Chapter Three
Author's Note: This chapter contains a song fic from "Numb" by Linkin Park. Disclaimer: I do not own Numb. But I do own the fictional story that goes along with it, just to let you all know. Thank you.
Raven opened the door to her room and closed it slowly behind her. She looked around her room sadly. There were too many things in here. She would need a tow truck to hitch everything out of the Tower.
But where would she go? Back to Azrath? Where more sorrow would eventually consume her again? The Titan Tower was the first place she actually felt at home. No where, no one, had been this much like a family to her. Now her puzzle was falling apart because of her stupid mistake. They didn't even give her a chance to explain.
The Teen Titans had turned themselves against her. Beast Boy, he would never look at her the same way he had before ever again. She wanted to take up that knife and strike her flesh again to get rid of this pulsing pain. At least this time no one would be there to stop her, to care.
But she wouldn't be that stupid this time. She would have to forget Beast Boy, forget the Teen Titans ever existed. Yes, it would hurt. And it would surely take some time, years, maybe. But it would be worth the wait.
She walked over to her small desk and pulled out a piece of paper and a long, purple quill. She dipped the quill in her ink well and let her emotions take over in her writings.
Beast Boy was crying into his pillow. Robin was the worse person he had ever met before. He had torn away Terra, his first love, who he could never forget. But now his deepest love, Raven, he had pushed away as well.
But he didn't want to forget her. Forgetting her would be like forgetting about air. He could live without it near him all the time. She had saved his life. Did Robin not see that? He was willing to let him go at the first place, he didn't want to become Slade's partner again.
He looked up from his pillow to glance at the clock. In only seven hours Raven would be gone. All her belongings in her room must have been half gone by now. He rubbed his red eyes and got up from his bed. He decided to have one last time with Raven before she would leave.
He opened up the door and walked out into the hallway, not even bothering to close the door. He would have to walk through the lounge to get to Raven's room. Walking, he could hear Robin and Cyborg playing away on video games. How can they have so much fun, be so happy when he was about ready to jump off a cliff?
He walked into the lounge and tried to be as quiet as he could. He saw that it wasn't actually Robin and Cyborg playing video games, but actually yelling and arguing with each other. They were arguing about Raven, no surprise.
Robin caught a glance on Beast Boy, who was trying hard to avoid eye contact and was just staring down at the floor below him. Robin jumped the over the couch and landed in front of Beast Boy.
"Listen, I'm really sorry, Beast Boy," he said, "Really, I'm sorry I have to cut her loose...but she lied..."
"Don't bother," he said, "Usually you let us all decide before we expel someone from the group. But I guess since you've always been the 'leader', you have to take matters into your own hands, huh?"
"Beast Boy," Robin said calmly, "If there's anything I can do to make you feel better, please, tell me."
"There is."
"What?"
"Bring Raven back," he said, crossing his arms. Robin looked down at the ground. Beast Boy rolled his eyes, taking his one hand to push Robin away from him, "You don't have to answer that, I already know what you're going to say."
He continued to walk out of the lounge, into a darker hallway. He saw Starfire at Raven's door, screaming into it.
"Raven?" she said, "Raven, please come out and spend the last few hours with us?" she noticed Beast Boy approaching the door, "Oh, Beast Boy! I've been trying for twenty minutes now to get Raven to come out, but she isn't answering back."
Beast Boy walked up to the door and slightly knocked on it, "Raven? It's me, Beast Boy," there came no answer. He reached down to the doorknob and twisted it, "It's unlocked, should we go in?"
Starfire shrugged, "Only for a little while, she's probably not in the mood."
Beast Boy nodded as he pushed onto the door and looked into the room. Strange, everything seemed to be right into place, right as it always had been. Raven was supposed to pack everything, not leave it as it was. Everything seemed to be into place except one thing...Raven. She wasn't present in the room whatsoever.
"Raven?" Starfire said, walking in, followed by Beast Boy. She looked around the room, "Gee, her room is kind of...freaky...don't you think?"
Beast Boy laughed a little, "Well, she is Raven, though," he looked over at her desk, with a strange piece of paper sitting on it, "Hey, what's that?"
"What?" Starfire asked him. Beast Boy walked over to the desk and took up the piece of paper.
"This..." he said, "It's some sort of letter," he silently read the letter to himself, "Wait, no!"
"What is it?"
He handed the paper to her, "Read it," he said.
Starfire took up the paper and silently read it to herself as well. Her eyes bugged out a mile as she did, "No...she won't do this again...what if she..."
Beast Boy took the note, "She won't...I won't let her this time," he ran out of Raven's room to go show Cyborg the note, followed by Starfire.
Robin was sitting in his room, thinking. For some reason he felt selfish. He felt like a villain, someone who makes the innocent cry, who hurts people so badly. He always knew deep down inside he was slightly that way, but he never wanted to be.
Now he made Beast Boy cry, one of his very best friends. And Raven, well, it wasn't exactly himself who had made her cry, but she did shed a couple tears from him. But she had lied to him! She had actually lied to the Teen Titans! How many lies have she told them before? Maybe she was in cahoots with Slade this whole time. Yet, why did he feel so guilty? So wrong about everything?
Cyborg, Starfire, Beast Boy, they were all right. He didn't give Raven a chance to speak, a chance to explain. She always had a good explanation, but how can she have squiggled her way out of this one?
The facts? She lied about Slade and having him as her father. For what? Attention? He didn't know. But she showed affection for Beast Boy, there was no doubt that love she showed for him was a fake. She saved his life, cried for the first time for him. The way they held each other, that wasn't fake, that was real. She cried from Slade, when he had finally found out the truth about her father. How could that show guilt? How could she show so much emotion, something she had never done before, if it was all fake?
Robin gasped, realizing something. She lied for a certain reason! Something that could put herself in danger, maybe. She didn't deserve to be put off the Teen Titans! She deserved a second chance, a chance to explain this time!
He pulled his eRing to his mouth and held onto a button, "Titans, meet me in the lounge, hurry!" he said to the eRing. Then he slipped it back into his pocket and started off to the lounge.
Cyborg sat on the lounging couch, his feet up onto the armrest, his arms crossed, "What's the matter, Robin? You gonna suspend another person from the Teen Titans?"
Robin rolled his eyes, "You'll see, wait until Beast Boy and Star get here."
Cyborg shrugged, "Whatever, my man. You're the leader," he turned to himself and mumbled, "Unfortunately."
"I heard that!"
"And you're gonna pretend you didn't," Cyborg said, "Honestly, Robin, I suddenly lost my trust in you after what you did."
"Will you let it go!" Robin shouted to Cyborg, standing up. He heard Beast Boy and Starfire walk in and he whirled around in an instant, "Ah, good, you're here...listen."
"Wait!" Beast Boy said, holding up Raven's letter, "We've found..."
"No time for talk," he interrupted, "I've been thinking for a time in my room and I've come to a decision."
"But, Robin...look," Starfire took the letter from Beast Boy's hands and waved it in front of him, "We've found this in..."
"No time..."
"But Robin!"
"I've decided to take Raven back," everyone's jaw dropped, along with the paper that slipped from Starfire's hands. She fell to her knees and started crying. Robin smiled, seeing Starfire crying, "Those tears of joy?"
She sniffled, picking up the letter and thrusting it up to Robin, "You can't take her back, she's gone!"
Robin's eyes widened as he took up the letter and read it.
My dearest friends, the Teen Titans,
You gave me no time to explain why I have lied to you all. I will quickly explain, leaving out the details not to be known. From the start I met Slade, I knew he was trouble. Later I had found out he was working with my father. You remember that time I fought Doctor Light and walked away afterwards? I met Slade in that alley, and he threatened me for you guys to die if I did not follow along with his plans. I had to lie to you, to keep you all alive.
I know you probably will want me to come back and rejoin the Teen Titans. But I do not want to. I have realized people like myself are not meant to be a part of a team such as this. It is too good for me, and I was meant to be put in lower positions far from this one.
No, I am not going to kill myself, I hope...but I beg you to not come looking for me. I do not want to be found this time. I'm going to a place where no one can find me, I'm sure. I left you all my stuff as a memorial of me. I leave all my books to Starfire, I hope she will cherish them and remember me as I will to her. There's a stash of emergency power cells I've been keeping in my closet. I will leave them all to Cyborg, may the power be with you 100%. On the west wall on my room, there's a small button behind the painted portrait of myself. Push it and there will be rows and rows of weapons I will leave for Robin. May they be a good use to you.
Now for everything else that is left, I will leave to my love, Beast Boy. Anything you want, my clothes, my bed sheets, one of my spare cloaks, it's all yours. Do whatever you want with it, trash it, keep it, sell it...anything you desire will be fine with me.
I Love You All and Will Miss You,
Raven
Robin clenched the letter in his hands, "So she did have a good explanation for lying, Slade was threatening her...with us!"
Beast Boy nodded, "She lied to save us, to keep us all alive."
Starfire stood up from the ground, wiping her tears from her face, "Now she's gone."
"She can be miles from here," Cyborg said, crossing his arms. He sighed, taking his eRing and handing it to Robin, "It was nice being a part of the Teen Titans, Robin, my man. Good times, but I have to end it now. I'm quitting the Teen Titans."
Everyone watched as Cyborg started to walk out of the lounge. Beast Boy nodded, ripping his eRing from his shirt as well and handing it to Robin, "Wait up, Cy. I'm quitting too," he ran up to Cyborg and walked out with him.
Robin shook his head, looking at Starfire, who looked a little unsure of what to do, "What? You wanna leave too?"
Starfire looked down at the ground, "I don't know."
Robin grabbed her hands and pulled it to his chest, "Please don't, Star. I know what I did was wrong, and I'm sorry, I should have let her explain. But please don't go cold like them."
Starfire shook her head slowly, gently letting go of Robin, "I'm sorry, but if it means going cold, I'll go cold."
"No, Star!"
She took her eRing and gently handed it to him, "Goodbye, Robin," she slowly turned to walk out.
"Wait!" he said. Starfire slowly turned back, "I love you, Star, don't leave me. All those other titans I don't care if they leave. I just want you."
She shook her head, "I can only love a person who loves back all of me. My friends are a part of me as well. And if you don't love nor care for my friends as well as you will with me, then I cannot love you back," Robin looked down at the ground, a crystal tear falling down his cheek, "I'm sorry I have to go cold, Robin. Goodbye."
Robin looked up to see Starfire walk away, closing the lounge door behind her. He looked down at the four eRings in his hands. One, his own, and the other three, the ex-Teen Titan members. He raised the eRings above his head and threw them to the ground, smashing them into pieces on the tile floor. He fell to his knees.
"I am a villain, to drive my friends away," he said. The Teen Titans were no more.
Raven was sitting down in the alley. They would never find her here. It was too easy to look here. Sure, they would be far away in visual, but in the heart, they were always there. They should have found the letter by now, and if they cared, they'd be looking, like she had told them not to do. If they didn't, well, she didn't know what would they do. Cyborg said himself they would never abandon her. They did. Robin did.
She looked high above her where the moon was gleaming down on her. It was about midnight, she was supposed to stay in the Titan Tower for another six hours. But it would be a waste, just sitting there.
She got up from her sitting place and walked out onto the night. Who cares if they saw her. That habit...that habit was coming again.
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again
(Raven walks down the street of the city. A tear rolls down her cheek.)
You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again
(Robin is sitting in the lounge, the lights are off, and he's staring at the nightly city in front of him out the window. He covers his face and starts to cry loudly.)
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose
(Beast Boy and Cyborg are sitting at the tables of a small pizza place, sipping soda, and looking depressed.)
Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
(Starfire looks up at a billboard above her and sees a large picture of the Teen Titans.)
I don't know what's worth fighting for
(Starfire looks down from the billboard and starts to cry.)
Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright
(Raven's on looking the city below her, standing on top of the rooftop of a tall skyscraper. She closes her eyes and remembers a group hug with the Teen Titans, then opens her eyes and lets herself fall from the roof.)
So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit . . . tonight
(Raven's falling back first down into the ground, her eyes closed. People walking on the streets look up and panic at the sight of her falling and runs to get under her.)
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again
(Cyborg and Beast Boy are surrounded by news people and fans asking for autographs at the pizza table. They calmly get up and walk away together, away from the media.)
I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again
(Starfire stops crying and floats up to the billboard, angrily. She fires her attack and shoots lightening rods at the billboard, leaving a steaming hole in Robin's head. She breathes heavily.)
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose.
(Robin throws the table at the large window and smashes it.)
Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
(The large group of people catch Raven from her fall. She opens up her eyes, realizing she's been and becomes angered.)
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream
(She fights the people to let her go and runs away to another alley.)
I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean
(She rounds the alley and falls to the floor, clutching her arms, and crying.)
I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright
(Lights from sirens illuminate off from Starfire's face. She quickly flies away.)
So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit . . . tonight
(Robin runs out of the lounge and into the bathroom.)
I'll paint it on the walls Cause I'm the one at fault
(Raven wipes her tears away and sees that people are coming. She shakes her head and buries her head into her knees. Her whole body is thumping from the sobs.)
I'll never fight again And this is how it ends
(Cyborg and Beast Boy see that the media is still following them and shakes hands. They run separate ways.)
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream
(Starfire lands on top of a rooftop and sits there, her tears gleaming in the night.)
But now I have some clarity To show you what I mean
(Raven's body turns a black glow and disappears just as the mob of people reach her)
I don't know how I got this way
(Cyborg keeps running, looking back and seeing half the media still chasing him.)
I'll never be alright
(Beast Boy sees the media still following him and turns into a tiger and scares them away.)
So I'm breaking the habit
(Starfire hugs her knees and cries.)
I'm breaking the habit
(Raven reappears in Nevermore, where her all her 'sides' aren't smiling at all.)
I'm breaking the habit . . . tonight.
(Robin looks into the mirror into the bathroom and with a quick second, sees Slade as his reflection. He smashes the mirror with his fist and the mirror falls and reveals a black wall.)
To be continued...
Author's Note: This chapter contains a song fic from "Numb" by Linkin Park. Disclaimer: I do not own Numb. But I do own the fictional story that goes along with it, just to let you all know. Thank you.
Raven opened the door to her room and closed it slowly behind her. She looked around her room sadly. There were too many things in here. She would need a tow truck to hitch everything out of the Tower.
But where would she go? Back to Azrath? Where more sorrow would eventually consume her again? The Titan Tower was the first place she actually felt at home. No where, no one, had been this much like a family to her. Now her puzzle was falling apart because of her stupid mistake. They didn't even give her a chance to explain.
The Teen Titans had turned themselves against her. Beast Boy, he would never look at her the same way he had before ever again. She wanted to take up that knife and strike her flesh again to get rid of this pulsing pain. At least this time no one would be there to stop her, to care.
But she wouldn't be that stupid this time. She would have to forget Beast Boy, forget the Teen Titans ever existed. Yes, it would hurt. And it would surely take some time, years, maybe. But it would be worth the wait.
She walked over to her small desk and pulled out a piece of paper and a long, purple quill. She dipped the quill in her ink well and let her emotions take over in her writings.
Beast Boy was crying into his pillow. Robin was the worse person he had ever met before. He had torn away Terra, his first love, who he could never forget. But now his deepest love, Raven, he had pushed away as well.
But he didn't want to forget her. Forgetting her would be like forgetting about air. He could live without it near him all the time. She had saved his life. Did Robin not see that? He was willing to let him go at the first place, he didn't want to become Slade's partner again.
He looked up from his pillow to glance at the clock. In only seven hours Raven would be gone. All her belongings in her room must have been half gone by now. He rubbed his red eyes and got up from his bed. He decided to have one last time with Raven before she would leave.
He opened up the door and walked out into the hallway, not even bothering to close the door. He would have to walk through the lounge to get to Raven's room. Walking, he could hear Robin and Cyborg playing away on video games. How can they have so much fun, be so happy when he was about ready to jump off a cliff?
He walked into the lounge and tried to be as quiet as he could. He saw that it wasn't actually Robin and Cyborg playing video games, but actually yelling and arguing with each other. They were arguing about Raven, no surprise.
Robin caught a glance on Beast Boy, who was trying hard to avoid eye contact and was just staring down at the floor below him. Robin jumped the over the couch and landed in front of Beast Boy.
"Listen, I'm really sorry, Beast Boy," he said, "Really, I'm sorry I have to cut her loose...but she lied..."
"Don't bother," he said, "Usually you let us all decide before we expel someone from the group. But I guess since you've always been the 'leader', you have to take matters into your own hands, huh?"
"Beast Boy," Robin said calmly, "If there's anything I can do to make you feel better, please, tell me."
"There is."
"What?"
"Bring Raven back," he said, crossing his arms. Robin looked down at the ground. Beast Boy rolled his eyes, taking his one hand to push Robin away from him, "You don't have to answer that, I already know what you're going to say."
He continued to walk out of the lounge, into a darker hallway. He saw Starfire at Raven's door, screaming into it.
"Raven?" she said, "Raven, please come out and spend the last few hours with us?" she noticed Beast Boy approaching the door, "Oh, Beast Boy! I've been trying for twenty minutes now to get Raven to come out, but she isn't answering back."
Beast Boy walked up to the door and slightly knocked on it, "Raven? It's me, Beast Boy," there came no answer. He reached down to the doorknob and twisted it, "It's unlocked, should we go in?"
Starfire shrugged, "Only for a little while, she's probably not in the mood."
Beast Boy nodded as he pushed onto the door and looked into the room. Strange, everything seemed to be right into place, right as it always had been. Raven was supposed to pack everything, not leave it as it was. Everything seemed to be into place except one thing...Raven. She wasn't present in the room whatsoever.
"Raven?" Starfire said, walking in, followed by Beast Boy. She looked around the room, "Gee, her room is kind of...freaky...don't you think?"
Beast Boy laughed a little, "Well, she is Raven, though," he looked over at her desk, with a strange piece of paper sitting on it, "Hey, what's that?"
"What?" Starfire asked him. Beast Boy walked over to the desk and took up the piece of paper.
"This..." he said, "It's some sort of letter," he silently read the letter to himself, "Wait, no!"
"What is it?"
He handed the paper to her, "Read it," he said.
Starfire took up the paper and silently read it to herself as well. Her eyes bugged out a mile as she did, "No...she won't do this again...what if she..."
Beast Boy took the note, "She won't...I won't let her this time," he ran out of Raven's room to go show Cyborg the note, followed by Starfire.
Robin was sitting in his room, thinking. For some reason he felt selfish. He felt like a villain, someone who makes the innocent cry, who hurts people so badly. He always knew deep down inside he was slightly that way, but he never wanted to be.
Now he made Beast Boy cry, one of his very best friends. And Raven, well, it wasn't exactly himself who had made her cry, but she did shed a couple tears from him. But she had lied to him! She had actually lied to the Teen Titans! How many lies have she told them before? Maybe she was in cahoots with Slade this whole time. Yet, why did he feel so guilty? So wrong about everything?
Cyborg, Starfire, Beast Boy, they were all right. He didn't give Raven a chance to speak, a chance to explain. She always had a good explanation, but how can she have squiggled her way out of this one?
The facts? She lied about Slade and having him as her father. For what? Attention? He didn't know. But she showed affection for Beast Boy, there was no doubt that love she showed for him was a fake. She saved his life, cried for the first time for him. The way they held each other, that wasn't fake, that was real. She cried from Slade, when he had finally found out the truth about her father. How could that show guilt? How could she show so much emotion, something she had never done before, if it was all fake?
Robin gasped, realizing something. She lied for a certain reason! Something that could put herself in danger, maybe. She didn't deserve to be put off the Teen Titans! She deserved a second chance, a chance to explain this time!
He pulled his eRing to his mouth and held onto a button, "Titans, meet me in the lounge, hurry!" he said to the eRing. Then he slipped it back into his pocket and started off to the lounge.
Cyborg sat on the lounging couch, his feet up onto the armrest, his arms crossed, "What's the matter, Robin? You gonna suspend another person from the Teen Titans?"
Robin rolled his eyes, "You'll see, wait until Beast Boy and Star get here."
Cyborg shrugged, "Whatever, my man. You're the leader," he turned to himself and mumbled, "Unfortunately."
"I heard that!"
"And you're gonna pretend you didn't," Cyborg said, "Honestly, Robin, I suddenly lost my trust in you after what you did."
"Will you let it go!" Robin shouted to Cyborg, standing up. He heard Beast Boy and Starfire walk in and he whirled around in an instant, "Ah, good, you're here...listen."
"Wait!" Beast Boy said, holding up Raven's letter, "We've found..."
"No time for talk," he interrupted, "I've been thinking for a time in my room and I've come to a decision."
"But, Robin...look," Starfire took the letter from Beast Boy's hands and waved it in front of him, "We've found this in..."
"No time..."
"But Robin!"
"I've decided to take Raven back," everyone's jaw dropped, along with the paper that slipped from Starfire's hands. She fell to her knees and started crying. Robin smiled, seeing Starfire crying, "Those tears of joy?"
She sniffled, picking up the letter and thrusting it up to Robin, "You can't take her back, she's gone!"
Robin's eyes widened as he took up the letter and read it.
My dearest friends, the Teen Titans,
You gave me no time to explain why I have lied to you all. I will quickly explain, leaving out the details not to be known. From the start I met Slade, I knew he was trouble. Later I had found out he was working with my father. You remember that time I fought Doctor Light and walked away afterwards? I met Slade in that alley, and he threatened me for you guys to die if I did not follow along with his plans. I had to lie to you, to keep you all alive.
I know you probably will want me to come back and rejoin the Teen Titans. But I do not want to. I have realized people like myself are not meant to be a part of a team such as this. It is too good for me, and I was meant to be put in lower positions far from this one.
No, I am not going to kill myself, I hope...but I beg you to not come looking for me. I do not want to be found this time. I'm going to a place where no one can find me, I'm sure. I left you all my stuff as a memorial of me. I leave all my books to Starfire, I hope she will cherish them and remember me as I will to her. There's a stash of emergency power cells I've been keeping in my closet. I will leave them all to Cyborg, may the power be with you 100%. On the west wall on my room, there's a small button behind the painted portrait of myself. Push it and there will be rows and rows of weapons I will leave for Robin. May they be a good use to you.
Now for everything else that is left, I will leave to my love, Beast Boy. Anything you want, my clothes, my bed sheets, one of my spare cloaks, it's all yours. Do whatever you want with it, trash it, keep it, sell it...anything you desire will be fine with me.
I Love You All and Will Miss You,
Raven
Robin clenched the letter in his hands, "So she did have a good explanation for lying, Slade was threatening her...with us!"
Beast Boy nodded, "She lied to save us, to keep us all alive."
Starfire stood up from the ground, wiping her tears from her face, "Now she's gone."
"She can be miles from here," Cyborg said, crossing his arms. He sighed, taking his eRing and handing it to Robin, "It was nice being a part of the Teen Titans, Robin, my man. Good times, but I have to end it now. I'm quitting the Teen Titans."
Everyone watched as Cyborg started to walk out of the lounge. Beast Boy nodded, ripping his eRing from his shirt as well and handing it to Robin, "Wait up, Cy. I'm quitting too," he ran up to Cyborg and walked out with him.
Robin shook his head, looking at Starfire, who looked a little unsure of what to do, "What? You wanna leave too?"
Starfire looked down at the ground, "I don't know."
Robin grabbed her hands and pulled it to his chest, "Please don't, Star. I know what I did was wrong, and I'm sorry, I should have let her explain. But please don't go cold like them."
Starfire shook her head slowly, gently letting go of Robin, "I'm sorry, but if it means going cold, I'll go cold."
"No, Star!"
She took her eRing and gently handed it to him, "Goodbye, Robin," she slowly turned to walk out.
"Wait!" he said. Starfire slowly turned back, "I love you, Star, don't leave me. All those other titans I don't care if they leave. I just want you."
She shook her head, "I can only love a person who loves back all of me. My friends are a part of me as well. And if you don't love nor care for my friends as well as you will with me, then I cannot love you back," Robin looked down at the ground, a crystal tear falling down his cheek, "I'm sorry I have to go cold, Robin. Goodbye."
Robin looked up to see Starfire walk away, closing the lounge door behind her. He looked down at the four eRings in his hands. One, his own, and the other three, the ex-Teen Titan members. He raised the eRings above his head and threw them to the ground, smashing them into pieces on the tile floor. He fell to his knees.
"I am a villain, to drive my friends away," he said. The Teen Titans were no more.
Raven was sitting down in the alley. They would never find her here. It was too easy to look here. Sure, they would be far away in visual, but in the heart, they were always there. They should have found the letter by now, and if they cared, they'd be looking, like she had told them not to do. If they didn't, well, she didn't know what would they do. Cyborg said himself they would never abandon her. They did. Robin did.
She looked high above her where the moon was gleaming down on her. It was about midnight, she was supposed to stay in the Titan Tower for another six hours. But it would be a waste, just sitting there.
She got up from her sitting place and walked out onto the night. Who cares if they saw her. That habit...that habit was coming again.
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again
(Raven walks down the street of the city. A tear rolls down her cheek.)
You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again
(Robin is sitting in the lounge, the lights are off, and he's staring at the nightly city in front of him out the window. He covers his face and starts to cry loudly.)
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose
(Beast Boy and Cyborg are sitting at the tables of a small pizza place, sipping soda, and looking depressed.)
Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
(Starfire looks up at a billboard above her and sees a large picture of the Teen Titans.)
I don't know what's worth fighting for
(Starfire looks down from the billboard and starts to cry.)
Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright
(Raven's on looking the city below her, standing on top of the rooftop of a tall skyscraper. She closes her eyes and remembers a group hug with the Teen Titans, then opens her eyes and lets herself fall from the roof.)
So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit . . . tonight
(Raven's falling back first down into the ground, her eyes closed. People walking on the streets look up and panic at the sight of her falling and runs to get under her.)
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again
(Cyborg and Beast Boy are surrounded by news people and fans asking for autographs at the pizza table. They calmly get up and walk away together, away from the media.)
I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again
(Starfire stops crying and floats up to the billboard, angrily. She fires her attack and shoots lightening rods at the billboard, leaving a steaming hole in Robin's head. She breathes heavily.)
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose.
(Robin throws the table at the large window and smashes it.)
Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
(The large group of people catch Raven from her fall. She opens up her eyes, realizing she's been and becomes angered.)
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream
(She fights the people to let her go and runs away to another alley.)
I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean
(She rounds the alley and falls to the floor, clutching her arms, and crying.)
I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright
(Lights from sirens illuminate off from Starfire's face. She quickly flies away.)
So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit . . . tonight
(Robin runs out of the lounge and into the bathroom.)
I'll paint it on the walls Cause I'm the one at fault
(Raven wipes her tears away and sees that people are coming. She shakes her head and buries her head into her knees. Her whole body is thumping from the sobs.)
I'll never fight again And this is how it ends
(Cyborg and Beast Boy see that the media is still following them and shakes hands. They run separate ways.)
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream
(Starfire lands on top of a rooftop and sits there, her tears gleaming in the night.)
But now I have some clarity To show you what I mean
(Raven's body turns a black glow and disappears just as the mob of people reach her)
I don't know how I got this way
(Cyborg keeps running, looking back and seeing half the media still chasing him.)
I'll never be alright
(Beast Boy sees the media still following him and turns into a tiger and scares them away.)
So I'm breaking the habit
(Starfire hugs her knees and cries.)
I'm breaking the habit
(Raven reappears in Nevermore, where her all her 'sides' aren't smiling at all.)
I'm breaking the habit . . . tonight.
(Robin looks into the mirror into the bathroom and with a quick second, sees Slade as his reflection. He smashes the mirror with his fist and the mirror falls and reveals a black wall.)
To be continued...