AN:Im so terribly sorry for the long long update but once again I live a busy life!! I apologize im really trying so hard..... its been harder since I got a job....
Decisions
Flash flash flash
Sakura's cries were getting heavier, his shirt was beginning to soak through. He couldn't stand it anymore, the flashes, the voices. He picked Sakura up into his strong built arms and ran off into the distance. He knew flashes were still erupting from behind him, capturing his fleeting image. Sakura was still crying silently, staring up at Syaoran.
"What am I going to do now?" She murmured to herself. Burying her face into Syaoran's chest, and resting in his arms.
Her world was falling right in front of her eyes. She had no idea what to do! The world wasn't supposed to be involved in her decision. Making it herself was bad enough, but to ask to reporters questions. Does she want to admit the shame of being raped? Would she want to admit the fact that she had been lying for three months and had been married to a man that, in a sense, cheated on her? Did she want to admit that it was no other than Miaso who raped her?
Did she really want the world to know about her life?
She felt new tears form at the edges of her eyes. All she could do was cry, Syaoran was a fast runner, in a few minutes he reached her apartment building, and was escorting her up the elevator. He didn't put her down until they reached the apartment. Reluctantly, he stood her back to her feet. Sakura wiped the last bit of her tears from her face. She didn't look up at Syaoran. Sakura just unlocked the door and let herself in. She closed all her blinds, locked all the doors and windows, and turned on the radio.
Slowly, she moved towards her couch finally collapsing and crying. It wasn't silent, she was bawling like a baby who was just slapped awake. Syaoran looked helplessly at her. He realized there was nothing he could do or say to make her feel better. He didn't even know what else to do but pick her up into his arms and rock her slowly. She lifted her chin and kissed her gently.
"Don't worry," he whispered. "We'll figure this out, we've been through so much worse."
Sakura looked up at him wishing she could believe what he said, but she couldn't. Nothing was as bad as it was right now. The news would be spread quickly that Sakura Lee is with child, and considering an abortion.
"I don't know I just don't get it," Sakura mumbled. "Not only do I have to worry about whether I should kill this little thing inside me, but I have to worry about my fans reaction when they do. Damn, times like these I wish I wasn't so famous."
"Wouldn't have happened if you didn't run away," Syaoran teased, all realizing he said the wrong thing.
"SHUT UP!! YOU'RE THE DAMN REASON," Sakura screamed with rage, even Syaoran joking about that was annoying. "If you didn't have sex, OH MY GOD." Sakura took a minute to collect herself. "Sorry Syaoran, I get you're trying to humor me, but now isn't the right time."
"Sakura, whatever you need, I'll be right here," Syaoran's voice soothed her to her bone. But Sakura knew what she had to do.
"Syaoran, I need tonight alone, can you get an apartment?" She asked hopefully. 'I don't want to push him away, I just need to decide this alone.'
"Yeah sure Sakura, whatever you need," Syaoran smiled, heading for the door. "I love you, whatever you choose I'll be by your side, if you want to keep it, I can be the dad."
"Thank you Syaoran," Sakura smiled and ran up to him to give him a kiss. "I love you too."
Syaoran smiled, and walked out the door. Sakura smiled for about two seconds before collapsing on the coach. Tonight she had a long decision to make. She stepped into the bath, filling the tub with steamy, hot water, something to ease her aching body. She sighed and stepped in. It felt like a fantasy, a dream, a moment her life was calm. But rushes of reality stepped in. She had a decision to make. She knew this decision would be one to change her life. She would have to live with a feeling of guilt of killing off an innocent child, or live the rest of her life staring into the eyes of a baby that was conceived because of rape.
The bath calmed her soul, feeling totally calm, she stepped out. It was getting late. Sakura still hadn't made up her mind.......
'What do I do?' were her last thoughts before dozing off into sleep.
"HMM?" Sakura stirred awake slowly. "What time is it?"
"Noon," he replied. "Did you make your choice?"
"Kind of," Sakura sighed. "Let's just go to the doctor's office, and maybe it'll come to me."
"Alright," Syaoran smiled to comfort her frowning face. "It's going to be alright Sakura."
"Okay, lets go," Sakura gave Syaoran a slight little smile. She got dressed, and they were off to the doctors. Sakura was silent the whole way, however, she was reassured holding Syaoran's hand that everything would be alright.
Everything would be Alright........
Finally, they arrived at the doctors, as usually the stalker paparazzi were there. Sakura sighed, grasping onto Syaoran's hand.
"You ready?" He smiled.
"Yeah I am."
"Okay, the decisions yours."
Sakura paused.......holding her breath..........this was it.
"Is daddy home?" Sho smiled eagerly awaiting his father's return.
"He'll be home in a second," She smiled setting his plate.
FLASHBACK
Sakura had done it, she done it. She had gone through the procedure, and now was without child. The media was shocked, just as shocked as herself. As she stepped out the building, the media flooded her with questions. Slowly she brought herself to speak."Today I will be holding a press conference for you reporters, come to my apartment at 4 PM today please," She announced, her and Syaoran was off.
Sakura broke down into tears in the car.
Syaoran grabbed her hand, speaking softly, "You had to make a choice, you had to! That scum didn't give you a choice, and we can always start a family, a family of love with no rape."
Sakura smiled, "I know Syaoran, I know, I just have to get over this guilt."
He kissed her hand, and let her tears flow, she needed to get them out, she needed to.
LATER
"To all the media that is wondering why it is I am in this position I will explain it to you, as I owe it to the public," Sakura calmly announced. "Recently, I have become a huge hit in Tokyo, and everyone knows I came from no where. When I said I was single, I lied. I have been married to that man, Syaoran Li since I was 18. We were childhood sweethearts since I was in sixth grade. He cheated on me, or so I thought he did. So I ran off, and Tomoyo Daidouji told Jen Tawa about me. There my modeling began, and my fame took off. There was one problem though, a man lusted after my body. For reasons, I will not give his name. I thought he was a close friend, someone I could trust, and become friendly with. One night, he took me away from a club, and raped me. He raped me." Sakura's voice shook at this line.
"I withdrew away from work for a month, and decided to come back out. Slowly to figure out, I was a month late from my period. Syaoran re-entered my life. We talked about what he did, and I accepted him with my whole heart. I love him. I am Mrs. Sakura Kinomoto Li. He helped me with my decision, and encouraged me keeping it, but I chose otherwise. I am sorry to disappoint my fans because abortion is a serious topic. This wasn't the easiest decision, and I am still living with the grief, the guilt. Abortion was not something I chose to do, I was put into this position and I'm truly sorry." Tears slowly dropped from her face. "To the rapist, I want to say, I forgive you wherever you are now, I really forgive you. I don't hold grudges against you. I really don't. Please, get help."
Sakura was fully in tears now. Reporters were in awe, they couldn't believe an angel like Sakura had been raped.
"No questions please, I told the entire story." Sakura cried. Syaoran stood up to her, held her, and kissed her.
Pictures flashed, but this time it wasn't annoying, it was speaking the truth. Sakura and Syaoran's kissing picture made the front page of the entertainment section. The title read Super Model Sakura, Just Another Innocent Victim. Under the picture of the couple kissing read, "Childhood lovers reacquainted, ready to live a normal life."
Back to Present Time
"Sorry I'm late," Syaoran smiled
"DADDY!" Sho's bright brown eyes twinkled, resembling his fathers, as he ran to his father receiving a hug. Syaoran walked to Sakura and gave her a peck on the cheek.
"Eww, do you have to kiss mommy?" Sho teased in disgust.
"Yes, and when you get a girlfriend you'll be doing this too," Syaoran laughed as Sakura gave him a playful slap.
"Girls have cooties," Sho crossed his arms believing every word he had just said.
"I'm glad you made this choice," Syaoran whispered into Sakura's ear.
"I am too," She smiled. "Alright, lets give thanks and eat!"
"THANK YOU FOR THE FOOD!" and then the eating came.
Meanwhile outside, a dark brown haired man, standing next to a motorcycle starred at the house.
"Oh Sakura," the guy smirked, "Long time no see. But don't worry, I'll be seeing you soon."
He hopped onto the bike and revved off......
AN:WELL GUYS THAT'S THE END, THIS IS THE END. THIS IS OVER, I MIGHT CONTINUE IT BUT IT WOULD BE LIKE TWO CHAPTERS COMING IN LIKE I DON'T EVEN KNOW. HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT THANK YOU FOR READING. ONCE AGAIN IM REALLY SORRY FOR THE REALLY LONG UPDATE.