Chapter 13: Followed By a Stranger
How was I going to tell Nathan about my feelings? What would I tell him? How was I going to find him? Would he even listen to me? Does he still feel the same?
All these questions started to trouble me. I didn't know what to do. Here I was trying to rekindle a lost relationship. A relationship that I deemed hopeless years ago. A relationship that I wanted more than life itself, but I had to let it go. But after all these years, I have finally realized that I couldn't let it go. It was always still in the back of my mind, lingering. My thoughts drifted to the many precious moments that I had with Nathan.
FLASHBACK I was sitting in my desk studying and he was lying on my bed. He asked me a question, so I came over and laid on the bed right next to him. We were so close; I could feel his short breaths. His strong arms gently slid onto my body, touching me. I saw him looking so intensely into my eyes. I slowly rolled onto my back and he followed on top of me. He started to kiss me along my neck and I felt my heart pounding. His mouth made his way to my lips. We passionately kissed, our bodies surrounding each other's.
Heatedly, the passion grew. I felt my blood grow hot and my skin tingle. I looked into his eyes and saw love, not lust. This only made me more passionate. I kissed him fervently as his hands grazed my back. Each of his motions made me want to feel his touch forever. My hands wandered from his neck down towards his abs. His body was warm.
Abruptly, he pulled away. He looked at me and then asked "are you ready?" I nodded my head with certainty. I pulled him back onto me. That night held the most amazing moments of my life. (AN: you can kind of infer what happened that night. I can't do sex scenes, mainly because I have to picture everything I write and that would be just plain weird) END OF FLASHBACK
NEXT FLASHBACK Valentine's Day had come after I had told Nathan that we couldn't be together. I was walking to my locker and found a single rose attached to the metal clasp. I took the rose out and opened the locker. Inside, there was a love letter, a song he wrote, and the top ten reasons why we should be together. I smiled as I looked at everything. I looked up to steal a glance at Nathan, but I saw him with a blonde cheerleader. His hand was wrapped around her waist and he was whispering in her ear. She was giggling and twirling her hair.
I was seething with anger. This was just another one of his I-hate-you- Haley comebacks. I took the stuff out of my locker and intentionally got his attention. I felt him stare at me. I turned around and gave him and his bimbo a disgusted look and chucked the Valentine's present in the trash. His hand on the blonde immediately fell and I saw him start to shake with anger. I flirted with a couple of jocks, and then walked off towards my class. END OF FLASHBACK
Yup, that's how the relationship worked. It was just a big game after my confession. One that he always won and he always had to rub it in my face. His defense mechanism was always a nasty thing. When he let someone in, he rarely ever let them out. I was an exception. I got out, but not because I wanted to. I needed to. I just got so jealous whenever he was with another girl. He felt the exact way, if not worse, about me and other guys.
It was 9 o'clock at night and I was walking around the town by myself. I looked around and felt strange. After a few minutes, I felt an eerie sensation tingle through my spine. When this nervous, edgy feeling failed to disappear, it began to haunt me.
I looked behind. There was nothing but darkness. The moon's light gave the surroundings a silver glow. The silhouette of the trees was the only visible thing. Suddenly, I heard the sound of foot steps. I kept on walking, hoping that it was nothing serious. The tingling sensation raced through my body. The hairs on my back stood up. My breath became short. My eyes were shadowed with fear.
The footsteps kept going. I heard them start to approach me. O my God, the person was right behind me! I hastened my steps and made them quicker. The person's footsteps behind me also quickened.
Suddenly, I felt cold clammy hands grab me. I was pushed against a wall roughly. The man started to place his hands along my body. I screamed, shrieked, and yelled, but it felt hopeless. The man started to grope me.
My body was numb with fear. I tried to run, but my legs couldn't move. My life was over. I felt dizzy. I was going to faint.
Suddenly, I felt the man release me. I fell to the ground and my body lay askew on the pavement. I heard him scream as someone was beating him up. I couldn't keep awake, though. I felt my eyes flutter with heaviness. Total pitch darkness was surrounding me. The last thing I saw was a familiar pair of blue eyes.
How was I going to tell Nathan about my feelings? What would I tell him? How was I going to find him? Would he even listen to me? Does he still feel the same?
All these questions started to trouble me. I didn't know what to do. Here I was trying to rekindle a lost relationship. A relationship that I deemed hopeless years ago. A relationship that I wanted more than life itself, but I had to let it go. But after all these years, I have finally realized that I couldn't let it go. It was always still in the back of my mind, lingering. My thoughts drifted to the many precious moments that I had with Nathan.
FLASHBACK I was sitting in my desk studying and he was lying on my bed. He asked me a question, so I came over and laid on the bed right next to him. We were so close; I could feel his short breaths. His strong arms gently slid onto my body, touching me. I saw him looking so intensely into my eyes. I slowly rolled onto my back and he followed on top of me. He started to kiss me along my neck and I felt my heart pounding. His mouth made his way to my lips. We passionately kissed, our bodies surrounding each other's.
Heatedly, the passion grew. I felt my blood grow hot and my skin tingle. I looked into his eyes and saw love, not lust. This only made me more passionate. I kissed him fervently as his hands grazed my back. Each of his motions made me want to feel his touch forever. My hands wandered from his neck down towards his abs. His body was warm.
Abruptly, he pulled away. He looked at me and then asked "are you ready?" I nodded my head with certainty. I pulled him back onto me. That night held the most amazing moments of my life. (AN: you can kind of infer what happened that night. I can't do sex scenes, mainly because I have to picture everything I write and that would be just plain weird) END OF FLASHBACK
NEXT FLASHBACK Valentine's Day had come after I had told Nathan that we couldn't be together. I was walking to my locker and found a single rose attached to the metal clasp. I took the rose out and opened the locker. Inside, there was a love letter, a song he wrote, and the top ten reasons why we should be together. I smiled as I looked at everything. I looked up to steal a glance at Nathan, but I saw him with a blonde cheerleader. His hand was wrapped around her waist and he was whispering in her ear. She was giggling and twirling her hair.
I was seething with anger. This was just another one of his I-hate-you- Haley comebacks. I took the stuff out of my locker and intentionally got his attention. I felt him stare at me. I turned around and gave him and his bimbo a disgusted look and chucked the Valentine's present in the trash. His hand on the blonde immediately fell and I saw him start to shake with anger. I flirted with a couple of jocks, and then walked off towards my class. END OF FLASHBACK
Yup, that's how the relationship worked. It was just a big game after my confession. One that he always won and he always had to rub it in my face. His defense mechanism was always a nasty thing. When he let someone in, he rarely ever let them out. I was an exception. I got out, but not because I wanted to. I needed to. I just got so jealous whenever he was with another girl. He felt the exact way, if not worse, about me and other guys.
It was 9 o'clock at night and I was walking around the town by myself. I looked around and felt strange. After a few minutes, I felt an eerie sensation tingle through my spine. When this nervous, edgy feeling failed to disappear, it began to haunt me.
I looked behind. There was nothing but darkness. The moon's light gave the surroundings a silver glow. The silhouette of the trees was the only visible thing. Suddenly, I heard the sound of foot steps. I kept on walking, hoping that it was nothing serious. The tingling sensation raced through my body. The hairs on my back stood up. My breath became short. My eyes were shadowed with fear.
The footsteps kept going. I heard them start to approach me. O my God, the person was right behind me! I hastened my steps and made them quicker. The person's footsteps behind me also quickened.
Suddenly, I felt cold clammy hands grab me. I was pushed against a wall roughly. The man started to place his hands along my body. I screamed, shrieked, and yelled, but it felt hopeless. The man started to grope me.
My body was numb with fear. I tried to run, but my legs couldn't move. My life was over. I felt dizzy. I was going to faint.
Suddenly, I felt the man release me. I fell to the ground and my body lay askew on the pavement. I heard him scream as someone was beating him up. I couldn't keep awake, though. I felt my eyes flutter with heaviness. Total pitch darkness was surrounding me. The last thing I saw was a familiar pair of blue eyes.