Again 11
A/N: So so so sry for the long wait!!!
The First Defiance
The funeral came and went as expected. Lily, Sirius, and James all went along with Kristin's family and friends. Everyone there cried, including James. After all, he had slept with her. Sirius denied crying but James was pretty sure he saw Sirius wipe away a tear or too during the eulogy.
About a month or so passed without much of anything happening. The weather continued to get better and brighter as each day passed. James desperately tried to talk to Lily about what had happened that night in the Atrium but unfortunately he never had the time. Auror training was becoming particularly vigorous.
Marlene McKibbon explained the day before that today they were to go on their first field training. All of them had passed their written part of the 1st year, now it was on to the hard stuff. The physical stuff where you have to be quick thinking otherwise you might put yourself in more trouble than intended. Or worse, get innocent people hurt in the process. They were to meet on busy street in London, not too far away from the Leaky Cauldron and inspect any unusual activity. Experienced Aurors weren't far away so just in case anything happened to the trainees, no one would get hurt. Sirius, James, and Lily were grouped together and stood at their street corner waiting for anything to happen.
"Screw this." Said Sirius completely fed up.
"Sirius, be sensible." Said Lily trying her best to keep Sirius in line. They had been waiting there for three hours for anyone suspicious looking to walk by. So far, the only suspicious thing around them was a poodle that barked 10 minutes to the hour, every hour.
"But this is pure bullshit! All we're doing is standing here. Nothing is happening, nor will anything ever happen! I'm going to the Leaky Cauldron for a drink. Coming Prongs?" Asked Sirius. James looked at Lily and then to his friend.
"Um, maybe some other time." Said James hoping he could finally get a chance to speak with Lily.
"Suits yourself." Sirius walked off towards the direction of the Leaky Cauldron. James had his chance. He looked over to Lily one more time. She looked just as beautiful as ever with her hair tied back in a bun and her hands in her jeans jacket that she wore over her red tank top.
"So..." started James trying his best to make small talk, "how's Amos?" Lily turned to James looking surprised that he would mention someone he loathed so much.
"Good, good. Amos is good." Said Lily briskly. James nodded his head.
"Good. That's good." There was an awkward silence. James scolded himself for asking something so stupid. "Listen Lily, we have got to talk."
"What's there to talk about?" Asked Lily.
"Remember that thing...what happened that night...?"
"James, I haven't the slightest idea as to what you're talking about."
"You know damn well what I'm talking about!" Shouted James feeling very frustrated. "The kiss!"
"Oh...that." Said Lily timidly.
"Yeah, that." Said James feeling very annoyed that she would refer to their encounter as 'that'.
"What about it?"
"Lily, didn't you feel anything? That kiss...it was the best kiss of my life! It's the kind of stuff you read about and hope that one day you'll be lucky enough to experience. And you haven't spoke one word about it ever! You just act like it was a common handshake or a hug!"
"James it was just a simple kiss." James sighed in frustration but Lily continued. "Both of us were feeling down that night and it just happened. That's all. I'm sorry that you hold this in such high regard." Said Lily trying her best not to sound too harsh. What she really wanted to tell him was that she did think the kiss was amazing. That it was the most electrifying passionate kiss she had ever had. But she couldn't. She had spent the last month convincing herself that it meant nothing to her. She was with Amos, she told herself everytime she found herself thinking about James. She was with Amos.
"If it was just some trivial thing that meant NOTHING to you let me kiss you right here, right now." Said James inching closer to Lily. Lily wanted to back away but she couldn't. James leaned down and kissed her right there in the middle of the street corner. Lily felt her knees go weak and gently grabbed on to James's shirt to keep herself from falling over. James grabbed her hands.
"Tell me you didn't feel anything. Look me straight in the eye Lily." Lily was at a lost for words as James stared deep into her eyes. She shook her head.
"I didn't feel anything." Lied Lily looking directly into his dark brown eyes. For a moment, she could have sworn she saw tears welling up. He let go of her hands and walked sulkily down the street into a dark alleyway. Lily wiped away the salty tears that had begun to fall down her soft face and jogged after him. "James! Come back!" Shouted Lily. Sirius bumped into Lily with a cup of coffee.
"What happened?" Asked Sirius.
"It's nothing...James ran off down there." Said Lily pointing.
"Well come on then." The two turned the corner into the alleyway and were immediately surrounded by dozens of people in white masks and black cloaks.
"Well, well, well what do we have here?" Asked a cold dark sinister voice. Neither Lily nor Sirius could tell whether it was a man or some type of foul creature. They both looked up to see the horrifying face of Lord Voldemort. Lily turned her head to see James trying his best to duel with half a dozen Death Eaters.
"James!" Cried Lily. James turned his head for a moment and barely dodged a stunning spell.
"Aw, does this mudblood want her boyfriend back?" Lily pulled out her wand quickly and pointed it at Voldemort.
"Expelliarmus!" Shouted Lily disarming Lord Voldemort at once. She ran over to James to try and help him out leaving Sirius to fight off Lord Voldemort.
"Stupefy!" Yelled Sirius barely stunning his enemy.
"Petrificus Totalus!" Shouted Lily at a Death Eater facing James.
"Lily, get out of here!" He shouted between spells.
"Stupefy!" Shouted Lily at another Death Eater. "No! I can't leave you here!" Lily backed up against James to try and duel with some more Death Eaters.
"Avada Kedavra!" Shouted a Death Eater at both James and Lily. The two of them ducked just in time. Spells were flying everywhere. When the crowd of Death Eaters that surrounded James and Lily were all taken care of, James and Lily ran over to try and help out Sirius as best as they could. As they were running Lily had a perfect shot of the Dark Lord's back and almost hit him with a stunning spell. He turned around and scowled.
Lily tripped and fell and did not hear the cry of "Crucio!" From Lord Voldemort. James saw that the spell was headed straight for her and managed to jump in front of her just in time. James received full blast of the curse and screamed with pain. He fell on his side with a loud thump. Lily saw the whole thing and crawled immediately towards James. Voldemort cackled with laughter. "Seems as if I've down enough damage here."
"What have you done to him?!" Shouted Lily almost in tears fearing the worst.
"Never you mind you foolish girl. You should've have gone meddling in affairs you have no business in!" Said Voldemort, and with that he and the remaining Death Eaters dissapperated. Lily clutched James's lifeless body in her feeble hands trying her best to wake him up.
"Lily, we're going to have to get him to St Mungo's. Mobilicorpus." Said Sirius making James's body move on its own.
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Hours later James was lying unconscious in a hospital bed in St. Mungo's Hospital for Injuries and Magical Maladies. Lily was sitting at his bedside for any sign of movement. The healers did not know when, or if, he was going to wake up. Sirius walked into the room and over to Lily offering her a cup of coffee looking low. She took a sip of her warm coffee.
"Lily you should go home. The healers said that they'd contact us if anything happens." Said Sirius putting a comforting hand on her back. Lily shook her head.
"No. I want to stay here." Stated Lily determinedly.
"Lily he could be in this condition for weeks!" Said Sirius.
"I don't care how long he's in here. I just want him to be okay." Said Lily looking at James. Sirius sighed. He knew there was no way to sway her.
"Let me know if anything happens?" Asked Sirius. Lily nodded.
"Don't worry. I know James, he'll be okay." And with that Sirius dissapperated leaving Lily alone with James. She put her hand over his and looked at his face. He looked so different without his glasses, thought Lily. She moved part of his dark hair out of his face. She smiled. Even when Lily had been dating James she never realized just how handsome he was until this very moment. She wanted to tell him just how handsome he was and how much she had been thinking about him but she couldn't. The Healers said that he might be able to hear somebody if he was talked to. Lily bit her lip nervously.
"Er, James? It's me Lily. Hi." She scolded herself silently for sounding like she was leaving a message on a muggle answering machine. "I just wanted to tell you how grateful I am that you jumped in front of me at the last minute and how sorry I am that you got hurt so badly." Silent tears started streaming down her face. Lily tried her best to stop them but with no luck. "I just want you to know that I think you look really handsome when you're not being a prick." Lily smiled and laughed softly thinking of how James would respond. Then suddenly she said something she didn't think she would ever utter to James Potter. "I love you." She leaned over and kissed him on the cheek and hugged his lifeless body and let her little tears trickle down his face.
"Lily?" Asked a calming voice from the door. Lily turned around and saw Remus Lupin looking happy. Lily got up from her chair and rushed to the door to hug her old friend that she hadn't seen since Hogwarts.
"Remus, how did you...?" Asked Lily trailing off.
"Sirius. He told me about it the moment he got home and I apperated here as soon as I could. Why didn't you go home too?" Questioned Remus. He moved part of his sandy brown hair out of his eyes.
"I don't want to leave him here." The two friends walked outside of the hospital room and into the hospital hallway.
"I know James. He's going to be okay. He'll pull through. He always does. Remember how many times he got hurt playing Quidditch? Madame Pomfrey was so used to having him in her ward she reserved his favorite bed just for him." Lily laughed recalling the memory. "See?" Said Remus lovingly.
"Let's talk about something more cheerful shall we? How come I haven't seen you since graduation?"
"Been too busy applying for any job I can get. It's hard finding a job with my condition." Said Remus bleakly.
"You'll find something. Don't worry. If James can get into Auror Training then you can surely find yourself a job." Reassured Lily. Then she thought about James. James...
"He's going to be okay" Asked Remus trying his best to calm his friend. "I better go. Full Moon tonight."
"Oh. Well, bye then." Said Lily as she hugged Remus one last time. He walked down the infirmary hallway and went into the lift. Lily was left standing there thinking about her friend Remus. He was so sweet and loving but yet had no one to love him back. Everyone was too taken aback by the fact that once a month he turned into a werewolf. Lily sighed and tried to think of one of her girlfriends that would be good for him. Hmmmm, Sarah? No. Iona? No, too religious...
"Lily?" Called a weak voice.
"No, not me." Replied Lily out loud not realizing what she was saying or where the voice had come from. "I'm with Amos, James. James!" Lily rushed into the hospital room and to James's bedside. He was starting to sit up and looked like he was still hurting. She got his glasses from the bedside table and put them on him. He smiled. "Thanks." Lily threw herself on him and started crying. James was surprised at Lily's action and put two comforting hands on her back.
"Why did you do that? You're so stupid, James!" Scolded Lily.
"I didn't want you to get hurt." Said James honestly.
"I treated you like rubbish! Like pure shit and you still have the decency to put your life before mine." Lily picked her head up and looked deep into his hazel eyes. They were gorgeous, just like him. "Thank you." She said softly. James smiled and hugged her tight.
"Anything for you." Said James almost inaudibly but Lily heard. She didn't say anything but he knew that she heard him. They held each other close feeling that if they let go they would never be this happy again. "Where's Sirius? Is he okay?"
"He's fine. He went home about an hour ago."
"Why didn't you go with him?" Asked James curiously.
"I couldn't leave you here like this. I wanted to make sure you were alright." Said Lily wiping a tear from her eye. James wiped the other ones away with his hands. "You scared me James. You really did."
"I'm sorry." Said James honestly.
"Promise me you'll never leave me." Said Lily hugging James. James was taken a back. He had no idea he affected her like this.
"I promise with all my heart. I'll always be here to protect you." For just a few moments, everything was right in the world. Neither James nor Lily, who had both survived an attack by Lord Voldemort himself, could think of anything else but each other.
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I finished this chapter finally! I abandoned it for a while but I don't care cuz I wanna get the last few chapters up soon.
A/N: So so so sry for the long wait!!!
The First Defiance
The funeral came and went as expected. Lily, Sirius, and James all went along with Kristin's family and friends. Everyone there cried, including James. After all, he had slept with her. Sirius denied crying but James was pretty sure he saw Sirius wipe away a tear or too during the eulogy.
About a month or so passed without much of anything happening. The weather continued to get better and brighter as each day passed. James desperately tried to talk to Lily about what had happened that night in the Atrium but unfortunately he never had the time. Auror training was becoming particularly vigorous.
Marlene McKibbon explained the day before that today they were to go on their first field training. All of them had passed their written part of the 1st year, now it was on to the hard stuff. The physical stuff where you have to be quick thinking otherwise you might put yourself in more trouble than intended. Or worse, get innocent people hurt in the process. They were to meet on busy street in London, not too far away from the Leaky Cauldron and inspect any unusual activity. Experienced Aurors weren't far away so just in case anything happened to the trainees, no one would get hurt. Sirius, James, and Lily were grouped together and stood at their street corner waiting for anything to happen.
"Screw this." Said Sirius completely fed up.
"Sirius, be sensible." Said Lily trying her best to keep Sirius in line. They had been waiting there for three hours for anyone suspicious looking to walk by. So far, the only suspicious thing around them was a poodle that barked 10 minutes to the hour, every hour.
"But this is pure bullshit! All we're doing is standing here. Nothing is happening, nor will anything ever happen! I'm going to the Leaky Cauldron for a drink. Coming Prongs?" Asked Sirius. James looked at Lily and then to his friend.
"Um, maybe some other time." Said James hoping he could finally get a chance to speak with Lily.
"Suits yourself." Sirius walked off towards the direction of the Leaky Cauldron. James had his chance. He looked over to Lily one more time. She looked just as beautiful as ever with her hair tied back in a bun and her hands in her jeans jacket that she wore over her red tank top.
"So..." started James trying his best to make small talk, "how's Amos?" Lily turned to James looking surprised that he would mention someone he loathed so much.
"Good, good. Amos is good." Said Lily briskly. James nodded his head.
"Good. That's good." There was an awkward silence. James scolded himself for asking something so stupid. "Listen Lily, we have got to talk."
"What's there to talk about?" Asked Lily.
"Remember that thing...what happened that night...?"
"James, I haven't the slightest idea as to what you're talking about."
"You know damn well what I'm talking about!" Shouted James feeling very frustrated. "The kiss!"
"Oh...that." Said Lily timidly.
"Yeah, that." Said James feeling very annoyed that she would refer to their encounter as 'that'.
"What about it?"
"Lily, didn't you feel anything? That kiss...it was the best kiss of my life! It's the kind of stuff you read about and hope that one day you'll be lucky enough to experience. And you haven't spoke one word about it ever! You just act like it was a common handshake or a hug!"
"James it was just a simple kiss." James sighed in frustration but Lily continued. "Both of us were feeling down that night and it just happened. That's all. I'm sorry that you hold this in such high regard." Said Lily trying her best not to sound too harsh. What she really wanted to tell him was that she did think the kiss was amazing. That it was the most electrifying passionate kiss she had ever had. But she couldn't. She had spent the last month convincing herself that it meant nothing to her. She was with Amos, she told herself everytime she found herself thinking about James. She was with Amos.
"If it was just some trivial thing that meant NOTHING to you let me kiss you right here, right now." Said James inching closer to Lily. Lily wanted to back away but she couldn't. James leaned down and kissed her right there in the middle of the street corner. Lily felt her knees go weak and gently grabbed on to James's shirt to keep herself from falling over. James grabbed her hands.
"Tell me you didn't feel anything. Look me straight in the eye Lily." Lily was at a lost for words as James stared deep into her eyes. She shook her head.
"I didn't feel anything." Lied Lily looking directly into his dark brown eyes. For a moment, she could have sworn she saw tears welling up. He let go of her hands and walked sulkily down the street into a dark alleyway. Lily wiped away the salty tears that had begun to fall down her soft face and jogged after him. "James! Come back!" Shouted Lily. Sirius bumped into Lily with a cup of coffee.
"What happened?" Asked Sirius.
"It's nothing...James ran off down there." Said Lily pointing.
"Well come on then." The two turned the corner into the alleyway and were immediately surrounded by dozens of people in white masks and black cloaks.
"Well, well, well what do we have here?" Asked a cold dark sinister voice. Neither Lily nor Sirius could tell whether it was a man or some type of foul creature. They both looked up to see the horrifying face of Lord Voldemort. Lily turned her head to see James trying his best to duel with half a dozen Death Eaters.
"James!" Cried Lily. James turned his head for a moment and barely dodged a stunning spell.
"Aw, does this mudblood want her boyfriend back?" Lily pulled out her wand quickly and pointed it at Voldemort.
"Expelliarmus!" Shouted Lily disarming Lord Voldemort at once. She ran over to James to try and help him out leaving Sirius to fight off Lord Voldemort.
"Stupefy!" Yelled Sirius barely stunning his enemy.
"Petrificus Totalus!" Shouted Lily at a Death Eater facing James.
"Lily, get out of here!" He shouted between spells.
"Stupefy!" Shouted Lily at another Death Eater. "No! I can't leave you here!" Lily backed up against James to try and duel with some more Death Eaters.
"Avada Kedavra!" Shouted a Death Eater at both James and Lily. The two of them ducked just in time. Spells were flying everywhere. When the crowd of Death Eaters that surrounded James and Lily were all taken care of, James and Lily ran over to try and help out Sirius as best as they could. As they were running Lily had a perfect shot of the Dark Lord's back and almost hit him with a stunning spell. He turned around and scowled.
Lily tripped and fell and did not hear the cry of "Crucio!" From Lord Voldemort. James saw that the spell was headed straight for her and managed to jump in front of her just in time. James received full blast of the curse and screamed with pain. He fell on his side with a loud thump. Lily saw the whole thing and crawled immediately towards James. Voldemort cackled with laughter. "Seems as if I've down enough damage here."
"What have you done to him?!" Shouted Lily almost in tears fearing the worst.
"Never you mind you foolish girl. You should've have gone meddling in affairs you have no business in!" Said Voldemort, and with that he and the remaining Death Eaters dissapperated. Lily clutched James's lifeless body in her feeble hands trying her best to wake him up.
"Lily, we're going to have to get him to St Mungo's. Mobilicorpus." Said Sirius making James's body move on its own.
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Hours later James was lying unconscious in a hospital bed in St. Mungo's Hospital for Injuries and Magical Maladies. Lily was sitting at his bedside for any sign of movement. The healers did not know when, or if, he was going to wake up. Sirius walked into the room and over to Lily offering her a cup of coffee looking low. She took a sip of her warm coffee.
"Lily you should go home. The healers said that they'd contact us if anything happens." Said Sirius putting a comforting hand on her back. Lily shook her head.
"No. I want to stay here." Stated Lily determinedly.
"Lily he could be in this condition for weeks!" Said Sirius.
"I don't care how long he's in here. I just want him to be okay." Said Lily looking at James. Sirius sighed. He knew there was no way to sway her.
"Let me know if anything happens?" Asked Sirius. Lily nodded.
"Don't worry. I know James, he'll be okay." And with that Sirius dissapperated leaving Lily alone with James. She put her hand over his and looked at his face. He looked so different without his glasses, thought Lily. She moved part of his dark hair out of his face. She smiled. Even when Lily had been dating James she never realized just how handsome he was until this very moment. She wanted to tell him just how handsome he was and how much she had been thinking about him but she couldn't. The Healers said that he might be able to hear somebody if he was talked to. Lily bit her lip nervously.
"Er, James? It's me Lily. Hi." She scolded herself silently for sounding like she was leaving a message on a muggle answering machine. "I just wanted to tell you how grateful I am that you jumped in front of me at the last minute and how sorry I am that you got hurt so badly." Silent tears started streaming down her face. Lily tried her best to stop them but with no luck. "I just want you to know that I think you look really handsome when you're not being a prick." Lily smiled and laughed softly thinking of how James would respond. Then suddenly she said something she didn't think she would ever utter to James Potter. "I love you." She leaned over and kissed him on the cheek and hugged his lifeless body and let her little tears trickle down his face.
"Lily?" Asked a calming voice from the door. Lily turned around and saw Remus Lupin looking happy. Lily got up from her chair and rushed to the door to hug her old friend that she hadn't seen since Hogwarts.
"Remus, how did you...?" Asked Lily trailing off.
"Sirius. He told me about it the moment he got home and I apperated here as soon as I could. Why didn't you go home too?" Questioned Remus. He moved part of his sandy brown hair out of his eyes.
"I don't want to leave him here." The two friends walked outside of the hospital room and into the hospital hallway.
"I know James. He's going to be okay. He'll pull through. He always does. Remember how many times he got hurt playing Quidditch? Madame Pomfrey was so used to having him in her ward she reserved his favorite bed just for him." Lily laughed recalling the memory. "See?" Said Remus lovingly.
"Let's talk about something more cheerful shall we? How come I haven't seen you since graduation?"
"Been too busy applying for any job I can get. It's hard finding a job with my condition." Said Remus bleakly.
"You'll find something. Don't worry. If James can get into Auror Training then you can surely find yourself a job." Reassured Lily. Then she thought about James. James...
"He's going to be okay" Asked Remus trying his best to calm his friend. "I better go. Full Moon tonight."
"Oh. Well, bye then." Said Lily as she hugged Remus one last time. He walked down the infirmary hallway and went into the lift. Lily was left standing there thinking about her friend Remus. He was so sweet and loving but yet had no one to love him back. Everyone was too taken aback by the fact that once a month he turned into a werewolf. Lily sighed and tried to think of one of her girlfriends that would be good for him. Hmmmm, Sarah? No. Iona? No, too religious...
"Lily?" Called a weak voice.
"No, not me." Replied Lily out loud not realizing what she was saying or where the voice had come from. "I'm with Amos, James. James!" Lily rushed into the hospital room and to James's bedside. He was starting to sit up and looked like he was still hurting. She got his glasses from the bedside table and put them on him. He smiled. "Thanks." Lily threw herself on him and started crying. James was surprised at Lily's action and put two comforting hands on her back.
"Why did you do that? You're so stupid, James!" Scolded Lily.
"I didn't want you to get hurt." Said James honestly.
"I treated you like rubbish! Like pure shit and you still have the decency to put your life before mine." Lily picked her head up and looked deep into his hazel eyes. They were gorgeous, just like him. "Thank you." She said softly. James smiled and hugged her tight.
"Anything for you." Said James almost inaudibly but Lily heard. She didn't say anything but he knew that she heard him. They held each other close feeling that if they let go they would never be this happy again. "Where's Sirius? Is he okay?"
"He's fine. He went home about an hour ago."
"Why didn't you go with him?" Asked James curiously.
"I couldn't leave you here like this. I wanted to make sure you were alright." Said Lily wiping a tear from her eye. James wiped the other ones away with his hands. "You scared me James. You really did."
"I'm sorry." Said James honestly.
"Promise me you'll never leave me." Said Lily hugging James. James was taken a back. He had no idea he affected her like this.
"I promise with all my heart. I'll always be here to protect you." For just a few moments, everything was right in the world. Neither James nor Lily, who had both survived an attack by Lord Voldemort himself, could think of anything else but each other.
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I finished this chapter finally! I abandoned it for a while but I don't care cuz I wanna get the last few chapters up soon.