A/N:Thanks to Piper+leo4eva, lil-whitelighter111488, gryfindor620, Magical
Princess, little kid, Karma911, JeanPiper and Cocoa for reviewing the last
chapter. Sorry this is later than both you guys and I wanted but for
various reasons (including minor writers block) this took a while to come.
Hope you like it...
*Chapter 6*
I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
******
*May 18th 2015*
~Phoebe~
I stood in the cool dark room-I stood in front of the plaque that read "Prudence Halliwell 1971-2001" , such simple words that can't do justice to the woman they represent. Or the life she left behind. It's like her whole life is represented by that small dash between numbers and it doesn't seem fair. How can a small line symbolize so much? I let my hand run gently over the cool, hard surface and that's when I knew she was there. I felt her looking at me at that exact moment. She could've been there longer- I don't know, but that was when I knew.
Before any apprehension or caution could stop me, I turned around slowly. And I saw her...for the first time in 14 years I saw Piper. The embodiment of everything I'd been running away from. And at that instant I knew how much hurt I had caused her. I saw the pain in her eyes. But I saw the love too, and I was instantly sorry and relieved at the same. Because, even though I was unbelievably sadden for causing her so much pain, that love meant that she cared; that she could forgive.
I didn't know what to say, and I knew she was waiting for me to say or do something-anything, so I said the first thing that made its way out of my mouth. Only when it was said, did I realize how true it was...that I felt and believed it with everything I knew.
"I'm sorry"
-x-
~Piper~
Sorry! She's sorry. I know that. How could I not. I don't need her to tell me that, I need to know why she did what she did.
"Why did you do it?" I asked
"What?!" the confusion was evident on her face. She didn't expect me to be so direct. Neither did I.
"Why did you leave?" The tone of my voice sounded strange- emotionless and flat. It was curious if anything. It didn't sound how I was feeling. "Why did you go after Prue died?"
"I was angry. I was angry at her for dying, at Them for letting her, at evil for killing her and at myself for not being there to help her. In one day I nearly lost both my sisters and it didn't feel fair. Magic took her away-like it took mom away. I didn't want that to happen to me too, so I left. I took myself away."
"Okay" I'd heard enough. I turned and left. I wanted her to see the back of somebody for once.
-x-
~Phoebe~
"Okay"? Is that all she could say. Shouldn't she be angry at me, screaming and shouting at me? I raced after her. I caught up with her outside and grabbed a hold of her arm. Her hair fanned out around her as her body spun around. She stared right at me-her face a muddle of emotions; her eyes large and shining.
"You just don't get it do you?" She sounded genuinely amazed "I did lose two sisters because of that day, Phoebe. It isn't fair, not least because I couldn't understand why. And that hurt me more than you will ever understand." She turned and walked away again. I was upset to learn just how much pain I'd caused. She was almost at her car before I spoke again. My voice was thick with all the emotion I'd buried for the last fourteen years. And with all the emotion I was feeling now.
"Then help me. I want to understand."
She stopped and looked at me. She looked for I don't know how long-it could have been minutes, it could have been seconds. Then, slowly, she nodded her head. The I realized that I couldn't talk to her yet.
"I'm sorry, I can't now though. I have to pick up my...my daughter Lara."
She didn't look as shocked as I thought she should. Maybe she knew me better than I let myself remember.
"You know where I'll be," and with that she drove away. As I was left standing, knowing that I had missed a huge part of my life and hating myself for it, and also knowing that somehow I was going to have to explain this whole thing to Lara.
-x-
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A/N:Lyrics for this chapter are from Angels or Devils by Dishwalla. Lyrics for last chapter (forgot to say last time) were from Anchor by Lifehouse.
A/N2:for those of you who follow "Accident Exposure", I'm having the same difficulties with that one that I was having with this. I'm working on it just it is taking longer than usual for some reason. Sorry. And for those of you who don't read it...give it a try please.
Please Review!! It makes me happy.
*Chapter 6*
I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
******
*May 18th 2015*
~Phoebe~
I stood in the cool dark room-I stood in front of the plaque that read "Prudence Halliwell 1971-2001" , such simple words that can't do justice to the woman they represent. Or the life she left behind. It's like her whole life is represented by that small dash between numbers and it doesn't seem fair. How can a small line symbolize so much? I let my hand run gently over the cool, hard surface and that's when I knew she was there. I felt her looking at me at that exact moment. She could've been there longer- I don't know, but that was when I knew.
Before any apprehension or caution could stop me, I turned around slowly. And I saw her...for the first time in 14 years I saw Piper. The embodiment of everything I'd been running away from. And at that instant I knew how much hurt I had caused her. I saw the pain in her eyes. But I saw the love too, and I was instantly sorry and relieved at the same. Because, even though I was unbelievably sadden for causing her so much pain, that love meant that she cared; that she could forgive.
I didn't know what to say, and I knew she was waiting for me to say or do something-anything, so I said the first thing that made its way out of my mouth. Only when it was said, did I realize how true it was...that I felt and believed it with everything I knew.
"I'm sorry"
-x-
~Piper~
Sorry! She's sorry. I know that. How could I not. I don't need her to tell me that, I need to know why she did what she did.
"Why did you do it?" I asked
"What?!" the confusion was evident on her face. She didn't expect me to be so direct. Neither did I.
"Why did you leave?" The tone of my voice sounded strange- emotionless and flat. It was curious if anything. It didn't sound how I was feeling. "Why did you go after Prue died?"
"I was angry. I was angry at her for dying, at Them for letting her, at evil for killing her and at myself for not being there to help her. In one day I nearly lost both my sisters and it didn't feel fair. Magic took her away-like it took mom away. I didn't want that to happen to me too, so I left. I took myself away."
"Okay" I'd heard enough. I turned and left. I wanted her to see the back of somebody for once.
-x-
~Phoebe~
"Okay"? Is that all she could say. Shouldn't she be angry at me, screaming and shouting at me? I raced after her. I caught up with her outside and grabbed a hold of her arm. Her hair fanned out around her as her body spun around. She stared right at me-her face a muddle of emotions; her eyes large and shining.
"You just don't get it do you?" She sounded genuinely amazed "I did lose two sisters because of that day, Phoebe. It isn't fair, not least because I couldn't understand why. And that hurt me more than you will ever understand." She turned and walked away again. I was upset to learn just how much pain I'd caused. She was almost at her car before I spoke again. My voice was thick with all the emotion I'd buried for the last fourteen years. And with all the emotion I was feeling now.
"Then help me. I want to understand."
She stopped and looked at me. She looked for I don't know how long-it could have been minutes, it could have been seconds. Then, slowly, she nodded her head. The I realized that I couldn't talk to her yet.
"I'm sorry, I can't now though. I have to pick up my...my daughter Lara."
She didn't look as shocked as I thought she should. Maybe she knew me better than I let myself remember.
"You know where I'll be," and with that she drove away. As I was left standing, knowing that I had missed a huge part of my life and hating myself for it, and also knowing that somehow I was going to have to explain this whole thing to Lara.
-x-
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A/N:Lyrics for this chapter are from Angels or Devils by Dishwalla. Lyrics for last chapter (forgot to say last time) were from Anchor by Lifehouse.
A/N2:for those of you who follow "Accident Exposure", I'm having the same difficulties with that one that I was having with this. I'm working on it just it is taking longer than usual for some reason. Sorry. And for those of you who don't read it...give it a try please.
Please Review!! It makes me happy.