Title: Family Squared Author: Serendipity Summary: Multiple POV, What happens next Dedicated to Kathy I don't own them.

Teal'c POV

I must call ColonelO'Neill.

"ColonelO'Neill."

"T, how's Daniel?"

"He is the reason I am calling."

"What's wrong?" He pauses, "Well besides what...."

"DanielJackson seems to be carrying a lot of guilt for DoctorFraiser on his own."

"I think we all are T, Carter is doing the same. It seems that Doc told Carter that she had a very bad feeling about going through the gate."

"I see."

"Yeah, she has been in her room since we got here."

"What should we do O'Neill?"

"Just what we are doing T, there is not much more we can do."

Jack's POV

I had a feeling Daniel was going to slip into this guilt pattern. I have been there all too many times.

Times when I thought I was going to lose Carter...Sam... and have never told her...anything.

It's not a happy feeling at all.

I remember when Jolinar had died for her, when they were rolling her...us into the infirmary... that was one of the times I actually thought I lost her. I cried then.

I know how this feels.

And there is nothing more we can do that we aren't doing now for him... or Sam for that matter.

I am going through my own guilt, as I sit here and remember all the times I gave Doc...Janet a hard time. That was umm...every time I was in the infirmary for one reason or another. I was just trying to make her life harder.

I don't know why I ever did that.

I am so sorry Janet.

We need you here, I need you to come back.

For Sam's sake and Daniel's.

But for me too.

You are defiantly one of my heroes.

How are we ever going to go with this war, this life without you?

The early morning sun is starting to stream in through her curtains. I stayed like she asked me too.

Now I don't know if I can go back to being alone at home.... But that's a whole different thought, and one that's not meant for now.

Last night she cried to sleep again, and I held her tight, as if I could will strength to go from me to her though a simple touch.

I woke up several times in the night, yes I was having nightmares.

Not just of Janet passing right in front of my eyes, but of Daniel dyeing instead of me or Sam.

The c old sweat made me shiver in the warm night. I was hoping it wouldn't wake Sam.

She really needs to sleep.

But it didn't work out that way. She slowly rolled over and looked at me.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing go back to sleep."

"Nightmare?" She asks quietly.

"Yeah."

"Want to talk about it?"

"Not right now, but I do."

"Okay."

A few minutes later she leans in closer and goes back to sleep.

Needless to say I didn't make it back to sleep. Thank god it wasn't as early as I thought it was, so I didn't lose that much.

Today is going to be a really rough day for all of us.

What I wouldn't do right now for more...but right now, this is more than I could ever think of... to have Sam here with me, like this.

Even if the timing SUCKS.

I run a finger down her arm...I really don't want to wake her, but I just need to do this one little thing.

Making sure she is real.

That I am not alone.

I can't be alone anymore.

I don't want to be alone anymore.

And that's the last thing that Janet has taught me.

I don't want to wake her up yet, so I move my hand away and snuggle in closer to her...whispering what I should have told her so long ago.

I feel her move against me and stretch slightly.

Wow.

"Humm."

"Morning." I say to her as I look down slowly.

"Is it morning already?"

"It is." I am dreading this day.

I wish it was all a bad, bad dream.

"It's not a dream, this is the day?"

"I am afraid its not."

She looks up at me, "A dream that is."

"I don't know if I can do this Jack."

"I will be here for you, I won't leave your side."

"I miss her."

"Me too."

Cassie's POV

Today is the day. I have to bury the second mother I have had.

God why me, what have I done to deserve this?

I know I haven't been that bad of a kid to have this brought upon me. I know it sounds childish, but "I WANT MY MOMMY"

There is no going back, no saving her. I don't have a mom any more.

I have no one.

I know its true and its not.

There are a lot of people who love me, but I want a mom.

And a dad.

But I don't think its ever going to happen again.

God why cant I stop crying long enough to get into the shower?

I can't see!

URGHHHHH!!!!

I just want to scream, cry out, punch something!

Life is SOOO not fair!

Damn I think I woke up Sam, I hear her moving around in her room.

Yup, I did.

"Cassie?"

"Yeah" I say all teary eyed and sad.

"Are you okay?"

She walks into my room (so as it is anyway) and I take a good look at her. She too has been crying, and is as unsure about what to do next as I am.

She lost a sister.

"No Sam."

"Neither am I." She responds, and I look around her to see Uncle Jack leaning up against the door frame.

"I want my mom back Sam, can you do that for me?" I ask. Knowing it can't come true, but I want to ask.

"No honey I can't." She's crying again, we both are.

"Can you Uncle Jack?"

He doesn't say anything, but I can see him shaking his head 'no'.

"What did I do wrong? Was I that bad of a kid Sam?"

"Oh no, you didn't do anything Cassie."

"None of this is your fault Cassie." Jack says from behind us. "It's mine Cassie, your mom told me she had some bad feelings about going through the gate." Sam tells me.

"And you let her?" I yell at her.

"How could you let her? You know my mom's instincts are good, if she didn't want to go, why didn't you stop her?" I cry out!

Jack moves to stand next to Sam, but she won't have any of it and pushes away from me and him and runs out the door to the bathroom.

"Cassie, this is not Sam's fault. Your mom had a job to do, and she did it."

I look down at my hands, in a way I know its not Sam's fault, but I want to blame someone.... I am just so lost.

"Sam, is feeling a great deal of guilt right now, because she thinks it is her fault. She did try to get Janet to stay back here, but she wouldn't hear of it."

She tried to make her stay here?

Oh no!

"She came to me, went to Hammond...Cassie she did try."

"Oh god!"