Title: Gundam Diaries Part 29 ~ Heero
Author: Makoto Sagara
Archive: my site, ff.net, foreverfandom.net, wufeiduo.net, Jadeduo's site, and The Ventilation Shaft
Category: Angst, Romance
Pairings: 5x2x5, 3x4, 1+2, R+1
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Shonen ai, language, OOC, angst, crazy Relena
Disclaimers: I make no money, so suing is pointless. If you think I own GW, then you need to see someone. I have the number to a nice doctor... Oh, SALLY!
A/N: I told myself that I was going to take a break from writing GW, but recent events have made that resolution sink like a concrete brick at the bottom of the East River... *snickers* This chapter was inspired by Michelle Branch's 'Til I Get Over You' from her Hotel Paper CD.
Dedication: To my broken heart and soul.... Rainy and Duo-chan. Love you both. *hugglz, kisses, and cries*
Symbols: *blah* emphasized thought
*~*~* Major change of scene
*~~~* Minor change of scene
April 24th, AC 195... 01:34:52
I have lost him completely. I realize that now, and nothing I do will ever win his heart again. Why was I so stupid to let him pass? All that I can do now is long for him when the night comes and I'm alone and cold. Maybe I'm meant to be alone, empty. Maybe all that's left is an empty shell. Maybe it's for the best that Duo has someone to love him fully and completely. I could never release my heart to that extent. I am still Heero, but how much of me is still tied up in the Perfect Soldier, and how long before I go back to that mask?
I have other things to complete, like the war and dealing with that obsessive little girl, Relena, who has turned into another story of my life. She has stalked me since she saw me after my first mission. While at first she was just an annoyance, she has gone beyond that into the death wish territory. That girl has picked the wrong person to mess with, and I will see that she will pay for it.
The plan will work out completely. I have set it up so I will shortly arrive at the cabin in a few hours to start setting up surveillance equipment and gather necessities the two females will require before I call the authorities on them. That will take me about a day, and the others should arrive in short intervals between today and the night before we deal with them. Duo said something about getting a 'special' treat for Relena as a thank you gift. I didn't ask what that could have been, but I know why he would be thanking her. And that thought haunts me, so it becomes null.
Barton and Winner will be arriving about the same time, and they have already agreed to deal with the outside surveillance and a few special explosives that will take down the side of the mountain, creating an avalanche and leaving *them* snowed in until the authorities arrive. It will be interesting to see the slide of the snow, and the reactions on their faces when they discover their predicament.
The ironic thing is I have received two more emails today from Relena telling how happy she is that she will be seeing me so soon. Her inane babble, even written, is grating on my nerves, and the 26th cannot come fast enough for me. Ah, I just looked at the clock and realized that it is the 24th already. I am off to start preparations now. There is much that still needs to be done in order to be ready for the girls.
I will report when I have more to say. Until then, sayonara.
~ Heero Yuy, pilot 01
Author: Makoto Sagara
Archive: my site, ff.net, foreverfandom.net, wufeiduo.net, Jadeduo's site, and The Ventilation Shaft
Category: Angst, Romance
Pairings: 5x2x5, 3x4, 1+2, R+1
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Shonen ai, language, OOC, angst, crazy Relena
Disclaimers: I make no money, so suing is pointless. If you think I own GW, then you need to see someone. I have the number to a nice doctor... Oh, SALLY!
A/N: I told myself that I was going to take a break from writing GW, but recent events have made that resolution sink like a concrete brick at the bottom of the East River... *snickers* This chapter was inspired by Michelle Branch's 'Til I Get Over You' from her Hotel Paper CD.
Dedication: To my broken heart and soul.... Rainy and Duo-chan. Love you both. *hugglz, kisses, and cries*
Symbols: *blah* emphasized thought
*~*~* Major change of scene
*~~~* Minor change of scene
April 24th, AC 195... 01:34:52
I have lost him completely. I realize that now, and nothing I do will ever win his heart again. Why was I so stupid to let him pass? All that I can do now is long for him when the night comes and I'm alone and cold. Maybe I'm meant to be alone, empty. Maybe all that's left is an empty shell. Maybe it's for the best that Duo has someone to love him fully and completely. I could never release my heart to that extent. I am still Heero, but how much of me is still tied up in the Perfect Soldier, and how long before I go back to that mask?
I have other things to complete, like the war and dealing with that obsessive little girl, Relena, who has turned into another story of my life. She has stalked me since she saw me after my first mission. While at first she was just an annoyance, she has gone beyond that into the death wish territory. That girl has picked the wrong person to mess with, and I will see that she will pay for it.
The plan will work out completely. I have set it up so I will shortly arrive at the cabin in a few hours to start setting up surveillance equipment and gather necessities the two females will require before I call the authorities on them. That will take me about a day, and the others should arrive in short intervals between today and the night before we deal with them. Duo said something about getting a 'special' treat for Relena as a thank you gift. I didn't ask what that could have been, but I know why he would be thanking her. And that thought haunts me, so it becomes null.
Barton and Winner will be arriving about the same time, and they have already agreed to deal with the outside surveillance and a few special explosives that will take down the side of the mountain, creating an avalanche and leaving *them* snowed in until the authorities arrive. It will be interesting to see the slide of the snow, and the reactions on their faces when they discover their predicament.
The ironic thing is I have received two more emails today from Relena telling how happy she is that she will be seeing me so soon. Her inane babble, even written, is grating on my nerves, and the 26th cannot come fast enough for me. Ah, I just looked at the clock and realized that it is the 24th already. I am off to start preparations now. There is much that still needs to be done in order to be ready for the girls.
I will report when I have more to say. Until then, sayonara.
~ Heero Yuy, pilot 01