting the pedal to the metal, litteraly!
"See Xander you have to learn how to drive like him!"
"What 40 over the speed limit!" Xander mocked.
"My best friend is about to die you are lucky I ain't pushing 60 over!" Angel's face looked determined, they hoped so was Buffy's.
Sunnydale-----
"Joyce her condition is weakening, we have her stable for now but there is no telling how long she will stay that way, I am truly sorry. Would you like us to call a priest."
" No that's okay she isn't baptised" Joyce replied her eyes were puffy and red, if this didn't kill her she didn't know what would.
"There is a first for everything." The doctor looked up.
"I'll think about it" Joyce smiled a half smile and looked back at Buffy as she began to stir.
"Mommy? Is it time?" Buffy asked.
"For what dear?"
"To go to the zoo, daddy said if I was real good he would take me to see the elephants and buy me cotton candy." Buffy looked up. "Hey mom, what's the what, me and calli are going to the mall today to buy these stellar shoes!" Angain slipping into conciousness, " The chosen one what are you talking about and did you say vampires. Talk about whacko!" "Mom what's happening? Whats wrong with me. The voices get them out of my head.
Joyce looked terrified. "Doctor what is wrong with her."
"She is having flashbacks from the past, it happens a lot when cancer surrounds the brain. Just try to keep her calm or play along with what she says."
"I..I can do that." Joyce looked at the clock. Where in the hell were they?
Suddenly xander came dashing down the hall with Willow, but where was Angel. Oh there he was behind Xander, he is pretty good looking thought Joyce.
"Buffy Summers room 103?" Xander stated
"Down the hall to your left!" Xander made a symbol of thanks and Angel was off. Xander and Willow were smart to stay behind to give them some time.
"Angel thank god you're here, she doesn't have much time, I am so sorry sweety she really does love you." Joyce said from the doorway.
"Thank-you." And with that Joyce left the room and Angel was able to seee Buffy, it wasn't her or at least it didn't look like her. Her skin was that of a ghost, pasty and loose, her hair was limp and he lips pale. He rushed over to her side stroking her hand to wake up.
She had a breathing mask on and it was hard to talk. (gulp of air= . 4 effect lol) ".Angel.What.are.you doing.here?"
"I came as soon as I heard, I can't say I am not mad at you for not telling me!"
"Hey.now we are.even." She laughed a weak laugh recalling the time Angel pushed her away.
"Buffy I know you are too young but I can't wait and neither can you. Buffy you are my everything. When I see the sun I see your face, When I smell the air I smel your perfum, when I feel the wind, I hear your voice. You are around me constantly and I just can't get enough of you. You were there when I fell of the jungle gym and broke my arm and fractured a rib and you tied my arm between two sticks so it would stay straight for the trip back home. You were there when I bought my first leather jacket" She laughed, he always wears leather since then. "Buffy I guess what I am getting at is, you are my everything. Elizabeth Anne Summers, Buffy my dear, will you do me the honour of marrying me."
One single tear slid down her face, she was the happiest she had ever been and the saddest. He asked her in the most touching way, and she always was waiting for the day hee would propose but she couldn't except if she wasn't going to make it to her wedding day.
"not.unless.you.want.to.marry.a dead.girl" She smile faintly so he knew she was joking.
"Buffy don't speak like that you are going to get through this all you have to do is." Buffy interrupted.
"Be Jesus? What, honestly..what.do you think..I can.do?" Buffy was mad at everyone trying to give her hope it was easier when she didn't have tog et her hopes up.
"God you could show a little hope, maybe not just for you but for all of those wo love you like your mom. Buffy you have to hang in there because we are going to have six kids and get married in a white chapel and get a do named Bailey and.."
"Six kids, whoa sounds like we have been busy!" She laughed, it was the first realy laugh he heard from her.
"Giles, will and Xander are doing recon to see if there is anything that may cure you! It may be a slim chance but Giles firmly believes there is something out there."
"When did you get so mature?" She smiled at him and motioned him to lay on the bed with her. He was slightly on and slightly off, holding her and stroking her hair. " I lve you so much Angel I try not to but I can't stop and when I do I don't feel like living."
"I know how you mean, Buffy I have never loved you more."
"Angel if you really truly love me take me out of here please, I don't want to spend my remaining days staring at four gray walls, take me to our "special place" the one where you rescued me." She smiled, there was an old mansion up on the hill by the cemetery where they used to play tag, one time there was a loose floorboard and Buffy fell through it. Angel was so worried but bravely saved her. It had been "their" place ever since.
"Buffy I don't know if I can do that?"
"Angel, please, I only have a week let me spend it with you." Angel scooped her moist body from sweat into his strong arms being careful of her head. "How do you feel about the window?"
"I like, very romantic" She smiled she felt faint she needed to rest.
Angel Carefuly hopped out the window thanking God that she was on the first floor whena nurse came calling after him.
"Sir sir you can't do that she isn't to leave the premises! Sir come back here." The nurse shouted. Angel and Buffy tossed back their heads and howled, they felt rebellious it was like the old times except they now had the licensee to kiss.
"Yes" Buffy whispered,
"Yes what?" Angel asked concerned.
"Yes if I live I will marry you Angel despite our age, I know we have always been married, but f I don't make it I want you to know that my answer is yes." She smiled and he gave her a gentle kiss.
As Angel carried her to his car he laid her down in the back using his jacket to support her head. "Don't you worry Buffy we will be there in a sec!"
"Angel if I barf in your car will you totally hate me, wait no time for that..too late..er sorry I vomit everyday that's why I am so skinny lately, really sorry."
"I can get a new car, I can't get another you. Buffy did you really have to vomit everyday?" Angel looked horrified.
"Yeah, and I got major headaches but I got used to it." Buffy was trying to make him feel better.
"We are here!" Angel lifted her out of the back seat and placed her on the bed. " I can't believe those people left their furniture here. It's really ironic."
"Yeah, Angel I know this is rude, but I need a little less talky and a lil more sleeping.I have cancer, it's different now."
"Oh yeah of course, sorry. Buffy can can I sleep in the bed with you there is only one bed, but if you don't want to..":
"I would really like that." Angel snuggled against her closely. Buffy felt as if she was "normal" in the arms of her boyfriend then she had to remember she was the slayer with cancer hunted by demons. Right normal.
Suddenly Angel's cell phone rung, Buffy was already sound asleep so he slid out from under her and raced for his jacket.
"Hello? Giles?" Angel asked. It was Giles alright, and he had news, there was this thing a demon I think he called it. Well I knew a bit about these things because living in L.A it was hard to miss but I didn't realize others knew about them too. He said that there was a mohra demon that's blood was a healing elixir. He told Giles that they had to find it, that he would stop at nothing to find it but Giles had warned him to stay with Buffy to make sure she was all right. Xander, Willow and Giles were going out to hunt it and bring it back but would it be in time?
"Oh God Xander, drive faster, you, you big turtle!" Willow stuttered, anxiously watching the road map in her shaking lap.
"God job Will calling me a turtle will really enhance my confidence! Keep the bashes coming!" Xander rolled his eyes sarcastically. He had never driven out of Sunnydale and L.A was a bug city compared to Sunnydale. Before Angel had left he had given them the address of a hotel he was staying at just in case Buffy needed him or changed her mind. It wasn't really if she changed her mind because Angel was hurt and didn't know if he could take her back, but if anything serious ever happened to her he wanted to know.
"So what's this place called the Hyperion?" Xander asked checking the streets.
"Uh yeah, something like that, all I know is that if we don't get there soon Angel won't be able to say goodbye and neither will we." Willow had tears in her eyes, Buffy was the closet thing she had to a girlfriend, (i.e. best friend that's a girl lol) who would help her shop and rate boys with. Xander wasn't really good with nail polish either.
"Well get there in time Will, Buffy is strong she will fight if not for us than for Angel." There was a silence than Xander twitched a bit, "Ah here it is! Let's go and stat!"
"Wait Xander, before we go in, Buffy wants to tell him, she doesn't want him to know until she gets the chance to say it, resort to the "she's got cancer" as a last resort sorta thing. Ok?" Xander shrugged and walked inside thinking he would have to find his room number but when they stepped into the lobby Angel was at a desk doing paperwork.
"Angel what are you doing, do you work here?" Willow asked, Angel suddenly caught her eye and looked somewhat confused, he got out from behind the desk and shook their hands.
"No, actually my family owns this" Angel smiled.
"Whoa! No wonder Buffy likes you!" Xander stared at Angel's riches.
"Well not anymore.." he looked down, " So what brings you here.
"A lot actually. We were just wondering if you might want to come back to Sunnydale, try and rekindle with Buffy, she really misses you."
"I don't think so Will, I am not just going to forgive her for what she did. She just can't say, "Oh well I think I like you now so you can come back. Why would she miss me I mean she was the one that called it off. She ruined what she had and because of what because of nothing. No I won't go back with you. IF she really misses me have her come here." Angel crossed his arms hoping he would look more firm on this because hopefully his physical appearance made up for what he was truly feeling.
" She can't not now, you have to come and quick." Will stated.
"And I thought I was cryptic. Why would she want me there anyways?" Angel looked at Xander.
"Because, Because Angel, she has..." Xander paused but Willow realized it was the only way Angel would come back.
"Because Angel she has cancer and she might not make it through the night." Willow blurted it out not stopping to look at Angel's now stricken face. "She pushed you away so you didn't see her dying she could only think it would hurt you to see her how she is now."
"Oh God, you are lying you are lying to me I know you are. Is this some sick plan Buffy told you to tell me so that I would be rushing back to her?" Angel was definitly in.
"Denial, one of the many stages of death Buffy has already been through that one, right now she is at accepting it the last stage, her last week here on earth. Please Angel there is no time to waste." Angel's face was olive, he started to cry, Xander had never seen him cry before, it wigged him out.
"Let me get my coat, I am driving." Angel rushed towards the cabinet pulling out a leather duster hopping in the front seat of Xander little toyota. Putting the pedal to the metal, litteraly!
"See Xander you have to learn how to drive like him!"
"What 40 over the speed limit!" Xander mocked.
"My best friend is about to die you are lucky I ain't pushing 60 over!" Angel's face looked determined, they hoped so was Buffy's.
Sunnydale-----
"Joyce her condition is weakening, we have her stable for now but there is no telling how long she will stay that way, I am truly sorry. Would you like us to call a priest."
" No that's okay she isn't baptised" Joyce replied her eyes were puffy and red, if this didn't kill her she didn't know what would.
"There is a first for everything." The doctor looked up.
"I'll think about it" Joyce smiled a half smile and looked back at Buffy as she began to stir.
"Mommy? Is it time?" Buffy asked.
"For what dear?"
"To go to the zoo, daddy said if I was real good he would take me to see the elephants and buy me cotton candy." Buffy looked up. "Hey mom, what's the what, me and calli are going to the mall today to buy these stellar shoes!" Angain slipping into conciousness, " The chosen one what are you talking about and did you say vampires. Talk about whacko!" "Mom what's happening? Whats wrong with me. The voices get them out of my head.
Joyce looked terrified. "Doctor what is wrong with her."
"She is having flashbacks from the past, it happens a lot when cancer surrounds the brain. Just try to keep her calm or play along with what she says."
"I..I can do that." Joyce looked at the clock. Where in the hell were they?
Suddenly xander came dashing down the hall with Willow, but where was Angel. Oh there he was behind Xander, he is pretty good looking thought Joyce.
"Buffy Summers room 103?" Xander stated
"Down the hall to your left!" Xander made a symbol of thanks and Angel was off. Xander and Willow were smart to stay behind to give them some time.
"Angel thank god you're here, she doesn't have much time, I am so sorry sweety she really does love you." Joyce said from the doorway.
"Thank-you." And with that Joyce left the room and Angel was able to seee Buffy, it wasn't her or at least it didn't look like her. Her skin was that of a ghost, pasty and loose, her hair was limp and he lips pale. He rushed over to her side stroking her hand to wake up.
She had a breathing mask on and it was hard to talk. (gulp of air= . 4 effect lol) ".Angel.What.are.you doing.here?"
"I came as soon as I heard, I can't say I am not mad at you for not telling me!"
"Hey.now we are.even." She laughed a weak laugh recalling the time Angel pushed her away.
"Buffy I know you are too young but I can't wait and neither can you. Buffy you are my everything. When I see the sun I see your face, When I smell the air I smel your perfum, when I feel the wind, I hear your voice. You are around me constantly and I just can't get enough of you. You were there when I fell of the jungle gym and broke my arm and fractured a rib and you tied my arm between two sticks so it would stay straight for the trip back home. You were there when I bought my first leather jacket" She laughed, he always wears leather since then. "Buffy I guess what I am getting at is, you are my everything. Elizabeth Anne Summers, Buffy my dear, will you do me the honour of marrying me."
One single tear slid down her face, she was the happiest she had ever been and the saddest. He asked her in the most touching way, and she always was waiting for the day hee would propose but she couldn't except if she wasn't going to make it to her wedding day.
"not.unless.you.want.to.marry.a dead.girl" She smile faintly so he knew she was joking.
"Buffy don't speak like that you are going to get through this all you have to do is." Buffy interrupted.
"Be Jesus? What, honestly..what.do you think..I can.do?" Buffy was mad at everyone trying to give her hope it was easier when she didn't have tog et her hopes up.
"God you could show a little hope, maybe not just for you but for all of those wo love you like your mom. Buffy you have to hang in there because we are going to have six kids and get married in a white chapel and get a do named Bailey and.."
"Six kids, whoa sounds like we have been busy!" She laughed, it was the first realy laugh he heard from her.
"Giles, will and Xander are doing recon to see if there is anything that may cure you! It may be a slim chance but Giles firmly believes there is something out there."
"When did you get so mature?" She smiled at him and motioned him to lay on the bed with her. He was slightly on and slightly off, holding her and stroking her hair. " I lve you so much Angel I try not to but I can't stop and when I do I don't feel like living."
"I know how you mean, Buffy I have never loved you more."
"Angel if you really truly love me take me out of here please, I don't want to spend my remaining days staring at four gray walls, take me to our "special place" the one where you rescued me." She smiled, there was an old mansion up on the hill by the cemetery where they used to play tag, one time there was a loose floorboard and Buffy fell through it. Angel was so worried but bravely saved her. It had been "their" place ever since.
"Buffy I don't know if I can do that?"
"Angel, please, I only have a week let me spend it with you." Angel scooped her moist body from sweat into his strong arms being careful of her head. "How do you feel about the window?"
"I like, very romantic" She smiled she felt faint she needed to rest.
Angel Carefuly hopped out the window thanking God that she was on the first floor whena nurse came calling after him.
"Sir sir you can't do that she isn't to leave the premises! Sir come back here." The nurse shouted. Angel and Buffy tossed back their heads and howled, they felt rebellious it was like the old times except they now had the licensee to kiss.
"Yes" Buffy whispered,
"Yes what?" Angel asked concerned.
"Yes if I live I will marry you Angel despite our age, I know we have always been married, but f I don't make it I want you to know that my answer is yes." She smiled and he gave her a gentle kiss.
As Angel carried her to his car he laid her down in the back using his jacket to support her head. "Don't you worry Buffy we will be there in a sec!"
"Angel if I barf in your car will you totally hate me, wait no time for that..too late..er sorry I vomit everyday that's why I am so skinny lately, really sorry."
"I can get a new car, I can't get another you. Buffy did you really have to vomit everyday?" Angel looked horrified.
"Yeah, and I got major headaches but I got used to it." Buffy was trying to make him feel better.
"We are here!" Angel lifted her out of the back seat and placed her on the bed. " I can't believe those people left their furniture here. It's really ironic."
"Yeah, Angel I know this is rude, but I need a little less talky and a lil more sleeping.I have cancer, it's different now."
"Oh yeah of course, sorry. Buffy can can I sleep in the bed with you there is only one bed, but if you don't want to..":
"I would really like that." Angel snuggled against her closely. Buffy felt as if she was "normal" in the arms of her boyfriend then she had to remember she was the slayer with cancer hunted by demons. Right normal.
Suddenly Angel's cell phone rung, Buffy was already sound asleep so he slid out from under her and raced for his jacket.
"Hello? Giles?" Angel asked. It was Giles alright, and he had news, there was this thing a demon I think he called it. Well I knew a bit about these things because living in L.A it was hard to miss but I didn't realize others knew about them too. He said that there was a mohra demon that's blood was a healing elixir. He told Giles that they had to find it, that he would stop at nothing to find it but Giles had warned him to stay with Buffy to make sure she was all right. Xander, Willow and Giles were going out to hunt it and bring it back but would it be in time?